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I pondered as to what I should do next. Should I face this head-on? Or should I cower and pretend this wasn't happening. What should I do? 'I wish someone could just give me all of the answers!' I think as I collapse on the couch.
I jumped in surprise as my phone suddenly started to ring. I quickly jogged over to it and read the caller ID to see that it was Levy so I wasted no time in answering it.
"Hello?"
"WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!" came through as a voice I barely recognized as Levy started screaming at her. "WHY WEREN"T YOU AT SCHOOL YESTERDAY? WHY HAVEN"T YOU BEEN ANSWERING MY TEXTS OR CALLS?! I HAVE BEEN WORRIED SICK THANKS TO YOU!" Levy yelled through the phone as I held the phone about a foot away from my ear. 'Sheesh if the phone had a range in which you could break it through pitch she would have broken it!' I mentally thought.
"Hey, Levy" was all I could muster in a quiet grumble.
"Hey, Levy? Is that all I get after you have practically been missing for two days?!"
"I'm sorry, it's just, a lot of stuff has been happening recently, and I just needed a bit of a break." I sighed. I knew that it was stretching the truth by a lot, but it was better than explaining everything all at once.
"What happened? Are you Okay?" Levy asked sympathetically.
"Can I talk with you face to face? I don't really feel like telling you this over the phone." I said quietly.
"Sure, meet me in the park in twenty minutes, I'll be there."
"Okay, see you then." I replied. I hung up, grabbed my jacket and phone, and walked out of the house to begin my trek to the park.
About fifteen minutes later, I arrived at the exact park that I had decided to take an impromptu nap in only a few days prior. It seems like forever ago, but maybe that's just because I was out for two days, lost in my own head. I sit down on a swing and slowly rock back and forth, waiting for Levy to come. I don't know where to even start with her. My memory is still messed up and all I remember is leaving the house in a hurry after seeing the message from Ma... Oh wait, I forgot. There's that shit I have to deal with. I sigh deeply and weigh out my options. Should I tell Levy about my supposed "brother" and confront her about her possible knowledge about my comatose state when I was seven? Or should I play dumb and come up with an excuse for my extended absence? 'She's my best friend and we've known each other for forever, why would she keep such a big thing from me?'. I feel betrayed that she would do this to me. 'Can I even trust her with the truth?'. Not only did she lie to me but so did Ma, and apparently there is still more to come. 'What fucking adventure? What is that even supposed to mean Ma?' I'm just getting myself even more worked up. I continue to rock back and forth on the swing and decide that I will attempt to first take the passive approach with this and give Levy the benefit of the doubt for now. If she doesn't know anything, then she doesn't know anything. If she does, then that's when I have the right to get pissed. With my decision made, I patiently wait for her to show up, hopefully soon because I'm starting to get a bit antsy bring left alone with only my wild thoughts to accompany me.
Speaking of the devil, I see the blue-haired girl turn the corner to the entrance of the park and I wave her over. She looks so relieved to see me that I feel a slight pang of guilt go through me for worrying her and thinking such negative thoughts about her. She runs over and I get off of the swing only for her to wrap me in a tight hug. I wince and give a slight hiss as she presses into my still healing ribs and she seems to catch it as she immediately lets go.
"Oh my god, are you okay ?!" she asks me with wide eyes.
"I'm just healing a little bit there, sorry." I say with a half smile. She doesn't seem to think its as small of a deal as I do for she drags me over to the swings again and orders me to sit.
"What happened? Why are you hurt? Where are you hurt? Where have you been? Are You okay?" She asks in rapid succession.
"Woah, woah, Levy calm down. Sit down and I'll explain everything." I reassure her calmly. She takes the swing next to me and waves her hands in a wild gesture gesturing for me to start talking. I debate once again on whether I should start off with telling her about what I have now deemed, the "sibling problem" or skip it and save that for later...Maybe I'll try that as to not overload her with so much information at once.
"Long story short, I got some news from Ma I didn't like, ran from the house the next morning, fell asleep on that bench, woke up around nighttime, passed out on the way home, woke up in a doctor neighbor's house after sleeping for a bit, and then went back home before calling you." I said bluntly. Better to get it over all at once, right? It was silent for almost two minutes straight as I fidgeted nervously while Levy seemed to be boring holes into the ground with her intense staring. The silence finally broke when Levy decided to make her thoughts known.
"You are crazy." She said monotonously. I blinked disbelievingly as she just stared, shocked at her point blank response.
"I know that this all is a lot for you to process, but I swear that it all is one-hundred percent true. The reason that I winced earlier was because I hurt my ribs after I passed out and fell to the ground. I'm not joking when I say that I was actually found by my neighbor who actually happens to be a doctor, and she patched me up after taking me to her place. That's not the only piece of evidence that I have either! Please believe me." I pleaded. She still looked at me with that unnerving stare and then she bowed her head with a resigned sigh.
"I never knew that it would affect you so severely. Lucy, you have to understand that we never did any of this to hurt you." Levy looked up from the ground to look me sincerely in the eyes. I wanted to believe that she was telling the truth, I really did. Then I realized what she said and realized that I hadn't told her exactly what it was that I had found out.
"Levy, what do you mean?" I asked cautiously.
"I assume that the upsetting new that your Ma gave you was related to the night that your parents died, correct?" All I gave was a small nod in response. "Well, I knew about how you were in the coma." I took in a sharp breath, I knew this was going to happen but I still wasn't fully prepared to know the full extent to what it felt like to have your best friend betray you like this.
"I promise that this was for your own good. You needed the time not only to recover physically, but mentally as well. So many things happened that night and we didn't want to tell you until you were ready."
"So you decided that lying to me my whole life was a better option?!" I asked incredulously. "Levy I have never lied to you the entire time I've known you. I thought that you would at least return me the same, simple favor. We were together through thick and thin together and this is how you decide to treat me?!" By now I am on my feet and stepping back from the swing set with a look of hurt on my face. I pull my hand close to my chest while the other remains closed in a tight fist at my side as I start to tear up.
"I was there for you when you were attacked. I was the only one who knew how you felt and how you wanted to be treated. I was the one who always was there at every single birthday, at every single Christmas, every time you ever needed me. ME! I know you better than anyone else and you keep not only this from me, but the fact that I have a brother? There's another person out there that needs me and had to grow up without me all because of your selfish ass was too scared to tell me something that could have been only slightly difficult to explain? Maybe I was wrong, maybe I don't know you as well as I thought I did. Or maybe even everyone else, maybe everyone else around is lying to me too and I'm just the big butt of the joke." Tears are freely streaming down my face and Levy starts to cry as well. She looks so guilty that I feel like forgetting my anger for a moment before remembering the reason behind the flames of my anger.
"Lucy I-"
"Don't. Save it. I don't want to hear anymore of the lies that seem to spew so easily from your mouth." With that I turn-tail and flee, just trying to escape while also processing all that I had learned today. I barely note hearing Levy crying out for me to come back but I know that I won't. I just run, and run, and run. I run for hours until I can't see anything in front of me anymore and have to rely on my phone flashlight to find my way back home.
I make it back and turn my key into the door before entering and then locking it once again behind me. I kick my shoes off haphazardly at the door and climb the stairs to my room only to sit on my bed and lie there silently. My mind seems too plagued to sleep so I just sit. I sit and think until I start the hear the birds chirping once again and the sunlight peeking through the drapes of my windowsill. I get up silently and mechanically take off my clothes piece by piece to take a shower, smelling sour from all the running.
That's when that damn breaks. I lie there under the spray of the hot shower and cry and cry and cry until I can't cry any more. Everything is just too much. I think about how many people in my life had lied to me. I think of the relationship with Levy and Ma that will never be the same again. I think of the little boy that had to grow up without his family. I think aimlessly about how lost I am and how I have no clue at what I'm going to do with everything. The shower washes away all the tears and the snot that runs down my face, the only proof of my activities being the puffy eyes that were left behind. I don't even bother to get dry myself off or get dressed before I just fall into my bed once more and let sleep overcome me. Maybe in my dreams I'll be able to gain some semblance of peace...at least for a little while.