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He Stood in the middle of the lab , while Shoichi and Spanner worked , their chatter a background noise to him .
Tsuna contemplated what led to this moment , all the events that took place and guided them to this one moment that they all were waiting for, the moment that will decide the course of everything.
The one that will bring her back.
Maybe this was all a trial , Tsuna mused, maybe it was all the world's way of showing them how truly important she was .
That with her gone the world will end, and it was ending with that megalomaniac running rampant .
He wished he knew earlier ,just how precious she was, he wished with every fiber of his being that he did, he regretted it, so...so much that it was tearing his sanity and breaking his soul.
Everyday he would drag his body from the confines of his own bed, his limbs heavy as if weighed down by chains.
Everyday he feels the fight draining from him, his very will getting weaker by the second, everything feels like a laborious task, even breathing seems overrated.
Every single fucking day, The same process over and over again.
She was right there. He could have had her , they could have had her with them,... with him...
But he had to hesitate, question everything, still the same coward, same old dame-tsuna, even now he's still drowning himself in what ifs instead of doing something.
Heh, maybe that's why his family don't stick around him much, maybe that's why his cloud can barely look at him without having to fight the urge to tear his throat ,
He stole his other half after all,
He led her to her death,
He sent her alone, self-assured and confident in her ability and drunk on the power of the decimo , blinded by that bitch's advances and affections that he neglected his intuition blaring alarm bells at the notion of sending her there....alone
And now....now she's gone...dead...his beautiful, strong willed second cloud lays surrounded by mimosas in kyoya's home as peaceful as the day he first met her, skipping class sprawled over the school wall sunbathing like a spoiled cat.
He wished to just lay his head in her lap and look at her, listen to her soothing words as she told him about her latest fixation .
He remembered her saying that she got interested in tomb raiding lately and was planning on going with Skull and Enma, he remembered those cute tiger teeth peaking out as she smiled and told him
"Honestly would it kill you to relax a little. When i come back , come with us? It'll be like a field trip, a little vacation just the four of us ? Ne? tuna-kun"
that blasted nickname, that embarrassing monstrosity, he wished to hear her call him that again.
Just one more time ...God please..just once..thats all he's asking for...just one time...
But his prayers are left unanswered, maybe it's because god knows that once won't be enough, it'll never be enough.. he'll ask for it again and again...
God above, he just wants to see her face even for just a second , but kyoya would surely kill him , infact he would shred apart anyone who would so much as allude to wanting to see the shadow of her casket.
His aloof guardian was devastated by the news of her death, it hit him the hardest.
He would never forget the look on Kyoya's face that day.
When he heard the news , he slowly walked to her prone body , gently as if handling the most fragile glass, he lifted the coarse white fabric from her face. And he just.... stood there, deathly silent.. killing intent rolled out of him unrestrained like the raging seas,
then.... silence no sound, no movement even his killing intent was snuffed out, the rage drained out of him , gone just like the light in his eyes.
It was like...no...it was the breaking of his reality, the loss of his sanity, anything and everything ceased to have meaning or value to him.
When he lifted his head,... Tsuna still shudders remembering the way he looked at them...at him, his sky ...like they were dead men walking, killed by him or Byakuran , tsuna didn't think it mattered much to Kyoya. He just wanted to spill the blood of those that took his soul away from him.
And he would have , if not for the fact that he needed their help to bring her back.
And if that didn't send a jolt of unrestrained joy in tsuna's heart nothing else would,
They could bring her back, he could have her back , with him... them.. there again by his..their side, smiling,laughing lounging in the gardens ,
and they will bring her back no matter the cost, even if it means traumatizing their younger selves.
And as he stands finishing the last of their preparations and Shoichi ushers him to the casket he walks barely restraining the urge to skip
Yes ...they will have her back , she'll be back by his side like she was always meant to be .
Kyoya will have his other half back,
Ryohei will have his partner back,
Yamamoto and Hayato will have their best friend back,
Mukuro and chrome will have their confidant bback,
Lambo will have his older sister back,
Kyoko and Haru will have their sworn sister back,
Reborn will have his daughter back,
And Tsuna,....Tsuna will have his heart back
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YES ,....... all they have to do is GO BACK.