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It had been 6 months , 6 months since Mount Weather ,since Clarke had left Bellamy ,standing at the gates of Camp Jaha .
Bellamy had felt broken like part of him had left , left with her. " Look after them for me." her voice still echoing inside his head ,he looked after them, became their leader, but this time on his own. He still felt her absence , at the Counsel meetings with Abby and Kane an empty seat next to him that would have been Clarke's, while trying to stop one of the kids from blowing up the place how she would have probably solved it without all the shouting and swearing and most of all when he thought of something funny or something important about camp and turned around there was nobody there ,no Clarke that laughed at his jokes , no Clarke to talk to at all .
So he spent all his time working, from counsel meetings to ground patrols anything to stop the memories ,the pain.
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It had been 6 months 6 months since Mount Weather ,since Maya had died in Jasper's arms, since their plan had failed and Jasper had paid the bitter price. He had felt empty , he still did. Life felt pointless, as if the reasons to live had died ,died with her. He only felt pain, the pain of knowing that he would never see her again, never hear her laugh, that beautiful laugh he had loved, or how she had smiled as they had looked at the paintings that covered the walls of Mount Weather and Jasper had told her about the post-apocalypse world outside the walls .
Why had they pulled the lever ? Why hadn't they waited a minute longer ? One more minute and Cage would be dead and she alive . ( They had later learned that Cage was dead , killed by Lincoln ,but that still didn't make him feel better )