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It was one thing all the horrors he experienced in his life, but whole another thing that the person who gave him hope and support also left. The moment he woke up from coma and realised that the jade pedant was gone, he felt as if he's whole world was crushed up once again, for the final time. Mind break happened.
The jade pendant returned, the person who he wanted to posses, control and have only for himself returned, but he still felt the same feelings. He was left alone, once again by the person he trusted the most; he was heartbroken and all alone on his own.
The jade pendant spoke, told him about where he was, what he was doing in the time he was gone and why he left and that did do much to comfort him, but his heart was still as if it was pulled at. That moment of shock, loneliness and betrayal didn't disappear, even if he knew that he was wrong in his assumptions and the only thing Shi Qing did was care for him, bought food he could eat and even decided to wait for him to get a human body, but still. His feelings were irrational, he knew that better than anyone, but that didn't make them feel any less valid.
He accepted it. If Shi Qing was going to hurt him, then he was going to allow it; he was the only person that genuinely cared about him, despite how short he knew it or that he got almost nothing out of caring for him. He'd have to wait 500 hundred years without nothing to do and he would not receive any points in that period of time, but that were rather minor needs. He didn't have to hurt him at all for achieving points, instead much rather work for his well being in order to get them.