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The lunch went smoothly for everyone except yunho and Mingi. Yunho's parents joined the people after some minutes while yujin managed the resturant. Needless to say the boys and yunho's parents never let any chance to tease yunho the whole time. Yunho was far more concerned about that. But for mingi , he heard nothing. His mind was somewhere else.
At some point mingi was taken out from his deep thoughts when he felt something poking his ankle down the table. He scratched the part with the other foot in itchiness. Diving back to the delicious food served infront of him. Mingi tsked again when the same sensation hit his skin again. Might be some kind dust under the table , he should have wore socks , rather than opting a chapal , should have heard wooyoung's suggestion. Mingi thought anyway they're going in car to jongho's place so what's actually the need of socks and shoes , or maybe he was just in hurry to meet someone.
Mingi mentally scolded him. The sensation kept going on , his hands dying to bend and scratch his leg.
But at the point , the feeling felt different, it sends sparkles to mingi's veins.
That's when someone poured some water to the empty glass beside his bowl. Mingi raised his head to take a look at whoever pouring his water , to see yunho who was sitting opposite to him around the small table , who's standing right now leaning over to mingi's side to pour the younger.
Mingi smiled, silently thanking the elder. But yunho's face showed no expression, the latter had a sly look fixated on his face. Mingi wondered what's up with yunho now. His hand reached over the glass to take a sip of water. Before he could gulp it , the same feeling hit him again. But this time it wasn't just of the ankle but something soft edged slide up , inside his pants. Mingi chocked on to water .
"Drink slowly Mingus, the water ain't going anywhere" wooyoung chuckled as he pat on mingi's head , san almost cooing at mingi who' had water dripping down his chin and t-shirt.
Mingi's head subtly shifted to yunho from wooyoung when he Heard yunho chucking too. Mingi eyed the elder suspiciously.
"Are you feeling...."the elder started , the same time mingi felt something sliding down to his ankle and again sliding up "....okay..."? A pinch on his soft skin. Mingi's breath hitched , finally getting what's going under the table.
"Yea..yeah..am okay.. it's.. it's just..."
Mingi stuttered , the wave of excitement flooding straight to his dick. The thought of jeong yunho's bare leg sliding into his supple skin.
"Just what"? Yunho cocked an eyebrow at him as he chewed his rice , mingi took a deep breath when yunho's foot rested above his naked foot. Temporarily halting the movements.
"No.. nothing..." Mingi lowered his head back to his soup, trying his best to ignore the ache on his core. Atleast not now.
But it was almost impossible that mingi was forced to stop eating. His eyes glued to his food as he bite down his lips , holding his moans without spilling out. Mingi's eyes meet yunho who's eyes were on the salad infront of him but the subtle smirk stayed at the corner of lips. Mingi can't take this torture, it's too much for his sensitive body. Yunho's eyes glanced at mingi at a point , Mingi's eyes turning glossy , silently pleading yunho to stop. But yunho just scoffed.
In a matter of seconds mingi's hands went under the table , resting on his thighs. Grabbing onto them. Yunho's toe circled on mingi's skin , sending shivers throughout his body.
Mingi felt his dick tightening inside his pants. Begging for some friction. His fingers of the foot curled once yunho got rubbed onto the skin harder , almost emitting a soft moan from mingi who immediately covered his mouth with his hand , making sure nobody noticed.
His pulled his legs back in an attempt to escape from yunho's perverted foot , only for yunho's to pull it forwards, with his both foot. Now that mingi's left foot is trapped with yunho's both. As they squished his small ones between yunho's large ones. Eventually tickled under mingi's foot for him to grit bis teeth harshly, whining onto his throat. It went on for almost fifteen minutes.
"You guys done"?
Mingi heard someone, hongjoong ask as wooyoung's reply came.
"Yeah we are. Let's get going then"
Mingi nodded his head to wooyoung , struggling to pull off from yunho's hold. Sighing when the finally felt the hold loosening up and he breath a sigh of relief. Taking a look at yunho who is leaning back onto his chair as he wiped his lips with a tissue. Mingi almost wanted to smack the elder, but he know he's too soft to smack anyone. In some seconds wooyoung pulled him up from the chair . Mingi got on his heels , his eyes still fixated at yunho's. Mingi eyes flew down to where yunho's eyes were going to , as the elder's smirk is wide obvious at the point. Mingi's eyes widen dramatically at his hard dick , almost poking out from the shorts. His hands urgently found his shirt , half tucked under his shorts , to pull them down fully , hiding his rock hard boner.
The boys said bye to yunho's parents , promising to meet them later at yunho's place, also yujin. The boys were polite to her apart from the part that they're still annoyed about her mentioning yunho as her bestfriend.
Just as the coming ride , mingi found himself beside yunho. And his bestfriends at the back.
The second his ass hit the seat , mingi sank onto them in relief. Shutting his eyes tight pretending to be in deep sleep. Mingi was embarrassed, no he was shy. Shy that he got hard at the bare minimum touch of yunho's foot on his legs. Maybe because of his pain , he found himself falling into actual sleep and wooyoung woke him up from behind once they reached back jongho's place.
Unfortunately, mingi wanted to go back with yunho to his place. But the second wooyoung asked mingi to get his spare clothes he bought for the sleepover from jongho's place so that they can head back to their apartment, mingi wanted to say know . He noticed how yunho's face fall at the words. They both know they wanted to feel each other more than anything at the time. But mingi was too scared to ask wooyoung.
So in the end mingi ended up at his place after getting their car from jongho's place and yunho left to his place too.
Wooyoung noticed how mingi have been quiet during the whole time , they thought he might be missing yunho but they had no idea that mingi had a huge problem going down there . As soon as they step in mingi rushed towards his room , locking it and double checking it again. Unlocking his phone right away to see yunho's chat on the top. He eyes widen at the sight , something he actually anticipated from yunho.
Jeong yunho's fingers wrapped around his enormous dick , squeezing them onto his tight fist , the heavy pants echoing through the room. Mingi didn't wait for a second , yanking his pants down along with boxer , followed by an embarassing whine at his drenched boxers.
He went hard on himself, three fingers plunged deep onto his hole , trying to imitate the feeling of yunho's dick , coming hard onto his chest tasting his own cum on his lips when he squirted hard. He snapped a few clips of his drenched fingers saliva coated as he swiped the thick hot liquid on his chest , dragging them down to his hole clenching over at the emptiness and bliss of orgasm, sending them right away to yunho.
His body slumped back to the bed , instantly passing out.
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The headphones stayed on his ears , taking one more look at the door to make sure it's locked. Mingi hit the play button. The music poured onto ears, mingi's shutting in concentration.
"On this night, night
Even the moon is crying on this night, night
Find a place for my heart, my heart
Where can it rest?
On this night, night
Even the moon is crying on this night, night
Find a place for my heart, my heart
Where can it rest?
I don't care, I don't care, no
Why am I feeling down?
This complicated world, no, my heart
It bites onto me and doesn't let go
I don't know the answer, my head hurts
Adults say that youthfulness, this one word
Means sadness as joy and to enjoy the present
They only say words that are hard to hear"
Mingi was shocked to hear yunho singing , the lyrics hit mingi hard enough that he wanted to add it into the bits of parts he made. He remembered the time at jongho's place , where yunho sang those lyrics , completing mingi's song fully. He was half sober but he remembered the lyrics. The first thing mingi did after he woke up was to scribble down those. And to complete the song. He didn't had any basic necessities to record in his room , but that doesn't stop him. Mingi had a guitar with him , one that his friend's gifted him as a joke cuz mingi never seemed like an artistic person, they thought it should stay in his room as an accessory. But once in a while mingi cared to run his fingers through them , then learning it from San. He recorded himself with mingi's as well as yunho's verse , while he played the guitar , following the melody.
He let out a satisfied hum , eyes glinting as the song ended. He didn't expect it to turn out this good.
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"Mingi darling , this is..this is so good.."
Mingi finally let his breath out from his throat that he have been holding onto for minutes. The lack of immediate response made Mingi's heart fell down in disappointment. Mingi have texted yunho to meet at mingi's place next day. He made sure to listen to song a couple of times finally deciding to make yunho listen to it. He wanted it , he wanted yunho to be the first one to hear his song . Mingi's eyes followed yunho's actions , the elder's fingers restlessly tapping on the replay button at some parts. Mingi failed to decipher if it's because something was wrong with those parts. For the last thirteen minutes it went on , yunho listened to to whole song almost fifteen times.
Mingi was pulled into a hug by yunho , followed by countlessly pats on his back in appreciation, adoration. Yunho's heart filled with warmth at the thought that the younger indeed remembered all the lyrics he randomly sang out one day and hearing those in mingi's voice. Yunho is sure mingi would teach him wrong that it's impossible not to fall in love with the younger again and again , deeper and deeper .
"This is so good.. you're so talented mingi. Really. This song feels like you made it for me..."
Yunho's eyes turned glossy at his own words, halting for a few seconds . Mingi's face turned into a wide smile , yunho looked so cute to mingi. Yunho's hands slide off from mingi when mingi turned towards his laptop again, Leaving the recording.
"And..." The younger started momentarily turning to yunho and then back to the screen. Yunho's eyes followed mingi , to the screen.
"Just as you said, also the others. I'm actually thinking about auditioning.."
Mingi gulped , eyes still glued on the screen.
It was a post , an SNS post of a new music company in Korea about their audition . Mingi haven't heard about the company anywhere, he actually don't have much idea about the popular ones too. It's not like he's ignorant about it but mingi never saw him considering the option of auditioning. The same time he haven't given up on his dream of his own company . Somehow hongjoong's words made sense. Mingi lack knowledge in lot of stuffs regarding the music industry. He need to be guided. For that he need this , he have to join somewhere. His plan can wait for a bit.
"I.. I'm not sure if I'll get in or not.. because.. because most of them must be trained people while I'm not.."
Mingi scrolled the screen down, pointing the curser at the ending of the post.
"Here... they've mentioned the audition criteria here . They are looking for the application of personal works too. That's why I made this. I'm not good at dancing but I can give it a try..since wooyoung and San are good at it they can teach me some moves, in case they ask me to dance. I made this file if I get rejected I can send this to some other companies where I possible can't audition in person"
Yunho's eyebrows furrowed at the last words.
"You can't audition in person means "?
Mingi let out an unsteady breath.
"I mean.. somewhere outside Korea.."
It hit yunho hard. Yunho have no doubts that mingi will pass or not. He's sure Mingi will. But what if he won't? And what if he manages to get into somewhere outside Korea? Which means mingi have to move outside Korea. And yunho will never sabotage his princess's dreams. How long it'll take mingi to train and how long for him to come back. Yunho know for a reason that he'll do anything for mingi. Moving out with Mingi isn't an issue for yunho comparing to the sacrifices he have done to mingi all along. But yunho doesn't want him to be a diversion for mingi. He himself isn't sure mingi can manage his love and his dream at the same time. Yunho felt insecure about their relationship for the firstime. It scared him.
".... let's not think about it at the moment.." yunho was taken out from his thoughts at mingi's words. Yunho noticed mingi's fingers trembling on the tab.
"The audition is next week. The coming Monday. I've send them my profile already. I wasn't expecting a response from them since my CV looked pretty plain. My academic achievements not gonna work here anyway"
mingi chuckled, making yunho relax a bit from the unsaid tension between the couple.
"But..can..can you come with me to the audition"?
Mingi tenses as he saw yunho's eyes went from him to the screen and back to him in unsureness. He shouldn't have asked.
"Ugh..Monday right ?
I really wanted to princess but I've work. I've skipped a lot because of the exams and I can't anymore. Am so sorry.."
Mingi sighed at yunho who took his hands over his to apologize.
"Okay.. it's fine..I..I can ask wooyoung and San then"
Mingi wanted to spend some more time with yunho , maybe go with yunho to the elder's place. But yunho left after ten minutes saying he have something urgent to do. Mingi wasn't dumb. He could feel something was off and he noticed the reason to.
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Almost a three days passed by. Mingi rarely got calls or texts from yunho. All he wanted was yunho's words of assurance. Assurance that mingi could do it. But he didn't. Mingi have told wooyoung and San about the audition and his bestfriends were more than happy about it. Every now and then they pull mingi from his bed to teach him some moves and they kept saying how mingi was so quick to catch up the moves. Exaggerating or not , mingi felt confident. Other times he spend by repeating the song again and again , sometimes falling onto sleep at the thoughts of yunho. The day yunho sang for him.
"Yunho just because you have good tolerance doesn't mean you can just keep drinking the whole day"
Hongjoong deadpanned as he fall back to the huge couch in yunho's apartment, trying his last straw to stop yunho who's on his fifth bottle of soju. His eyes turned to seonghwa in a hope that his boyfriend could do something about it. Seonghwa took the sign , to gently tug on yunho's hand , taking the glass from him and keeping it back on the table.
Yunho's drunk eyes followed the Seonghwa's actions, but he didn't try to protest. Hands falling back to his neck , groaning loudly.
The rest of the boys gave him a worried look.
"For fucks sake yunho you're overthinking"
Jongho said making yunho groan again as he shut his eyes , the alcohol intoxicating his brain.
"I'm not !!! Am not!!!
When it comes to my mingi whatever I thinks is rational. Cuz i love him"!!!
Yunho slurred out , struggling to make coherent words.
"We didn't say you're not.
But you are just imagining things like Mingi gonna choose some company abroad when he'll clearly pass the audition for the one in Korea. You know he'll pass it better than anyone jeong yunho"!!!
Yunho's eyes wide open at the words.
Staring at hongjoong at the elders words. Yes yunho knows that better than anyone. Mingi will pass.
"What If..what if he won't.. what if he don't wanna..."
Yunho is blabbering again.
"What if that what if this...
This is what we said you're overthinking!!
You could never doubt mingi's love for you"!
Yeosang let out his words in frustration. Yunho doesn't make any sense at this point.
"That's the problem!!!
That's exactly the problem!!
I'M THE PROBLEM!!
What if he choose to stay here just for me? Just for our love"??
He didn't get any response from the four people sitting around him. Making yunho chuckle at himself. Grabbing the shot of soju on the table and pouring it to his throat.
"I'll never make mingi choose between me and his dream"
That was seonghwa's breaking point . He haven't said a single word during the whole time. He knew in someway, yunho made sense to him. He'll be doing the same for hongjoong.
"It's for MINGI to choose"
Seonghwa's voice echoed in the large apartment. Eyes shifting towards the eldest amoung them.
"It's MINGI to choose in between YOU or his DREAMS. And let HIM to do that. You have no right to choose what's best for him. It's his life. If he want you then it's his choice , if he wants his dreams. That's also his choice too "
Yunho's loud cries filled the room in seconds. Nobody said anything. They watched the strongest amoung them crying out loud on the floor , sinking his head to his knees. The let him. They just let him.
Mingi's bite onto his lips as he struggled to keep his cries from the people sitting on the living room of yunho's apartment. Tears flowing nonstop from his pretty eyes , palms coming up to wipe them but finding his mouth to hold himself from not screaming out with his heart breaking down into pieces. They failed to notice the door opening and mingi stepping onto the living room only to halt his movements at the ongoing conversation. He wasn't eves dropping. His body betrayed him as he found himself pressed on the wall hiding him from them. Mingi stood there , listening to yunho.
"That's the problem!!!
That's exactly the problem!!
I'M THE PROBLEM!!
What if he choose to stay here just for me ? Just for our love"??
Mingi couldn't believe what he just heard. Yunho wasn't wrong. Yunho was never wrong with his words. He'll choose Yunho over anything. Yunho is his everything, everything that he want in his life. He don't care what he gonna lose in his life unless it's his hyung. But he don't know, he isn't sure if he's ready to give up on his dreams. He would never leave yunho , never in his seven lives. But what about his dreams then?
Mingi cried silently as his tears dripped down to floor , locking the door as silently as possible and mingi ran back. He can't listen to yunho's cries. It's breaking Mingi to the point he felt he's going insane.
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Two more days pass by. If you ask how's mingi and yunho. They don't know about each other. Mingi had a mental breakdown that night. He snuggled himself to sleep for a day straight. Eventually ending up crying for hours. Wooyoung and San took care him as he fell sick one day , not having an idea about what's going on with Mingi.
Yunho was no better, he haven't moving from the same spot for the whole day. The boys were there. Yunho kept waking up from middle of nowhere then screaming and yelling them to get him more alcohol, when they refused he tried to go by himself, only to fall on his fours at exhaustion. The boys watched their ray of sunshine falling apart.
One more day pass by. Mingi woke up with two thoughts.
Today is his audition.
And yunho haven't contacted him for last three days. Mingi knew he could simply contact yunho or the others. He wanted to know how his hyung is doing , is he doing okay. But mingi wanted this day to be over.
His audition.
He made up his mind already.
He know what to do and he don't care who gets hurt by his action.
Just as Seonghwa said , it's his life and he can choose whatever he want.
Despite of having serious issues with anxiety and stress , mingi never faced the peek of the tension and nervousness as he's feeling at the moment. San and wooyoung made sure to make mingi go to bed early as possible, but unlike what they thought he'd be doing, mingi found himself wide awake the whole night.
Rolling over the bed , shifting across. His hearbeat was never normal. At a point he just wanted the next day to pass already. When wooyoung came to wake him up he was already on the bed with his headphones on and eyes closed as he leaned back on the headboard. He was listening to it again and again. Yunho's memories dropping onto him one by one at every single words. He can't help but wonder why nothing can go normally with him. Whatever mingi wanted in his life ,he have to get through a lot for that. Either he wins or he loss pathetically.
He barely ate two pancakes which was literally forced down his throat by San that he need energy for the audition. Without any pressure, mingi let wooyoung to choose his outfit for today. A loose blue cardigan and a pair of casual jeans. According to wooyoung it suits the vibe of the song. Mingi didn't even give it a thought.
Wooyoung and San couldn't help but smile in adoration at their bestfriend, who was walking out from his room with the guitar they gifted him. Mingi have the charisma in him. For a second he looked like a rockstar who's gonna perform infront of a huge crowd.
The drive to the company took almost an hour. San and wooyoung kept giving mingi the mental support he needed at that time , even if it wasn't same as the one he was expecting at the moment. Despite of having no knowledge about these auditions, San and wooyoung watched a handful of YouTube videos and tried to feed that into mingi's brain during the whole ride . Mingi asked them not to come with him inside.
"You sure you don't want us to come in"? Wooyoung asked , unbuckling his seatbelt.Incase mingi let them accompany him.
Mingi shook his head. Taking a last look at the rear view mirror. The first time he looked himself on the mirror today. Wooyoung didn't try to compel. He nodded in understanding.
Turning towards mingi , pulling the younger into a hug. Mingi let himself wrapped around by wooyoung. Closing his eyes momentarily.
"You got this okay"?
Mingi nodded through the hug , he could feel his friend smiling behind him.
San step out the car along with Mingi , keeping his door open to pull out the guitar , handing it over to mingi. Mingi felt San has been pretty silent during the whole ride. Pulling San into a hug , mingi patted his back , somehow calming himself down.
"You can do this mingi.
Am sorry but am just so nervous about this. And the absence of yunho is scaring me" mingi's hands stopped at those words , he waved away the thoughts creeping inside him. Yunho knows today is mingi's audition. True that he asked him not to come with him but atleast a text or a call was a bare minimum.
"I'll get going yeah?
I'll text you guys when I'm done"
Pulling away from San , mingi leaned into to the window to give a smile at wooyoung at the driving seat who was showing him thumbs up.
Mingi watched their car drive away from the building. Turning his heals back , infront of the building.
Just as his friends said 'you got this '
In someway mingi doesn't care if he won't pass the audition. It was never in his plans. Needless to say , mingi was quite impressed by hongjoong. He respected the elder and mingi thought hongjoong knows things better. The fact that seonghwa trusts hongjoong with his life only says one thing. Kim hongjoong knows what's right. And he simply followed the elders advice. He only knows what he wants but how to get it , mingi isn't informed about that. Maybe this is the way. If this doesn't work he just gonna shrug it away.
Clutching his guitar to himself, mingi walked to the building. Taking a simple glance at the surroundings , the company looks new and it proves why they were actually willing to audition people, himself without any prior training.
But the crowd definitely didn't give the feeling of a new company. Mingi have heard a few tracks they released at their socials, mingi was pretty impressed by them. He felt that their songs connects to mingi's vibes. That's why amoung all the existing companies, mingi decided to try his first shot here.
Mingi wondered how talented those people might be. He eyes trailed through a small queue at the reception, people getting badge from there. He might be late that almost everyone are seated and some people are out of seats as they took nervous steps left and right. Taking a spot at the end line.
It didn't take much time to be his turn. The asked for his name as well identification proof , handing him over a badge with a number , 287. He's the 287th participant. The number itself was enough for him to question his chance to pass. But anyway he's here , he's gonna give it a shot.
Mingi leaned back on the wall , hands reaching up to his own chest to calm his nerves down. As the clock ticks by his condition only got worse.
"45 lee jaewon" he heard the announcement.
Mingi watched the guy getting up from the first row of Seats infront of the reception. He looked pretty confident, mingi wished he could do the same.
He eyes left the door closing after the guy entered , resting at the empty spot . He waited for a few seconds to see if anyone else wanna take a seat. But nobody did.
Mingi found himself pressed against the chair ,his palms resting on his face as he tried to take deep breath to to get a hold on the situation. Mingi can't mess this up.
"It's okay if you feel nervous.
This audition isn't the end of anything"
Peeking through his fingers , Mingus eyes caught the guy sitting beside him. Giving him a expressionless look.
"What's you name"?
Mingi hesitated a bit. But he felt his system is getting calmer by that.
"Min..mingi..Song mingi"
"So...song mingi what do you do"?
"Huh"?
The other guy chuckled at mingi.
"I mean what are you gonna do for the audition? Like dance or sing or rap? You got a guitar so you probably be playing it right "?
Mingi took a look at his guitar resting at his foot , getting back to the guy.
"Umm..no.. am not good at it. I learnt a specific code. And I'm singing"
Mingi offered a smile back.
"Mmm.."
"What's your name "?
" I thought you'd never ask.
It's Kim minjae. And I am planning to sing "
The talk went on for an hour almost.
They watched some people coming out in some minutes and some even took almost 10 to 15 mins. While some came back in a few seconds. At the end of the conversation mingi and minjae even ended up sharing their contacts , Incase they both fail this they can go to another one together. Mingi wasn't sure if he's gonna audition again but he couldn't say no to minjae.
Minjae's number was 198. Mingi almost jumped onto his new friend to ask him how did it went , he somehow wanted minjae to pass it. He could feel the passer dripping on the younger's words. He felt maybe minjae deserves it that him.
Unlike mingi minjae was cool about everything. He simple shrugged saying it was okay. He just sang and that's it. Mingi couldn't read his expression or maybe he's just bad at reading people.
Thirty minutes pass by. After a few people it's mingi's turn. He should be nervous about what's gonna happens inside the four walls. But mingi kept checking his phone , looking for a particular name to pop up at the screen. Nothing came. Is yunho okay?
Mingi wasn't disappointed on yunho. He could never. But what about him? Did he disappointed him? That the elder simply choose to ghost mingi for a week. Anyone else would've assumed the current situation in the most negative way. Yes MINGI is an overthinker , but when it comes to yunho or when it comes to him and yunho he knows yunho will never him down. Their love isn't a tug of war of emotional play. Mingi just wanted to day to to end. Whether it's with a good or bad news , at the end of the day he just wanna be on yunho's arms. He just wanted the elder to tell him he did good. That teaching proud of him.
A sudden beep on his shook him up from his thoughts , fingers messily tapping the password, opening the phone. But his face fell seeing wooyoung's and San's text , wishing him again. Mingi still has hope. Yunho will surely text him. Yunho will never let mingi face this alone. He even promised mingi that he'll be beside him for anything until the end right?
"287
Song mingi"
Mingi switched his phone time , as he felt continuous taps from minjae beside him , the other thought mingi just zoned out at the phone. He took a last look at his phone again. He should text yunho.
Mingi's eyebrows furrowed as he picked up the guitar from the ground, one hand holding his phone , typing the password away but messing up typing the wrong letter. An annoyed groan left his throat, walking towards the door while he kept trying to unlock the phone. Without himself knowing his steps froze right infront of the door. Eyes beaming as he finally managed to unlock it.
He eats failed to decipher the murmurs and whispers around him watching the boy typing in his phone right infront of the audition room.
"Hyungie Mingi gonna go in now..."
Before mingi could hit the button the announcement broke in again, this time in a higher volume.
"287 ,
Song mingi last call.
If failed to present then your application will be cancelled "
Without taking a last took at the phone he stuffed it inside the back pocket. Opening the door rushingly.
The door opened to a series of room , the first one saying audition room. In a matter of seconds mingi's hands fumbled across the doorknob as he turned it down , stepping in without looking ahead.
Closing the door behind him ever softly. Mingi stood there waiting for the instructions. His nerves wrecking at the tension of the silent room, fingertips grabbing onto the hard surface of his guitar.
"Take a seat"
Mingi mumbled a small thank you, taking nervous treads forward , a table and a chair came to his view. Pulling it backward carefully not to disturb the silence in the room , he took a sit. Anxiety picking up inside him but mingi have to get a hold on himself. He can't mess this up. For him , for yunho. For everyone who trusts of him.
Mingi raised his head , to look at the people on the other side of the table.
They were three men , dresses up in ever so casual outfits. Their face doesn't show anykind of positiveness. They only intimidated mingi. Mingi gulped, this is not gonna go easily.
Mingi tried to give them a small smile but he knows it didn't work as their face still remained emotionless.
"So..."
Mingi eyes learnt every move of the man , sitting on the middle of two. His hand picking up a form , most probably mingi's application form. His eyebrows raising as he went through the sheet of paper infront of him.
"Song mingi right"?
Mingi nodded obviously.
"According to your application I can see you have no prior experience. Do you think you could impress us with whatever you have prepared for today "?
Mingi was left dumbfounded. He never expected them to ask him questions like this. He thought he could just simple do whatever he could and just leave. Now that they're questioning him the same thing that he have been asking him since he applied for the audition. The obvious answer for him is no. He don't think he can impress them with that. But he can't just say it like that. He can do it.
He'll do it.
Mingi had simple one thought in his head for the last week. Mingi will pass the audition. Apart from Yunho's worries that mingi will leave him to another country , then the elder is wrong. Mingi will make sure to get in here. If not then mingi will simply go with his own plan he had way before. If that also doesn't work he doesn't care just living his life as jeong yunho's husband. He don't need a second thought to give up on his dreams to be yunho's. He hope next life they will be born as themselves, as yunho's mingi. Maybe there mingi could make his dreams come true.
"I think a better reply is to show that I can do" mingi said , confidence pouring into his body. Just a mere thought of disappointing yunho made Mingi's nervousness switch back to courage. The will to make everything right. To be with his love of life. Mingi knows yunho went through everything just for mingi , just to find Mingi and just to be together. He broke yunho multiple times. Finally he's his now. Mingi will never ever lose yunho in his life . He's ready to go any far for that.
"Well let's see. Go ahead"
The one on the left said , the paper fell on the table softly. Mingi's eyes immediately averted from them , he felt they are oozing out his confidence. Mingi was always surrounded or mingi let himself surrounded with people who always showered him with assurance who always made sure to let him know that he can do everything. Maybe that's why when he finds himself in a situation when someone doubting on his abilities, mingi feels himself weak.
He still haven't learnt how to let others perception not to affect him this badly. Again , he wish Yunho was there.
Adjusting the guitar onto his lap , mingi's fingers experimentally ran over the strings ,the delicate fingertips fell on there , room echoing on them. Mingi gulped his saliva from his almost dry cavern. He can do it.
He will make yunho proud. Mingi's eyes closed slowly , as his fingers started playing on the guitar strings.
"Why is it so hard?
What did I do wrong?
In one drink, yeah
Do I let it all out? Yeah
**Uhh..no..yeah I mean yeah he's up and he's showering right now. He said he'll be down in a 10 mins"
Mingi heard the guy said , internally thanking him and the door shut behind the guy .
He strode towards the door , locking it from inside , leaning on the door on his back . His throat felt completely dry.
Thoughts flooding up on his head . Whose that guy ? Why's he here ? He saw mingi in skirt he must've grossed out. Is he gonna tell his parents about his weird kid? And why does his eyes made mingi feel uneasy inside? ****
***"Oh and do you remember yunho"
Mingi's head snapped back at the mentioned name. Yunho ? How could he know
"I don't think he does by the look on his face" Mingi shuddered at the deep voice , slowly turning to man seated on the end of the cushion, one hand on his chin and other one on his left thigh. The same smile on his face.**
**"I..I am sorry but .. I don't think I've ever saw you before , and you have never saw me before too.." mingi said still not looking at yunho on his eyes but fidgeting on jonghos sleeves.
"Can't blame you though. We barely used to talk when we used to meet"
Used to meet?
"Yunho stop confusing mingi I feels like he's about to have a breakdown." He laughed nudging mingi to sit down and taking a seat next to him.
"Mingi yunho is my cousin. We used to hangout at his place back then you remember? I wanted you guys to keep in touch but yunho eventually got transferred to another city"***
**"Hey..
Princess ,
It's yunho here. Sorry to text you without a warning , i got your number from wooyoung.
Just wanted to let you know that this is my number.
So that next time, I can call you on your phone , rather than barging into your room , as much as like the view everytime , that's still disrespectful.
You don't have class tomorrow right.
Have a good sleep "
Mingi stared at the text .
Suddenly another text popped in the screen , from the same number.
"I got you a bagel from the shop earlier, I've kept it in the fridge. Please make sure to take it with you when you leave
Good night again "****
****Wednesday 10:30
Princess..
It's me yunho..
Can we talk ?
Please?
I can explain
Please give me a chance....
11:00
Mingi...
PLEASE...
REPLY
I'm going to your place
I can't wait anymore. I have to talk to you rn
11:10
I met wooyoung, he said he'll let you know when you're back...
Will you be coming home tonight?
Should I wait for you?
Please I know I hurt you but give me a chance to explain
11:15
Princess..
I'll leave now. I'll come tomorrow morning . Before you leave to school
Can I drop you off ?
Will you be fine with it ?
Please reply when you see the texts...
I..I can't ..."****
***Yunho hyung
"Is my pretty princess sleeping already"?
Mingi felt butterflies fluttering in his stomach. Finally hearing the words princess from . He felt relieved that yunho doesn't sound mad at him anymore. He typed back instantly.
"No.."
He stared at his own dry text. Started typing again
"What about hyung "?
Yunho hyung typing....
"Not yet..."
"Then you should hyung... it's late "
Mingi replied back
"Okay...
If my princess says soo..."
Mingi hugged the phone towards his chest instantly. "My princess " . God he's going crazy at this moment. A single word can make mingi feel hundreds of emotions.
"Good night "
He texted back.
"Good night to you too princess "
He got reply in a second. Mingi turned off his phone , turning back to yunho again to see the light is off now.
That's when he felt yunho's body shifting, mingi's breath hitched when he figured out yunho have turned to his side now. Facing mingi at the moment. Mingi didn't take his eyes off. In the dark , mingi could see yunho's eyes shining and a small smile forming at yunho's lips ****
"You know the worst people in the world"? Yunho asked , still sitting on the seat
"Huh"? Mingi asked his confusion
"They are the people who hurt others because they just can't be as good as them" mingi didn't get what yunho meant so he just blanked stared at yunho blinking his eyes. Yunho chuckled****
***Yunho hyung:
Slept?
You:
Not yet
Yunho hyung:
Why princess?
You:
Don't know
Yunho hyung:
Hmm..
You: what about hyung?
Yunho hyung:
I also can't sleep.
You:
Why?
Yunho hyung:
Maybe because a pretty princess is sleeping beside me but he doesn't even care go give me a hug to sleep.****
Why is it so hard"?
What did I do wrong?
In one drink, yeah
Do I let it all out"?
****"Tell hyungie , how does it feels"?
Mingi came out of thoughts, hand slowly feeling his own member.
"It feels good hyungie..."
"Is your hands inside darling"?
"Nu...no.." he really wanted to put it inside , just like how yunho did last time. But mingi is a good boy. He waited for yunho's instructions.
"Then put it inside baby..."
Mingi didn't wait for any second , right away sliding his boxers up as his cold palm met his hard dick , leaking the precum.
"It's... it's so wet hyungie.. Mingi's so messy.." he let out apologetically pouting through the phone.
"Hyungie likes his princess messy.
Don't worry yeah"?
Mingi nodded
"Now take your princess part on your hands , hold it around your fingers"
Mingi did just as what yunho said.
"Mhmmm...hyungie..."
"Feels good right? Now can you spread the mess over your dick ? Can you do that? Hyungie promise it'll feel good" mingi knew , mingi knew it'll feel good***
***"Yeah? Princess want hyungie to fucking pound of to him"?
Yunho piped in , picking up his pace.
His dick pounding into the unimaginably tight hole.
"Aahhhh fuck... loosen up a a bit darling..hyungie could barely move" yunho laughed through his grunts only for mingi to clench around the elder harder.
"Ugh aaaahh so good so good..Minnie feel so good.."
Yunho sturdy hands reached under, lefting Mingi's legs up and pressing Mingi's knees up his shoulder.
Mingi wailed out at the sudden stretch , his glory hole visible to yunho more and the better angle making yunho go insane.
"See that greedy hole swallowing me up...such a slutty hole..."
Holding a second and yunho pushed himself much more deep and mingi saw stars around him.
"Ahhh hyungie there.. something there..." Mingi legs shuddered on yunho's hold.
"Gotcha " yunho mumbled, repeating the same action again and again to the same spot , forcefully making mingi scream out by his gspot being abused. His balls hitting mingi's ass continuously. The room echoing on wet skin slapping and mingi's and yunho's moans and whimpers.
"Ahh hyungie..daddy..gonna pee..ughh..gonna come mingi gonna come.."
Yunho don't have an idea about what the word had done to him but he himself felt reaching to the point.
Mingi back arched, matching with yunho's thrusts as he pushed himself back to the , tears of pleasure soaking them.
"Fuck princess...daddy too...daddy gonna cum deep inside your hole yeah..? Yunho's pounding became irregular, a series of curses left his mouth.
"Want..Minnie want it..please...Minnie gonna come too..ahhh"
With a loud scream his whole body shook vigorously as his sight went blank and he senses being knocked out. Hot cum spurted out of his dick continuously, splashing into to his stomach and yunho's stomach as well as his face.
"Take it princess..
Take hyungie come like a good boy you are.." ****
On this night, night
Even the moon is crying on this night, night
Find a place for my heart, my heart
Where can it rest?
****Enough"!
Everyone instantly went silent at yunho's loud yell , raising his head up from the table and now glaring at each and every single on of them .
"Yes I did it. So what ?
He have been getting onto my nerves for a long time .He really expected me to just watch him take Mingi onto a fucking date?
I did it and I'll do it again. I won't let anyone get in-between me and mingi "*****
****"Hyungie..."
Next second mingi was lifted up from the ground by two pairs of strong hands carrying him from the ground. He clutched on the others shirt.
"Princess don't cry. Hyungie is here" yunho whispered assuringly. His heart aching at the sight on mingi's face. His jaw is bruised , the blood from his forehead staining yunho's shirt and mingi's small eyes are sore and cheeks glistening in tears. Mingi was on yunho's arms almost lifelessly.****
***"What you said were for real"?
"Huh"?
Yunho glanced down, mingi asked as he let yunho thread his fingers through his hair. Mingi wasn't crying anymore.
"That you were calling off the marriage"?
"Yes. It was supposed to happen anytime but I didn't get a chance" yunho nodded, sighing in relief. Everytime he spend time with Mingi he was drowning on guilt. Everytime mingi smiles at him , all he wanted is to marry the younger and make him his forever. Now that it happened finally yunho can't be more happier.
"Really"?
Mingi lifted his head up , staring at yunho for the elder to say it again . Maybe deep inside mingi was still confused. What if it was just a heat of the moment. From what yunho said mingi understood how important is yunho for his parents and how much they mean to yunho too , unlike mingi's. He can't relate. So what they gonna say if they comes to know that yunho called of the marriage. But he trust yunho. He trust yunho's words. He want to hear it from the elder's mouth.
"Yes really. Cuz I've someone else" yunho stated with a glint of tease in his words while he kept his eyes to the field.
"Who..who..."?
Please say my name please say my name please.....
"A little princess called song mingi.
But i don't know if the princess will accept me as his prince"
Yunho said , pulling his lips out in fake sadness.
"Yes yes yes yesssss
Hyungie is mingi's prince***
Memories flashed on mingi's visions , the first day they met , the first time they talked , the first yunho called him princess , their first kiss , the night Mingi gave himself to yunho , when he heard the words "I love you" from his hyung. Mingi could see everything. Without himself noticing tears started streaming down from his eyes , but his fingers never wavered. His voice never shuddered. He kept going , in a trance to prove everyone, to prove everyone that mingi isn't weak. Mingi can make everyone proud . He gonna prove he's worthy for yunho.
"On this night, night
Even the moon is crying on this night, night
Find a place for my heart, my heart
Where can it rest?
I don't care, I don't care, no
Why am I feeling down?
This complicated world, no, my heart
It bites onto me and doesn't let go
I don't know the answer, my head hurts
Adults say that youthfulness, this one word
Means sadness as joy and to enjoy the present
They only say words that are hard to hear..."
Mingi hand fell down to his laps as he breath through his mouth , sniffling through the nose. That's when he realized his eyes have been leaking the whole time . The droplets sticking into his pretty sweater, eyes still shut, mingi's heavy breath reverberating through the walls.
The lack is response from the other side made mingi catch his senses back. Wiping his nose by the end of his sweater paws , his eyes fell on the men sitting there . Giving him a much more relaxed expression than before.
"How was it dude? Did you do well"?
"Ugh..I..I don't know.." mingi simply replied to minjae, plopping down to the same chair he sat before. Still sniffling , he could feel the dry tears in his cheek.
"Well you've done you best. You can wait outside with the others until the results are announced. We wish you the best"
Mingi expected either they gonna tell him he did good or they gonna let him know that he messed up badly. Both didn't happen. The subtle response only made mingi more nervous.
The audition was completed after almost 2 hours.Now that the waiting area was completely silent. Eventual cough and prayers could be heard. Minjae looked pretty confident about his results. Mingi could see that.
All mingi could wish was he would pass too , along with others. His childhood, his future. He lived for this . The only thing that made mingi felt alive. His dream. At the same time mingi was someone else's dream. While mingi was waiting to for his dream to bloom , yunho was waiting for mingi at the other corner.
Mingi have to win this.
For his dream and for his hyung's dream. Mingi felt tap on his thighs as his eyes , along with the three hundred people turned their head to the speaker. God.
"Good afternoon everyone.
First of all , we appreciate everyone who participated in the audition. Needless to say , chosing only ten amoung them was a pretty difficult task but we had to. So let me announce the name of the successful one. Once again we wish all the best for everyone who gave their best. If you couldn't manage to pass this audition, something better is Waiting for you "
Mingi shifted in his seat anxiously. There it is. A part of him is sure he'll get in. He did his best. Mingi went through every possible hardship in his life. Now it's time for the good things to step onto his life. Life can't be cruel with him anymore.
"First successful participant is , Contestant number 87: Park junmin..."
Mingi heard the loud scream a few rows behind him..feeling genuinely happy for whoever it is.
"Second one , Contestant number 22: Choi sumin..
And the third participant is , Contestant number 156: Ham jinsik..."
Everytime mingi's heart took a loud beep , ears waiting for his name.
"Fourth passer is , Contestant number 198: Kim minjae"
"Fucking finally.."
The boy cursed under his breath as he took a loud sigh of relief. Mingi smiled at the younger, feeling genuinely happy for him. Minjae smiled back , tapping mingi's shoulder
"You'll too" he said
"Fifth successful participant, Contestant number 102: Choi hyunwoo.."
"Our sixth one is ,contestant number 228: Kim junghoon"
Mingi's nerves shrinking in disappointment , everytime someone else's name fall on his ears.
"Seventh one , contestant number 134: Park seeun"
"That's my friend" mingi hears minjae beside him.
"Eigth one is ,contestant number 257: Jung yujin"
Again , not his name.
Mingi's body slumped back to his chair. His palms found his laps , his bowed down. Mingi prayed , prayed for his name. He can't let his life fail him everytime. He prayed pathetically. To give him a chance. A single chance in his life . He deserves a happy ending.
"And our second last successful participant is , Contestant number 19: Papung-korn Lertkiatdamrong"
"Sounds thai"
Mingi could hear minjae's comments beside him from time to time. He felt his hope fading away every time. One more member. The last trainee for the company. The one mingi wanted to hear his own name as. If not then this is the end of song mingi's story. Song mingi will be inscribed as the most hated creation of the god. Life never give him anything that he wished for. And this will prove if his 22 years in this world was worth the try. He can't fail infront his dream and his yunho.
Please my name.
"And our last , our final successful participant, the last trainee in our company is..."
Please , mingi's foot stomped on the floor non stop. A series of please let his soft lips. Life can't be that cruel to let him fall pathetically again right?
Contestant number 98: lee yechan.
Congratulations "
Mingi's whole body froze at the words.
Mingi's name was never called. He isn't one amoung the ten successful trainees in the company.
He doesn’t know how long he’s been sitting like this on the bus stop. Every bus passing by, stopped anyway , waited a few seconds then drove off. He was snapped out from daze at the loud chattering as beside him. A bunch of small kids with backpacks heavier than themselves. They were pushing each other, laughing, taking bites of each others popsicle. His red swollen eyes , which looked even larger at the starlight tread to the right, where two kids sat down. A girl and a boy, the girl seemed taller and much sharper.
“Are you coming tomorrow”?
Before the boy could even form a thought, she cut in midway.
“I’m not if you aren’t”
The boy took a bite from the *melon* popsicle again, taking few seconds to recover from the brain freeze. His words slurry enough for just her to understand.
“I amm gooing! We arzhe going togethezh. Imma ask mama to make extra cookiesh for you”!!
Followed by both of their laugh. By then the next bus stopped right infront of him. The kids threw the half each popsicles back carelessly and swarmed the bus like little bees. Struggling with the backpacks. The driver gave Mingi a look, his eyes darting to the information system on the right.
“Boy, this is the last bus of the day”
He said curtly, waiting for a few more seconds for Mingi.
Last bus of the day. I need to take this to get home, get home.. get home for..? For what? To Wooyoung and San waiting to celebrate his debut? Or to tell em he haven’t got it? Or for Yunho? The man who haven’t even texted him for days.. the man he just know that Mingi will choose Yunho over anything..
The driver open the door again seeing Mingi stood up from the bus stop seat, his shadow falling over the other side. But Mingi turned to the other way and started walking. Causing the driver to curse under his breath and the kids laughing under their breath. His feet dragged him through the slope down the company streets . Mind flooding with disappointment on himself..as his world falls down below. Now what’s the point is anything? And in the end it’s all his fault. His fault for believing yunho’s words that he can do it.. he’s talented… and surely his fault for intentionally losing the flow at the audition, clearing his throat after every line.. for zoning out about yunho… and all for what? To fail the audition. To not go anywhere far from yunho.. So that yunho won’t beat himself that he’s the reason Mingi didn’t get selected. The company simply didn’t chose him. End of it.
But then why is he sad? Why does his chest ache..? Why does the reality make his heart stumble upon its rhythm?
“I’m sorry but our Mingi can’t come to the camp tomorrow”
“But Miss, he gave his name and his supplies are packed like other kids”
“We will pay the compensation ma’am”
His mother’s eyes found him through the side. The 7 years old Mingi stood not so far from his mom, holding onto the table leg, a shiny wrapper on his hands that he found so interesting at the moment. Tomorrow his school is going on a camp. The one he planned to wear his new shoes for. His friend jaehyun said his sister went there years back and Gwacheon camp has fireflies in the dark.. If you manage to catch them you can ask them a wish..
“Our Mingi.. ugh..he’s not actually good with doing things alone you know.. he gets a bit lost at time..”
Little Mingi’s eyes finally dart away from the golden shiny wrapper in his tiny fingers, the one he found as the same light of the firefly.. he wanted to say something , that he can manage alone. That he wanted to see fireflies , he wanted to look for those tiny wild strawberries, that he wanted wear those trekking boots as he walk through the trees..
“Mingi might’ve felt pressured from the other students to give his name as well. And camp has lot of things to do by themselves.. He’s not..I mean he’s not that great with anything. He need someone to do everything for him. And that might be a bit burdensome..”
his mom whisperer urgently and hanging up before the teacher could even respond. She sigh in relief that she managed to cancel the camp. Turning to Mingi with a sweet smile as if she saved him from the disaster of the day tomorrow might be. She bent down to his level, wet hands from doing the dishes , resting on his little shoulders.
“Don’t worry my baby. Mama have fixed it okay? Tomorrow let’s go the park beside mama’s work place and play there till night okay “??
She smiled enthusiastically, Mingi, forcing a nod and smile through his crooked teeth.
Next day he spent the evening at the park, watching the other kids on the slide , on the sand making castle, some running around— tripping— their mom picking them and the kids scurrying away again. Mingi sat at the bench. His backpack still on. Remembering his mama, who stayed with him for 10 mins and left Mingi to ‘play’ by himself.
“Mama has some errands to run. I’ll be back right quick okay? You can play here—but don’t run around. You might fall. And the slide , you can’t manage to land. The sand is too rough here. You can’t play with them “
So what else he’s supposed to do?
‘You might He need someone to do everything for him ’ ‘he’s not that great with anything’ ‘you might fall’ ‘you can’t manage to land’
That’s exactly why Mingi was here. He wanted to prove that he’s good at something.. he can manage something all by himself. That he don’t want Yunho dotting for him everytime. But then in the end, like his mom always said. He can’t do anything by himself . He need someone—-his Yunho hyungie to do everything for him.
He almost stumble as gasp as a car skid on the opposite side of the road. The bright light causing Mingi to squint. Grip tightening on his shirt at panic. The light turned dim as the windows rolled down. The man with glasses with an expressionless face, he seemed in hurry. But in an errand he can’t avoid.
“Song Mingi right”?
Mingi manages to nod, no words coming out of his mouth. His mouth felt dry the sole amount of time he spent at the bus stop crying and starving since morning. Other than the surge of fear inside. The man exhaled the smoke left in his mouth, almost looked like he’s doing Mingi favor. Finally turning to Mingi, sliding down his glasses. His expression gave nothing away.
“You can call me ED. Heard you’re upto audition. Our company is in creation of a new boyband. Well, auditions are already done but we might need one more member. We have already got an audition clip, don’t ask me how. We might need a final interview before going forth. Tomorrow, here”
The man shuffled a business Id from the car, offering it to Mingi. Extending it all way out right infront of Mingi’s face seeing Mingi unresponsive . Mingi was still in daze. What the fuck is happening. The only thought he could process was, god is there and this might be a second chance. Take it.
The grabbed the card almost instantly and stuff into his pockets. Bowing at the man until the car jerked away through the streets.
He grabbed his phone again- the instincts. Opening yunho’s chat . The unsend texts from early audition was still in the tab.
“Hyungie Mingi gonna go in now...”
but Yunho hadn’t sent him a single text yet. For a week. Does he know that Mingi failed the audition ? No.. he haven’t told anyone. He haven’t even opened san’s and wooyoung’s texts and calls. The might be worried but he’s even worried of hyung. But Mingi didn’t let his overthinking take over him. He still had time to make his hyungie proud . Tomorrow, after tomorrow’s interview , he’ll pass this time. For Yunho. And he’ll fix this. He’ll fix everything. If Yunho thinks Mingi is gonna choose Yunho over the audition. Yunho is not wrong. Mingi did chose Yunho, before Yunho chose him. But this time he’ll make sure to choose himself too.
He sent a last text to Yunho
“Hyungie, your princess loves you”