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To say the least, Seth’s day, (aka the worst day of his life), had started off with a bang. Literally.
They had been nestled up together in bed, sharing lazy morning kisses. Both had had a long night consisting of beer, music, and sex after they had yet again snagged the tag team championship belts on Raw. It was safe to say they were hoping for a recovery day.
Seth giggled softly, a nasally but sweet noise that lit up Dean’s world, as the auburn haired man tickled his sides. They had been together around 5 months now, after Dean and Renee had a huge blowout. She had caught them in a utility closet during a show, Seth’s dick deep in Dean’s eager mouth. Let’s just say she wasn’t too thrilled about it.
Dean would admit that what he had done was wrong. He really did love Renee, but what he had with Seth was something that he had never felt before in his life. Their chemistry was electric, sparks shot through Dean’s being anytime he was able to get his hands on Seth. Whether it be little touches, chaste kisses, or the gentle sex, the sparks never stopped flying. He never ever wanted to have to give that up, so he didn’t, even though he knew he could’ve ended things a different way between him and Renee. Seth knew that some days the guilt that he felt still plagued him. Especially when they’d go to work and see the bubbly blonde’s replacement, a brunette named Charly.
No one knew exactly what had happened to Renee. She had just up and left one day, leaving everyone in surprise and in question. Especially Dean. Seth had watched Dean internally rip himself apart during those days. He was doing much better now though, as the pain and guilt slowly eased out of his system.
Seth should’ve known that his boyfriend’s new found internal peace wasn’t going to last long.
The banging on the door had surprised them both to say the least. But what really had surprised them, was who was waiting for them on the other side.
Renee Young, in a pair of black yoga pants and an old grey hoodie stood there, an angry scowl on her face. Her hand rested on a distinct baby bump that made Seth’s blood run cold.
“Renee?” Seth watched from over Dean’s shoulder as the surprise crept onto his boyfriend’s handsome face.
“Dean,” she gave him a quick nod before she invited herself in.
Seth gently shut the door behind her as his boyfriend focused on the angry blonde in the room.
“W-what’re you doing here? Where have you been?” Dean stuttered, following Renee to the living room.
“Well thanks to you, I’ve been at home binge eating ice cream and watching myself blow up like a balloon,” Seth heard her explain to Dean.
He hadn’t bothered to follow them just yet. His anxiety had already begun to climb from her unexpected visit. That and he had a feeling he already knew what she was here for. And he didn’t like it one bit.
“What are you talking about?” Dean looked at her as if she was talking nonsense.
“I mean that I’m pregnant and it’s yours you idiot,” Renee spat at him, making Seth wince at the venom in her voice.
“H-how? We haven’t been together for over 5 months..,” Dean stuttered, still in utter shock. Seth noticed the slight shake Dean’s body was starting to give and he slowly helped him sit down.
“You’re the last person I slept with before I caught you with his dick in your mouth,” Renee shot a glare over at Seth, who looked down in his own shame.
Just because Dean didn’t regret leaving Renee, doesn’t mean Seth felt the same.
“Why would you wait until now to tell me?,” Dean stared at her as Seth rubbed his shoulders soothingly. It wasn’t doing much to calm Dean, but it sure was helping Seth keep himself together.
“I didn’t want you to know,” Renee took on a softer, almost guilty tone.
“You didn’t want me to know.. about my own baby growing inside of you,” Dean’s voice started to raise, causing Seth to tense up all over again.
“Dean, please.. it’s not what you-“ he cut her off.
“In case you forgot Renee, I didn’t have a father figure in my life. He left when he found out my mother was pregnant with me. He didn’t want the responsibility that came with having a baby. I swore to myself that one day if I ever had a kid, I’d be the father that my father never was for me.. and you wanted to keep it from me? After you knew more than half of the shit that I’ve been through?” Seth felt his heart ache a little as Dean unleashed his feelings.
He had known all about Dean’s past. He had spent countless nights soothing his boyfriend from the nightmares that woke him up at night. Dean only told these things to the people that he truly loved and trusted. Seth didn’t know how Renee could ever do anything like this to him.
“I know Dean.. and I’m so, SO, sorry for not telling you. I’ll admit that I did it because I was stupid, and selfish. I was so hung up on the fact that you didn’t want me anymore that I thought it was a good idea,” she said softly, her brown eyes staring down at the carpet.
Seth felt as Dean’s shoulders sagged a little underneath his hands. It was nice to know that Dean could relax in a situation like this while Seth still felt like he was on high alert.
A soft sigh escaped Dean’s lips before he decided to speak again.
“I understand. And I guess now would be the time to apologize, even though I know I should’ve done that a long, long, LONG time ago,” Dean started, his hands wrestling each other out of nervousness.
“I just wanna know why Dean,” Renee said softly, lifting her gaze to meet Dean’s, making Seth’s heart beat quicker.
“Well, it’s hard to explain really,” Dean started, his eyes leaving Renee’s to focus on a half empty glass on the coffee table.
“I just, I really enjoyed our time together Renee, I truly did. I loved you so much. But at the same time, I just had this pull towards Seth. It started as something small, easy enough that I could control it. Over time though, my attraction towards him just intensified. I found myself getting lost in everything about him. I’d watch him as he was deep in his own little world as he listened to his god awful screaming music, or while he was concentrating while he warmed up for a match. I just felt a certain fondness for him,” Dean smiled at the memories, slowly glancing up at his other half.
Even though Dean had insulted him by calling his music god awful, Seth couldn’t help but blush like a teenage girl. He glanced down at his feet, feeling Dean take his hand and give it a gentle squeeze before he continued on.
“One night, when him, Roman, and I were out partying, it all just kinda happened in a blur. I had had a bit too much to drink, and so did he.. normally if you’d ask him to dance, he’d decline because he’s a shy little shit sometimes, but the girls had managed to get him to dance somehow. Just seeing him let loose and dance under those bright ass lights, I realized that I had never seen anything more beautiful. So I did what I had been craving for months.. After we went back to the room, I kissed him. And things just kind of fell in place after that. It was all so strange, but I don’t think I’d want it any other way.. I’m in love with him Renee,” he whispered the last part, the words making the heat rush to Seth’s cheeks once again.
Seth had watched as Renee looked on at the both of them before gazing down at the hands in her lap. He could tell she wasn’t expecting Dean’s words, and to be honest, neither was he, but he still loved hearing it.
“I don’t think you understand just how much it hurts me to hear that Dean,” she said, sadness evident in her voice.
“Renee, I kno-,” Dean started, only to get cut off by the blonde.
“No Dean. You don’t!,” she yelled, making Seth jump.
Seth’s heart rate picked up as Renee stood up, pointing an angry finger at his boyfriend. His feet involuntary moved him back a bit while his mind frantically looked for an escape.
“I loved you so much. I sacrificed so much for you only to find out you’re fucking that twink behind my back! Now I’m pregnant with your baby. The baby of the man who cheated on me. Who tore my heart out and destroyed it right in front of me. How do you think that makes me feel Dean? How do you think it would make our daughter feel?” Renee’s voice dropped at the last sentence.
A girl. A beautiful little girl. Dean was going to have a daughter. The ringing in his ears had nothing on the broken feeling in Seth’s heart.
He felt his feet move as his stomach gave a lurch. He had barely made it down the hall before the first round of vomit hit the dark hardwood flooring. A sob left his throat as he dropped to his hands and knees. Another round of vomit forced its way out of Seth’s mouth as he cried.
Dean was having a daughter, with Renee. Not him. He was going to forget about Seth and go back to his real family. He was going to go back to his ex. The negative thoughts swirled around in Seth’s head as he threw up a third time.
He wheezed a little as he slowly lowered himself down into his puddle of vomit. His body felt weak, his head felt numb, and his heart felt broken.
Salty tears fell from his eyes as he sobbed. He couldn’t see, he couldn’t breathe, and he was laying in his own vomit. Before too long, the overwhelming darkness consumed him. The painful feeling of loneliness lingering along after he went out.