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You can steal our souls
Somethings can break someones life while others can mend it, give someone hope that they have a reason to live. This was not one of those situations. This wasn’t going to be an ‘Everything will be fine. There is nothing to worry about’ time in his life. This will be in fact, break everything he’s worked for. Everything he lives for. In fact, this would destroy him. In every way there is.
All because of one mistake. One mistake that now, he had to live with, that the kingdom has to live with. He could have done something. He could’ve been quicker. He could’ve been smarter and not leave him alone. But he just had to be a fool. He just had to be an idiot in the moment that he couldn’t. He just had to bring pain to the kingdom.
“Subz.”
There was nothing he could’ve done, yet a million things he could’ve. So many flaws that he just had to have. So many things about him that he could have fixed. If he fixed them, he wouldn’t be dead. He would be happy. Everyone would be happy and there would be nothing to worry about. The kingdom would be at peace. He would be at peace knowing he is alive.
“Subz. Hey, its okay.”
Its not okay. This was his fault. His fault. He could’ve been better. He had to be better, if he was, he wouldn’t be crying, holding his body. The tears wouldn’t be there, he would be smiling, he would be fine, knowing that he was safe. But he’s not safe, he wasn’t safe. And it was all his fault. He had to ruin everything.
“Subz, look at me. There was nothing you could do. Trust me, nothing.”
There were so many thing he could have done. He could’ve checked the area before leaving. He could’ve stayed with him. He could’ve done better. He could’ve saved him. He could’ve been the guard he was supposed to be. He could’ve been there for him. He could have stopped everything. There were so many things he could have done.
He could’ve saved him. Saved his sister from the grief she now has to go through, because of his stupid mistake. Saved himself from the pain that he caused because of his stupid mistake. Saved the kingdom from the terror and paranoia that they now have to go through because of his stupid mistake.
“You did everything you could. You tried your best.”
He didn’t try his best. If he did, he would be alive, breathing, having fun, not lifeless.
It happened in the fucking garden. The one place that brought Subz comfort, the one place he knew that he could be left alone in. But they got in. They killed him. And it was all his fault.
“Nobody knew it was going to happen Subz.”
He should’ve know. He should’ve been prepared. He should’ve never left him alone. He should’ve been better. He should’ve been so many things he isn’t.
He shouldn’t be crying, shouldn’t be holding onto his lifeless body. He should be alive, smiling in the garden.
“We couldn’t have saved Zam. Nobody was prepared. Nobody knew it would happen.”
He could’ve saved him. He knew that he could’ve saved him. Yet, he didn’t. He wasn’t strong enough. He was a failure and everyone knows it.
He could’ve been prepared. He should’ve been prepared. Yet, he wasn’t. He wasn’t strong enough. He was a failure and the whole kingdom knows it.
Subz should have known that something like this would happen. It was obvious that something would happen the second he turns his back on the Prince. It was so obvious, who else would’ve hurt Zam in the alley way? Who else would’ve spent so much of their time trying to kill the Prince, and succeeding. He should’ve known.
“Subz, let’s go. We can bury him soon. I promise.”
We can bury him. Bury him where he’ll finally be safe for everyone.
“We’ll bury him further in the garden. In the nicer area of it.”
Bury him in the lovely garden. So he can rest. Be in peace. Be safe.
“We’ll find who killed him. They’ll be sorry.”
We’ll find him. Subz saw one of their faces. Cut off horns. Nobody would just cut off their horns for fun. Nobody. That’ll be a start to find them. And everything will be better. They’ll pay.
And Subz will be the one delivering the pain this time.
They’ll beg him to stop.
Why are you thinking this? The Prince wouldn’t want you to do that. So why are you thinking about doing it? You need to be better than them. Better than what they did to you.
Be better.