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PAST | Jisung and Minho are 18 years old (and they grow over time)
After checking his surroundings Jisung spoke “There is no one else around but us.” They were currently far from their homes, at a completely different location.
Since Minho had an extremely conservative and strict family, meeting in public was a big risk for them. For this reason, they had chosen a quieter less conspicuous part of the city.
Minho, unable to hide his concern said “I’m still not sure about this, Sungie.” Upon this, as Jisung slowly separated their intertwined hands and brought them back to their former positions, he didn't want to insist further to Minho. He could understand his uneasiness.
Both putting their hands in their pockets, they started walking side by side again in the empty park. The silence was uncomfortable, even strange at one point. Normally both of them talked constantly, sometimes they didn't even know what it was to be silent.
After a while, Jisung broke the silence “We need to make our university preference ranking properly so we can go to the same university and move into a house together.”
Minho confirmed him by nodding his head “Yes. Also we aren't very good in practice exams either. We must change our study routine to realize what we want.” His face fell “I don't like the fact that our grades have dropped this much all of a sudden.”
Jisung asked with a slight whine “Do you think we can seriously raise our net scores by the end of the year?’’ Minho remained silent for a while. After weighing Jisung’s question, he answered with all his logic “To be realistic, our grades are actually good. But if we want to enter the same university, we must do the best we can and add everything we can to ourselves.”
This answer confused Jisung “I couldn't understand if we are good or bad.” he said with a surprised expression. Minho laughed and lightly tapped the back of Jisung’s neck “Even if our grades drop, we are still among the best in the school, Jisung. Do you think we are bad?”
Jisung, not finding this response very satisfying said “But what is important is our situation across the country.” Minho wanted to mess with him a little. “You are stressing too much, Sungie. After all, your future job will be working as a cashier at B-102.” he said in a joking tone.
Jisung frowned, looked at Minho sharply and raised his fist “I didn't know punching bags had the ability to speak.” Minho immediately raised his hands in the air as if surrendering “I was joking, doctor.” he said.
As Jisung lowered his fist, he placed a small expression of victory on his face. Then he spoke in a confident manner “If I can't get into medical faculty, I’ll write one of the sports departments. Thus I can work as a licensed athlete alongside my father in the future.”
Actually, Jisung had the capacity to do this easily. He was quite good at combat sports. It was as if he had a natural talent, he was grasping everything quickly.
Minho asked with a slight confusion “Can't you be a licensed athlete right now? After all you have rankings.’’ Jisung replied shrugging his shoulders “Unfortunately the rankings I received aren't enough for the board to accept me as a professional.”
Fixing his gaze on Minho’s eyes, he continued “Moreover being an athlete when there is medicine is a bit... Honestly I don't want to get beaten up constantly. After all I will encounter people who are much better and stronger than me.”
Minho, putting one hand on Jisung’s shoulder said “If you were a boxer I could have been your assistant.” he said ‘’What a big loss though.’’ Jisung replied smirking “What a sweet dream. But if I were a boxer the only thing you could be would be a punching bag.”
Minho, pushing him lightly whined “As if I am very different right now. Even when joking sometimes you hit so hard that my pain doesn't go away for days.” Jisung immediately defended himself “I am just trying to teach you what I know. I also became someone’s punching bag while learning these sports.”
Minho spoke with fake disappointment “You are a quite bad teacher.” Then turning his gaze to the road he added “Go find yourself another assistant... Excuse me, punching bag, Sungie. I will be an engineer and design things to keep humanity away from you.”
While Minho and Jisung were pushing and shoving each other, Hangum and the girl next to her continued to follow them silently from behind with their phones pointed at them.
The girl next to Hangum whispered “Are you really sure about this?” Hangum replied with an extremely serious expression “I have never been so sure of anything before.” Her tone of voice was also sharp and cold like her manner.
The girl asked curiously “Why are you doing this? Are you in love with one of them?” Hangum spoke with disgust wrinkling her face “No. But I wish it were so.”
This answer increased the girl’s curiosity even more “Then what? What will taking their photos gain you?” Hangum took a deep breath in the face of endless questions. She remained silent ignoring her friend.
At that moment, Minho and Jisung had gotten tired of walking and decided to take a breath by sitting under a tree. Hangum, pulling the friend next to her sharply by the arm, quickly dragged her behind a bush. They both hid there.
The girl couldn't take it anymore. She whispered with a serious expression “Will you tell me now Hangum? Or I am going.” Hangum frowned first. Then the sharpness on her face dissipated for a moment and she started speaking with despair “Do you see that mushroom head?”
The girl, turning her eyes onto the young couple, asked “Is that the friend you mentioned on the road?” Hangum nodded her head as if confirming “Yes. I learned something very big about him a month ago.” The girl, turning her gaze back to Hangum’s face and said “And?”
Hangum started explaining while looking away “Jisung has been the real reason I have been apart from my father all this time.” She breathed in and out loudly indicating her distress “In the past my father was having relationships with both my mother and Jisung’s mother at the same time. He couldn't give up on either of them.”
The girl not fully grasping what she heard asked “Well what does this have to do with Jisung?” Hangum’s voice hardened noticeably “Wait for me to finish what I am going to tell.” The girl rolled her eyes but drew an invisible zipper on her mouth without objecting.
Hangum’s anger filled gaze shifted back to Jisung “When my mother learned she was pregnant she was about to enter the fourth month of her pregnancy.” She was almost tearing Jisung apart with her gaze “The moment my father learned this he wanted to marry my mother. But my mother’s pregnancy was difficult. Therefore they decided to have the wedding after I was born.”
When she felt a contraction in her stomach she turned her gaze back to her friend “When I reached the seventh month, Jisung’s mother told my father that she was in the third month of her pregnancy.” she laughed with disgust due to her nerves breaking down “Meaning my father continued to cheat on her while making marriage plans with my mother. But this isn't the real funny part.”
Turning her gaze once more to Jisung, she continued “When my father learned he was going to have a son he ignored me and my mother and married Jisung’s mother in a hurry. Like a joke...” The girl asked hesitantly “When did your mother learn this?”
After Hangum paused for a few seconds “My shameless father explained everything in full detail to my mother a week after he got married. He said he still loved her very much.” Her gaze wandered over Jisung who was reading a book silently with Minho.
Then she lowered her voice a little “Because my mother is naive she believed him and forgave him. They continued meeting. I was born, their secret relationship lasted a few more months. Then Jisung was born and my father cut all ties with my mother.”
She squeezed the grass under her hand “My mother might be at fault but she is an honorable woman. She didn't beg my father to come back, nor did she reveal the secret relationship.” Turning her gaze back to her friend “She had comforted me for years saying your father is abroad. Yet my father was with his other family at that time.”
A dark smirk appeared on her face “But do you know, after all these things he didn't give them peace either. While Jisung’s mother was seeing violence, Jisung also lost all his value in the eyes of our very dear father after the age of two.”
The girl crushed under the weight of what she heard asked “What about Jisung? Does he know these?” Hangum replied without hesitation “He doesn't know we are siblings. And let him not know. Seven years ago my father said i am bored of the noise and fighting and left them to return to us.”
The girl giving in to her curiosity asked another question ‘’Does Jisung’s mother know then?” Hangum replied while shaking her head “According to what my mother told she still doesn't know. Because if she knew she would want him to stay away from me the moment she learned I was friends with Jisung. The poor woman doesn't even know she's a mistress."
While the girl was trying to settle what was told in her mind, Hangum added with disgust “The sucker lived for years thinking his real father was his stepfather.” then she laughed in a low voice.
The girl caught up in the confusion of events asked another question “Why don't you reveal this? This creates the chaos you want.” Hangum replied pouting her lips “Because if I do this my father might leave us again. Moreover when he drinks a lot he still tries to reach Jisung’s mother.”
Even though the girl had thoughts about how low the man was she didn't voice them. “So,” she said in a cautious voice “are you trying to take revenge on Jisung for growing up without a father? Did I understand correctly?”
As Hangum nodded her head slowly “Yes. The reason I remained fatherless for eleven years is Jisung’s existence.” she said “I have been in a turbulent life because of my father for years. But Jisung... He found himself a new and good father and is happy. I hate that he is happy.”
The girl felt sorry for Jisung deep down. He had no fault in this story. He was an innocent victim unaware of anything who had to pay the price for his father’s sins.
At that moment she also asked that question stuck in her mind “Did he never suspect your surname? After all you carry the same surname as his biological father.”
The girl’s question caused Hangum to get angry “You asked too many questions!” she snapped “We live in Korea. There are at least four people carrying the same surname in a single class.”
The girl found this explanation logical. She still had a question in her mind but she didn't dare to ask this directly. Instead she presented her thought like an idea “If you want to separate them you should have put someone else between them.”
Hangum replied without hesitation “I thought about it and even tried. But those two idiots are very much in love with each other. Therefore putting someone in between would just be a waste of time.” she stretched her numb legs onto the grass “That is why involving their families is the most logical. Revealing that they are a couple would be the end of this relationship.”
The girl turned her gaze to Minho and Jisung. After scanning both of them briefly with her eyes “The boy named Minho is really good, quite handsome.” she said. Hangum smirked “Pray that my plan works. If it works Minho will become free and I can set him up with you.”
The girl got very excited, being able to be lovers with such a handsome young man was every young girl’s dream. However when the logical point in her mind couldn't accept this situation she asked “Why don't you date him?”
Hangum answered with a bitter smile “Because I like Yang. Also Minho knows that I am supposedly close friends with Jisung. Even if a miracle happened and I liked him Minho would never look at me with the eyes of a lover.”
Shrugging her shoulders the girl said “Then I'll take him.” she said ‘’It is very hard to find men with good looks like him.’’ Hangum replied to these words by laughing “Take him if you can and help me with upsetting Jisung as well.”
The girl continued to examine Minho and spoke “He looks like a very hardworking person.” Hangum confirmed “Both are like that. They have plans to win the same university and live together but I won't allow it.” she clenched her fist, her facial expression sharpened “I will be as successful as them. I will follow Jisung. There is no peace for me until I defeat him in every field.”
The weather slowly began to darken as time progressed. Hangum spoke impatiently “Don't these two kiss at all? Or don't they do anything else besides holding hands that shows they are lovers?”
Immediately after these words, Minho checked the surroundings out of the corner of his eye, trusting in the darkening weather. Then he got a little closer to Jisung.
Seeing them getting closer, Hangum immediately grabbed her phon and while opening her camera with great enthusiasm she whispered “Come on. Please do what I guess.”
Minho grasped Jisung’s chin and planted a small kiss on his lips and pulled back.
When Hangum managed to photograph that brief moment, she said “That’s it!” paying attention to her tone of voice. She was happy for achieving her goal, she had managed to capture a wonderful frame by pressing the shutter just in time.
After that tiny kiss which lasted a little longer than a second, Jisung asked smiling widely “Where did this come from?” Minho replied with a slight smile “Is there a need for a reason?”
Jisung responded without hiding his happiness “No, but I still wanted to ask.” While Minho turned his gaze to his book he confessed “I missed you, Sungie. Is that okay?” Leaning his head on Minho’s shoulder Jisung spoke “I guess I should make myself missed more by you.”
While pushing his head lightly Minho said “Missing you again? In your dreams.” Immediately after giggling Jisung teased sweetly saying “We are together every day of the week. Moreover I am next to you right now. Despite this you miss me. How sweet you are.’’
Minho, not giving it away said in a quite flat manner “It happened by mistake. Don't exaggerate.” Not physically but with his words Jisung fawned over Minho thoroughly “Lino, I am looking forward to moving into the same house with you. Then you won't miss me and you won't be able to hide behind it happened by mistake excuses.”
Minho spoke while tapping the back of Jisung’s neck lightly “Then I will hide behind another excuse.” Jisung also hit his arm lightly. Afterwards this turned into a pleasant fight full of plenty of giggles.
The young couple sat in the park and read books for a while longer, then got up from where they were to return to their homes. Jisung spoke pouting his lips “Ah… I know we won't be able to meet during the holiday and this annoys me.”
As Minho started walking he responded “It's just one week Sungie. Believe me you won't die.” This time Jisung frowned “What is it or have you gotten bored of me? Because one week is a very long time.”
Laughing Minho said “Oh poor Sungie, you are exaggerating one week and acting as if we are going to be apart for ten years.” Then he added “And no, I haven't gotten bored of you. Because this is probably never possible.”
Throwing an acorn he found on the ground at Minho’s head Jisung said “This is a sensitive subject for me, you callous jerk!” he said “I have a lover but I can't kiss him as I want, can't hug him when I want, even holding hands is a big gamble and I constantly need to keep my distance.”
While rubbing the place where the acorn hit lightly Minho spoke “Sungie, I want you to know that you aren't the only person who can't do these in this relationship. I also want to kiss you to the fullest, hug you constantly. But not right now. We need to reach a certain point in our lives so we can do these freely.”
Jisung started kicking a stone on the ground “I know.” he said sulking “And to reach that level I am really trying very hard.” Afterwards the conversation shifted to more ordinary subjects. Accompanied by classic conversations, they proceeded towards their homes walking side by side.
The next day bad events started to break out one by one.
Hangum expected to see a separated couple at the end of the one week holiday. However seeing them side by side again arm in arm she couldn't hide her anger.
That's why she took action once more. Opening different anonymous accounts she reached the families once more and sent them a few more visual proofs taken inside the classroom showing their sons were still getting closer.
When Minho and Jisung started sitting separately and not talking to each other inside the classroom specifically, she took a short break from her destructive moves not to attract suspicion. Minho’s family was already completing the unfinished job in a way that was more than successful on her behalf.
When Jisung had to change schools and move, Hangum saw this as a definite victory. She was enjoying Jisung’s unhappiness but like a master actress she was hiding her true feelings playing the sad role flawlessly.
When Minho and Jisung announced to all their friend groups that they broke up, Hangum’s mood improved even more.
However after a while when she realized that neither of them was as sad as they appeared she suspected this situation. Still she pushed her suspicions into the background for a while.
Hangum reached the success she wanted and won the same medical faculty as Jisung. Minho unfortunately was accepted to another university.
Hangum saw this as a victory for herself and put the other part of her plan into action. She couldn't even tolerate them being friends.
Silently without letting anyone notice she started playing with Jisung’s mind. At every opportunity she was talking about how wonderful relationships lived freely were, emphasizing that there would be plenty of opportunities for this at university, implying that different family structures were a problem in themselves.
Unfortunately Jisung also got caught up in this secret game without even realizing it. His relationship which he maintained by hiding from everyone started to drag towards unhappiness slowly.
Hangum continued to maintain the game of staying friends with them flawlessly throughout this process.
While the last holiday before university continued Hangum couldn't bear Jisung being able to continue his life as if nothing happened. Reaching Minho’s mother again she shared togetherness information she wasn't sure about.
As time progressed a distinct coldness entered between Minho and Jisung. Hangum turned this coldness into an opportunity, tried to get into Jisung’s mind at every opportunity.
Fortunately Jisung didn't accept any bad word said about Minho. He didn't heed what Hangum said. However he couldn't prevent other things said about relationships not directly covering Minho from being etched in a corner of his mind.
When the pressure of Minho’s mother and cousins started to consume Jisung’s endurance ruthlessly, the thoughts Hangum instilled in him also started to take up more place in his mind.
He also wanted a happy, healthy and free relationship like everyone else. Constant secret meetings, having to suppress his love and not being able to spend enough time with Minho had tired him excessively. He didn't want to worry constantly for both himself and Minho anymore.
Poor Minho, who was unaware of anything happening in the background, interpreted this period as Jisung being stressed and sad because they would have to go to separate universities. He didn't pressure him, didn't question the situation in detail.
And one day Hangum finally managed to create great damage in Jisung’s mind. Jisung couldn't stand the pressur threat and incitement coming from all sides anymore.
Entering a great internal depression he ended his relationship with Minho definitively. Since he was exposed to intense pressure and manipulation in this process, two weeks later he took refuge in the first person he came across.
Hangum who achieved absolute succes met with Yang and Minho without wasting any time and put the next and most important step of her plan into action.
That day as soon as Yang separated the beer bottle from his lips he spoke “I say let's gather the high school crew this weekend.” Clapping her hands Hangum almost shrieked “Great idea!”
But Yang didn't share the same excitement. Turning to Minho he asked with a timid voice “Min, if we do something like this Jisung will also come. Would this be a problem for you?”
At that moment poor Minho, unaware of anything answered sincerely “It’s not a problem. After all I am the person whose relationship with him ended, not you.” involuntarily he sighed “And we didn't break up in a bad way.”
Yang was pleased with this answer, then turning to Hangum he asked “Would you ask Jisung the same question too? If he gives a similar answer I will plan for everyone.”
Hangum evaluated the opportunity instantly “No need to ask Jisung. He won't come.” she said accompanied by an indifferent manner. While Minho looked at Hangum with surprise Yang asked “How can you be so sure?”
Hangum replied placing a fake sadness on her face “Because he will spend that weekend with someone else.” Minho couldn't say anything but Yang asked “With whom?” Hangum dropped the bombshell saying “With his new boyfriend.” bowing her head forward.
Minho blinked his eyes quickly in the face of what he heard. He couldn't be sure if he heard correctly, his mind was in a mess.
After all it had been only two weeks since he broke up with the greatest love of his life, but he had already started a new relationship. Yang was completely speechless because of the surprise he experienced.
The table where laughter was rising just now was buried in silence suddenly. The silence wasn't broken for a long time.
A few minutes later as Minho got up from his place he spoke “I don't feel well.” He raised his hand as if wanting to prevent Yang and Hangum from speaking “Please don't ask questions. We'll talk later.” Not giving anyone an opportunity to say anything he left the venue with a broken heart.
Hangum was laughing inside. She loved Minho, she wouldn't want to upset him. But the way to be able to hurt Jisung passed through breaking Minho.
For this reason she left Yang’s side with the excuse of going to the toilet and shared a selfie taken with Jisung and his new lover on her own social media account. Her aim was to shove this relationship in Minho’s face.
And she was successful in this. The moment Minho saw that visual he was almost devastated, became resentful towards life. He hurt more than ever before and had difficulty believing what he saw.
As time progressed Minho slowly started to disappear. He closed his social media accounts, rejected face to face meeting offers, turned away friends coming to his door. He didn't communicate with anyone and finally by moving from the house where he lived he disappeared completely.
This situation pleased Hangum excessively. Because the ways to reach Minho were completely closed for everyone, especially for Jisung.
After a while when Jisung became unable to tolerate his new lover he shared this with Hangum who was his so called close friend “Even him breathing next to me pricks me.”
After taking a deep sigh he continued “I miss Minho very much. Why did I go and get a new lover knowing I wouldn't be able to forget him?” Hangum remained silent.
Jisung continued with excitement “I wonder if I should apologize to him? Minho is forgiving. If I explain everything nicely he might give me one more chance.”
Hangum panicked inwardly but didn't show it. She spoke with a calm voice “I think this would make things even more complicated.” confused Jisung asked “Why?”
Hangum started speaking by bowing her head forward and distorting all the facts “I ran into Yang and Minho by chance. Yang wanted to gather his high school friends.”
Then she turned her gaze to Jisung with fake sadness “When Minho heard this idea he didn't want you to come. And when we asked the reason... he said not very pleasant things.”
Jisung getting curious asked “What did he say?” Hangum adding a little more drama said “Never mind.” However Jisung didn't step back “No.” he said “If my name was mentioned in that conversation I need to know the details of the content.”
Hangum replied pouting her lips slightly “He said he hated you, didn't want to see you and if he saw you pleasant things wouldn't happen.”
Jisung froze. The Minho he knew wasn't someone like this. Hangum added as if wanting to reinforce her words “Ji… he somehow learned that you got a lover.”
Jisung's lips parted with surprise ''But I didn't announce this to anyone?'' Hangum nodded her head ''I guess he saw you. At that moment he was grumbling angrily and because Yang was trying to calm him down I couldn't understand his words fully.''
As Jisung covered his face with his hands he whispered ''Damn it...'' Hangum turned her head and displayed the smile she had suppressed for a while silently.
While time progressed ruthlessly Jisung continued to look for Minho and this situation made Hangum fed up. While Hangum was making a new plan about this subject luck came to her feet at a completely unexpected moment.
''I have been looking for Minho for months but I can't find him.'' said Jisung leaving the phone in his hand on the table. He crossed his arms and looked at Hangum with a facial expression revealing all his confusion.
Hangum spoke directly ''I don't know if you are aware but you have been raving about Minho’s name for months. I am afraid you will turn him into an obsession.''
Jisung smiled bitterly ''I think he has already become my biggest obsession. Because I think of him every night.'' Hangum spoke quite seriously ''I think tell yourself to stop before this situation progresses too much.''
Jisung rebelled ''But I want to apologize to him.'' Hangum raised her voice slightly ''Are you stupid? He moved away from you and everything related to you. He doesn't even meet with us and looks at his life.''
She raised her index finger and shook it ''You aren't even in his care Jisung. I am saying this not to break you, but for you to be aware of the facts and not be more upset.''
While wandering her gaze over Jisung she spoke trying to hide the disgust she felt “You have been in a very bad state since the problems in high school. Wounds appeared on your body from stress but you are still going after the thing that upsets you.”
Even though Jisung secretly agreed with his friend, he was in a big deadlock. ''I don't know what to do.'' he whispered. Hangum, putting her hand on the table said ''The only thing you will do is to look at your life and stop searching for him.''
When her eyebrows rose slightly upwards a confident expression also settled on her face ''Look, Yang said he didn't like me and I let him go. If I hadn't given up at that moment, I would probably have acquired an obsession towards him.''
Because Jisung knew what had passed between Yang and Hangum, he remained silent about that subject. While turning his gaze to a different direction, he asked ''What do you suggest I do then?''
Hangum replied directly ''Go and meet someone new. Find people who will truly value you and make you seriously happy. It annoys me that you are still searching for him while Minho is living his life.''
Turning his curious gaze towards Hangum, Jisung asked ''Has Minho got a lover?'' While Hangum shook her head uncertainly, she replied ''I don't know, but he isn't going to wait for you for the rest of his life, is he?''
When Jisung realized the passing time he had to agree with Hangum’s words once more.
Months had passed since their breakup and if Minho had made a relationship, he couldn't say anything against him.
When Hangum saw Jisung's thoughtful facial expression, she started speaking ''I will introduce you to someone new, Ji, don't you dare object to me. Whether you become lovers or not is up to you, but at least the process of getting to know him might provide you with benefit regarding overcoming your obsession towards Minho.''
Hangum knew Jisung very well. Even if Jisung found the perfect man, he would sabotage his own happiness by comparing everyone with Minho. Therefore, she didn't have any worries about Jisung meeting new people, because the possibility of Jisung truly being happy with someone other than Minho was very low.
Jisung rejected Hangum's advice at first. But after a while, his dreams containing Minho started to increase. And assuming this was a serious obsession, thus the thought that Hangum might be right started to outweigh. And Jisung accepted the meeting offer presented to him in a not very willing way.
Hangum prepared the ground for the next stage of her plan, being sure that Minho was somehow following Jisung.
By sharing the photo of Jisung and his new lover publicly on her own profile, she ensured Minho learned about this situation.
After a while, when Jisung broke up with his second lover at university and focused on his lessons again and achieved success in his grades, Hangum's jealousy increased. This time, Hangum started dragging Jisung into new environments.
But Jisung continued to keep the grades he obtained stable by sparing more time for his lessons than the time he spared for entertainment. He had set his sights high on being successful.
While Hangum was developing plan after plan, one day Jisung became unable to stand her insistence and got very angry at Hangum for the first time.
After all, he had gone through a quite difficult process because of a single party. Hangum didn't know this, but it was enough that Jisung was the only person who knew this.
''Enough already! How many more times do I have to say I won't come?'' Jisung's high pitched tone of voice surprised and baffled Hangum.
Hangum immediately went on the defense ''I just wanted you to take your mind off things. I learned that very handsome boys would come to the party and-''
Jisung interrupted Hangum by slamming one hand on the table ''What do you take me for?'' Even though Hangum opened her mouth to answer him, Jisung didn't allow this ''Who are you to speak as if I like everyone who is handsome, as if I am open to having a relationship with them?''
Hangum defended herself directly ''You can't talk to me as if I made a bad implication!'' Jisung frowned ''You constantly take me to parties and throw me among men. What else can you expect me to understand?''
While Hangum was thinking of an answer to this question, Jisung spoke once more ''Do you know what happened at that party we went to last time where you passed out?''
Even though he was very angry, he was able to succeed in speaking by filtering his words and not spilling the details just like that ''Are you aware that those men you called very good took me among them and tried to gang rape me?''
He wrinkled his face with the disgust he felt ''They tried to give me drugs secretly and if I hadn't noticed this situation, I would probably have been gang raped.''
He pointed his index finger at Hangum ''Because you didn't want to leave there, I acted as your guard all night long. I endured chatting with those scumbags so they wouldn't try to do the same things to you.''
He swallowed hard with the weight of what he was going to say “We were lucky and escaped. But do you know, Hangum, they did a very great evil to someone that night and caused him to commit suicide and lose his life. After learning this, I lost my mind for a moment.”
While Hangum maintained her silence, Jisung continued to pour his heart out “I don't know if these relaxed attitudes of yours are because I can fight well, but believe this, knowing how to fight doesn't mean being one hundred percent safe. Yes, I can defend myself up to a certain point.”
He made a fist with his hand, left it on the table with a calm movement. Then he took a deep breath “But how long could I endure while dozens of people were against me? Let's say I endured somehow. What if I had been drugged?”
Hangum could finally respond “Aren't you exaggerating? I just wanted to find someone for you after that virgin conversation you had recently.”
“We were joking!” said Jisung, succumbing to his nerves once more. Then he added sharply “I am not a virgin or anything. Even if not regular, I have a sexual life.”
Hangum asked with surprise “How?” This time Jisung replied with a slightly calmer, but still harsh manner “What do you mean how? We might be close friends, but why should I tell you what I do after sleeping with someone? Besides, is it up to you to worry about my dick?”
“But I tell you.” Hangum responded saying. Jisung got angry again “I never cared who you slept with. Even though I said I didn't want to hear, you continued to tell.”
When Hangum couldn't find an answer, she chose her usual way. She blamed Jisung through Minho “Minho is right to the end in not returning to you in not calling you. You are just a selfish scumbag, Jisung. You don't value anyone. The only thing you know is to glorify yourself.”
Jisung’s patience was at the breaking point now “Don't take Minho’s name into your mouth anymore. You rave about him more than me!” His voice had come out so harsh that Hangum thought for a moment she would even get a slap from Jisung.
“Minho is the only person who can hold me accountable for my selfishness regarding ending the relationship.” said Jisung “This is neither your nor anyone else’s place.”
When Hangum realized she couldn't defend herself anymore she stood up. Without even looking back she quickly moved away from there.
A few days later, thinking he had been too hard on Hangum, Jisung wanted to apologize. However, Hangum didn't accept this apology.
To be honest, Jisung didn't run after her either. He was already frequently falling into conflict with Hangum recently and this situation was annoying him excessively.
When he realized that they would experience even bigger conflicts in the future if they made peace, he decided to end this friendship permanently.
However, Hangum wanted to continue messing with Jisung and making life hell for him. But due to the family problems she experienced, she couldn't realize this in any way. Leaving her school without telling anyone anything, she suddenly disappeared.
When he could leave one of the burdens in his life behind and pour his heart out plenty, Jisung started working even harder to be able to leave all bad things behind.
He put a conscious distance between himself and everyone in order not to allow anyone to interfere in his life in this way again. Until he finished his school and started working in a hospital.
From the first days he stepped into work there, he established a strong bond with Dohee and Hoon, who were doctors a few years senior to him. In a short time, they became not only good friends but almost siblings. And Jisung never separated from them again after that day.
And here the story turns back to the beginning. We find that piece Hangum left behind again. In summary, we reach that girl who had a finger in the first blow that landed on Minho and Jisung’s love life and the memories left behind.
Years later, while Minho was at the wedding of a relative of his close friend Sangil, a beautiful, attractive and extremely self confident woman caught his eye.
And Minho fell for that woman at first sight, who had played a role, albeit small in his breakup with Jisung in the past. Of course, he was unaware of anything.
He wanted to meet herto be able to show himself to her before the wedding ended. And he realized this wish before long.
Normally Minho wasn't someone brave enough to take the first step. However, that day, he was more courageous than he had ever been in his life.
As the wedding was about to end, he went next to the woman he could meet about an hour ago again and expressed his wish directly.
“Hey, the wedding will end soon and I don't know if I will be able to encounter you again.” he said, then taking out his phone and extending it towards the woman “That’s why I want to get your phone number.”
While taking the phone in her hand, the woman smiled and spoke sincerely “If I have to confess, I also wanted to get your number. You are an exceedingly pleasant man.”
Minho was pleased with what he heard. While saving her number and extending the phone to him, the woman spoke once more “Here. Now you can encounter me whenever you want.”
While taking his phone back, Minho responded with a sweet smile “See you then.” he waved his hand lightly “See you.” said the woman winking pleasantly.
While Minho was moving away with a huge smile on his face, the woman watched him silently. A few minutes later, the silence was broken by someone else “We’re going.”
Turning to the friend next to her, the woman asked “They look alike, don't they?” the woman’s friend asked in a confused state “What?” Pointing at Minho out of the corner of her eye, the woman explained “That guy over there. For a moment I thought he was Bongho.”
When the woman’s friend looked at Minho, she spoke with surprise “He really looks very much like Bongho. As if he is his young version.” While nodding her head positively, the woman asked “What do you think I should do?”
Her friend replied without thinking at all “You were saying you couldn't forget Bongho. Here you go. As if he returned to you in some way. You shouldn't miss this opportunity.”
At that moment, the woman was unaware that the handsome man in front of her was that high school boy she had seen only once in the past.
What Minho didn't know was that he would be loved and put in Bongho’s place because of his resemblance to him.
When Minho returned to his family’s house after the wedding, he didn't feel the need to hide the smile on his face. His mother asked curiously “What is the reason for your joy?”
Minho wanted to chat with his mother at length for the first time in his life and sat on the seat. Reflecting all his excitement “I met a woman at the wedding.” he explained.
His mother shared his happiness. Minho continued to explain “And mom… She is really very beautiful. It is early to say something right now but I think I want to unite my life with her.”
His mother asked with satisfaction “Is there a photo?” Minho quickly took out his phone, opened the woman’s profile photo and turned the screen to his mother.
“She is very beautiful.” said his mother “Don't you dare miss her.” After laughing lightly Minho said “I will try very hard for this.”
A few hours later, his mother conveyed this information to Minho’s father and Mr. Lee felt a great relief believing that his son was now a healthy individual. As for Jisung’s name it was mentioned with a curse among whispers once more.
About a week after the wedding, the romantic relationship between Minho and the woman started. Both were happy. One thinking he found true love, and the other because she found the man who left her and whom she couldn't forget in another body again.
Even though the woman loved Minho thanks to his resemblance to Bongho at one point she was really valuing him and cherishing him.
However in some moments the fact that Minho wasn't Bongho weighed heavily dhe was moving away from him experiencing a short term cooling.
In those moments being side by side with Minho, spending time together, even chatting was becoming difficult for her. Still, in order not to lose this man who kept Bongho alive, she was trying to act according to Minho’s wishes.
As time progressed everything sped up. Within a few months families met, the relationship became serious. When the woman saw Minho’s family structure clearly, she realized how easy it was to control him.
Because of his upbringing style Minho was exceedingly docile and obedient. Naturally he was also quite open to manipulations. Realizing this, the woman started playing with Minho’s mind and emotions ruthlessly.
Her first step was to establish a tight bond with Minho’s family, especially with his mother. In this way she learned Minho’s past, she recalled things the details of which she couldn't remember because she didn't care much at those times.
The fact that Minho had established emotional bonds with men in the past changed the woman’s strategy completely.
To make Minho physically dependent on herself she constantly directed him to sexuality and in a short time she managed to descend to Minho’s darkest fantasies.
She made her next move on Minho’s conscience. In order to keep Minho by her side, who grew up in a conservative and oppressive family and was taught that he had to hold family ties above everything, she moved into the same house with him and quit the job she worked at.
Thus Minho would feel obliged to look after the woman and wouldn't be able to leave her and go just like Bongho did.
The woman strengthened her ties with Minho’s mother with each passing day. The feeling of responsibility on Minho’s shoulders increased gradually.
As for the marriage proposals of Minho who was loved and valued in the relationship, they were rejected by the woman repeatedly. This was also just one of the methods of making him dependent and needy.
What the woman didn't know was that the rope she wrapped carefully around Minho’s neck would be untied easily when Jisung’s existence appeared. Because Jisung was Minho’s weakness, his greatest love, his only confidant.
The steps the woman took looked flawless. She was good towards Minho and his environment. However sometimes she was getting bored of the game she set up herself, wanted to leave and go. Because Minho was never able to fill the void Bongho left in the full sense.
Moreover Minho’s obedience and politeness were suffocating the woman. For this reason every moment she moved away from Minho, she was throwing herself into new excitements. Naturally the first person Minho was cheated on with wasn't someone from her close circle. He had been cheated on countless times and with different people since the beginning of his relationship.
Even though the woman was bored of her game she couldn't leave Minho. Because if she had to confess, managing someone was quite satisfying.
Minho became blindly attached to her as time passed. Until the woman’s biggest secret rival Jisung appeared again.
And when Minho’s half heart which had been manipulated over the years encountered Jisung’s heart, it wanted to break the sharp chains surrounding it.
You know the rest of the story.
After Minho shattered the chains he also took off the fake happiness glasses covering his eyes and threw them aside. When he faced the facts, he brought his logic which had been suppressed for a long time to light again.
As soon as he regained his freedom he left himself in Jisung’s arms to complete his half heart.
The woman couldn't accept this of course. She withdrew to make a new plan. Because a man who hadn't opposed even a single word of hers for years erasing her this easily was something she didn't expect.
However only a few days after Minho’s departure the woman encountered another development that would make her forget him completely. Bongho had returned to Korea.
Therefore she let go of Minho and threw herself into Bongho’s arms. But only a week later she was abandoned once more. She turned her arrows to the easiest target again, meaning to Minho.
Even though she remembered who Jisung was, because she couldn't remember any other detail apart from separating them in the past, she failed to attack Jisung through his family.
Instead she collaborated with Minho’s mother and put forward a new claim aimed at confusing Minho’s mind.
And this time she hurt that young couple again knowingly and willingly, whom she had been sad for because of what Hangum did once upon a time.
PRESENT DAY
Minho came out of his second session with his eyes swollen from crying. Despite this, he felt quite relieved. He was relaxed, happy and felt a slight regret for not having done this sooner.
When he looked at his wristwatch, he realized that the hour was pointing to the most beautiful time interval of the day. With this thought, he got into his car without lingering at all.
He drove towards one of the florists he had noticed on the road while going to the session. He parked his car and entered inside with long strides.
After scanning the flowers briefly with his eyes, he turned to the female employee and said “Hello.” with a slightly timid voice “I am not very good at choosing flowers. So could you prepare a mixed bouquet for me?”
The woman smiled, nodded her head, and asked “Of course. Do you have any color preference?” After thinking for a short time, Minho explained “Actually I was thinking of getting a bouquet with a mixture of blue and white made but I am not sure.”
Smiling the woman said “Alright. Let me prepare a bouquet suitable for you. If you want, you can sit on those seats and wait.”
Minho smiled thanking her and went and sat down. While the woman was choosing flowers from the vases, she continued the chat “Are you buying it for your girlfriend or your mother?”
Minho replied without hesitating at all, with a proud but calm manner “Neither. This bouquet will be for my boyfriend.”
The woman paused for a moment. Then a warm smile appeared on her face “Oh, this is very sweet.” she said sincerely “I am really glad that you are able to live your love this freely and beautifully.”
Minho sighed at that moment. There were too many things he wanted to say however he was in no position to pour his heart out to a florist he didn't know. That's why he said politely “We are trying to live as best as we can.” adding “Thank you.”
The woman asked curiously “What kind of person is your boyfriend? If you want, I can personalize the bouquet a little more.” Minho replied without thinking at all “He is very polite. Delicate but at the same time a strong person. His heart is incredibly beautiful. He is a very good person towards everyone and loves sweet things. And he is a hardworking person enough not to care even about sleep.”
Actually, he could talk about Jisung for hours but he knew he had to cut it short. While taking the flowers to the counter the woman said “In that case, we can add a small blue plush owl and blue cupcakes in the shape of flowers.”
Minho’s face lit up with pleasure “Please, definitely add them.” he said. Then he asked curiously “Apart from this, what can I buy him as a gift from here or somewhere else? The flower felt as if it was insufficient on its own.”
“From this shop?” asked the woman “Yes,” said Minho “I can also take suggestions from things sold or not sold here.” After thinking for a short time, the woman spoke “I can suggest transparent, lighted balloons. They look both decorative and very nice. Also, I think in addition to these it would be nice to buy something needed in daily life. What is your boyfriend’s profession?”
“Doctor.” replied Minho. The woman’s eyes widened, then smiling she continued wrapping the bouquet “Wow. In that case, it would be good to buy things that will keep him warm. Sometimes hospitals are quite cold.”
Minho stopped and thought. Then “You are right.” he said “Sometimes even if he is at home, his hands and feet get ice cold.” The woman completed the bouquet and said “In that case, think about buying things that will keep him warm. And here, your bouquet is ready. I think he will be very happy.”
Minho stood up, took the bouquet in his hand. While examining it, he said with admiration “It has really become wonderful.” The woman thanked him while bringing the lighted balloons. Minho made the payment and left the shop thanking her once more.
When he got into the car, he took out his phone and looked if there was a mall or any place selling clothes nearby but couldn't find anything nearby. Just at that moment, he noticed an old woman selling knitted products on a small stall on the opposite sidewalk.
He immediately got out of the car and approached the stall. There were knitted booties, sweaters, scarves, beanies and much more. Minho took the ones he liked the most among them in his hand one by one and examined them. Finally he bought two sweaters, a few pairs of socks, gloves, a scarf and a beanie.
Saying “I want to buy these.” he showed what he bought to the woman. The woman started calculating. However, Minho gave more money than required as if he didn't hear the amount at all and left thanking her. He ignored the calls directed at him to take the change back.
He entered the stationery store a little ahead and bought gift wraps for everything he bought. He returned to the car, wrapped all of them with care. Then he set off towards Jisung’s house however got stuck in traffic.
To not get bored while waiting, he directed his gaze to people walking on the sidewalk. Elderly people moving slowly, those walking in a hurry, young people proceeding while joking with each other… Just at that moment, a couple caught Minho’s eye and this couple caused things to stir in his heart.
Because these two young men looked exceedingly familiar to him. They were reminding him of his and Jisung’s youth.
All of Minho’s attention shifted to them. The two young men were talking about something, it was evident that one of them was distinctly shy. As for the other, he was extremely brave.
Suddenly, without minding those around him, he held the other’s hand and planted a huge kiss on his cheek.
Witnessing this moment revived some memories in Minho’s mind. Along with this, those words Jisung had expressed repeatedly before echoed in his ears “I have a lover but I can't love him freely.”
And at that moment, the thought that had been standing in a corner of his mind for a long time but which he had forgotten after all those things experienced surfaced again. Buying a ring, even if it was for formality.
But no. Minho didn't want this. He wanted to wear a real ring with Jisung to build a real family with him.
After all the evils experienced he had no intention of wearing a ring just for the sake of formality and implying the uncertainty of the future.
The only thing Minho wanted was a life he would build together with Jisung. Because Jisung was the only thing strong enough to keep him alive.
And at that moment, a few more blurry memories remaining under dusty covers surfaced. Even in the moments he came closest to death by burning, Minho had remembered Jisung, even if for a moment. Even in his most desperate moments, he had stayed alive thanks to that stubborn ambition born from the resentment he felt towards him.
The only name echoing in his mind was Jisung. Was it obsession, was it love or was it both together? But frankly, he didn't care much anymore what exactly this was. The only thing he knew was the existence of a fire not extinguishing for ten years. It wasn't only his skin burning, it was his heart.
Since the traffic still wasn't moving, he evaluated this opportunity, took out his phone and started searching whether there was any jeweler nearby or not. When he found one, he determined his new route.
As soon as the traffic cleared up, he entered the jeweler directly and started examining the showcases. The attendant man asked with a soft tone of voice “Is there a special ring model you are looking for?”
Minho, unable to hide his excitement, answered with all his honesty “I am going to propose to my boyfriend but I am not very good at such accessory choices.”
Although the man experienced a short surprise at first, he smiled immediately after “Alright.” he said “In that case, let's take a look at rings sold singly and create a suitable set for you.”
Minho nodded his head smiling. The man left the sponge box where single wedding rings were displayed on the glass counter.
While Minho was examining the rings, the man asked “Do you know your partner’s finger size?” Minho was baffled for a moment due to the unprepared situation.
“Unfortunately I don't know.” he replied “But I am sure he has thinner fingers than mine. He is thin and also a bit short, that's why he has thin and long fingers.”
After nodding his head, the man said “In that case, I can suggest a few models taking the average as a base. If it comes tight or loose, we will do the necessary alteration process.”
“Alright.” said Minho “In that case, please help me regarding making a choice.” After scanning Minho from top to bottom, the man spoke “Since you are a young couple, I can suggest a model that is timeless but at the same time looks young like you. Silver, satin finished rings would be quite stylish.”
Then he pointed to a ring “If you want plain, this model is beautiful. But I recommend the north star engraved version of this. More romantic and more unique.”
Minho took the ring in his hand and examined it. It wasn't very shiny but it was pleasing to the eye. Still, Minho wanted to show this marriage to the world.
“I liked this ring very much.” he said “But I prefer a shiny model. Is there a shiny version of this ring that has the north star engraving?”
The man nodded his head “Of course.” Then he found the ring and put it in front of him “Here it is.” Minho didn't even feel the need for a detailed examination “I am taking it.” he said with determination.
The man brought the measuring tool and measured Minho’s finger, then determined an estimated size for Jisung. Minho asked curiously “Can we have names written inside them?”
“If you have fifteen minutes, we can do it immediately.” the man replied. “Of course.” said Minho smiling. After giving the names the rings were taken into processing. After a short wait, they came back in a packaged state and Minho completed the purchasing transaction.
He got into his car with a huge smile on his face. He was butterflies in his stomach along the way. He was thinking about what kind of reaction Jisung would give, setting up scenes in his mind, talking to himself and rehearsing that moment repeatedly.
As soon as he found an empty place to park his car near Jisung’s house, he stopped the car, took the gifts and headed to Jisung’s apartment with big steps.
When the door opened, Jisung froze. Seeing Minho in front of him with almost a ton of gift packages, he said “Oh, welcome.” with surprise stepping aside.
“Glad to be here.” said Minho entering inside. Then he extended the bouquet to Jisung “This is for you.” then he added in panic “I mean all of them are yours but the flowers might get crushed at any moment and I don't want this to happen.”
Jisung took the bouquet, and Minho whose hands were still full took off his shoes in a strange way and proceeded to the living room. While Jisung was following him, he was smelling the bouquet carrying a smile on his face he couldn't stop.
Minho left the gifts and the balloon on the seat. Then he looked at Jisung with big, expectant eyes. When Jisung understood what he meant, he hugged him immediately.
As soon as Minho finished hugging, he kissed Jisung and silenced his words that hadn't been said yet. After the kiss “No.” he said with a soft voice “I am the one who needs to thank. That's why don't even open your mouth.”
When Jisung accepted this situation silently, they sat on the seat together. Minho said “Please open all of them. I am very curious about your reactions.” with the excitement of a dog waiting at the door for its owner to come.
Jisung opened the packages one by one smiling. He became a little happier in each one, almost melted away. Even though Minho didn't want to hear, he expressed his thanks.
“You should try the sweaters.” said Minho. Jisung nodded his head, put on one of the sweaters and asked “How does it look?” Minho looked at him as if enchanted “Wow Sungie. You look very cute.”
Jisung stroked the sweater “Wonderful, very soft. I was thinking of buying a sweater like this for winter but there is no need anymore.”
Minho reached for his foot and while putting on the knitted sock he bought “You are already getting cold. I was afraid you would get even colder in winter.” he said. Then looking briefly at the foot with the sock, he kissed the bottom of it “Now these tiny feet won't get cold.”
Laughing Jisung said “Leave my foot alone, you dirty pervert.” Minho responded by shrugging his shoulders “Never.” then taking the scarf, he wrapped it around Jisung’s neck, put on the gloves, put on the beanie.
And accompanied by a soft tone of voice he spoke “Sungie, seriously you are very sweet.” Giggling Jisung said “Thank you but I need to take these off. I got very hot.”
Minho didn't allow anything except taking off the gloves. Sliding from where he sat slowly and without letting him notice, he knelt on his knees, settled between Jisung’s legs.
Then he leaned his head on Jisung’s leg and said with a soft voice “My Sungie is very sweet.” Jisung smiled while ruffling his hair “So are you, Lino.”
Minho raised his head, put his chin on Jisung’s knee. Fixing his huge, innocent gaze on him, he asked “Seriously?” Jisung’s smile widened “Yes.”
Minho reached into his pocket carefully but didn't pull back from where he was. Instead, he started speaking.
“Since I know you don't like fancy sentences, I am skipping this part.” he said “But Jisung… do you know, whenever I stop and think, the only thing I want is you.”
In the face of this sudden confession, Jisung was surprised “Oh… it is very nice to hear this.” he said “But where did this come from all of a sudden?” Even though he didn't want to spoil the atmosphere, he couldn't prevent his curiosity.
“Allow me to complete my words.” said Minho calmly “Then you will understand anyway.” Jisung confirmed this request by nodding his head and Minho continued.
“I am very tired. Everything and everyone tires me, except you. I am not a perfect person, maybe I am not even a good person but believe me, I will strive hard to be someone worthy of you.”
His gaze wasn't leaving Jisung’s eyes “Because I realized that the only thing filling all the deficiencies in my life is you. You are the only thing that is good for me. You are everything Jisung… except one thing.”
Jisung’s eyebrows rose with curiosity but he didn't interrupt Minho. Minho raised his head a little and moved to a more upright position he was still on his knees.
“And I want to complete this deficiency.” he said. He opened the box silently, raised it in the air and extended it towards Jisung “Will i marry you and become your husband?”
Jisung’s eyes opened with surprise “Minho…” he whispered but couldn't bring the rest. Minho spoke immediately “I… I really want you to marry me very much, Jisung. But at the same time, I also want to announce to everyone that I love you and live freely with you.”
His gaze was wandering on Jisung’s face “I am tired of living a secret love for years. While having someone like you, I don't want to continue this anymore. While outside, I want to be able to hold your hand, kiss you.”
He took a short breath “To hell with those judging our relationship. Neither are they the last person I will see before sleeping, nor the first person I will see when I wake up. Let them shoot me with fiery arrows if they want, I don't care.” Then mentioning the events he experienced today, he completed his words.
“Do you know, today while buying flowers I said these flowers are for my boyfriend and I wasn't judged. Likewise, while buying the rings, I was welcomed very well too. Jisung, sometimes it feels as if the whole world is against us but actually, there are also people who will protect and support us. That's why I don't want to hide anymore.”
Jisung couldn't speak out of surprise. Fortunately, after a short silence he could ask “Are you serious?” Minho answered without hesitating at all “I have never been this serious for anything in my life.”
Then he added with a slightly embarrassed expression “I know, the organization is terrible but I couldn't wait any longer.” He took a deep breath “But you wait. Don't decide in a hurry. Think whether you will be happy with me in the future or not. We didn't experience good things and I don't want you to regret it in the future. Even if you give your decision years later it is okay, I will wait for you.”
Jisung remained silent for about a minute. Then smiling “This was already something I have been thinking about for a long time.” he said “No matter how angry I get at you or no matter how hurt I get, I had a single answer from the very beginning.”
Minho felt like he would faint the moment he sensed his proposal would be accepted. Jisung widened his smile and gave his answer “Minho, of course I will marry you.”
Minho put on a trembling smile, struggling to hold himself back from crying. He reached for the wedding ring he bought for Jisung, took out the ring, and while holding Jisung’s hand “God… I can't believe this is real.” he whispered.
Despite his trembling hands, he managed to slide the ring onto Jisung’s finger. He was lucky, the ring fit Jisung’s finger perfectly and suited him very well.
While examining the ring lifting his hand Jisung said “Very beautiful.” Then he wanted to do the same for Minho. He held his hand, took the ring and slid it onto his finger. While Minho was looking at him with a huge smile “Now you are completely my everything, you are everything, Jisung.” he said.
Jisung held Minho by his collar, pulled him to himself and kissed him. When the kisses ended, Jisung asked laughing “So are we married now?”
“I think yes.” said Minho “But until we make it official, we can also say fiance. You choose, I am up for everything.” Jisung’s eyes sparkled with happiness “I think I will like addressing you as my husband more.”
Minho accepted this name gladly. Even if not official, in their own way they were married almost as if it was official, they were the ones living this relationship and this was what mattered.
However overwhelmed by the heat Jisung finally gave up and broke the romantic moment even if unintentionally. This was also a small escape he found to be able to hold back his tears.
There had been too much pain and too many tears in his life for a long time. Now, even if it was out of happiness, Jisung didn't want to cry. He just wanted to laugh and be happy.
“Alright, my husband.” he said with a sad voice “I have to take these off now otherwise I will faint from the heat and you will be left a widower.”
Minho was almost enchanted by a single word, that's why he didn't hear the rest. He just nodded his head and confirmed whatever Jisung said.
While taking off his knitted clothes, Jisung asked “Are you hungry?” , “Yes, I am very hungry.” said Minho immediately “In that case, shall we order wrap kebab?” asked Jisung.
While Minho was taking out the phone and moving from his knees to the seat “I am ordering four of the biggest size. Do you want ayran too?” he asked.
“Yes please, it won't do without ayran.” said Jisung “I hadn't eaten kebab for a long time. And being about to eat after such beautiful things would make me very happy.” Sharing his happiness, Minho placed the order.
As for Jisung, he placed the clothes in his closet, found a suitable place for the balloon, put the flowers in the vase, took the plush owl to his room and left it on his bed, put the cupcakes on the coffee table and checked his ring frequently.
The orders were delivered before long and they started chatting while eating. Even though Jisung hesitated a little, he asked “How did the session go?”
After swallowing his bite Minho replied “Frankly I cried throughout the entire session. But this relieved me very much. My psychiatrist already said I should cry, I shouldn't suppress myself. And I did.”
Smiling Jisung spoke “This is what should happen. You shouldn't hide your feelings.” Breaking the seriousness, Minho asked “Then what if I want to bite you? This is also a feeling after all.”
While shaking his head Jisung said “No. I am eating right now and if you spoil this I will get cross.” Minho immediately raising his hands as if surrendering said “I didn't have such a thought for now.”
Then he got serious “By the way… My psychiatrist said taking couple therapy might be appropriate and necessary for us after a few sessions.” While Jisung nodded his head approvingly “I agree with this too. Let's make an appointment for couple therapy at a convenient time.” he said. Minho smiled and thanked him.
After the meal, they moved to the seat. Approaching Jisung, Minho said “There is sauce mark left on your face.” Pushing him from his chest, Jisung said “I don't believe you. I looked at myself while brushing my teeth, my face was spotless.”
Pouting his lips, Minho asked “Wouldn't it work if you pretended to believe?” With fake surprise, Jisung joined his game saying “Oh really?”
Minho didn't miss this opportunity and saying “Yes, wait and let me clean it for you.” he licked the corner of Jisung’s lip. To be honest, he didn't need to produce an excuse to kiss or lick Jisung. However, he liked doing this.
At that moment, lightning flashed in Jisung’s mind. He pulled his head back quickly and in a quite worried state “Oh Minho, I think I am late for work.” he said. Suddenly he jumped up and looked at the clock “Oh my God, I am really late. I forgot I was working today.”
Laughing Minho said “Don't worry, you will make it.”, “I don't have a car, it is not possible for me to make it.” shouted Jisung running towards his room. “You will use my car, so don't worry.” called out Minho.
Jisung dressed quickly and came back to the living room “Okay, I am taking your car. You stay at my place today, even for a few days.” he said “Because our marriage is very fresh and I don't want to stay away from you.”
Minho nodded his head. He went next to Jisung who was trying to stand up and put on his shoes, held him by his shoulders and stopped him.
Putting on a soft tone of voice, he spoke with the aim of being able to calm Jisung down “Calm down. There is no traffic at these hours. You will make it. Drive carefully. Being late is not a problem but as long as you are okay.”
While nodding his head Jisung said “Okay.” he said “I will be careful.” Minho smiled then kissed him “Have a good work.” Jisung also smiled and saying “See you.” to Minho, left the house.