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He looked at the sky, the Sun was brighter than he thought, almost blinding him…Maximus had aimed well, but it will not be enough to kill him, he had to survive, for you…and his baby…he still couldn´t believe it, his own flesh and blood…speaking of which...he could feel blood slowly coming out of his wound, thick, warm, damping his hair, tainting his white clothes crimson red…the arena was silent, as if they were shocked he had fallen…he was simply resting, catching his breath…he felt a bit tired now…he wanted to close his eyes and sleep...he managed to turn his head to look at you from afar, so beautiful, pure and…afraid, why were you crying? He wanted you in his arms, dry your tears...he would do anything to feel your skin against his right now...suddenly, he felt strength coming back to his body, as if the gods had wept and gave him their strength to finish the fight so he could have you in his arms once again. He clenched his jaw, as he pushed himself back up, gritting his teeth at the pain in his neck, blood coming in his mouth, his armor felt heavy on his shoulders, he felt slightly dizzy but that won´t stop him, no one will push him away from you, not now that he was finally happy and loved...he finally saw Maximus, he was limping, on the verge of collapsing.
Slowly Commodus, took one step after another, his eyes never leaving his enemy, until he was finally before him, he wanted this to be other with, without a second thought he pushed his blade into the gladiator´s flesh, he approached his face closer to the man´s.
“Go. Find your wife and son Maximus…” he murmured to the man, all traces of hatred gone to be replaced by respect, Maximus had almost won against the Emperor. The man heavily collapsed on the floor, his eyes closing as he took his last breath.
He was dead, for good now. And Commodus had won, finally showing who he was, the legitimate Emperor of Rome…he lifted his left arm in the air, yes, he was still standing, and the people started to applaud, timidly at first, then Commodus heard people screaming “Commodus the invincible!”, he couldn’t help but smile at this nickname, the crowd was now roaring, calling his name, they loved him in the end.
Suddenly, from the corner of his eyes, he saw one of the entrances to the battleground open, a silhouette running towards him, his vision was blurry, he squinted his eyes to distinguish who was coming towards him in such hurry; until he recognized you, tears of relief and happiness started to run down his cheeks, he gathered all the strength he had left to walk in your direction and finally heavily collapsed in your arms.
“I got you, it’s going be okay, you’re going be okay” you assured him and to yourself at the same time, there was so much blood; tears were running down your cheeks too, you wished his armor wasn´t on him anymore so you could feel his heartbeat, be sure he was alive, he was panting against your collarbone, his blood staining your dress; but you couldn´t care less, right know your priority was to get Commodus out of the bloody sand of the arena.
“Commodus, my love, you have to keep going.” y ou told him encouragingly, gently slapping his cheek to keep him conscious, y ou didn´t want him to lose more blood by crossing the arena, but the senators who doubted him were still watching , like vultures around a wounded animal, if he crosses the arena without falling unconscious he will have earned their respect...as cruel as it was...
He took a few ragged breaths, trying to find strength to lift his head from your shoulder, he gave you a trembling smile, his eyes foggy, at least he was still responding to your calls, that was a good sign. You moved to the side to pass an arm around his waist and put his other hand on your shoulder to support him, one by one he weakly moved his feet under your encouragements, the crowd cheered louder, they were seeing him as demi-god now. The pretorians , even the General saluted him as he walked. Falco and others senators who supported Commodus had entered in the arena to congratulate their emperor.
“Y/N... the Empress will...be in command as I recover...” he ordered as you arrived close to them, some of them looked briefly surprised but then bowed they head respectfully. There were a few meters left until he was away from the look of the People.
“You can do it love, we’re almost there.” you encouraged him once again, tightening your grip around his waist as you felt him stumble. When you finally arrived backstage, Commodus ’s legs gave way, he collapse d on the floor, physicians were instantly around him to look at his bleeding wound.
“I won Y/N. ..d -do you...think father would have been proud?” he asked you with teary eyes and a boyish face as he seized your hand, you knelt next to him, kissing his knuckles fondly.
“He would have been proud of your bravery and proud that you kept your promise to come back to me.” you answered with worried smile, tears in yours eyes; all he ever wanted was to be loved by his own family.
“Good...good...” he repeated feeling relief wash over him. His eyelids felt heavy, his eyes started to flutter until they closed, the grip of his hand on yours disappearing.
“Commodus? Commodus!” you panicked as he laid still, no he couldn’t, not now! one of the physicians quickly went to check his pulse.
“He’s alive but he needs care, we need to stitch his wound fast, as soon as we reach the palace... ”
“No do it here.” you objected urgently.
“But... ”
“That’s an order, the crowd is gathered outside, we will take too much time to reach the palace.” you interrupted him harshly, there was no time to lose.
“Very well, my queen.” Answered the physician as he bowed his head respectfully. You didn’t want to let go of your lover’s hand but the doctors needed space to take care of him properly, they took off his armor and opened his shirt, fully revealing the extent of the wound, there was a lot of blood, part of his shirt was soaked in it. You were in shock, your eyes never leaving his bloodied body, how could a human lose so much blood. Lucius came to stand by your side, worried by his uncle state, as for Lucilla, she barely looked at her brother and went in the arena, probably to go see Maximus dead body, you clenched your jaw, she dared to show openly she cares more about a gladiator rather than the Emperor himself.
“Bring me tepid water and vinegar!” the doctor ordered to a guard nearby, who in return ran to get it in the gladiator's sick room; he quickly came back, giving it to the physician; as he cleaned the wound which was deep in his collarbone, he realized it hadn’t stop bleeding, he looked at the other physician who got up asking for the dagger of the general, who had joined you. You frowned, what did he want to do?! The General looked at you waiting for an answer.
“The wound is bleeding too much, we have to cauterize it!” explained the man urgently, you quickly nodded as you understood, embarrassed that you had briefly thought about such thing. The physician heated the blade in the flames of a lighting fire; soon, the blade became bright red, you winced when you imagined the pain Commodus was going to go through, the doctor took it, approached the Emperor’s body, he lowered down the blade on his skin, generating smoke and the smell of burned flesh, you put your hands on your mouth at this horrible smell, and it worsened, the pain was so intense that Commodus came back to consciousness, screaming, the other physician was holding him so he would hurt himself as he struggled to break free from the pain, Lucius grabbed your waist, burying his head in your dress under the shock, you covered his ears with your hands trying to lessen the sounds of the screams of his uncle; you wanted to run in his arms and appease him but it was for his own good, if he wanted to get through the night.
As the doctor took off the blade, Commodus’s head collapsed in exhaustion, sweat on his forehead, he was panting exhausted, until he went unconscious once again.
As they made sure bleeding had been stopped, Commodus could be brought back to the imperial palace, the people had assembled along the avenue leading to the palace, chanting his name, what a shame he had to go fight in the arena to be respected...as you arrived at the palace, the doctors still had to stitch the other wound on his arm and prepare medicine to help in his recovery; despite the fact that they encouraged you not to watch this and go rest, you stayed by his side, you won’t leave him, not until you were sure he will be out of danger.
“He is stabilized, there shouldn’t be any complication.” you sighed in relief at those words “however he will need a lot of rest and good care, he has lost an important amount of blood” recommended the physician as he dried his hands on a piece of cloth. You offered them a good amount of gold to thank them for their excellent work, now the physicians of the palace will watch over him. Commodus was placed in your common bedroom, probably the place where he would be the safest and the more at peace to heal.
You gently sat down on the mattress, afraid that any movement could hurt him or awake him in his very needed sleep. You had asked a servant to bring you a bowl of water and a clean cloth which you damped and gently applied on your husband sweaty forehead, you couldn’t help but be worried for him, it wasn’t a peaceful sleep, he was slightly frowning, in pain, it was as if even sleeping was difficult for his mind and body. Quietly, you moved to the other side of the bed, and lied down, underneath the sheets, fully facing him, you scooted closer to him until your forehead was brushing against his arm, very gently you placed a feather like kiss on his burning hot and freshly stitched wound, your hand went down to caress his forearm, until you reached his hand and entwined your fingers with his. You hoped he could feel you, feel that he was not alone, not abandoned, you will always be by his side until the end.
You didn’t sleep much that night, you always tried to stay awake to make sure he was alright, that he was still breathing. And he did, but he didn’t wake up, it was probably normal, due to his exhaustion but deep down you couldn’t help but think that he might never wake up, it’s something that could happen right? You shook your head chasing away those negative thoughts, the fatigue was probably responsible for this state of mind. You dressed yourself up but didn’t leave the bedroom, something could happen to him while you're gone; but then a servant knocked at your door, you invited them in, he was accompanied by Falco.
“Forgive me for disturbing your vigil my Queen...” he apologized inclining his head. “I am coming on behalf of the Senate to inquire on the state of our Emperor.” he added formerly. You touched your lover's forehead with the back of your hand, it was cool.
“He doesn’t have fever; and he didn’t get any complication, it is a good sign...but he didn’t wake up yet...” you explained on a sad tone blinking away the tears forming in your eyes.
“He is a strong man, he showed it to the entire Empire yesterday...” he said in a way to reassure you, you pinched your lips together, thanking him with a small worried smile.
“I am also coming for a second reason...the Emperor has given you full command of the Empire, the Senate is requesting your presence, while Commodus is recovering, the Empire has to continue living in order and peacefully.”
“I understand.” you nodded, remembering Commodus order, you suddenly realized what he said and felt pressure build in your chest, you were going to rule the Empire, all by yourself, well there was the Senate but still, it was a great responsibility. So, you asked to your most trusted men to watch over the Emperor; as you started to leave the bedroom, from the corner of your eyes you noticed the small form of Lucius behind a column. Soften by his sudden shyness you smiled at him, he came out of his hide and came to stand in front of you, looking in the direction of the bed where was laying Commodus.
“How is my uncle?” he asked you worried; you caressed his head comfortingly.
“He is still sleeping, he needs a lot of rest.” you answered softly, the young boy lowered his head in disappointment, he was worried and he wanted talk about this epic fight with him
“I promise you; you will be the first one to know when he wakes up.” you added, his head shot up and he genuinely smiled “you can stay by his side if you want.” you offered, he happily walked to the bedroom, standing next to his uncle. You smiled, he really loved him like a father. You left for the Senate relieved to have another person to look after Commodus and who care about his well-being.
The session with the Senate was surprisingly calmer than you expected, most of the senators were friendly to you and open for dialogue. Thankfully for you, you only had to deal with daily tasks, there was no Empire matter for now, and you appreciated the input of the Senate, it is true that they tend to speak and debate for hours, simply opposing their view on matters, and that was the problem, now that you had heard their point of view, you thanked them for their input and decided what to do.
“What about the speaker for the assembly? since senator Gracchus betrayed the Empire, we don’t have any.” asked a senator, supporte d by the voices of his colleagues, they were probably expecting to have Falco, chosen, after all he had been quite close to Commodus since he started. However, to appease the Senate, it was better to give them the choice.
“Well, dear senators, I leave you this decision, vote, and I and Commodus shall respect the voice of the Senate.” you declared, and you were right, they were pleasantly surprised, it will take a few days to elect a speaker; you decided to take your leave, you had to write a letter to tell your parents you were expecting, and then you had another matter to take care of...Lucilla.
Speaking of which, you found her in front of the imperial bedroom, she wasn’t authorized to get close to Commodus, not until you talked to her. When she noticed you, you motioned for her to follow you for a walk.
“How is Commodus?” she asked, you scoffed ‘ as if she cared about his well-being.’
“ Don’t tell me you’re worried for him now. You conspired with Gaius and Gracchus...” you retorted, not even looking at her.
“It was for the good of Empire and... ”
“Oh yeah? And what good is that?! He did nothing wrong but quicken the process of decision for the Empire...and he’s your brother! If you had supported him, he wouldn’t have ended up in the arena, you wanted him to be killed out of cold blood!” you snapped letting out your anger.
“He killed my father and Maximus’s family!” she hissed in response, ‘ touché ’ you thought.
“Oh, I know about that...what has happened cannot be changed Lucilla and. .. I understand why he did it...except perhaps for the gladiator’s family...” you recognized honestly.
“Then you know, he is not a sane man!” you shook your head with a sad smile.
“Before we arrived in Rome, I remembered a loving sister, who would do anything for her little brother. Lucilla, please listen to me when I say that he is changing, with me he is going better, he only wanted to be loved and make his father proud...please I don’t want to lose you, you’re my friend...” you begged her, taking her hands in yours, hoping she would feel your sincerity, despite your anger for her the past weeks, you still remembered her kindness, she stayed silent for a few seconds, until a strangled cry escaped her lips, then tears ran down her cheeks.
“Come here.” you spoke as you took her in your arms, caressing her hair, she was torn apart as you had reminded her the affection she used to have for her brother.
You stayed with her until she calmed down, you had managed to convince her to give him a chance, otherwise you had promised to convince him to exile her and Lucius, where she would live away from him.
You left her to go back to Commodus, you approached his bed, his sleepy breathing was steady, as if he was only sleeping, peacefully, you found yourself smiling, you were eager for him to wake up and be in his arms, kissing and giggling just like before. As you arrived at the bed you noticed a form curled up next to your husband, it was Lucius, he was sleeping, you smiled, it made you think about the little being growing inside your belly, made with love, Commodus will be such a good father you knew it, and Lucius will be happy to share his life with another child. You asked a servant to get Lucilla to pick up her son, then, you sat down next to the boy, gently nudging his shoulder to wake him up.
“Is it morning already?” he asked groggily as he opened his eyes, you chuckled pushing away the strands of hair he had on his eyes.
“No but you stole my place in the bed.” you joked; he released a playful smile, until it faded to be replaced by a more serious expression.
“Why does my mom and uncle hate each other now? ”
“They...don’t hate each other, deep down I believe they care about each other, it’s just... ”
“Is because of the gladiator? ”
“Partly yes.” you admitted, still he was too young to fully understand the truth.
“I liked him, he was a great warrior but uncle is even stronger, and he is my family...I was sc. ..I prayed he would win against the gladiator, because family is the most important and Rome needs its Emperor.”
“Exactly.” you replied tenderly caressing his cheek, you heard Lucilla’s steps coming closer, she helped Lucius up.
“Sorry...” she apologized, quickly laying her eyes on her for the first time since the fight, a hint of worry seemed to flash through her eyes.
“Don’t worry, he simply cares a lot about Commodus and I appreciate someone caring for him while I’m away.” you responded patting the head of Lucius, she wished you goodnight, and you finally went to bed, snuggled against your lover, your hand on his belly, lulled by his calm breathing.
The next day you offered to organize some honorific funerals for Maximus, Lucilla was very thankful to you for that and Lucius too; after all he was a great gladiator and former general, he deserved some respect. Part of the people who had seen the fight saluted his body as it came out of the arena, paying respect to him and then going back to their occupation. You didn’t go, Lucilla was the representative of the imperial family.
And you were busy with the Senate and as you worked with them days after days, you were convinced that Commodus needed to keep the Senate but simply use it differently, you hoped that he will accept to hear you on this matter. You missed him so much, his voice, his touch, you could only hope he would wake up soon...
“I am pleased to announce you that our wheat stocks are full again, it should be able to cover 2 years of bad harvesting if it were to happen.” you announced to the senators, they clapped pleased that it had finally been resolved.
“We will honor the Emperor for this excellent news and you too my queen.”
“Oh thank you I...”
“He’s awake!” interrupted you the voice of Lucius, he was out of breath, he had run to get you, your heart stopped at this news.
“The Senate can handle the rest of the matters for today, my queen.” said Falco, you didn’t need to hear it twice and ran alongside with Lucius to the bedroom, he was finally awake! You finally reached the bedroom, almost feeling apprehensive. You came next to him you climbed on the bed, kneeling at your sleeping place, his eyes met yours, they were tired but alive, he seemed so relieved to finally see you, you felt your heart flutter, you would have thrown your arms him if he wasn’t wounded in the neck, you felt your eyes going wet, your hand came up to caress his cheek. Your other hand took the cup of water you had asked for and brought it to you lover’s lips, lifting his head with your other hand to help him drink.
“You’re here” he stated his voice still hoarse with the sleep he had.
“Of course .”
“I thought... ” he started but then quickly got back to himself “ I can’t think straight without you.” he clarified, seizing your hand, planting millions of fervent kisses on your skin, gods you had missed his touch so much.
“I’ve noticed...” you teased him trying to lighten the mood, but then you couldn’t resist against your true emotions, your smile faded, tears threatening to fall.
“I thought I lost you” you let out, tears rolling down your cheeks, you laid your head on his torso, careful not to touch his healing wounds, you closed your eyes listening to his heartbeat, yes he was alive, his heart was really beating, you felt him move his left arm, ignoring the pain to wrap it around your body, so you could snuggle closer to him now, brushing your cheek against his.
“I’m sorry.” he apologized, his voice quavering, tears starting to run down his face too “gods Y/N I’m sorry, I’m sorry...” he repeated over and over as he cried in your neck, desperately grabbing the fabric of your dress. You had been so terrified for him, your happiness could have vanished and who knows what would have happened to you and your baby; now he had realized what terrible thing he had done, he could have lost you, forever...
You stayed in each other arms for hours, any other need was secondary now, your cries calmed down to be replaced by silence, enjoying the other’s peaceful breathing, exchanging some sweet and gentle kisses from moment to moment, staring at his gorgeous green eyes that were full of adoration for you.
“Will you sing something for me?” he murmured hopefully after a while, you smiled in response, and started to sing softly in his ear, it was only for him to hear, it was a lullaby your mother used to sing for you when you had trouble sleeping, Commodus sighed in serenity nuzzling against your cheek, his arm hugging you tighter as he was overwhelmed by your voice; he quickly fell back asleep, exhausted, he still needed to recover, you didn’t move, even if this position wasn’t the most comfortable for you, you wanted to stay wrapped in his arms the whole night, you felt like it was the only way to protect him from the others and from himself...
“Hey don’t do that you’ll hurt yourself” you scolded him as he tried to get out of bed.
The next days weren’t easy for Commodus, he had been authorized by the physicians to sit in bed but nothing more, and it was becoming unbearable to him, he was simply bored when you left to accomplish the imperial duties. He had realized how precious and unique his time was with you, he wanted to spend all his time by your side now that he was loved and respected by the people. Thankfully his nephew spent a lot of time with him, talking about his fight or playing board games with him, it distracted him while waiting for you; Lucilla still didn’t dare to talk to him, especially when you weren’t there, who knows how he will react.
That is when you decided to take care of the matter, Commodus was simply ignoring her existence, but you knew that inside he was truly heartbroken, you had to do something.
“I think you should give her a chance to redeem herself.” you advised him, soothingly stroking his palm with your thumb, he sighed, angry tears in his eyes.
“Why?”
“I talked with her and I believe she never realized how much you were suffering...I’m not sure she will ever forgive you for what you did but you can try and if it doesn’t work out then she will be exiled.” you suggested.
“Why not kill her? That's what we do to traitors...”
“Think about the consequences! Lucius would be heartbroken if his uncle killed his mother and you can be sure he will become a bigger problem than Maximus ever was.” you insinuated, Lucius is, unless you give birth to a boy, the legitimate heir to the throne of Rome.
“I don’t want to lose him...” muttered your lover looking at his hands, Lucius was like a son to him. So, he finally accepted to talk to his sister, you stayed as she came in, you wanted to make sure things would go well. And it went quite well, they were distant to each other at first until the conversation evolved into an argument but at least they were honest in what they said to each other until it died down. To your surprise, Lucilla came to sit on the edge of the bed, next to her brother, she took his hand, he finally looked at her in the eyes, his eyes wet as he was starting to hope he would get his sister back, the one who would teach him lessons, be there for him when he needed. You hid your smile at this scene, maybe you will be a complete happy family after all.
Still, since the fight in the Coliseum , Commodus had even more nightmares than before, and those were violent. You were woken up by him jerking awake, panting.
“Love what’s wrong?” you asked him, you felt yourself becoming quite awake looking around in case there was someone, but no, he had another nightmare. Slowly you rest your hand on his, he jumped at the contact, probably thinking he was still in his nightmare but the moment he turned his head and met your eyes who were shinning under the glow of the small lamps in the room, he burst into tears, ignoring the pain of his wounds he grabbed you into his arms, burying his head in the crook of your neck, his tears wetting your skin, you caressed the back of his head, reassuring him by whispering tender words into his ear. As he started to calm down, he told you about his nightmare.
“I was in the arena...he had wounded me the same...” he sniffled, tightening his arms around you “but I died...they left me laying in the sand, alone...even Lucilla and... you...didn’t even look at me, you cried for Maximus...” he sobbed, tears coming back.
“Oh Commodus...” was the only thing you could say as you closed your eyes, planting a kiss on his collarbone, you didn’t tell him but you were having similar nightmares since the fight, you understood how terrible it felt, how many times you had woken up in the middle of the night, your hand searching for him and when relieved that he was there, you would place your ear against his torso listening to his steady heartbeat, you often cried as silently as you could, you didn’t want him to feel even more guilty than he already was...
Of course, the following morning, you were sure he wouldn’t let you go away from his arms; he had stayed in your embrace the whole night, and when the morning came, he hadn’t moved. To be honest you didn’t want to move either, and since he woke up, the need to feel him, make love to him was growing inside of you. So, you decided you wouldn’t leave without doing something this morning, and it could only make him feel better; teasingly you started to plant kisses along his jaw, nibbling his earlobe, then you went to tease the sensitive skin of his neck, you smirked as you felt him wake up, his hand went to caress your back, he hummed please to be waken up this way.
As you kissed his collarbone, your hand went under his tunic to caress his belly, you felt his breathing starting to increase, he let out a needy moan to your great pleasure. He couldn’t engage in any kind of physical activity but you could pleasure him in this way, you wanted him to feel desired, that there was only him you would ever taste....
Your fingers went to play with his now hard nipples, then you slowly went down on his body and placed yourself between his legs, he lifted his head to look at what you were about to do, his eyes were clouded with desire, and the vision of you between his legs hardened his member. You lifted his tunic to plant kisses on his lower belly, then his hips until you were stopped by the underwear where your lover was now feeling compressed, you took off his underwear to let out his erection, you looked at Commodus in the eyes as you took it in your mouth, he threw his head back on the pillow at the sensation, letting out an aching grunt.
He moaned as you licked the bottom of his length, then his fingers buried deep in your hair as you tongue lick its length to the top to capture him in your mouth once again.
“Y/N... Y/N...” he begged in an aching tone. You were going to give him satisfaction, playing will be for another day, you increased the speed of your mouth on his shaft, your tongue expertly licking the tip while your hand moved up and down around his length. You felt him ark as the orgasm reached him, his seed filled your mouth, tasting like salty honey, you licked your lips and went back up trailing gentle kisses on his body before capturing his mouth in a tender kiss.
“Love you.” you breathed against his lips, he was still panting, he happy sight left his lips, then you straighten up to leave the bed and attend your duties but before you could, he catches you by the arm, making you fall back on him, this time he took the lead, deeply kissing you as if he was still starved for your touch.
“Stay” he pleaded against your mouth with a desperate tone.
“You know I can’t but I’ll be back as soon as it is finished...” you promised, giving him one last peck on his mouth.
However, you had more work than planned with the Senate and as you got back you had to talk to him about a less pleasant subject. Fun will have to wait later, unfortunately ...
“No.”
“Commodus at least listen to my arguments...”
“Why are suddenly fond of the Senate? Did Lucilla do this?! Or was it a senator?” he accused, watching you warily.
“Of course not! Listen I have been assuming your duties for several days now and it made me realize what a colossal task it was...every single moment I wished I was by your side rather than in the Senate or in you study and you know I enjoy politics but this...it’s too much.” you explained, hoping he would believe you, he sighted, shaking his head in defeat.
“What do you propose then? Give full power to them?” he asked in a tired tone, looking at you in the eyes, it was as if he was hurt by your suggestion.
“Of course not! Don’t be silly! I’m talking about restructuring the duties of the Senate, I think you should leave to them the daily tasks and you could still take those decisions but you don’t have to, all the time I mean; you would have full authority over bigger matters, it would give you a bit of time to breath, no one can handle the whole Empire on its sole shoulders and think about the advantages, the people will still like you, they won’t make the difference between the Senate and you and it will allow us to spend more time together.” you explained truthfully resting your hand on his.
“I would exclusively handle the matters of the Empire, trade, wars, peace...” he thought, looking ahead of him, deeply thinking, it seemed your idea was starting to make sense in his mind.
“Exactly.”
“I would be recognized for that...and I will be in your arms, watching over you and our child” he finally seemed to realize the benefits of giving up a small part of his power. He turned his head to look at you in the eyes, his hand seizing your chin, the pressure was firm, making you remember the danger he sometimes bared in his mind.
“Kiss me” he whispered hoarsely, his eyes possessive, determined. So, you leaned closer to him, placing your lips on his, you could feel tension radiate off of him, his kiss was authoritative, demanding, he wanted to feel in control, so for once you let him do as he pleased, fully taking possession of your body, still he never hurt you and made sure you were feeling pleasure, pleasure that only him made you fee.
The next days he was finally authorized to leave his bed and resume to his duties, he was truly impatient, he wanted to see how Rome was going, what did the Senate think of him now that he had won? what else could he do to increase the empire’s reach and glory? Although, he didn’t feel the same urgency as before, and it was probably because all of his enemies had fallen, and maybe because he had other things to care about now, you and the child you bared each day was becoming is top priority.
So of course, it felt strange to you, when you didn’t see him the whole day, especially after watching over him for days and nights. Fortunately for you, you could spend time with Lucilla again, you were glad she had accepted to give Commodus a second chance.
You caressed your belly that was slowly was starting to extend to make room for your child, a smile formed on your lips, it felt surreal.
“How do you feel?” she asked you affectionately, serving you a cup to drink.
“Good, really good actually, a bit dizzy sometimes, nothing I can´t handle...I hope everything will go well.” you replied, your head full of questions.
“It will, you are a strong woman and you will be surrounded by the best midwives of Rome, you will deliver a beautiful and healthy baby” she tried to reassure you, resting her hand on yours.
“I will honor Devera and Lucina to have their protection” you decided, you will go as soon as you can to pray.
“And I will too, you’ll see the moment you will lay your eyes on your child; gods I remember with Lucius, it was as if the world around me had disappeared, it was just him and me. My husband would sometimes get jealous at the attention Lucius was getting!” you laughed at her comment, imaging a similar scene with Commodus.
She briefly looked past behind you, you frowned but then thought she had simply been distracted by someone, a servant passing by. Until you jumped as you felt arms close around your waist, you instantly relaxed as you recognized your husband scent as he planted a kiss on your bare shoulder.
“I´ll leave you two to it” teased Lucilla as she playfully grinned at you. You made a face like ‘ what is she thinking!? ’ She silently chuckled then, left to give you intimacy .
“I missed you.” Commodus breathed against your ear, his voice sending shivers down your spine, his hands went to caressed the small bump on your belly.
“I missed you too, a lot.” you replied, closing your eyes as you enjoyed his warmth surrounding you, you stayed in his embrace until he gently spun you around to make you look at him, he had a boyish grin on his face.
“I have a surprise for you.” he announced as he slides his hands around your hips
“Really?” you asked excitedly, you put your arms around his neck, caressing the back of his head, he briefly closed his eyes at the sensation, it always made him melt.
“Yes, you deserve it” he praised, reopening his eyes to look at you.
“What do you mean? I didn´t do anything special” you asked intrigued at his words.
“You did many things that I will cherish until my last breath...you love me when I thought I never will be loved...” he started; his voice charged with emotion “you made me fall for you, which I admit is not something easy to do” he joked, you giggled “you supported me through so many ordeals, and now you have this child growing inside of you, I never dreamt of such beautiful gift.”
“Our child, I wouldn´t have it if you didn´t help” you teased winking at him, he chuckled tenderly looking at you, gently he cupped your face, and placed his lips on your forehead to giving one of those extremely affectionate kisses of which he had the secret.
“Come, we are going out.” he took a dark cape and put it on his head, he didn’t want to be recognized, and he gave you one too, tonight it will be just the two of you, anonymous in the streets of Rome and no one else to disturb, still you noticed Commodus carried his sword around at his hip, just in case.
You came out of the palace, saluting the guards as you did so, at the bottom of the stairs was waiting a young man, probably a young legionnaire in training, he was holding the rein of two vigorous stallions. It had been a while since you had ridden a horse, since you left Gallia actually, it’s something you always deeply enjoyed, become one with the animal and gallop freely in the fields was unique.
“Thank you young man, here is for you” said Commodus as he handed two golden coins to the man who seemed happier than ever to be payed so well. You went to face the horse, approaching your hand from his muzzle and resting your hand on it, caressing his head up to his forelock.
“Oh, and we’ll take just this one.” added your husband as he took the rein of the stallion you had been petting. You looked at him surprised.
“What? You thought I was going to let you ride a wild animal in this condition? Tsktsktsk out of question.” he explained, you hid a smirk, he was becoming so protective of you. You went to stand in front of the side of the horse, putting your hands on his back; as for Commodus, he bended to take your left leg and help you up, you finally settled on the animal, you watched as the young man came to help him up.
“Are you sure you can ride a horse with...” you gestured to the wound on his neck.
“Yes, it’s much less painful now.” he climbed on the horse, and secured you between his arms, your back resting against his torso, you felt his warm breath caressing the skin of your neck.
“Ready?” he asked, you turned your head to look at him.
“Ready for wha-!” you screamed as he gave a sharp heel kick making the horse instantly gallop, you grabbed the hair of the beautiful animal, laughing openly at the speed you had reached, the swaying motion, the fresh air hitting your face, Commodus was laughing too, he felt free, it was music to your ears, you didn’t hear him laugh this much since those days after your first night together.
The streets were full of life tonight but Commodus took the calmer streets to avoid hitting someone with the horse at full speed for several minutes, until you reach a green area, in the middle of Rome, it was the first time you were seeing this place, it looked so peaceful.
“The temple of Vejovis is in there and it’s a beautiful area to walk...” commented Commodus as he had slowed down the horse, when you had entered the park of the temple, the both of you got off the horse and started to walk towards the temple. The area was magnificent, nature all around a pond was right in front of the temple, you felt Commodus fingers brush against yours, almost timidly as if he was asking the permission to take your hand, so you turned your head to look at him in the eyes and smiled, his eyes lighten up as if he couldn’t believe you still loved him, he locked his fingers with yours, sighting happily.
The both of you entered the temple, it was lit by several lamps, a statue of Vejovis was in the middle of the structure, surrounded by offerings, you went to kneel in front of the statue, Commodus took a few steps to stop in front of the altar.
“Be well, revered Vesta, Goddess of the flame, may you look favorably upon this rite.” he first said as he ignited the fame of a lamp at the feet of the statue.
“Divine Janus, may you be well, may you look favorably upon me, may this oil find favor with you.” Commodus took out a small vial of what you assumed to be oil, he had been hiding it under his cape, he put it on the offering's altar,
He took a step back to kneel next you, his hands resting on his thighs , opened and turned towards the sky, he lowered his head and closed his eyes.
“Noble Vejovis, God of healing, I pray to you, may you look kindly on me. I express to you my gratitude for saving my life, guiding me in my healing process and giving me a chance to be happy and loved and accomplish my duties. I ask your grace and favor that you might protect Y/N, my wife as she bares life in her womb, a good health for her to be in my arms for many years and safe delivery of our baby is all I ask...May you know the sincerity of my request by this wine that I offer, may it find favor with you.” he got back up a placed the wine vial on the altar, then saluted the statue respectfully.
“I am grateful for your hearing and I shall cherish every moment you have granted me.” he finished, he turned to face you, helping you to get back up. You were moved by his words; you cupped his jaw.
“Thank you.” you expressed, he tenderly looked at you as he placed a kiss on the inside of your wrist.
The both of you continued to walk outside hands in hands, enjoying the silence and peace of the place, you stopped at the bank of the pond, taking off your sandals, you put your feet in the fresh water, Commodus lied down, his head resting on your lap, one foot in the water, he looked at peace as he watched the stars shinning in the sky, your fingers went to lightly trace the contours of his face, his eyebrows, his cheekbones, his smooth and soft cheeks you enjoyed to caress so much, the bridge of his nose, the small scar on his upper lip that made him unique...and his lips, those gorgeous lips that loved your body, he was beautiful and you loved him, so much that it hurt, so much that you were willing to accept the darkest aspects of his mind...
“Something’s troubling you.” stated Commodus, your eyes met his, you had been so absorbed by your thoughts that you didn’t realize he had caught you. You knew there was no point in lying to him, you just didn’t want to ruin the moment.
“I’m not sure we should talk about this right now.” a slight worried frown formed on his face instantly. He straightened up, his head leaving your lap.
“Are you alright? Is it the baby?” he asked frantically scanning your face and body for any sign of pain, the fact that he instantly thought about the two of you made your heart ache at was about to follow.
“No, we’re fine...” he sighs in relief “I was just thinking...about something Maximus told me...” upon hearing the name of the man he killed, he thought he would never his name again, his face grew cold, his face eyeing you warily, if you didn’t know him better you would think he was furious at you, but in fact he was terrified, what were you about to tell him?
“He...told me what you did to his wife and son.” you finally revealed, he froze, it seemed he had stopped breathing, your heart was beating fast, you didn’t know how he would react; he swallowed down, his eyes wet. He avoided your gaze, ashamed and feeling terrible he never told you...
“What didn’t you tell me?” you asked as gently as you could, you had felt hurt that he had hid this from you.
“I guess...I don’t know...” he articulated, he looked lost in his thoughts.
“Why would you order such a terrible act? They were innocents...”
“I don’t know!” he raised his voice, stressed out, he quickly met your eyes feeling bad for shouting at you; he blinked away a few tears, he was breathing fast, panicked.
“Hey, hey look at me.” you urged as you took his face between your hands, he finally looked at you in the eyes, helpless.
“There is no excuse for what I did, I just...did it because my pride was hurt, I murdered innocent people Y/N” he finally confessed, it was a terrible thing to admit, but nothing can be changed anymore.
“And there’s nothing you can do about it but recognize what you did...” you erased a tear with your thumb, then you brought his face closer to yours to kiss him, a desperate moan escaped his lips, you wanted him to be reassured, you still loved him, and nothing will change that. He separated from you, his hands on your shoulders, looking at you in the eyes.
“How can you still love me?” he asked you desperately.
“I don’t know...but I do and I always will Commodus, as long as you love me in return and are a good, fair Emperor.”
“I promise I will never disappoint you ever again” he swore on a pleading tone, you smiled at his sincere oath.
“While we’re at it anything else you want me to know of?”
“Huh...I love you?” he tried, his brow wrinkling, he had a really cute expression right now, like a child who had just been scolded, wanting to be forgiven and loved, and in return you couldn’t resist, you gave him a quick peck on the tip of his nose.
“Love you too honey...sorry, I didn’t mean to ruin the surprise you made me, it makes me so happy!” you apologized; he released a chuckle.
“No, it’s...it’s my fault. I’m actually glad we are honest with one another...and the night is not over after all, we have all the time to make it up...”
“You don’t have work to do tonight?” you wondered surprised
“Well, it can wait one night” he responded to your great joy as he captured your lips once more, laying you down on the grass to show you how much you meant to him and how insignificant he would become if he lost you.
When you couldn’t hide your belly anymore announcing a nice and steady pregnancy, after several weeks more; you and Commodus decided to announce the news to Rome well the news will spread across the city after announcing it to the senators and some nobles who had been invited for the occasion, a great feast had been prepared, nobody knew for now the reason for this celebration, they were talking, laughing and eating.
“The People will talk about this fight for centuries!” exclaimed a noble excitedly, lifting his cup in the air to honor the Emperor who nodded at him in return. It is true that the fight had generated an excitement among the people that had never been seen before, now your lover was called ‘ Commodus the invincible’; some people even compared him to Hercules and represented him on vase or other pieces of arts as such, and Commodus heart swelled at so much love from the people.
You looked at Commodus in the eyes, he grinned excited, it was time to announce them, he got up of his seat, the room going quite as they waited for his speech.
“Senators and dear citizens of Rome. I invited you today for a very special occasion, one that it is very dear to my heart.” he turned his head to meet your eyes, they were full of tenderness.
“Y/N my love, the Empress of Rome is expecting a child...” the people present started to applaud but Commodus stopped them doing so, silencing them with a gesture of his hand, he wasn’t finished.
“The gods have blessed us as they are giving us a child made with pure love and possibly an heir to guide and protect the Roman Empire...” his eyes never left yours as he spoke, he extended his hand to you, inviting you up, next to him.
“When I became Emperor, my life was nothing but full of darkness, anger...and tears...but you entered my life, and you became the light in my darkness …" he swallowed down as his emotions rushed inside of him, tears coming into his eyes, he protectively puts his hand on your belly, discretely your thumb stroked his palm reciprocating his feelings.
“You made me a man, you brought me your clear-sight, you forgave me my sins and you loved me unlike any other...and for that my entire existence will never be enough to express to you how grateful I am...my Empress.” he finished bowing to you with infinite respect.
As Commodus finished his speech, the guest applauded and cheered to this news, even if Lucilla knew she discretely erased a tear rolling down her cheek, the speech of her brother had truly moved her. As for Lucius he had never paid attention to your belly before or maybe he had just thought you had gotten fat, so he was beyond excited when he heard the news, it’s like he was going to have a little brother or a sister he could spend time with!
Several months passed and brought you closer to the day when you will be delivering, Commodus wounds healed faster than expected and he recovered his full capacity to train and fight as before. However, each day Commodus was getting more protective of you, to the point that he wouldn’t let you do anything, he would be constantly by your side, which worried you, it reminded you of that time where he wasn’t going well and had ended up in the sand of the Colosseum.
“Commodus what are you doing?” you questioned him dumbs trucked as you watched him take pieces of food from your plate, he continued to chew the piece of food he had stolen from you.
“What?” he articulated mouthful; he didn’t understand what bothered you.
“Well why are you taking food from my plate?” you insisted
“I have to make sure it’s not poisoned in case our taster is compromised too.” he replied on a casual tone, you blinked a few times not sure you had heard well.
“So... you have someone tasting my food...and you are tasting it too in case the taster wants to kill me...” he swallowed down at your tone, like a child being caught doing bad things.
“Well...”
“Commodus you can’t do that, you...” you took a deep breath to calm yourself, getting mad at him won’t do any good “you are getting paranoid again, don’t you remember what happened last time?” you finished on a gentler tone, resting your hand on his.
“Oh...” he seemed to realize the behavior he had “but what if...I don’t want to lose you and our baby...” he worried, distress in his eyes.
“Everything will go well brother; the people and the whole Empire love you and Y/N, the risk of having someone attempting your lives has never been so low” tried to reassure Lucilla
“And I will protect you!” exclaimed bravely Lucius, lifting his fist in the air, making you release an amused smile.
“Still...” he replied, he didn’t really want to stop.
And he didn’t, he remained overprotective afterwards which often led to you getting mad or crying, apparently it was something pregnant women often had, extreme mood swings. And Commodus would feel terrible for making you feel this way, thankfully Lucilla was always there, she would take him away to let you breathe or encourage him to comfort you.
And things weren’t so bad after all, he was also very affectionate...
“So, how’s our little one today?” he cooed as he propped himself in the bed next to you, caressing you belly, you chuckled at how cute it was, for the past weeks he had taken the habit to talk to your womb. Often you would strip into your underwear to let him kiss the bare skin of your belly.
“Oh love! put your face against my belly it is moving!” you exclaimed in joy as you felt your baby wiggle in your womb, Commodus rested his cheek on your belly and started to laugh in joy as he felt the kicks of your baby, your fingers went to play with his hair as you watched his amazed face, as if the baby knew of his worries and by moving, was telling their father “see dad I’m alive and well and I will meet you soon!”, a happy tear rolled the cheek of your lover.
“Do you think it’s a boy or a girl?” he asked excitedly, moving his head to rest his chin on your belly and look at you.
“I don’t know, in any case I will be the happiest mother in the whole empire. Do you have a preference?”
“A boy would give me an heir and I would teach him many things but a girl with your beauty and intelligence would be a blessing too...” he replied his mind imagining of what it would look like.
“I guess we will know soon enough...” you grinned; Commodus peppered your belly with sweet kisses.
Another thing with your pregnancy is that you felt all different kinds of desires at any time of the day, sometimes you just wanted to eat a very specific kind of food, and the need was so strong that you would wake up your husband in the middle of the night, sleepily he would go to a servant and ask them to bring what you desired, and he would even stay awake, keeping you company until you get back to sleep. He also spoiled you in every way possible, you couldn’t believe how he would do all these things for you, the biggest surprise he had for you was probably when he announced you that he had made your parents come to Rome and as he told you this a messenger had informed him that they would be arriving the very same day and stay until you delivered the baby, your heart had swelled in your chest, it had been almost two years since you had last saw them, so when they arrived, you had ran and jumped in their arms, well you couldn't hug them as close as you wanted too because of your belly but at least they were there. They were relieved that your new life was going well and that you were happy, your mother had been dead worried when she had seen you leave in a poor emotional state, she had feared Commodus was to be a terrible husband that he would even hurt you; well the first weeks with him were...terrifying to be honest but as you had learned to understand each other, despite ups and downs it had become a wonderful and deep relationship.
“Thank you” you told him as you encircled your arms around his body.
“Anything for you” he purred against your lips; he finally closed the space between the two of you, as the kiss deepened your tongue entered his mouth, caressing his, his hands went to take off your dress.
“Commodus, what...”
“Let me make you feel good” he breathed against the shell of your ear, you bit your lip at the feeling of his lips against your sensitive skin, it had been so much time since the two of you had shared such intimacy...
One of his hand traveled to down to your body until it reached your underwear, his fingers slipped under the clothe to caress your spot, you gasped, realizing how much you had missed his contact.
“You’re already so ready for me...” he trailed kisses down your body and as he arrived at the level of your hips, slowly he slid the piece of cloth along your legs, his lips brushing against the skin of your thighs until he arrived between your legs and hungrily kissed your spot, and gods you didn’t know how he had gotten so skilled with his tongue; he did those slow up and down movements that made you gasp in anticipation.
“Does that feel good my queen?” he asked you between licks, making sure you were enjoying all of it, your answer was a needy whimper because his mouth had left your body, he chuckled please at your response, and started again still taking his time and it was driving you crazy, this slow yet so pleasurable rhythm, you needed more, your hands found his head and grabbed his hair, encouraging him to go further in his work. Finally, he placed his lips over your most sensitive area, and gently started sucking it, you closed your eyes, pinching your lips together. Then, his tongue ran along your lips in a way that made you shiver and gasp once more. One of his hands came up and parted your lips, allowing his tongue to reach your sensitive, swollen nub again. His tongue increased its pace, making you shudder and cry out in short, shocked bursts. As he flicked his tongue along you, you felt each wave of pleasure as it brought you closer and closer to the edge.
“Co-...Commodus I need you...in me...” you managed to articulate
“At your service my love...” he smiled making you laugh, you watched him strip down with hungry eyes, his athletic body was such an enjoyable sight and actually liked his scars, he went on top of you however there was a slight problem...your belly was a bit too big and prevented your lover from pleasuring you.
“Okay let’s try another position...I’m going to lay on my side and you go behind me.” you turned on your side, he settled behind you, his torso was against your back, and you could his hardness against your bottom, he left a couple of kisses on your shoulder as he moved one of your legs to better access your entrance, he groaned against the crook of your neck as he entered you, you wiggled your hips impatient for him to continue.
“Comfortable?” he asked you while kissing the skin of your neck and sliding his arm around your chest.
“Very.” you purred, he hummed in satisfaction while starting his thrusts slowly at first then he got faster and faster, cries of pleasure escaping your mouth until you felt yourself reach climax, he continued to pound into you until he joined you in a long contented moan. The both of you were panting, struggling to catch your breath, this had been so intense due to the months of abstinence, he rested his damp forehead against your shoulder blade, placing lazy and tender kisses from time to time.
When he finally managed to recover, he moved out of you, making your body tremble in overstimulation, then you turned to face him, entwining your legs with his, you wrapped your arms around his waist to bring him as close to you as you could. His eyes closed, he protectively kissed your forehead, brushing the back of your hands against your cheek, you wore a happy smile. After a bit, he slowly reopened his eyes to bore into yours, his orbs were full of adoration.
“Do you think I’ll be a good father?” he murmured; he was smiling but there was uncertainty in his voice.
“You already are for Rome and Lucius; I don’t see why that would change; you are the most passionate and affectionate man I have ever known; our baby will be blessed to have you as a father...”
“Our baby...” he beamed, his eyes shining with happiness.
“Yes, our baby” you repeated on the same, tenderly kissing his lips.
And it didn’t take much time for the baby to arrive. Barely a few weeks after, it started as you were enjoying a walk in the gardens with Lucilla and her son. You had decided to take some fresh air, as you didn’t feel at your best today, you had been feeling more cramps than usual and it wouldn’t go away, so you thought that a little bit of exercise could help ease the pain, but it didn’t really change anything, you tried to listen to Lucilla’s words but you were distracted by the more frequent shots of pain you felt...
“Y/N are you feeling unwell?” asked you Lucilla slightly worried as she saw your expression of mixed worry and pain.
“I don’t know I... ah!” you gasped suddenly feeling like a pop in your belly and then some sort of liquid coming out, along your legs, what was happening? You looked at Lucilla helpless and terrified, however her face remained calm.
“Lucius go call for the midwives and then run to get your uncle.” she instructed him calmly, then she took your arm, guiding you to the inside of the palace.
“Don’t worry Y/N you’re going to be fine; this is all normal, the same thing happened to me.” she reassured you with an encouraging smile.
“Oh yeah?”
“Yes, it means the baby is going to come out today.”
“Today!?” you suddenly felt anxious, no you weren’t ready, what if something bad happened during labor or...
“Y/N just relax, everything will go well, women have done this for centuries, your body is prepared for this.” she calmly assured you.
Thankfully the bedroom was close to the gardens, Lucilla and the midwives helped you to lie down on the bed, they kept telling you to relax and breath but it was hard, you were afraid and where was Commodus? Just as you thought about him you heard someone running approaching, then he was here right in front of you, he threw his crown on the nightstand, relief instantly filled your whole being by his presence.
“Sire, you should wait outside until the childbirth is finished...” started a midwife.
“No, I will stay here with her.” he cut her off, on a tone without appeal, he wanted to be here for you and nothing will make him go away. He sat on the mattress next to you, taking your hand and kissing it fondly, his other arm rested above your head, his thumb stroking your temple. Lucilla squeezed your hand, she had to leave space for the midwives and had to reassure Lucius who was waiting behind the door.
The midwives lifted your dress up and took off your underwear, you squeezed hard your husband’s hand as the pain was getting stronger. The midwives finally asked you to push, it was the worst pain you had ever felt, you couldn’t help but let out screams of pain, which terrified Commodus.
“What is happening? Why is she in so much pain? Make it stop!” he panicked at your state, he feared to lose you, he had impregnated you and now you were suffering because of him; they quickly told him it was normal and that every women went through this, it didn’t ease his mind though, all he could do was to be here for you, hoping you would survive. You closed your eyes trying to slow down your breathing and push as hard as you could, you could feel the pressure increase at your entrance.
“We are starting to see the head, continue to push” instructed one of the midwives who was waiting between your legs to help you getting out the child. So, you took a deep breath and pushed, again and again.
“You are doing great my love, keep going.” Encouraged Commodus against your ear while kissing your forehead, you clenched your teeth as you felt the head come out, the midwife could finally grab the baby by the shoulders and help to get out the rest of the body, you kept pushing until the baby was out, you head collapsed on the pillow, you were panting, exhausted. Until you heard cries, baby cries, your baby was alive, you felt energy come back to your body, you wanted to see your baby.
“Congratulations, it is a girl.” praised the woman as she finally brought your baby into your arms, you couldn’t believe it was really happening.
“You did it, you were wonderful.” kept saying Commodus his voice trembling with emotion, happy tears started to run down your cheeks as you laid your eyes upon your little girl, all wrapped up in a warm cloth, she had such a beautiful face. Commodus, next to you was silent, absorbed by the sight he had in front of his eyes, all of this it seemed so surreal.
“Here, hold your daughter.” you encouraged him as you gently handed the baby to her father.
“Are you sure? I don’t want to do something b-…" he started but his fears got away as he carefully took the baby in his arms, she seemed so small in his arms, he watched her amazed at the being he hold. You smiled soften by this beautiful scene, he had only eyes for her now. After a bit, Commodus scooted closer to you, fully laying down on the bed next you, and as if you weren’t happy enough, the baby opened his eyes, laying her eyes upon her parents for the first time, Commodus mouth went agape, happy tears forming in his eyes.
“She has your eyes.” you commented as you caressed her cheek with your index. The two of you admired her for several minutes maybe more, it was as if time had frozen. He gave her back to you so you could start breastfeeding her.
“What should we name her?” you asked him softly.
“You are the one who carried her, you deserve to take this decision.” he replied with a charming smile.
“What about Julia?” you suggested, a noble and powerful name.
“Julia it is then.” approved Commodus looking adoringly at the both of you.
“I´m sorry if you wanted a boy” you finally said, even though he had expressed some indifference you knew that having a male heir was extremely important for an Emperor.
“No, no, she´s perfect” he objected covering your face with kisses, relieved that he was fulfilled.
“And we can have another baby, a boy this time, I wouldn´t mind to have kids running around the palace, it would make less dark and sad don´t you think?” he added on a joyful tone.
You raised an eyebrow; you were exhausted so if you could wait before having another one...Commodus seemed to read your mind.
“After you rest of course! When you´ll be ready” you openly laughed at the face he made. Of course, you would be happy to have another child from him. He rested his forehead against yours as the baby had finished eating, covering your naked body with a sheet so you wouldn’t feel cold.
At this moment, you heard Lucilla come in followed by Lucius and your parents. She was truly moved by the event; it was also the first time she was seeing her brother filled with happiness and nothing else in mind.
Lucius was behind Lucilla watching the little baby in your arms with curiosity. You exchanged a look with Commodus.
“Lucius, do you want to hold your niece?” asked Commodus, inviting his nephew to come closer, gently he placed the baby in Lucius arms.
“Here, put your arm like that to hold her head.” he instructed to the young boy, who seemed equally amazed by your baby.
“We will play together when she will be big enough and can I also teach her to fight? And horse riding?” he eagerly asked, looking at you for your approval.
“We will have to wait a bit of time for that!” laughed Commodus, you joined him, Lucius was already feeling a sense of responsibility for her, you were excited to them growing together and play together.
In the coming hour, the whole city of Rome had been informed of the news, you could hear the noise of the people gathered outside, they wanted to see the imperial baby. When you felt ready to stand up, you dressed yourself nicely with the help of your husband, he put back his crown on his head.
As you approached the balcony, Commodus by your side, and your little Julia in your arms, you could feel the excitement of the people, the Senate had made a corridor to salute you on your way to the balcony, Lucilla, Lucius and your parents were following you closely. The sun was still bright, it was a beautiful day; the moment you and the Emperor appeared at the balcony, the cheers and screams joy of the crowd increased, you had never felt such energy, an endless mass of people were in front of your eyes, calling the name of the Emperor and yours, you managed to release a smile moved by their love. You turned to look at your lover and gently handed him your baby; making sure he was correctly supporting her head he lightly lifted her in the air to show the people who roared and applauded to congratulate you. Commodus, brought her back safely to his chest, lovingly kissing her forehead before handing her back to you.
“You know what this means?” he asked you as he tilted his head towards to crowd, you grinned proudly as you understood.
“The world will be ours” you answered, a bright future was ahead.