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stupid habits. something wooyoung was never proud of. he always had at least one self destructive habit.
but this habit developed into something way worse. wooyoung developed an eating disorder. he was always very slim and his frame was small but he wanted to be even smaller. partially it was about the control; if he could control his intake and weight then he knew he had control over something.
he knew it was wrong and he couldnt let san find out. his boyfriend was very protective and always did anything to help wooyoung, especially when he was stuck in one of his stupid habits but this was different.
weirdly enough, wooyoung didnt even know when it turned into a full blown eating disorder, only realising when san started pointing out his weird behaviours. he blamed it on exam stress and stuff like that which i mean wasn't completely wrong. school was a bitch. the people there usually sucked, except his close friends but not all of them went to the same place and if they did, they had different classes.
wooyoung, yeosang, seonghwa and yunho went to the same place whereas hongjoong finished school and san, jongho and mingi went to a different place. of course wooyoung missed his other friends but at least he could get away with more things like skipping meals, sitting in the toilets during lunch, avoiding people or dissecting his meals whenever he actually ate, trying to get rid of as many calories as possible.
it wasnt that bad at first. he lost some weight here and there, he tried to eat healthier, he still looked healthy and he could do well in school.
everything was fine. he was happy. whenever he lost weight he was so excited. he could finally be perfect. he'll finally be enough for sannie.
oh sannie. he deserved the world. he was so sweet and compassionate and he was so fit and attractive and cute at the same time. he looked like a god and he was just perfect. he couldve had anyone and yet he chose wooyoung.. so the least woo could do was look a bit better right? there wouldnt be anymore dirty looks or whispers whenever him and san where out together. he knew that san loved him and yet the fear that he would find someone new terrorised him.
but it was fine because soon he'd be good enough.