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If Only I'd Seen, The Joke Was On Me

Summary:

God he loves her, Steve thinks as he shoots her a soft smile.

He's never had someone that loves him so openly, so unapologetically as Robin does.

Not even when his parents were home for more than a few days a year did they show him the same kind of care that she had in their short time of knowing one another.

 

Or, the an examination of friendship and how the ones we love can hurt us more than we thought possible.

Notes:

Be warned, this is a sad one without a resolution! Based on the Prompt: "Why would you say that?"

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It takes Robin's foot connecting with his ankle to make Steve realize he was starring.

 

At Eddie, yet again.

 

Something that he had been doing a lot over the last few months since everything with Vecna and the Upside Down. Since Steve and Robin had managed to drag Eddie back from the brink, fighting off inky tendrils of death as Dustin led the way while Nancy brought up the rear, shot gun in hand. 

 

Between the four of them, Eddie had actually made it. Torn up and missing about two liters of blood, but alive. 

 

Of course, navigating the aftermath of the earthquakes and the loss of half the town had actually made it easier to avoid the murder charges that had been lobbed at Eddie. 

 

Especially with the way Lucas, Erica, and Max had sworn up and down that Jason had been the one responsible for all of the murders, that they had narrowly escaped becoming his final victims. 

 

And who could argue with the evidence, certainly not Jason after the surge of white hot energy that split the earth had finished with him.

 

So with Eddie's newfound freedom and the inability to argue with Dustin's insistence that he had been officially adopted into the party, his presence in their lives had become something that Steve looked forward to.

 

It was nice having someone else his age in the group. Robin was his other half of course, his soul mate, but it was nice having another guy to hang out with, and of course it wasn't because of anything else, Robin .  

 

He let it slip one time that Eddie had nice eyes and was easy to talk to and, do you think he's seeing anyone Bobby, and suddenly Steve is accused of having a crush. Of all things! 

 

Steve feels two fingers suddenly pinch at the outside of his thigh and has to suppress a loud yelp as he bats Robin's hands away from his leg with a glare.

 

She rolls her eyes and gives him a knowing look before turning back to the conversation.

 

"Take Stevie over here," Eddie says around the joint between his lips. He takes a long drag before passing it over to Argyle and Steve can't help but watch, transfixed, as the smoke billows out from his nose like a dragon.

 

"I can guarantee you that he's seen the ocean before while the rest of us land-locked lubbers will probably never get the pleasure," Eddie continues with a wink and kicks his leg up onto the coffee table in Steve's basement.

 

Argyle blows out a long puff of smoke, he's leaned back against the couch with his head tipped up towards the ceiling, "thats wild man," he says with a laugh in his voice, he doesn't react when Jonathan snorts and takes the joint from his hand.

 

"Seriously?" Jon asks after a minute, "dude, we lived in California, we literally went to the beach all the time?"

 

Robin and Nancy both laugh at the noise of recognition that Argyle makes while Eddie rolls his eyes.

 

"Okay but for everyone else who didn't have the benefit of local geography," Eddie says, gesturing at the girls and himself, " we will be cursed to never feel the sand between our toes and all that shit".

 

Robin quirks an eyebrow and takes a swig of beer from the can in her hands, the sleeve of her denim jacket brushes against Steve's arm as she moves to set the can back on the coffee table.

 

They're the only two seated on the floor, Steve having given up the couch so everyone else could be comfortable and Robin couldn't, in good conscience, let her best friend sit by himself.

 

God he loves her, Steve thinks as he shoots her a soft smile. 

 

He's never had someone that loves him so openly, so unapologetically as Robin does. 

 

Not even when his parents were home for more than a few days a year did they show him the same kind of care that she had in their short time of knowing one another.

 

Sure, they teased each other, Robin had even made a new scoreboard for his failed attempts at flirting at Family Video --this one with a new section after Steve quietly admitted to her that they had even more in common than they had realized earlier. 

 

But Robin was there, in a way that he hadn't really had from anyone else in years. 

 

"I don't know how you deal with it Buckley," Eddie huffs. He's grinning widely at Robin and Steve, reaching to take the joint back from Jonathan.

 

"What," she says dryly, "Steve? He grows on you".

 

"He does," Nancy insists loudly from Jonathan's other side, her cheeks are flushed and her eyes a little glassy. Jonathan lifts his arm to tuck her against his side with a fond grin, he meets Steve's gaze after a minute and mouths, 'still a lightweight ,' which makes Steve snort.

 

"This!" Eddie barks out, lifting a ringed hand to gesture around the basement sitting room, "look there's a fucking Linn LP12 sitting right beside you and a God Damn pool outside".

 

Steve frowns, looking from Robin back to Eddie. He feels an uncomfortable thrum roll over his skin as Eddie stands up to make his way to the sound system he pointed out. 

 

"Jesus, I think this whole collection cost more than my trailer," he picks up Steve's mothers Joni Mitchell album, turning it in his hands, "must have been nice to have mommy and daddy's money huh? This is like 'fuck you' rich".

 

Steve feels a faint nervous laugh tumble out of his mouth, even as his stomach rolls at the words. 

 

"Oh my god," Robin laughs, knocking her shoulder into Steve's own, "yes! If I had a nickle  for the number of times he asked me why I don't have my own phone line yet whenever my mom answers first, I'd be as rich as Steve!"

 

Eddie puts the Blue album back and pulls out a copy of The Beatles and now Steve is sweating.

 

Because Eddie isn't wrong, this is his parents music collection and yes it did cost them a lot of money over the years. But, more importantly, it was off limits to Steve.

 

The last time his dad had caught him flipping through the vinyls, Steve had been sent to his room with large purple hand prints on the offending arm and two broken fingers.

 

"Okay, that's my dad's, put it down," he says, hiding the tremor in his voice as he gets to his feet. 

 

Eddie rolls his eyes again but does set the record down on top of the collection. He raises his hands in surrender and raises a mocking eyebrow as he steps back towards the couch, dropping down on the end as Argyle scoots closer to Jonathan to make more space. 

 

Argyle and Jonathan speak quietly to one another seemingly uncaring about the strange tension that begins to bleed into the basement. It's Nancy who is watching Steve, Eddie, and Robin, her mouth set in an unhappy frown. 

 

Nancy had only met Steve's parents once during a very uncomfortable dinner, years back when they had dated. While she may not know the true extent of Steve's relationship with Richard and Cynthia Harrington, she knows it wasn't all sunshine and roses.

 

"Man," Eddie snorts, shooting Robin a wicked grin, "I knew your parents had spoiled you pretty rotten but I didn't think they needed to buy you a new sense of humor". 

 

"Yeah Steve," Robin pats the carpet beside her, "it's just a joke, lighten up and come sit down". 

 

And that, well, that hurt a bit more than Steve anticipated.

 

"Why would you say that?" He whispers, the words falling out of his mouth like vomit before he can stop it. 

 

Eddie scoffs from the couch, but Steve isn't looking at Eddie. He's looking at Robin.

 

Robin who meets Steve's gaze with a slight frown between her eyes, she looks back at Nancy with a laugh in her smile that disappears at the frosty glare Nancy fixes her with. 

 

She slowly turns to look back at Steve, confusion and concern in her blue eyes.

 

"Oh come on Steve," Eddie takes a drag of the joint, which has dwindled into something resembling a roach before stubbing it out in the brown ashtray on the table, "we're kidding, come on Byers, you get it right?"  

 

Nancy leans up to whisper something in Jonathan's ear and whatever it is, it's enough to make him stiffen slightly and give Steve a long look before he shakes his head, "I think we're going to head home actually".

 

Steve nods and breathes out, ignoring the way his chest tightens as he refuses to meet Robin's worried gaze. 

 

Eddie slowly stands to follow Nancy and Jonathan, he says something quietly to Argyle that is met with a simple serene shrug

 

Eddie hangs back as the other three make their way up the basement stairs. He chews his lip and clenches his fist as he looks between Steve and Robin with a frown.

 

Eddie stands awkwardly beside Robin, spinning one of the rings on his left hand as he looks between Steve and the stairs that the others had used to beat their hasty retreat.

 

Robin gets to her feet slowly, her gaze never wavering, "Steve?" 

 

Steve winces at the way she says his name.

 

He knows it was just a joke, he knows he's overreacting, that neither of them could have known about his relationship with his parents. 

 

He knows it's unfair of him to be so upset, but he can't help it. 

 

Because Eddie mocking him, that he could deal with. He could get over it, let go of the fantasies of Eddie's crinkling eyes and warm smile that made Steve's heartbeat quicken.

 

But Robin?

 

The way she had laughed, dismissed his discomfort, it was as though he had been transported back to Tommy's basement just a few years back, listening to him and Carol tear him down. 



It's just a joke Steve.



He reaches up to pinch at the bridge of his nose, flinching at the sharp intake of air from Robin who immediately makes her way closer. 

 

"Just," he manages to say with an even tone, shaking his head. He closes his eyes and clears his throat, taking a step back from the pair.

 

"I'm going to bed, got a shift tomorrow, so," Steve says quietly with a shrug. He opens his eyes but drops his gaze to the carpet, knowing if he made eye contact with Robin,  he would inevitably ask her to stay. 

 

Robin opens her mouth to argue, a fierce glare in her eyes and a bright flush on her face, he hasn't seen her this upset since the Creel House. 

 

"Steve--"

 

Robin jumps as Eddie reaches for her arm, pulling her back, hard enough that she stumbles slightly into Eddie. 

 

Steve curls his arms around himself, shying away from Eddie's dark evaluating eyes. He doesn't need to see the judgment there, it's embarrassing enough feeling like he's ruined the evening because of his hangups. He doesn't need the reminder of how ridiculous it is to be angry with them over something so silly.

 

"Come on Buckley, I'll drive you home," Eddie mumbles as he gently tugs at her arm once again.

 

Steve hears a harsh sigh, but she doesn't say anything this time. He can feel her staring, as though trying to read his mind like she normally could. But Steve keeps his eyes trained on the floor, until he hears two pairs of feet finally make their way up the stairs, until the front door closes, until Eddie's van roars to life on the Harrington driveway.

 

Steve eventually makes his way upstairs in a daze, half heartedly getting ready for bed. 

 

He brushes his teeth, washes his face, doing everything he can to ignore the words that echo in his head over and over. He finishes in the bathroom and takes off his jeans, swapping his sweater for an old ratty t-shirt he often used for bed.



It was just a joke.



Steve rolls over until he's facing the window, ignoring the tightness in his chest as he closes his eyes. 

 

Maybe it would be funnier in the morning.

 

 

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