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Pathetic, useless, weak, an Omega. He was born like that and no matter how hard he tryed to change it, he would not. And he hated him self for being something he could not change, more and more every day...
His anry sad eyes looked at his brother. Daniel didn´t seem to notice him, at all. No. Not since he got a new Brother. A could stitch in his heart, a better one...
No, he should be more thankful, not this selfish. The Shifters and the farm were the best thing that could happen to him and his brother. And Finn...he was a better Brother for the young Alpha. Better then he could ever be.
Yes. Because of what he was. The stupid, greedy Omega whore, his body forced him to be. God. He wasn´t able to protect him...from nothing!
Everything that happened to Daniel, every humiliation, hunger and even a cold, without others he wouldn´t made it.
First there was Brody, the Alpha who saved them, last Minute. Just because his dumb body wanted so badly to go in heat, and he did...without Brody he would have spend his second heat on the streets or in the woods, not in an Alpha pheromone flooded car and later in a cozy motel-room.
Then, when Daniel caught a cold, their grandparents saved them. Without the two Betas the little Alpha could have been much worse.
As they walked those miles, the boy tried to protect him. Just how his father taught them, they should look for each other, not only the small brother for the big one, no. Of course Dad didn´t know what would happen, but he managed to teach Daniel what a good Alpha should do to protect his family.
But Daniel was only a child, a strong child. A little wolf with super powers...but in the end just a almost ten year old boy.
And Finn was the perfect Alpha. Strong, kind of wise, always in position to save his family...of course Daniel would admire him. Everybody was, kind of. Cassidy, Penny and Hannah, the three Betas of Finn, the most powerful and light-minded he probably met in his entire life, the other Alpha he accepted in his Family Anders, and his sweet perfect Omega wife Ingrid, both from Sweden, and oh so cute together. Not to forget Clarissa, the Omega of the group, everything but weak. Nada. She kicked ass, and first he didn´t even know that she was an Omega like him. No, this girl was everything but him. Everything, her body language, her mind, the way she smelled, was beta or Alpha? She smelled like a perfume made of Finn, Cassidy, Hannah and Penny, strong and everything else, but not sweet or blooming like his own. No. Compared to him, she smelled like a Ox. And gosh, he was so jealous...
Even Jacob, the shy guy, always standing aside, not knowing if he was a Alpha, Beta or Omega, was stronger than him. Of course he was, even tough he was going trough a never ending phase of personality issues.
Fuck...
All of this was going south and now even Daniel took his space and separated from him, to hang out with Finn. To learn things like throwing knives, carving wood and running trough the woods, howling like wolfs...howling like the brothers used to do...
Thankfully Finn didn´t liked to use his Alpha-Voice on others, so he didn´t train Daniel how to use it. That would be his end. If his little brother would be able to call on him, that would be his official end.
“Hey Seanie. What are you thinking about?” Cassidy ruffled his hair, like she would always do and sit down next to him.
He knew, that the Girl wasn´t going to go away until he talked to her.
So he arched his back and looked right into her eyes.
“You know...just gender bullshit. It...it just sucks. Why do I have to be like this?”
“Huh? When it burdens you, why don´t you talk to Clarissa? She is trough with this shit.”
Yes he could tell she totally was...
“Nah, I´m alright. Don´t want to steal her time anyway...”
Besides, the other Omega probably hated him. The way she kept distance and ignored him, well at least it was some clear advice to stay away.
She stayed away from him, always leaning on Finn or the Betas, but never him. Maybe she just needed to accept him in her pack, to know him better...but he didn´t believed it. He looked around and found her, hanging on Pennys neck, sharing their smells, covering hers. Like she would always...
“I don´t think you would do, but it is your decision. Tell me if I or, you know, anybody else from the pack can help you. No mater what, we are very open-minded, you know?” And hell yes, this for fact.
The Beta ruffled his hair one last time, than stud up and walked back to Ingrid and Anders, into the improvised Kitchen. Like always the Omega cooked for the pack. He would love to help her, but the blond woman always send him away with a cute laughing telling him to just take a seat.
He really was pathetic, he didn´t even managed to be a good Omega...
An Omega-Boy, not able to take care of the pack or prepared to get pregnant or being a good father...
Wow...
Maybe he could draw something...? He pulled out his sketchbook an pencil. He knew exactly what to draw, what he would always chose.
The man he admired the most and god...he was so jealous! What would give to be like him just for one day?
Finn and his little Brother where siting in front of Finns tent, carving wood and laughing. And so he observed the both Alphas and then began to draw them. Another drawing, not made for the rest of the world, but his eyes. He could not mess up such a perfect face or body...
And his little Brother...he was smiling...so happy to be with the Alpha and not with his weak Omega brother, in fact he and Daniel only shared the tent with him, not more, not less.
But the small “I love you big brother” was the best part of his day and yes, he slept better with those few words and the warm hug he got every night.
A warm remember why he trimmed all-day and why he didn´t spend any penny. Mexico, for his brother and him.
“Wow. This looks great...mind if I sit down for a bit?” It was Jacob, standing, unsure as always, beside him, peaking over his shoulder for a short blink.
“No. Sit down please.” As fast as he could, Sean covered his sketchbook under his sweater and pointed his attention to the man next to him.
Other than Cassidy Jake kept his distance and didn´t even try to touch him. No, he never would.
“Uhm...why did you stop? Could you...could you keep going? It...it is kind of relaxing to see you draw, you know?” Jacobs Eyes went whit a shy look to the ground, as if he was unsure about what he said.
“Ok...thank you I guess?” He slowly pulled his book out of his clothing and started to watch the environment again. The two alphas wrestled playfully on the ground, tackling each other down, sometimes howling. Finn was tickling his brother and Sean could not get the warm smile of his face, even tough his picture was ruined. He felt some hot tears in his eyes and was barely able to stop them. Rough he wiped away his tears and hated his body once more for the flood of pheromones running trough his stomach.
“You are welcome.” As Sean finally got his pen, Jacobs Eyes started to run over the other members of the group.
The following peaceful silence as not exactly what Sean was looking for, but kind of nice.
He started look over some of his old drawings. There were many of Finn and Daniel he did in the past weeks, but also some of Lyla. He missed his old childhood friend so much...
Maybe Daniel would miss her too?
Back in the days, before all of this shit started, his little brother would hang on his BFF.
...maybe Daniel even liked her more than him? She was a Beta, knowing what she wants, of course he admired her...just like him.
Shit. His head was going over and over to this hated topic. He could not change who, or what he was, but anyway, he would never stop trying it.
Maybe...some day...
“Sorry, I know you don´t want to talk about this but...you know it is nice to have an Omega around.” Sean was a bit confused, the group had a better Omega than he would ever be, why would Jacob say something so silly?
“What is about Clarissa? She is strong...and beautiful...”
“Yes, she totally is. But she don´t want me around, I soak up her cover smells and she hate to get noticed as Omega. So I keep my distance. It is alright but...ugh. Please forget what I said, I just like your odor, I guess.” Sean wanted to add something, but...
“Dinner is ready!” Ingrid saved him from saying 'I hate my stink'. Maybe for a better.
Everybody quit the things they´re doing and went to the table. Sean followed them, slowly siting down between Penny and Cassidy, far away from his little brother and Finn. He was kind of sad, but it was ok. After dinner he would have something to distract him. Huh.
When did he start to love doing dishes?!