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They had dream sex a lot, but this was the first time that Lucien felt okay with doing rape roleplay with him, so Kiro was really excited. They had gone through the major beats of what they both wanted, but Kiro had left the scenario up to Lucien, so as he settled back in bed and closed his eyes, he never would have been able to fall asleep if not for Lucien’s evol.
“And now, performing for the first time on television, Kirooooo!”
Cheers from a wild audience. The bars of his first single “Beauty of Your Heart” starting up. He was on a platform slowly rising up to the stage, giving him a moment to get oriented.
Oh wow… this was my debut! I was twenty-one! Do I even remember this dance?
It seemed his body remembered, at least, because he hit all his cues. At first the uncanny deja-vu was a little unnerving, but as he got into it he entered into the same headspace he’d been in when he made this performance the first time. He’d been all smiles outside, but so terrified inside, and not because of ordinary stage fright. He’d been second guessing his daring plan of hiding in plain sight, sure that despite the plastic surgery that some Black Swan member would be watching him on television and recognize him, and then he’d have to go back to that hell.
As soon as he’d gotten back to his modest dressing room (he hadn’t been a big star yet, after all), he’d been shaking. His agent Savin had actually taken pity on him (though he thought it was nerves) and driven him to his apartment.
This time Savin didn’t show up… well, of course not. Lucien had recreated the environment of the performance perfectly, probably from watching a recording, but this had not been recorded and Kiro hadn’t told him anything. The dressing room wasn’t like his memory, either. It was utterly empty, and he didn’t see anything to take off his make-up or get changed.
“Great performance today, Kiro,” chirped a backstage gofer, suddenly opening the door without warning. “I think you’re going to have a bright future in this business! Your taxi is waiting.”
“Oh… okay, thanks,” said Kiro, following the gofer out to a waiting cab with the front side passenger door propped open. Kiro thought that was odd—he usually sat in the back—but he hopped in anyway.
The taxi pulled away from the curb while Kiro was still putting his seatbelt on. “Uh, did they already give you the address?”
“I have the address,” the taxi driver said quietly, not taking his eyes off the road. He looked to be in his thirties, wearing a cap and a medical mask, but in surprisingly good shape for a taxi driver. “The sports drink is from your agent.”
“Oh, really?” Kiro looked down and saw a bottle in the cup holder with condensation on it. There hadn’t been any drinks in his dressing room and he was definitely thirsty after his performance. “Wow, great! I’ll have to thank him!”
He untwisted the cap and downed the whole thing in only a few gulps, then made a face at the salty-sweet taste. “Ugh. I can’t believe he got me knock-off diet Gatorade. My agent has this crazy idea about my diet. He thinks I eat too much sugar…”
“Too much sugar isn’t good for your health,” said the driver.
“Don’t you start,” groaned Kiro, laying back and reclining the seat, acting casually, though inside he was wondering if this driver was going to be the rapist? Or was Lucien doing this as a red herring and someone else would be the rapist instead? The anticipation was killer… yet he found himself yawning and letting his eyes flutter closed. Well, tired after a performance… right…
The next moment it was like he was waking up, and he worried for a moment that Lucien had gotten cold feet and ended the scene before it actually began, but then he realized that he was waking up in a very odd position, although there was a blanket draped over him and he was reclining. His wrists and ankles were surrounded by some kind of padded cuff, securely keeping either from moving, although the whole surface that he was on seemed to jiggle a little from his efforts. As he became more aware, he realized that he had some kind of vest-shaped restraint on his chest and shoulders as well as a blindfold of some kind.
“Colour?” Lucien’s voice suddenly said very quietly by his ear. A question to gauge how well the sub was doing with the scenario. Green for all clear; yellow for needing to slow down or lessen the intensity; red for stop.
Kiro took a moment to realize what kind of situation Lucien had set up for him. “Green.”
“I’m green too,” Lucien’s voice said, and there was a moment of silence.
“You’re awake,” said the taxi driver’s voice then from a different direction, and Kiro’s heart beat faster already as he felt a man’s weight climb on top of him and remove his blindfold.
The light was dim and artificial but warm, through lampshades. Kiro stared up at the face of the taxi driver, nice enough looking but not eye catching, dark, dark eyes. He could smell the man’s pheromones, sweet and nutty like almond milk with an intense hit underneath like mastic gum.
Alpha.
The man got off of Kiro, pulling the blanket down as well. As he got off, Kiro could see that there was a mirror on the ceiling, reflecting him. Other than his shoes and jacket being off, he was wearing the same outfit as he’d just been on stage in. His eye make-up had been smeared by the blindfold. He was indeed restrained with what looked like medical cuffs of leather.
“Oh, that’s hardly attractive, is it? Raccoon eyes,” tutted the stranger, and Kiro heard the sound of water running.
When the stranger came back, standing at Kiro’s head, he looked up at him and said, “Who are you? Where am I?”
The stranger smiled down at him, tenderly rubbing his face with a warm, soapy washcloth to clean off the makeup, and then following it with a cooler one with plain water. “I’m your alpha, and this is your home now.”
“My—I’m, I’m a beta, you’re mistaken, I’m—ah!” Kiro let out a yelp because the stranger had leaned his head swiftly down to Kiro’s neck and bitten down on his front gland. “No! Stop! Let go!”
Kiro felt his system being invaded by alpha pheromones, watched wide-eyed in the mirror as a collar began to burn into his skin, dull red and jagged.
“No,” Kiro whimpered helplessly. “No…”
The teeth let go of his neck, and a tongue laved away the trickle of blood. There was a dark chuckle. “A beta, huh?”
“You can’t do this,” Kiro protested weakly, despite the pheromones in his system telling him to be good for his alpha. “You’ll… you’ll be executed for force-bonding me, you can’t hide me here forever…”
“My poor delusional omega,” the man clucked. “You’ll change your mind soon enough… you’ve been fighting your nature for so long. You’ll see… it’s going to be such a relief for you, not having to take care of yourself anymore. All you have to do is obey me.”
“I…” It came out high and submissive. Kiro swallowed and tried again to make it come out in a normal pitch. “I don’t want… I want an alpha that I choose, that I love…”
“I’ll kill you rather than ever let you escape from me,” the stranger said with a dark smile. “I’m not the delusional one here. I know very well you don’t love me yet. Your instincts will help you to accept me, but as for how long that takes… it doesn’t matter, honestly.” He circled around and started undoing Kiro’s belt. “You can’t stop me from enjoying you, whether you love me or not. Really, loving me is about making your life easier and more pleasant, not mine.”
“Why me? How did you know I was an omega?”
The stranger hummed. “You have to address me properly as alpha for me to answer your questions.” He finished undoing Kiro’s belt and pants and pulled the pants and underwear down together to the ankles before humming again and saying, “Now, if I uncuff one leg, are you going to try to kick me? Remember, there’s no possible way you can get free even if you somehow knocked me out. All you’ll do is make me punish you. Will you be good for your alpha?”
Kiro didn’t answer, but neither did he kick as the stranger undid the leather cuff and slipped the pants and underwear off one leg. But instead of returning the leg to the same cuff, the stranger moved the leg way past that cuff and fastened it into another cuff that Kiro hadn’t noticed before, one that put his knee up and widened the gap between his legs.
Kiro’s heart was already beating too fast to go any faster. “You’re going to rape me now.”
“I’m going to deepen the bond.” The other leg was unfastened, moved, and refastened. “Every time I knot you, you’ll take in more of my pheromones, you know. It’ll clear your mind.”
“What will you do if I get pregnant?”
The stranger looked at Kiro and smiled with raised eyebrows as he undid his belt. As the man reached for the zipper, Kiro abruptly said, “Alpha,” and the man paused immediately.
“Yes, baby?”
Oh that sent shivers through him. Kiro tried to moisten his mouth before speaking. “Alpha, why… how…”
“I knew you were an omega from the moment I saw you performing in Hong Kong… I didn’t need to smell your pheromones to know that you were the only one for me. And I kept watching you…” He slowly unzipped his pants and pulled them down, revealing an erect alpha cock that bobbed as he pushed his pants down the rest of the way and stepped out of them. “I saw how lonely you were, how poorly you were taking of yourself. I had to act fast before you got too entrenched in such bad habits.”
Kiro could feel himself getting wetter and wetter as the man stepped to the foot of the bed and looked down.
“As for pregnancy…” The man put a hand on Kiro’s hard abs, which were shuddering from his rapid breathing. “You know it will make you happy. Even if you don’t love me yet, you will love the child I put inside you. You’ll look even more handsome all swollen with our child…” He trailed the hand down, and Kiro whimpered when he stopped with the heel of his palm nestled in the bronze curls around Kiro’s erection without actually touching it. “Everything about you is just perfect… I spent some time just looking at you here while you were asleep, but it’s so much sexier now that you’re awake and ready to be fucked.”
“I’m not…”
The man laughed when Kiro didn’t finish the sentence. “You can’t lie in the face of the evidence, huh? Such a lovely cock you have, and it’s so hard and ready to orgasm… and then down here…” The man pulled his hand off for a moment while leaning the rest of himself closer, so close that Kiro could feel his breath on his entrance as he spoke. “I wish I had the patience to spend some more time admiring this cute little hole before I fuck it. It looks so pink and tight, and so wet…” He tried to put a finger to it, but Kiro jerked his hips and was able to pull them away just enough that he missed. The man laughed. “Now where do you think you can go, silly baby?”
“I don’t want… please, if you love me, don’t hurt me like this,” Kiro begged.
“It won’t hurt unless you make me hurt you.” The man moved his hips between Kiro’s knees and there truly was nowhere to go, no matter how much Kiro tried to buck and get away; all Kiro succeeded in doing was squeezing his thighs tightly around the man’s pelvis as he sunk to the hilt inside Kiro.
“Ah!” gasped Kiro, shocked by the sudden huge intrusion and stretch but even more stunned by how ferociously the man was thrusting inside him. Up until now he’d been so controlled.
“So good,” the man grunted, “it’s so good, breaking you in. Look up at yourself being fucked, baby. So helpless underneath your alpha. How does it feel?”
“Hurts,” lied Kiro, “please take it out, it hurts, it’s too big!”
“Mmm, I’m sorry, does it really hurt?” But the man was smirking, looking even more pleased with himself, and he didn’t slow down at all. “Ah, you’ve never had a thick alpha cock inside you before… I just took your virginity, didn’t I? But I can tell you’re already starting to like it.”
“I don’t—oh!” Kiro moaned because the man had raised himself onto one arm so he could play with Kiro’s cock as he continued to thrust.
“This should help with the pain,” he said. “Orgasm for me, baby. Let yourself feel good coming around your alpha.”
And Kiro was, he was feeling good, and he knew the man could see the cum spurting out of his cock, his eyes flitting back and forth between that and Kiro’s face.
“You look so sweet when you cum,” the man said with a hint of purr, “and your hole clutches onto me desperately. You’re such a good omega already, aren’t you? I’m only sorry I made you wait so long—”
The man leaned down to kiss Kiro, and Kiro got his bearings back in time to bite the man’s lip instead.
Hands reached up and savagely pried open Kiro’s jaw. The man reared back his head with his cock all the way inside Kiro and looked down at him coldly. The lack of rage was even more frightening to Kiro. The man twisted his head to look up at the mirror above them to assess his bleeding lip, then looked down again and with careful deliberation spat blood and saliva across Kiro’s face. With Kiro’s hands cuffed, he couldn’t even wipe it out of his eyes; all he could do was blink to try to get it out.
“I see. I told you it would only hurt if I make it hurt… but you need it to hurt, huh baby?” A sinister smile. “Okay. I’ll always give you what you really need.”
With that, he started moving his hips again. Had Kiro described it as ferocious before? It hadn’t been at all; this was ferocity, fingers digging into his restrained upper arms hard enough to bruise and the hip bones hitting into his with such intensity that they must be hurting the other man too, but only Kiro was making any noises, groans of pain and pleasure. His eyes couldn’t see clearly because of the stinging discomfort from the spittle.
Suddenly there was a cold wet cloth swept across his brow again, shocking his senses and clearing his vision just in time for a large hand to encircle his throat.
Kiro choked on the no he was trying to say; he couldn’t breathe, he couldn’t breathe. He felt his glands giving off panic pheromones as his head swam, but the sensations from his hole were…!
He came and came hard; he could hear the man sighing and moaning too, now, but Kiro’s vision was whiting out as the orgasm crested.
Then the hand let go.
Oxygen rushed into his lungs as Kiro took gasping breaths. The man slowed his hips again, though he didn’t stop completely. He lowered his body down and put his lips to Kiro’s ear, and Lucien’s voice came again, a little strained. “Colour?”
It took a few seconds for Kiro to get it together enough to reply. “Green. You?”
“Green,” said Lucien’s voice, and then the man raised himself up on his arms again and looked down at Kiro smugly. “Do you understand now, baby? I’m going to take care of everything for you from now on. What you eat, whether you can move, I’ll even take care of the air you breathe. And if you need me to take it away… I will.” The man ran the fingers of the hand which had been choking Kiro through the semen that had spurted up onto the man’s own chest from Kiro’s cock. “You see? You enjoyed it so much. You’re going to be so much happier with me than you’ve ever been before.” The man let his hips stop again as he wiped off his hand and elsewhere with the washcloth, leaving Kiro on tenterhooks of confusion. “Now. Do you want your alpha to kiss you sweetly, baby? Or do you need me to hurt you even more?”
“I…” Kiro felt himself clenching his hole, wanting so badly to be fucked more. “Kiss me…”
“I know you remember how to address me.”
Kiro looked into those pitch black eyes and licked his lips. “Alpha, please kiss me.”
“Good boy.” The still bloody lips pressed to Kiro’s again but this time he didn’t fight back. He let the alpha kiss him like a lover, let him put his tongue in the omega’s mouth, the taste sweet and metallic. The alpha’s hips began moving again as he broke the kiss, only to press kisses along Kiro’s jaw and down to the congealed bite wound, licking it over and over. “You smell so wonderful. Just perfect. Our home is going to be so filled with our scents. You even smell delicious when you’re terrified, do you know that? You make your alpha feel powerful, because you’re so weak.”
“Ah!” Kiro keened, feeling another orgasm rising as he blushed at how affected he was by the degrading words.
“You’re so weak,” the alpha pursued, “you’ve been trying to hold on by yourself but you never could and now you don’t have to pretend anymore. Just surrender to your alpha and let me fuck you and make you feel good. You need me, you just didn’t know until now. It was only a matter of time until you let your pheromones go… or even went into heat… did you ever think about what would happen if you went into heat around your fans?”
The cock was relentless, rubbing his inner walls and driving him wild. “No… I’d never…”
“You have a scent that could make an alpha insane,” growled the alpha. “They’d fight each other to fuck you… but if you tried to run away they’d forget their differences and pursue… they’d be in a mania by the time they caught you… fuck your every hole, cover you with their filthy semen… mmm, I feel you clenching as I say that, don’t tell me the idea excites you? Should I dump you somewhere tied up when you’re in heat so that will happen?”
Kiro was writhing in his binds now. “A-alpha, please…”
“That’s the fate I saved you from, you foolish little slut. Just look at yourself. This is only our first time, look how amazing I’m already making you feel.”
Kiro looked up at the mirror, seeing the man’s pounding into him, and his own face, tear-stained and flushed and forced into yet another orgasm.
“Keep watching because I’m about to knot your hole,” the alpha said, and immediately made good on his words.
“Alpha!” screamed Kiro, another orgasm hitting him when the first had barely crested, lost in the horrible ecstasy of all the things the alpha was grunting into his ear.
“My baby, my slut, such a stupid, dirty little omega, just need a good knot, just need to take my cum, isn’t that right? And you love it. You love that a strong alpha finally caught you. My silly baby. Mmm, I’m filling you with my cum now, I’m stretching your hole, I’m plugging it shut so it all stays inside you. This is all you are, all you’re meant for. You should thank me for giving you my cum.”
“Alpha,” keened Kiro, still cumming himself, “alpha thank you… thank you for… for giving me your c-cum…”
“Oh, Kiro. So good…” For just that one moment, it was Lucien’s voice again, but then he must have recalled himself because he slipped back into character. “So I’ve already broken you in? Beautiful.” The alpha played with Kiro’s hair. “I knew you would be perfect. You were just starved for this. I’ll keep you so satisfied, baby…”
“Kiss me, alpha…”
They spent the whole time kissing until the alpha’s knot finally went down, whereupon with a little sigh, the alpha reached up and gently covered Kiro’s eyes with his hands.
“Still green?” Lucien asked.
“Still green.”
“Ready to wake up?”
“Okay…”
Then the hands weren’t there, and he was waking up in bed with his hand entwined with Lucien’s.
“You didn’t say your colour,” Kiro said.
“So green…” Lucien began playing with Kiro’s hair again, just like his alter ego had been doing in the dream. “I know you said you wanted to include mindbreak in the roleplay, but I never realized it would be such a turn-on for me. I’ve never done that with anyone else… I don’t think it would have meant as much even if I had. That kind of submission from you is… very, very special.”
“I know I said I was ready to wake up,” Kiro said, snuggling into Lucien, “but I would have been fine with it going longer, too… I wasn’t sure if maybe you wanted to end it, though?”
“I think I needed to end it there for now… it was very intense for me, too,” Lucien said thoughtfully. “I wasn’t sure how I was doing as a rapist, either… I kept letting my actual love for you slip through, and I got concerned about how that might feel, when it was mixed in with the degradation and control…”
“It was hot,” Kiro admitted, “but thanks for being concerned… I actually thought it was really hot when you broke character. Felt kind of proud of myself, too.”
Lucien booped Kiro’s nose with a half-smile. “Of course you did.”
“But I want to hear what it was like choking me,” Kiro said. “You only did it once.”
“It was too good. I didn’t expect how much smelling your panic pheromones in that situation would excite me… but then I got scared that maybe you were really frightened. We need to come up with a better way to safeword choking for me to be comfortable doing it to you, even in a dream. You… would be comfortable with me doing it again?”
“Yeah, for sure,” Kiro said. “It made the orgasm feel really good. I want to do it with you with you wearing your own face, though. Like, in a consensual scenario? Because I couldn’t read that stranger’s face like I can yours, and I would love to see how you enjoy choking me.”
“Mmm… how do you do that, Kiro? Once again you guess at a kink that I am afraid to bring up… Yes, I want to choke you in a situation like that too. Especially because I want to see your collar next to my hand around your neck…” Lucien reached out and stroked at the collar on Kiro’s skin tenderly, then let his hand slip lower to Kiro’s belly, where he was about five months pregnant with his second child, by Victor.
“You don’t have to be afraid,” Kiro said. “I felt really happy when you said you felt ready to try this with me…”
“No, I was right to be afraid before,” Lucien said quietly. “If we had tried this when we were first together, it wouldn’t have gone so well, for either of us… I can be positive about that for me, at least. Even now… you’re such a good actor, it is easy for me to get spooked that you’re actually hating something or afraid. This was only possible for me because we have that trust and experience built up now… I love you so much.”
“I love you too,” said Kiro with a little sigh. “What time is it?”
“It’s only 21:13,” Lucien said. “Gavin won’t even get off work until 22:00, assuming he gets out on time, and who knows when Victor and Emme will come back from their date.”
Kiro checked the baby monitors, which showed little video feeds of the toddlers sleeping. “I’m not really tired yet… could we listen to the baby’s heartbeat? You know, it was a little refreshing to be in a non-pregnant body again… with normal feet that don’t hurt…”
“How about we listen to the heartbeat and then I’ll rub your feet while we watch a movie?”
“With popcorn?” Kiro’s eyes lit up, and Lucien chuckled.
“Sure. With popcorn.”