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“Lena?” Alex asked as she stepped into Lena’s office.
“Huh? Oh, hey!” Lena’s smile was exhausted but genuine. “What’s wrong, Alex?”
“Did you check the time?”
Lena did, and winced. “Oh, god, I’m so sorry…”
“It’s OK,” Alex murmured. She was already setting down her purse. “Do you need to stay here overnight?”
Lena looked at her paperwork, and grimaced. “Probably, yeah.”
“Do you have time for a break?”
Lena checked the clock again. “I can take half an hour,” she admitted. “If it helps me work faster.”
“OK.” Alex sat on Lena’s couch and patted the seat next to her, unzipping one of the secret sides of her sweatshirt as she did so. “Want some dinner?”
Lena blushed. “If you want to…”
“Well, I’m engorged and I have a hunch you need to know how much I love you.”
Lena flushed deeper, but stood and began to walk over on unsteady, half-asleep legs. “I love you,” Lena admitted as she knelt before Alex, the agent slipping one swollen, veiny breast out.
“Up on the couch, love,” Alex murmured, and Lena obeyed. “I slept in super late this morning, so I can stay here with you and feed you as you need all night, OK?”
“If you want to,” Lena croaked. Alex’s hand curled behind Lena’s head, fingers threading through lush black locks, and the agent maneuvered them around so that she could lay back with Lena on top of her. The CEO allowed herself to be coaxed along, lips parting as she bowed to Alex’s breast.
“I want to be here to give you what you need,” Alex murmured. Lena’s warm lips closed around her turgid peak, and she sighed happily. “Kara’s going to come by later with some solid food, you can eat that if you want, too, and she’ll drain me if you’re not up for it, but only if you’re not up for it, OK?”
Lena hummed her assent, eyes drifting shut as she felt herself fall into the fluffy, fuzzy trance of suckling. She was hungry, she realized. Not just for food, for the contact, too. Her suckling became hard and fast as her twin hungers roared, and Alex stifled a gasp as she clutched Lena close.
“That’s my girl,” Alex murmured. “My girl. Mine and Kara’s, you’re our wonderful baby girl and we love you forever. Forever, Lena. We love you.”
Lena felt hot, wet tears on her cheek as Alex spoke, sweet milk filling her mouth and warming her stomach as she desperately took Alex’s evening produce. The scent of milk filled her nostrils, mixed with Alex’s apple body wash (a gift from Kara) and the detergent still faintly present on her nursing hoodie. One of Alex’s hands twined through Lena’s hair, holding the CEO gently but firmly to Alex’s breast, and the other lay at the small of Lena’s back, rubbing slowly in circles as Alex secured Lena to her. Lena felt her stress leaving, all her cares and worries flowing out of her and being replaced by the warmth of Alex’s sweet milk.
Lena slipped into a doze, not quite truly asleep, but neither was she awake. The warmth of love made manifest flowed from Alex’s body into hers. The nectar of life connected them.
Part of Lena’s ever-busy mind wondered why she was so philosophical at a time like this, but Alex’s fingernails gently scraped against her scalp, and Lena’s brain quieted, Alex’s hand at her back and Alex’s breast in her mouth lulling Lena into a mindless peace.
There was nothing but her and Alex. Breath. Scent. Touch. Lena’s senses, dulled as they were by her trance, were all she had left as her mind slipped into the fuzz.
Only one voice reverberated in Lena’s foggy mind.
Alex’s.
“You are a beautiful, intelligent, kindhearted woman,” Alex murmured. “You deserve all the love in the world, and Kara and I will give you that love.” Her thumb ghosted over Lena’s earlobe. “You are loved. You are beloved, and you deserve it. We’re never going to let you not love yourself, because you deserve that too.” Gentle nails scraped against the soft skin of Lena’s back, and Lena let out a happy hum on instinct. “Nurse from me,” Alex said in her soft, hypnotic murmur, her own body doubtlessly weighed down by the sleepy pleasure and intimacy of lactation. “You deserve my love. And I offer you my milk because of that love. All of this, Lena. It’s because I love you unconditionally, and you deserve that love.” Her other thumb found a knot in the small of Lena’s back and began to massage it, drawing another happy hum from Lena that reverberated through Alex’s bosom.
“She’s so beautiful like this,” Kara’s voice filtered through the fog of Lena’s sleepy mind.
“Hey, Kara,” Alex murmured, shifting slightly under Lena as she turned her head. “Yeah, she has a lot of work, but I convinced her to eat dinner. Didn’t take much, honestly.”
“How’s her meal going?”
“My boob’s still got some milk. Other side’s full.”
Kara’s physical presence hit Lena’s awareness. Her watermelon shampoo (Kara loved fruit scents in her bath products), the soft sound of her jacket shifting as she crouched, just audible over Lena’s suckling. Lena felt a pulse of warmth flow through her at the knowledge Kara had arrived.
“Want me to take care of you? If you’re engorged, I can drain you.”
“No, I think Lena needs it all right now. Is that OK?”
“Always.” There was the sound of a kiss, and Alex hummed happily.
“I’ll eat when she’s done. Do you have drinks?”
“Two quarts of coconut water and plastic cups for regular water. I got you pad thai and those Tibetan dumplings you like. And three more orders of potstickers for myself from Mrs. Wong’s so I’m not tempted.”
“Mmh, best sister ever.”
“Don’t I know it!” Kara’s hand joined Alex’s in Lena’s hair as the CEO suckled slow and deep. Alex’s milk was changing now, less thin and sweet, more fatty and rich. Hindmilk, swam through Lena’s daze. She was nearing the end of Alex’s supply on this side.
“Unzip my other side?” Alex murmured.
“You got it.” A kiss met Lena’s pulsing cheek, then her temple. “Oh, there’s a stain.” There was the sound of a zipper, and more milk-scent hit Lena’s nose.
“It’ll barely show, and it ought to clean out in the wash, anyway.” Lena suckled bonelessly as Alex’s fingers stroked through her hair. “Our girl’s busy tonight.”
“Well, we can help, right?”
“Check her paperwork, would you please?”
“OK.” Kara moved away, then said, “It looks like she’s got some lab results to read through and put into the computer, and some financial analysis.”
“I can take the lab results, I know how to give her what she needs.”
“I’ll take the financials, numbers are easy.”
Alex chuckled. Lena’s foggy mind finally processed what they were saying, and she shifted, almost breaking her latch.
“Whoah, hey, hey, hey,” Alex murmured. “Keep drinking, Lena. It’s OK. You trust us, right?”
Lena thought as hard as she could. She was starting to rise from the fog, Alex’s breastmilk finally slowing its flow to a stop. Finally, she cracked her eyes open, then nodded into Alex’s breast as she drew out the last few little dregs.
“That’s our girl,” Alex hummed with pride. “Done on that side?”
Lena nodded into Alex’s breast again.
“OK. Let’s get you switched over.” Alex slid her pinky in between her breast and Lena’s lips, and Lena pulled back with a faint pop.
“L…love you,” Lena rasped, trying to remember how to talk.
“Shhh, we know, it’s OK. Kara’s handling the financials, she’ll tell you what you need to know. Here, I’m full on this side, and you still look hungry.”
She wasn’t wrong. Lena’s eyes zeroed in on Alex’s swollen, leaking breast, and her lips parted, the CEO moving over Alex’s body with her help. “Drink up,” Alex murmured, and Lena obeyed, her mouth closing around the peak of Alex’s veiny orb and drawing a soft sigh of comfort and pleasure from her lover.
“That’s our girl,” Kara said softly from behind Lena’s desk.
“Yeah,” Alex chuckled. “She seems to really regress a lot like this. Like she doesn’t like thinking or talking while doing this.” Her hand on Lena’s back stroked the CEO gently but firmly, and Lena felt the nursing-trance flow up to consume her again.
“You get really sluggish and kind of get into mantras, too,” Kara noted. “When you’re nursing one of us.”
“True, it’s like a trance or something.”
“And you get that happy little smile, the soft one you only get when you’re nursing.”
“I do?”
“Yeah, you should look in a mirror.”
Alex chuckled. “I will, later. But what I mean is, it’s way more of a thing with Lena, more than you.”
“I get it. It’s like a trance for her, too.”
“Do you think we can get her work done for her and head home to bed?”
“I think so. I think her wanting to do an all-nighter was half anxiety, there isn’t that much of this.”
“That figures. OK, we’ll see how quickly we can get it done, then take her to our place and sleep in late.”
“We need to convince her to stop doing this.”
“Yeah, but for now we can just be palliative therapy.” Alex began to braid Lena’s silky raven hair into a French braid. Lena let the gentle tugging carry her further into the cloud of mental fluff. “Ah, I’m glad it’s Friday.”
“I knoooow,” Kara moaned with that little giggle Lena loved. “We should pamper her, she’s been freaking out way too much about this product release.”
“Well, if she falls asleep here, just bring me the lab stuff and I’ll get the important parts down while she’s out.” Alex’s fingers tugged at Lena’s hair in time with Lena’s suckles. “Tomorrow, how about we go up to the Heights and just spend the day on that promontory you can fly us to? I think the DEO can cover the city.”
“Ooh, we can make it a picnic. I like it.”
“Let’s do that, then. I can nurse you two under the sun for lunch. That might be fun.”
“Mmh, yeah.” Papers were shuffled. “You’re up for that?”
“I think it might be nice. Nothing but us, the sun, the breeze, and some milk.”
“Well, I like it. We can ask Lena later or tomorrow. Maybe we can do the aquarium on Sunday.”
“You just want to see the penguins and sea otters.”
“Can I help it? They’re adorable!”
Alex laughed softly, and Lena felt the weight of her new braid thump briefly against her back. “Dork.”
“But I’m your dork, though.”
“My dork,” Alex agreed. They existed in silence for a while, Lena suckling, Kara shuffling papers, and Alex finishing the braid.
“The release is Tuesday,” Kara said after some time. Lena’s suckles were slowing, Alex’s milk coming thick and creamy once more. “We should pamper her Monday night, too.”
“Good idea.” Alex lay the French braid on Lena’s back and began rubbing up and down the CEO’s spine. The fog that surrounded Lena’s mind was heavy, now, the sound of her lovers’ voices coming through as if she were underwater. “Pass me the weighted blanket from her cubby shelf?”
“Sure.” After a few moments, Alex’s rubbing stopped, and Lena felt a warm, soft weight settle over her. “Our Lena sleeps here too often, I swear. Need help getting out from under there when she’s done?”
“No, I’m fine.” A thumb ghosted over Lena’s earlobe. “I’ll just let her sleep here on top of me. I might need you to help me eat and get us home.”
“Should I bring you the lab stuff now?”
“Please.” Lena felt a soft patting on the top of her head. “Just nurse and sleep, Lena, it’s OK. We’re going to take care of everything. Just drift away. It’s just fine. We love you.”
“We love you,” Kara said, close by now, a faint pressure meeting Lena’s shoulder as Kara’s hand rested atop the blanket. “Sleep for us, Lena. We’ll keep you safe.”
Lena felt the last of her worries slip away, replaced by absolute, unthinking trust in her two Danvers girls. And with those worries went the last tie keeping her to consciousness.
The last few traces of Alex’s milk came out into her mouth. Lena remembered to swallow, and suckled on pure instinct once more…twice……a third time…
Lena’s lips separated from Alex’s nipple with a soft sigh, and she knew only peace.