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Beyond the Scars

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Just gunna say this now, this is not only my first ever fanfic but this is also the first time of writing in general so please keep that in mind.

Modern Clexa AU: Clarke is a famous singer/songwriter and Lexa is an abused gas station employee. They meet by accident and you'll just have to read the rest.

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Clarke, Raven and Octavia have been best friends since middle school. They would go everywhere and do everything together, so when Clarke finished in her performing arts school and broke out as a Singer she made sure her best friends were there. Raven and Octavia became her Co-managers, time went on and Clarke became more known and better in her craft. Now she was a world famous artist with hits in the top 20 charts almost every month, still never reaching that number 1 spot she so desperately wants.

It was a Saturday morning when Clarke woke up, the sun beamed through her large windows and straight in to her face. She let out a small groan and turned her body, now facing the closed door and the nightstand beside her bed. She reached for her phone and saw the time 8:59, she would always manage to wake up just before her alarm went off. She quickly got rid of the impending alarms and got up, her room was massive, it had a large walk in wardrobe, a nice balcony just outside her windows, a large bathroom, a large white desk near her door which she usually used when she was writing music, and posters and fan mail filling the otherwise white walls all around her.

She didn't take too long having a shower and getting ready for the day ahead, they were all going in to the desert outside LA to shoot her music video for an upcoming song. She decided not to wear anything flashes as she would most likely wear something else for the shoot. She ended up on a tight fitting pair of jeans which showed off her curves in the best ways, a white tank top and a pair of new converse shoes. Once she like what she saw in her mirror in the bathroom, she made her way out of her room and down the hall. The house was a really big 6 bedroom mansion, 3 stories high, a home cinema system, 3 bathrooms and a large pool out in the back yard.

At the end of the large hallway was Octavia and Ravens room, they were in a relationship and had been since senior year of high school. Clarke couldn't be happier for them if she wanted to, they had been flirting with each other all the way through school and after Clarke finally told them how dumb they both were about not telling each other how they feel, they did just that and haven't looked back since. Once she arrived at the door at the other end of the house she heard light giggling from inside, she rolled her eyes and knocked on the door "are you two decent" she asked which caused the giggling to stop.

"Yes Clarke" both girls said back in unison.

She then swung open the door to the sight of Octavia straddling Ravens hips while Raven was lying back on her bed. They were both fully clothed which Clarke was thankful for, it wouldn't be the first time the blonde had walked in on them 2 or heard them from her room, which is why she made them move to the other side of the house.

"Will you two stop, we have shit to do today come on"
"Oh relax Princess its only ..." Octavia then looked at her phone and saw the time 9:48 "oh shit, get up babe" she continued looking down at Raven.

Their shoot was a half hour drive away and was scheduled for 10:30. All 3 girls quickly made their way downstairs and it to the large open Kitchen. Raven sat down on the island while Octavia started getting a few bits from the cupboard. "Just grab a few breakfast bars O, im gunna go get Gustus".

"I think they're in the cupboard at the bottom" Raven stated
"Really ... because im looking at them" Octavia replied, she then turned around and saw a devilish grin on her girlfriends face
"Definitely at the bottom" she husked out causing Octavia to seductively bend down.

 

Clarke walked down the open downstairs area, passing the large spiral staircase she used to get down, past the living room and her massive wall mounted TV and right before she got to the back door there was another bedroom. Before she could knock on the door, she was met by a large man with tribal face tattoo's. His name was Gustus, he's Clarke's personal security. He used to work as a bouncer in a nightclub downtown before him and Clarke got to be friends through the frequent visits to said nightclub. After a while she offered him a better paying job, that also includes living in their luxurious house.

"You ready" she asked with a smile
"Yeah, just the shoot today?"
"Hopefully but you never know"
"Well lets go then" he replied, smiling back. Anyone who wasn't as close to him would usually be afraid of him, he was a very intimidating man but at the same time he was sweet and caring.

They walked back in to the Kitchen to see Raven sat on the counter next to the fridge and Octavia between her legs, in a heated make out session. "Not on the counter please" Clarke said which cause both girls to jump slightly. "You're just jealous" Raven teased back, she wasn't wrong, Clarke hadn't been with anyone since her last boyfriend Finn. They broke up a year ago once she found out he was using Clarke's fame for his own personal gain.

"I'm not jealous, i just dont want my best friends fucking where we make food" she teased back.
"Whatever you say Princess, i think you just need to get laid"
"Shut up, come on before we're late"
"Hear that Raven, someones pissy this morning" O said playfully, Raven hummed in response while Clarke rolled her eyes at the pair.

 

The drive took as long as expected and they finally made their way to the desert for the shoot, Gustus would be there with them all day even though they weren't expecting any fans to know where they were, but you never know. Clarke spent most of the day in front of a camera on in a small trailer which had a few outfits inside, she had also made friends with one of the camera operators, Jasper, so all in all it wasn't as bad as she expected. She loved her job, being a singer and being able to perform in front of a large adoring crowd was something she has always wanted, she didn't like the fact that most people only got to know her because of her fame or money or both. Jasper was different though, he seemed to genuinely enjoy talking to Clarke, he even admitted to not really knowing any of her songs which she found a pleasant surprise.

Raven being Raven made it a point to tease Clarke about her new friend, suggesting they hook up or something. It's not that she didn't want to be with someone, she did, but she wanted to be with a girl. Not many people knew this about her, Raven, Octavia and Gustus were the only ones to be fair, but she was Bisexual. She thought about coming out officially but decided against it seeing as most people within this industry wouldn't accept it, close mindedness was common. She was pulled out of her thoughts when Gustus nudged her shoulder from his seat driving their Large Black SUV. "Hmm sorry whats up" she said looking at him now, "we need gas, i should have seen it on the way up but wasn't paying attention". As luck would have it, on the large, open and empty sandy road there was a gas station. "Pull in here, i want to grab a few bits anyway".

Gustus pulled in to the gas station, before he got out he looked around. No one was in sight, which was expected seeing as this place was in the middle of nowhere, apart from a brunette he could see behind the counter inside. Clarke and Raven both got out of the car and made their way inside, Raven eyed the girl behind the counter and nodded as a greeting before following Clarke around one of the isle. If more people were around, Clarke would have stayed in the car and waited but seeing as it was just 1 other person there she decided to go in herself, really what were the chances the girl even know who Clarke was.

After getting a few bottles of water for everyone, Raven went over to the counter and smiled at the brunette behind it. "Gas and these please" she said sweetly, the brunette smiled back and rung her up "$58 please". Raven dramatically patter her jeans and sighed "Clarke, i forgot my purse can you pay" she said to the girl who was down the other end of the store. "What a surprise, weird how often you do that Rae"

Clarke made her way to the counter digging her purse out from her bag "Your just lucky im such a nice ..." she then looked up in to the bright green eyes staring back at her. The girl in front of her was beautiful, her eyes were wide and locked on to Clarke's, her lips were parted slightly "Shit your beautiful" Clarke almost whispered. The brunettes lips then parted even more and that was when Clarke realised what she had said, her cheeks went bright red "an i just said that out loud ... excuse me" she turned and left the gas station with her face in her hands, the brunette still hadn't said a word, just in shock. Her favourite artist just walked up to her, something she had dreamt about for years, she even complimented her but there she was, still as a statue, physically not being able to speak.

"Um ... well here" Raven said, dropping a $100 bill on the counter. Still without speaking the girl gave her the change and Raven went to walk away. She then had a thought and turned back to the stunned brunette "What's your name" she asked smiling at her. This brought the brunette out of her thoughts, she looked over at Raven, once her eyes stopped searching for Clarke. "Sorry what?" she asked back shyly, Raven chuckled a bit and repeated her question "Oh um L-Lexa" she stuttered. Raven extended her right arm out and shook Lexa's "Raven" she said back. Lexa smiled a bit and said "Yeah sorry, i uh ... i know who you are" Raven was a little shocked at that, most people only knew Clarke, not many people knew Raven or Octavia apart from their friends. "Well, we'll see you around Lexa" she finished then turned around and got back in the car with the others. Lexa chanced another glance out of the window and just as the car started moving, the same bright blue eyes locked on to her again, just for a second, but that seconds she felt her heart race.

 

Once Lexa's shift was finished, still shocked at seeing Clarke, she made it home by bus at around 6pm. Usually she would do a 5pm - 12am shift but she was covering for someone. She opened the front door to her small apartment she shared with her father, her heart rate increased once she saw her father looking back at he from the messy kitchen area. After her mother died last year her father became an asshole to say the least, her sister Anya moved out about 6 months ago to live with a friend. Her father took most of their pay checks the day they got them to buy drugs and alcohol, Anya was still paying for their mothers medical bills so one day just got up and left. After that day her father became even worse, not only verbally and emotionally but now also physically. He would beat Lexa or use her as an ashtray, she wouldn't tell her sister about any of this, that would only make things worse.

"Where the fuck have you been" he said aggressively
"I uh, it ... ive been to w-work" she said, fear very evident in her voice.
He then held out his hand in front of her and raised his eyebrows expectantly.
She pulled the money she had just got out from her back pocket and handed most of it to her father, she did keep some for food and bus fare.
"Good, now fuck off" he said putting his lit cigarette out on Lexa's wrist. She cried slightly at the pain and ran off to her room shutting the door behind her while her father left the house with the money she had just given him.

Her room was pretty small, a single bad under a small window at the back, a small desk to the left as you enter the door and just above the desk was a large poster of Clarke from one of her early albums. Anya brought it for her as a birthday present a couple of years ago, it was one of the few things she still owned and treasured. Her father sold all of her stuff after her mom died, phone, laptop even her magazine collection and most of her art stuff apart from a single sketch book with a few pencils.

She flopped down on to the small single bed and brought her knees up to her chest and wrapped her arms around them. She looked at the poster above her desk and smiled, that smile instantly left once she remembered she didn't say anything to the blonde goddess. she moved her knees down and took off her clothes, she was about to get changed in some sleep wear when she felt the slight wetness between her thighs. She wasn't one to usually masturbate but with the memory of Clarke still at the front of her mind she let her fingers wonder. She lied back on the back with her legs parted, One hand covering her left breast and the other making small circles on her clit. She caught her erect nipple between her thumb and index finger and opened her eyes, she looked at the poster on her wall and let out a soft moan. She then inserted 2 fingers inside herself and set a steady pace, she threw her head back against the pillow behind her and shut her eyes as she could feel her orgasm coming. Low moaning sounds and the slapping of wet skin on skin were the only noises that filled the quiet room. She shut her eyes and brought the memory of looking in to the blondes eyes, her finger started going faster and she was so close. She pushed the palm of her hand against her throbbing clit and moved slight circles at it, making her moans even louder but still not too loud. She then remembered hearing the Blonde say she was beautiful and that was all it took, the muscles around her fingers tightened as she whispered out "oh C-Clarke...." followed by panting breaths. She fell asleep with a slight smile on her face and a feeling of satisfaction.