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Chuuya rolled the pen around his upper lip as he was reading a document for work on his computer screen. In the corner of his eye, he spotted his favorite coworker, Akutagawa silently signaling to him with a curl of his finger. Hmm? He peered down at the clock on the computer and noticed that it wasn’t time for lunch yet. Typically, Akutagawa always came to request to eat lunch with him, and even if he wasn’t ready yet with his work, he would gladly go. Why? Well, he liked Akutagawa. Honestly, he really liked Akutagawa a lot.
The others in the office often gossiped about Akutagawa being ornery, difficult to work with, and basically not friendly at all. However, Chuuya wasn’t bothered by any of those negative traits. He found Akutagawa had a lot of innovative ideas and discovered that Akutagawa really cared about both his work and the people close to him. Akutagawa always warmed up when he talked about his little sister, Gin. It was endearing to see Akutagawa have a softer and more vulnerable side. Hence, he unconsciously started to fall for Akutagawa, and with any opportunity he could get to be with Akutagawa, he took it.
Akutagawa couldn’t believe it. Dazai, the boss who was in charge of their department, threw this “assignment” on him. Shit, it wasn’t even related to work. He couldn’t refuse either because of Dazai’s position. Why did Dazai have to rope him into doing this? He just wanted peace and quiet. Was that too much to ask?
The only other person he could even reach out for help was Chuuya, as he was one of the few people who tolerated his presence. The thought made him embarrassed, as he didn’t like showing he couldn’t complete tasks on his own, especially in front of Chuuya, who had been working at the office for almost as long as Dazai. But this task was too big for him to do alone. Fucking Dazai.
Akutagawa hoped Chuuya wouldn’t laugh it off and turn him down. He had to summon a lot of courage to covertly ask Chuuya to take a look at the long ass list Dazai compiled. He had a hard time asking for assistance. It wasn’t in his nature to rely on others since he had always grown up doing everything on his own and supporting his little sister, Gin.
Chuuya followed Akutagawa into the break room and spotted the quiet man fiddling with a clipboard that had quite a few papers on it. He wondered what assignment Akutagawa was working on this time that required his assistance. As long as he knew Akutagawa, there weren’t very many times when Akutagawa couldn’t resolve a project on his own. Was Akutagawa starting to rely on him?
“Take a look at this.” Akutagawa shoved the binder onto Chuuya, not wanting to appear stupid in explaining what it was.
He was bad at talking, and he would probably screw it up, making himself look like an even bigger fool. His heart was already racing by even standing next to Chuuya, who seemed extremely oblivious as to how he felt.
From the moment he started working at the company, he was foolishly attracted to Chuuya because of how gallant, honest, and nice he was. Unlike most people who would shrug him off and ignore him, Chuuya never overlooked his presence and treated him as something more than a nuisance. That kindness touched the deepest parts of his heart. But he never had the willpower to confess because… because… what if Chuuya didn’t like him? Then what? He would be the one left with egg on his face and ruin the cordial relationship they had. Akutagawa would forever rather pine in secret than to destroy the only person who didn’t look down on him.
Chuuya grunted slightly only because of how hard Akutagawa shoved that clipboard into his chest. When he spotted the list, he had to take a double look. Huh? This seemed more like a grocery list for a grand party. What the heck was all of this about?
“Wait. I’m not a party planner, though. I literally have no idea what matches with what.” Chuuya confessed. “...Are you being assigned to throw a big party for someone important?”
“By Dazai. For Atsushi. It’s his stupid birthday coming up.” Akutagawa mumbled as he stared down at the floor in embarrassment.
“Hurh?” Chuuya stared at Akutagawa as if he had lost his marbles. “Why are you extending yourself to throw a big party for Dazai’s lover?”
“I’m not. Dazai shoved it on my desk.” Akutagawa frowned at Chuuya’s assumption.
“That sneaky bastard is always shifting his responsibilities off to other people. Let me go have a word with him!” Chuuya was immediately enraged for Akutagawa.
As long as he was here, no one had the right to abuse Akutagawa. It didn’t matter that Akutagawa was a hard worker and kept his head down, never letting out a single complaint even if the work was tough or difficult. Chuuya stormed out of that breakroom, rushing straight to Dazai’s cushy office to speak up for poor Akutagawa.
Akutagawa gasped and grabbed onto the sleeve of Chuuya’s shirt, but Chuuya already marched away, easily throwing him off. He shook his head. Oh shit! If he didn’t stop Chuuya, he might actually get into a fight with Dazai! That would be bad! He chased after Chuuya to make sure he didn’t do something stupid!
“Hold on!” Akutagawa called out after Chuuya.
“Hey, you idiot!” Chuuya threw open Dazai’s office door, not caring that Dazai clearly had a phone to his ear and was clearly speaking to someone. “We need to talk!”
Dazai was in the middle of a phone call, but was rudely interrupted by the boisterous Chuuya. He rolled his eyes that Chuuya didn’t seem to have any tact or understanding of social cues. He had to hang up, wondering what could have gotten into Chuuya’s pants this time. Chuuya always had some beef to pick with him for as long as they worked together.
“Is something the matter?” Dazai politely asked, crossing his legs, as he patiently waited for Chuuya to rip into him.
“How dare you assign Akutagawa to do work that’s unrelated to our company? Who do you think you are to boss poor Akutagawa around? I always knew you were a horrible leader, but this is overboard!” Chuuya huffed at Dazai, pointing his finger directly at Dazai.
Akutagawa finally caught up, catching his breath and heard Chuuya firing off a lot of words. “Chuuya, w-wait…”
“What are you talking about?” Dazai feigned innocence, simply staring at Chuuya, who was raising a ruckus.
“I saw the cumbersome, long ass list!” Chuuya growled, hating the way Dazai covered up his blunders with his cute expressions that only further irritated him. “Don’t make me raise my voice. You know exactly what I’m referring to. You even had the nerve to write panties on there! What the fuck were you thinking?!”
“It’s not like I’m asking Akutagawa to work for free. He’s getting paid to do it.” Dazai chuckled at Chuuya who looked so comically hilarious, huffing and puffing over there despite his short stature.
Chuuya didn’t care and continued to push for an answer, “If he’s your lover and you truly love him, shouldn’t you be the one doing all of that legwork to celebrate his precious birthday?”
Chuuya had no idea what Atsushi saw in Dazai. For as long as he worked for Dazai, he never cut Dazai any slack because this guy easily cut corners if he could. Dazai wasn’t stupid by any means, but he sure didn’t put in one hundred percent dedicated effort like the rest of them. He had no idea how Dazai wormed his way up to this high up position either, but he swore Dazai’s gift of gab was his ace in getting what he wanted. Perhaps that was what won the innocent and naive Atsushi over.
Akutagawa’s jaw dropped at the way Chuuya kept on brazenly insulting Dazai. Shit! Dazai was in charge of their department! How could Chuuya talk that way?!
“I already am. I have other things planned that I’m sure you wouldn’t want to hear.” Dazai smirked at Chuuya, who obviously didn’t know the amount of effort and planning needed to woo a lover, which made sense. Chuuya was a single man who never dated anyone.
“Gross!!” Chuuya scrunched up his face, then he crossed his arms in the shape of an X in front of him.
“Why are you even so upset for Akutagawa? Are you two dating or something?” Dazai purposely used this opportunity to poke fun at Chuuya and to possibly figure out why Chuuya constantly stood up for Akutagawa. If his intuitions weren’t wrong, Chuuya obviously liked Akutagawa, and Akutagawa liked Chuuya. What was stopping the two of them from dating?
Akutagawa gaped at Dazai’s audacious words as his entire face flared up from the implication. W-w-w-what?! His heart skipped a beat, as he almost collapsed from hearing such words. D-d-d-d-dating?! Ah, fuck!!! No!
“W-what? Da-dating? What the hell are you talking about? We are coworkers!” Chuuya denied understanding of what Dazai was asking, then he quietly mumbled underneath his breath, “Besides, Akutagawa doesn’t think of me like that.”
Fucking Dazai! How dare he try to stir something up that wasn’t there?! Goddamn him! If he wasn’t the leader, then he would have definitely kicked that stupid tricky bastard out of his seat and wrestled him to take those words back!
“Ahem.” Dazai cleared his throat, pointing behind Chuuya where Akutagawa was standing in complete silence. He chuckled to himself as he spotted Akutagawa with a stone, embarrassed face. Did Chuuya not notice him?
Chuuya only turned to look behind his shoulder because of stupid Dazai’s wiggling finger, then his eyes widened, as he awkwardly said, “Er, you… you’re getting paid… for, er, doing all that?”
Akutagawa thinned his lips in embarrassment and ran away because of how goddamn embarrassing Chuuya was being. He didn’t even know what to say! Especially not in front of their nosy leader, Dazai!
“W-wait!” Chuuya felt guilty that Akutagawa had dashed away without a word, hence, he quickly raced after him to find out how Akutagawa was feeling.
Shit! Stupid, fucking Dazai! This was all his goddamn fault!
Chuuya found Akutagawa hidden in the empty supply room because he could spot that stylish black hair from anywhere. Chuuya pushed open the door wider and stepped inside to try to clear the air with Akutagawa.
Akutagawa was mindlessly eyeing the supplies even though he didn’t need anything. It was extremely awkward when he heard Chuuya step inside. Even though Chuuya hadn’t said anything wrong, it was like a slap in the face. But why? Chuuya didn’t even realize any of his feelings. It was painful, but what could he do? He wasn’t good at talking, and besides, Chuuya was quite handsome. Many people loved him. He was simply another employee and coworker in the building.
“I’m- I’m sorry.” Chuuya sheepishly made the first move. “I… I was only trying to get… justice for you.”
Chuuya gulped after speaking through the thick, uncomfortable silence that hung like a dense fog. He could see that Akutagawa was quite tense, and it didn’t help that he couldn’t see Akutagawa’s face to gauge how he was feeling. Akutagawa had his back faced towards him and was obviously trying to pretend to ignore him.
“It’s fine.” Akutagawa quietly responded as he continued to stare at the pens and pencils.
He hated how his heart raced at the simple sound of Chuuya’s voice. He clenched his fist, despising this weakness of his.
“Listen, I’ll do whatever you want me to do. What’s our first task?” Chuuya decided to be the bigger person and push the incident past them to not keep things awkward between them.
He swallowed hard. Chuuya was only going to help him out of pity. Like he was some dog. That hurt even more. But what could he say? If he turned Chuuya down, then he would look vindictive and cruel. He cursed at these feelings that swirled inside of his heart. He wished he could quash them into smithereens.
Chuuya stepped closer towards Akutagawa and kneeled down, so that he could at least try to crank his head around to see Akutagawa’s face.
With his head tilted at an upside down angle, hoping to make Akutagawa laugh, Chuuya grinned up at him, “Sooo? What do you say?”
Akutagawa, being completely caught off guard, gasped and shouted at the close contact, “Ahhhh!”
He tried to quickly run backwards, but he ended up tripping on his own goddamn feet. Fuck! What was with him creating one mess after another?!
“Watch out!” Chuuya quickly bounced back up on his feet, then he lunged over towards Akutagawa, grabbing his arm with a bit of force to yank Akutagawa into his arms. “Be careful, silly.”
Akutagawa’s entire face flushed a dark red at the touch of Chuuya’s hand. He took in a shallow breath as he was pressed up against Chuuya’s body. Was this for real? Fuck! He screamed in his mind to speak or move, but he only stood still like a dumbass. He could actually catch a whiff of Chuuya’s alluring cologne that he usually could only sniff in spurts. Shit! He was sounding like a pervert right now!
Chuuya admired Akutagawa’s blushing face at being held at this close distance. They were actually close enough to allow Chuuya to brush a strand of Akutagawa’s long wisps of hair out of the way. Chuuya smiled as he tucked it behind Akutagawa’s ear.
“You may be taller, but you’re the cutie between us.” Chuuya goofily grinned.
“I- Wha- Why are you even saying that kind of stuff?!” Akutagawa hoarsely shouted at Chuuya, becoming extremely conscious from his oddly tender actions. What was Chuuya trying to do?!
Akutagawa’s exasperated reaction snapped Chuuya back to reality, causing him to realize the position in which he was holding Akutagawa. He quickly released Akutagawa back on his own two feet and at an eased position. Chuuya then awkwardly averted staring directly at Akutagawa and nervously rubbed the back of his neck. Shit! He had gotten too close to Akutagawa without rhyme or reason. What was he doing in getting lost in his own fantasies? In that moment, Akutagawa looked so adorable that he wasn’t able to hold back his own actions. Fuck, fuck, fuck.
“Erm, so, uhhh… I can still help you out, right?” Chuuya asked for confirmation.
“I-I-Well, that’s why I asked you in the first place…” Akutagawa also looked away, staring at the ground unable to keep a straight face. He was still standing so close to Chuuya, which wasn’t any good for his racing heart. He was afraid that Chuuya would be able to hear it because of how loud it pounded in his ears.
Chuuya rolled on his feet from his toes to the back of his heel as he stammered a reply, “We-well, yeah! That’s what I’m, uh, on board… now. So, where to? Ha… ha…”
“What’s first on the list?” Akutagawa softly asked, as he hadn’t exactly memorized everything that Dazai jotted down.
He wished he could have been so smooth and converse without any issues, but unfortunately, that was not him. He already had a hard time giving presentations about work without breaking out into a sweat. Discussing personal matters was practically almost impossible. Geez. He already made a big colossal flub around Chuuya. He bet Chuuya thought he was being silly.
Chuuya peered at the list that Akutagawa had given him, then his jaw dropped when he spotted the word panties. The very word he had given Dazai flack over. Fuck! He immediately skipped over that first bullet. Hell no! They couldn’t start off there when they had barely mended their awkward relationship just now. Aheeeeem!
“What’s wrong?” Akutagawa innocently looked up at Chuuya, who was growing red in the face.
“What?!” Chuuya almost threw the list out of his hand onto the floor because he was so embarrassed. “N-n-n-n-n-n-n-n-n-nothing!! Aaahhhaahahahaha!!!!”
Akutagawa blinked several times, puzzled by Chuuya’s nervous stuttering. He was very perplexed by his reaction. Was there something naughty on the list? Although, this was the first time he had seen Chuuya breaking out in a sweat. Usually, Chuuya was very confident. The sight of it was… mindboggling. It was actually very handsome of him. Akutagawa blushed at his own silly thoughts, not daring to peep a word.
“Le-le-le-le-let me see what else is on this list!” Chuuya stated, then he saw balloons and said, “Er! The party store! Let’s go there, hahahah!!!”
Chuuya rushed out the door, assuming Akutagawa would be following behind him. He was extremely embarrassed because of the random images that popped into his head. For a moment, his mind conjured up a scene of Akutagawa posing in sexy underwear with a super cute, angelic face. Fuck! Why was he thinking something so inappropriately?!
“W-w-wait!” Akutagawa cried out, then ran after Chuuya, who strutted out with big strides.
Thankfully, it wasn’t a busy hour, so they could walk to the store, which wasn’t far from the company’s office.
As they strolled down the aisles together, Chuuya noticed party items themed with pastel colors just as Dazai had designated on his stupid list. Huh. This did seem very Atsushi like. It was cutesy, light hearted, and bright.
“I guess Atsushi does like pink pastel colors.” Akutagawa noted out loud, as Chuuya wasn’t exactly saying much.
Akutagawa had known Atsushi for a while, as they had attended the same college. Thus, he was surprised when Atsushi had decided to date Dazai. To this day, he still couldn’t fathom how that happened. But Atsushi merely chalked it up to the power of love, which made no sense to Akutagawa. What did that even mean?
“Yeah, it’s a little bit, um… nauseating?” Chuuya tried to word it as politely as possible, as he raised an eyebrow at their cart full of such items, which was kind of blinding.
“What color would you like to have? If you were having a party.” Akutagawa curiously asked, hoping to learn more about Chuuya without being a creep about it.
He relished in these moments that he got to spend with Chuuya because he always saw another side of Chuuya, which only made him like the guy even more. How embarrassing.
Chuuya tapped his finger against his bottom lip and happily replied, “I’d love to have everything red and black. Doesn’t that seem super cool?”
He grinned as he flashed his hand into a checkmark sign underneath his chin, confidently looking over at Akutagawa. He wanted to exude a cool air of handsomeness in front of Akutagawa.
Akutagawa blushed at Chuuya’s handsome grin, then slightly stammered, unsure of how else he should respond, “I-I guess. It seems very much like you.”
“How about you? What would you like?” Chuuya took this chance to return the question back at Akutagawa, anxiously wondering what his cute associate would say.
“M-me? I’m… I don’t really mind.” Akutagawa sheepishly answered, as he felt incredibly stupid doling out such a response.
“Awww, come on. Tell me.” Chuuya pushed Akutagawa for a response. “I’m sure you have soooome preferences.”
He wanted to hear more about what Akutagawa liked. It was rare for Akutagawa to speak more in depth about himself. In fact, Akutagawa liked to keep things personal and close to his chest.
“I-I like grey… That’s a boring color, though…” Akutagawa hesitantly answered, shifting his eyes down towards the floor.
Most people would have preferred an answer like Atsushi’s, wouldn’t they? Something extremely fluffy and cute. But that wasn’t his style. Did that make him unattractive? He internally sighed, feeling like he was a hopeless fool.
Chuuya laughed at how cute Akutagawa was embarrassingly responding, then he patted Akutagawa on the arm, “I think if we had a joint birthday party, the room would look super sweet. Your serious, cool and calm theme juxtaposed to my rowdy, chaotic one! Haha! What do you think?”
“Our birthdays are far apart, though.” Akutagawa didn’t understand how that would even work.
Chuuya cleared his throat, realizing that his attempt to flirt with Akutagawa was thoroughly rejected.
“Oh, uh, you’re right. Haha… right. Far apart. Yeah.” Chuuya awkwardly replied, then continued rolling the shopping cart down the aisle.
Akutagawa felt he had killed the conversation. Was he not supposed to say that? Oh great. Now, he felt even stupider. Chuuya was trying to make him feel better, and he ruined their chances of interacting with each other in a friendly manner. He silently fidgeted with his fingers, walking alongside Chuuya, who insisted on pushing the cart.
For some reason, at the end of this aisle, there were wedding decorations. Chuuya snorted a little because it seemed as if Dazai and Atsushi were basically about to send wedding invitations after this birthday party. He swore Dazai was actually going to propose to Atsushi instead of only celebrating his birthday. Sneaky bastard.
“Don’t you feel like… Dazai is up to… something no good?” Chuuya asked.
“No good? What do you mean?” Akutagawa was more lost in his own thoughts, so he hadn’t been paying attention to their surroundings.
“Don’t these pastel decorations look more suited for a wedding party? The balloons are a light pink with gold confetti inside, and the stringers are pink with gold trimmings. And look at these ridiculous napkins and plates. They are white with pink decorations on the edges. What type of birthday party decorations are these?” Chuuya aptly described each item with precise detail.
“Well… they’ve been going out for a while.” Akutagawa took a moment to think before he responded.
He actually had no idea what entailed dating or relationships. He never had been in one himself because of how reticent and stiff he was. Many people got scared of interacting with him because of how coarse he could come off at times.
“Is it true that Atsushi is an old college friend of yours?” Chuuya recalled the rumors from the other workers in the building. “Why does he even like stupid Dazai that much?”
“We are. We went to school together.” Akutagawa didn’t see any reason to hide the fact. “Atsushi… sees the good side in people.”
Akutagawa then depressingly thought to himself, He’s also a lot bubblier and charming, too. Unlike me.
When they were in school, a lot of guys always hit on Atsushi, and on every Valentine’s Day, Atsushi would receive a ton of gifts. Atsushi joked about how he would gain twenty pounds, trying to finish all of the chocolate he got.
“Huh… what’s the type of person that you like?” Chuuya nervously asked since they were on the topic of dating.
“W-wh-what?” Akutagawa almost choked on the word because of how fast his heart started to beat against his chest. It was an innocuous question, but it wasn’t good for his heart! “W-what does it matter?”
Chuuya peeked over at Akutagawa, noticing that he was extremely flustered. He wondered what could put Akutagawa in that type of state.
“It’s just a question.” Chuuya stuffed his hands into his pockets, trying to play it off as a normal conversation topic.
“W-what about you? I’ve never seen you with anyone even though you’re always getting asked out.” Akutagawa shifted the topic away from himself.
He didn’t mean to ask and come off nosy, but it was the truth. Chuuya was quite popular around the office despite how he denied it. Everyone in the office loved hanging out with him even after work.
“Me? I’m not asked out that much!” Chuuya blinked at Akutagawa, then he wondered if he had missed something that Akutagawa caught onto and asked, “Am I?”
As far as he knew, the only person asked out a lot in the office was Atsushi, even though it was so obvious that Atsushi was dating the big boss Dazai. What were people thinking? As if the innocent and loyal Atsushi would ever betray Dazai.
“Everyone really likes hanging out and being around you.” Akutagawa pointed out an undeniable fact. Was Chuuya just that oblivious to other people’s advances? He wasn’t an expert in romance, but he noticed how many people hit on Chuuya.
“Really? I think it’s only because of my loud mouth that people notice me. It’s not like that at all.” Chuuya waved his hand. “I think you’re actually the cuter one that people have their eye on.”
“...What?” Akutagawa blankly stared at Chuuya with a flabbergasted expression. His ears burned at the sound of those words. He- What?! What kind of description was that?! He didn’t look like that at all!
He hadn’t meant to say it, but he did. Fuck. Akutagawa was looking at him with those big eyes that he found it hard to pull away from. Shit, shit. What did people normally say in this situation?
“I mean, you know, just saying! I think you’re a very cute person who wouldn’t have problems finding a partner. Haha…” Chuuya tensely laughed, feeling like a bit of a daft idiot. Shit. He didn’t even know what he was saying. He was merely jabbing off random words at this point. Maybe this was a bad topic to broach after all.
Akutagawa didn’t understand why Chuuya would say that. Did he look like that kind of person? It was very apparent that no one around the office liked to talk to him if they didn’t have to. Chuuya was one of the rare people who conversed with him on a daily basis.
“No one likes me in that way.” Akutagawa quietly said, not daring to stare at Chuuya, who was acting somewhat out of character.
Chuuya didn’t know why it bothered him that Akutagawa looked extremely despondent, but it gripped at his heart. He couldn’t simply let Akutagawa think that poorly of himself. He should bravely step forward and let Akutagawa know of his feelings.
“That’s not true. You have one enthusiastic fan.” Chuuya smiled warmly at Akutagawa. His heart beat rapidly against his chest and the palms of his hands were sweating, as he spoke such daring words.
Akutagawa blinked, glancing over at Chuuya, unsure what he was implying, “What do you mean?”
Chuuya almost wanted to slap his forehead, but instead, he pointed at himself, “Me! I’ve always had my- my eye on you. For- for a long time, too.”
Chuuya gripped the handle of the shopping cart, feeling like he was going to fall over because of how forthcoming he was at the moment. However, he couldn’t simply sit back and let Akutagawa wallow in depression. It hurt him that Akutagawa didn’t think highly of himself.
“A-A-A long… time? But… that… can’t be… Wh…” Akutagawa was rendered speechless. Was Chuuya saying what he thought he was? Could it truly be?
Chuuya forcibly pulled Akutagawa in for a hug, then squeezed Akutagawa tightly in his arms as he shakily said, “You’re- you’re seriously worse than Dazai in playing innocent! Are you really not understanding what I’m saying? I’ve… I’ve… I’ve liked you for so long! I’ve wanted to ask you out for a long time, but you always seem agitated around me, so I thought you didn’t like me at all.”
Akutagawa stared at Chuuya with wide eyes, not believing what he was hearing. He never would have imagined this in a million years. He heavily breathed in, as he soaked in all of the words Chuuya kept on spouting forth.
Chuuya nervously continued to spew his true feelings because he felt even more worked up since Akutagawa wasn’t saying anything except looking at him as if he were insane.
“I know that you value your work and you’re putting in all of those hours to continue climbing the corporate ladder, so you can securely take care of your little sister Gin. I really admire that hard working ethic about you. I like that you’re a serious, dedicated, and focused person. I also like it when you ask me to eat lunch with you, and I cherish every moment I get to spend with you. I didn’t want to, well, I was afraid to say anything because… what if you didn’t like me? Then we would no longer be able to hang out ever again.” Chuuya finally took a breath after his long winded explanation.
It was a lot to cram in all at once, but he had to let Akutagawa know that he was serious. He wasn’t saying any of this on a mere whim.
“I-I-... I thought… I thought it was only me… I…” Akutagawa gasped, covering his mouth in embarrassment. His heart was overwhelmed with warmth by Chuuya’s kindness that he let it slip. The feelings that he had been holding in for so long. Goddammit. Only Chuuya knew how to touch people when they least expected it.
Chuuya pushed Akutagawa’s hand away and leaned up to roughly kiss Akutagawa on those shocked lips. It seemed that no matter how he tried to convince Akutagawa with words, it wouldn’t sink into Akutagawa’s brain. Fine. He would persuade him with the power of his actions.
Akutagawa was taken by surprise by the brash kiss, but he didn’t push Chuuya away. He had long imagined what it would have been like to be this close to Chuuya, as he thought he would never have a chance. He was still so shocked to the core that he felt all of this was a beautiful dream. He closed his eyes, shyly returning that kiss. He hoped he didn’t come off sloppy since he had no experience in these matters.
Chuuya smiled at Akutagawa’s shyness and boldly slipped his tongue in between those chaste lips to surprise Akutagawa with the immense love he held for him. He glided his tongue around Akutagawa’s, egging Akutagawa to respond and curl his own tongue around his. He slipped his hands behind Akutagawa’s back, pressing Akutagawa closer to him as they kissed. He loved the feeling of having Akutagawa within his arms. He only wished he was taller, but instead of focusing on that dilemma, he backed Akutagawa against the aisle and stepped up on the bottom rung to give himself more height to deepen their increasingly heated kisses.
Akutagawa was shocked by how bold Chuuya was. They were in public, in the middle of a store no less, but it didn’t seem to bother Chuuya one bit. His body grew hotter with embarrassment, as he leaned down, so Chuuya wouldn’t have to strain his neck. He should have stopped, but he relished in the closeness and the gentleness of the passionate kisses.
Chuuya parted away from those delectable lips, loving the soft wet smacking noise of their lips parting, then he grinned at Akutagawa, “How was that… Aku?”
He hazily stared up at Akutagawa, no longer resisting in gently pushing back Akutagawa’s wisps of hair away from his face. He smiled as he felt the back of his fingers gliding against that smooth skin. He always found Akutagawa’s milky white skin mesmerizing and very pretty to look at, but he never imagined that it would be this silky to the touch, too.
“That was…” Akutagawa blushed at Chuuya shortening his name, making it sound fucking cute.
He wanted to raise a fuss, but he was busy heavily panting for breath. His body also trembled from the overflowing feelings that Chuuya fed him. Was he crazy? He was already eyeing those sexy lips, desiring another damn kiss. He was tempted to reach out first, but he hesitated. So many thoughts were swirling in his brain that he didn’t know what he should do first. Fuck!
Instead of giving Chuuya a verbal response, he desperately wrapped his arms around Chuuya’s shoulders and greedily pulled him in for another desperate kiss. Fuck it! He was already being embarrassed to death in public. What more did he have to lose? He would do anything not to lose this precious moment between them.
“Mmmhmm!” Chuuya groaned, but he loved the initiative from Akutagawa as he happily accepted that zealous kiss.
Chuuya leaned Akutagawa down, holding him within his arms as if they were dancing the tango, so he could have full access to those delicious lips. Chuuya made sure to reassure Akutagawa of his hold by keeping his hand securely behind the small of Akutagawa’s waist. Damn. If only they didn’t have this damn list to finish, then he would have liked to take Akutagawa to his home… right now.
Akutagawa was about to deepen the kiss, swept away by how romantic and gallant Chuuya acted. However, his phone loudly rang and buzzed in his damn back pocket. Fuck!
“Um…” Akutagawa awkwardly pulled away, looking at Chuuya to let go of him.
“Just answer it.” Chuuya let Akutagawa stand up, but he hugged Akutagawa from behind as he didn’t want to let go of him.
Akutagawa shyly pulled out his phone, feeling very strange, as he had never acted this openly affectionate in public. Not even when he spent time with Gin. He never let her randomly hug him.
“Hello?” Akutagawa politely answered, hoping he wasn’t in trouble.
“Ohhh, hello! How’s it going?” Dazai grinned, curious if those two had started to get any closer.
“It’s… fine. Is something the matter?” The image of them kissing passionately a moment again popped up in Akutagawa’s mind, but he quickly had to shake it off.
Chuuya kissed the side of Akutagawa’s neck as he was talking on the phone with Dazai. He deviously slipped one of his hands underneath Akutagawa’s shirt and slid it up to feel Akutagawa’s toned and smooth skin. He smirked as he lightly pinched Akutagawa’s nipple with his index finger and thumb, softly rubbing it between his fingertips. Heh. Why should he stop just because Akutagawa was taking a phone call?
Akutagawa silently gasped and gently elbowed Chuuya in the chest to make him stop because of how goddamn sensitive it was. Fuck! He was on the goddamn phone with Dazai! His body was already shivering from Chuuya’s deft fingers touching his skin, but pinching his chest was the last straw! Despite what he had done, Chuuya didn’t seem the least deterred and only cockily grinned, still planting his hands firmly on his body. Chuuya was going to get him into serious trouble!
Dazai thought he heard some odd noises coming from the other end, and he purposely asked with a slight purr in his voice, “Oooh, are you getting closer to Chuuya? Getting to know him better? Mhmm.”
His super long list was actually a bogus compilation of shit he wildly thought of to give Akutagawa an excuse to drag Chuuya to go around outside and hang out. Those two were painfully in love with each other, but for some reason, neither of them could see it. Dazai was tired watching them awkwardly avoiding each other, so he devised this ingenious plan of his. Besides, his cute Atsushi often worried about them, and he wanted to do something to reassure Atsushi’s concerns. Of course, he admitted that he was a greedy man and definitely would ask for a reward from Atsushi if it all worked out.
“W-what?! If there’s nothing else, I need to get going!” Akutagawa hastily said before hanging up on Dazai without another word.
Chuuya blinked, wondering what that call was about, but since Akutagawa was off the phone, he decided not to hold back any more. He slipped both hands underneath Akutagawa’s shirt and rubbed both nipples with each of his hands as he nibbled on Akutagawa’s neck.
“Wuuhoo wuaz twat?” Chuuya murmured with his mouth full of Akutagawa’s delicious skin.
“Nnngh… Chuuya…” Akutagawa groaned at the sensation of Chuuya playing with him. He hushed his voice to not to create a ruckus, but it was difficult because of the position he was in. He had to cover his mouth for fear of actually shouting out loud. If anyone caught them, that would literally be the end of his life as he knew it. How would he even explain himself?!
“Let’s go to my house. Fuck Dazai’s list. He can go get all of that shit himself if he really needs it.” Chuuya haphazardly decided. He grabbed Akutagawa’s hand to follow him out the store, so they could head to his place to continue this heated exchange.
The little bit of Akutagawa’s sexy moans he heard reverberated in his ears. He let his instincts take over, as he wanted to hear more of that sensual voice unrestrained. Fuck. He was really head over heels for Akutagawa. Even more so now.
“Ahhh!” Akutagawa felt himself being pulled along without another word.
He normally would have chewed out any other person for dragging him to some other random place. However, with Chuuya, his heart beat with exhilaration and anticipation, as he was eager to explore and feel more. It all felt like a dream, and he was on heaven, being blessed with the only person he ever loved. Before he had been somewhat cynical, as he believed his feelings would never be reciprocated. But now, he wholeheartedly embraced it, which was very unlike him. He bet Gin would poke fun at him for looking so foolish and silly.
Once they arrived at his place, Chuuya wasted no time and already pushed Akutagawa’s jacket off of his shoulders, tugging at the stubborn sleeves, which tried to hang onto Akutagawa’s wrists. Chuuya was still capturing Akutagawa’s lips in between removing his own clothes and attempting to rip off Akutagawa’s at the same time.
Akutagawa thought he would at least get a moment to breathe, but Chuuya didn’t spare him that. He only kept lavishing in hungry, wanton kisses, planting his lips all over. He slightly moaned at the fierce, fiery flames that threatened to burn him alive because of how Chuuya kept on fueling his sexual desires. Would he be able to withstand and keep sane by the end of this?
“I never imagined you to be this enticing.” Chuuya grinned at the sight of Akutagawa only in his boxers, as Chuuya had also stripped himself down only to his own boxers.
Chuuya openly stared at Akutagawa, observing every curve and defined spot on that body he was ready to mark up with his teeth. He wondered if Akutagawa would allow him to do it or give him a black eye in the process of his attempts.
“This is… embarrassing…” Akutagawa became more conscious because he could sense Chuuya eyeing him without any reservation.
He didn’t hate it, but it was the first time for him being this exposed to another person. And it wasn’t just anyone. It was the person his heart beat for. He could barely breathe or keep his head intact. If anything, he felt as though he would explode into pieces.
“Come here, you shy silly goose.” Chuuya laughed loudly and forcibly pulled Akutagawa down the hallway with him into his bedroom.
“Ah!” Akutagawa squeaked as he followed Chuuya’s lead. It was inevitable where all of this was leading, but he also didn’t mind. Words alone weren’t enough. He desperately ached to feel these very emotions coursing through his veins.
Once inside, he backed Akutagawa up against the bed, so he would fall down on his back, displaying all of that wonderful body for him to play with.
“I like this view.” Chuuya smirked as he glided his fingers down Akutagawa’s neck and towards that chest.
Akutagawa could barely breathe as Chuuya hungrily stared at him with those enticing, captivating blue eyes. His body was frozen stiff as Chuuya freely touched his exposed body. He was both extremely curious and nervous as to what was about to take place, but he entrusted his entire being to Chuuya, leaving his soul in this man’s hands that only ever cared and looked after him. He just hoped he wouldn’t perform poorly and disappoint Chuuya.
Chuuya leaned down and happily rolled his tongue around Akutagawa’s nipples, wetting them thoroughly before lightly tugging on them with his lips. He wanted to elicit that sexy moan from Akutagawa’s pretty lips once more and many more times tonight. Chuuya didn’t hold back from lavishing caresses all over Akutagawa’s nipples and nibbling down that heaving chest. He left pink marks by sucking on Akutagawa’s beautiful skin to show that he had been there.
“Mmm… Nnn… Ahh…” Akutagawa softly cried out at the heated wetness that made his whole body tingle with an overwhelming prickling sensation.
His body jerked with every mark Chuuya made on him, as his heart thumped hard against his chest. It was painful at first, but it soon melted into a strange pleasurable sensation. Was that supposed to happen? He had no idea, but his body screamed for more.
“Your voice… sounds… so good.” Chuuya crooned, moving down to Akutagawa’s clothed crotch.
He smiled as he nuzzled it with his nose, sniffing Akutagawa's full unrestrained pheromones, which really turned him on. He took one, two, three and more sniffs all over before just tossing that pair of boxers completely off of Akutagawa’s body. He licked his lips when he saw Akutagawa completely bare in front of him.
“Ah! Chuuya!” Akutagawa yelped from the ticklish sensation, as his face burned a dark red. He couldn’t believe an embarrassing sound escaped from his mouth. Was that even him?! That didn’t sound like him at all!
He could only stare at Chuuya who was being so audacious and fearless. He had no idea Chuuya could act so… so… rough like this. But he didn’t hate it either. His body trembled at the way Chuuya’s eyes feasted him, hoping to experience all of Chuuya’s love being poured onto him.
“You’re so beautiful, Akutagawa. No one can tell you otherwise, or I’ll hurt them.” Chuuya softly said, admiring Akutagawa’s body. He then dipped his lips onto that hard cock that was twitching to fucked. Heh. He could do that. With pleasure.
Chuuya skillfully curved his tongue, tracing every vein and groove on that appetizing dick. He took his time, sliding it into his mouth, as he heard Akutagawa raspily breathing for more of that sweet oxygen. He would be having Akutagawa’s body pleading for more by the time he was finished. He let Akutagawa’s wet, engorged tip tap the back of his throat. He greedily suckled Akutagawa’s excited hard on with increasing intensity. The more Akutagawa moaned and wriggled underneath him, the more it set his body aflame with the desire to already fuck this sexy man. Fuck. First, he would help Akutagawa reach that inevitable climax, as he was extremely curious and also more than delighted to catch a taste of Akutagawa’s alluring lust that pined for him.
“Nnghh!” Akutagawa groaned louder than he anticipated. Oh, fuck. Was he already this hard? It was all because of Chuuya’s teasing him so much that the fire within him scorched every part of his limb, rendering him a sizzling pool of hazy mess. His entire soul became engulfed in a blazing, volcanic heat that seared his body with furious lust. If it was even possible, he might just be incinerated alive by the blazing passion alone.
Chuuya carefully slid his finger in between Akutagawa’s trembling legs, coating the tip of his finger with the copious amount of saliva that was dripping down between his legs. He discovered that precious, sensitive spot as he could definitely feel the emanating heat coming from it. He slowly advanced further, pushing his finger into that coveted hole.
“Ah!” Akutagawa almost choked on his own saliva because of the sharp tingle that shot up his back.
Fuck! His hips jerked, accidentally pushing himself deeper and letting Chuuya slip his finger deeper inside. He helplessly wriggled around, but only because a deluge of emotions flooded his insides, turning him into a goddamn pleading mess. He ended up babbling out noises and phrases that made no sense, which was very much unlike him. Ack! Chuuya was the one unraveling him into an unrecognizable state!
Chuuya’s heart danced at the sight of Akutagawa’s entire body shaking from the sensation. It was such an incredibly sexy sight and filled him with pride that he was delivering on his end. As he happily sucked down on Akutagawa’s delicious, appetizing cock, his heart beat even faster at the sound of Akutagawa’s uncontrolled moans. To further egg this beautiful man on, he worked his finger, worming his way around inside as he pumped that dick with his mouth. Fuck… He was dying to press himself in between those fucking, sexy legs to drive Akutagawa up the wall with insanity. He bet those moans would make it almost impossible for him not to instantly come inside of Akutagawa.
Akutagawa threw his head back, as Chuuya made it impossible for him to keep still. How could he when Chuuya kept on taunting him with those loud, wet sounds and playing with him, making his insides roil with fervor. He hoarsely shouted, “Chuu… ya… Nnnghh!”
Unable to hold it inside because of how goddamn good it felt, Akutagawa released everything as if the shackles around himself finally clicked open. Chuuya, however, was thrown off guard when he tasted Akutagawa’s extremely sweet release burst and filled his mouth like the surprise of those gusher candies finally giving out. Not that he was complaining. Chuuya slurped up every last drop of that sweet stickiness, not leaving a single drop of it behind on Akutagawa.
Akutagawa’s cheeks blushed a bright pink at the lightheaded sensation. If he could, he would dig his face into a pillow because of how pleased he was. He panted heavily, as he processed what even happened. Fuck… Why did that feel so goddamn good, too?
Chuuya released Akutagawa with a soft pop from his lips, then he smirked widely at Akutagawa as he climbed up towards Akutagawa to lightly kiss him on the lips.
“Damn, Aku. That was super fucking sexy. I don’t think I’ll ever tire of those hot moans you produce.” Chuuya chuckled.
“You teased me too hard…” Akutagawa embarrassingly admitted, wanting to sock Chuuya in the face.
“Oh, yeah? Are you ready for round two? I’ll really let you sing out loud.” Chuuya jokingly laughed, even though he fully intended on blowing Akutagawa’s mind.
Akutagawa frowned at Chuuya’s daring taunt, then dared him, “Then do it.”
He couldn’t bear to appear as if he couldn’t handle it. But he also didn’t want to look desperate. Fuck! He didn’t know how to act around Chuuya who made his emotions jump up and down and all around without any regard. It made him act in ways he could hardly fathom, allowing his mind to possess such wild thoughts of being fucked hard by Chuuya. Ah fuck!
“Ooh?” Chuuya raised an eyebrow. “Yes, my beautiful love. I won’t hold back then.”
Chuuya pushed open those thick thighs before throwing off his own boxers and positioning himself right at that aching, throbbing spot of Akutagawa’s. He smirked as it was obviously begging to be pounded. Chuuya also laughed inwardly at the sight of Akutagawa’s trembling legs, which seemed ready to clamp down on his waist the moment he entered him.
Akutagawa admired Chuuya’s toned body that he finally got to lay his eyes on. He was curious as to how it felt, but he didn’t want to ruin the precious view he had. He held his breath while biting on his lower lip. The urge of being fucked increased tenfold, seeing the ripping muscles. Fuck. He wished Chuuya would hurry it up to blow his brains hard, fucking him hard.
“Come here, baby.” Chuuya smiled, then he grunted, pressing himself into that precious spot.
He could barely breathe because of the overwhelming tightness of Akutagawa’s muscles, wrapping around his own hard cock. Damn. It was so fucking good that he grabbed onto those curved hips to lodge himself even deeper. He would explore every inch and shower Akutagawa with all of the love he possessed.
Also, the thought of Akutagawa having never been with anyone else fueled his pride and happiness as he drove himself even further inside. Only he would ever get this privilege of making love to this man. No one else. This sexy tightness of Akutagawa’s was extremely thrilling and rewarding. Chuuya hoped he wasn’t hurting Akutagawa because he was feeling incredible right now.
“Ngh!” Akutagawa groaned, steadying himself by gripping onto the bed with his hands. He loudly moaned, unable to hold himself back. He loved how gentle and full it filled him up. He securely fastened his grip onto Chuuya with his thighs, as he didn’t want to let any heat escape between the two of them. He would grab it all for himself and bask in this warmth.
“How do you feel?” Chuuya huskily panted as he threw himself in and out of Akutagawa’s sweet spot, loving the way their bodies were sliding against each other with such heated passion.
Fuck, he saw the ripple of Akutagawa’s stomach as he accepted each of his powerful thrusts. Chuuya relished the sight of Akutagawa happily receiving the love he was giving him. This reassurance from his quiet and moody lover really touched him. He wanted to give Akutagawa the most pleasurable and memorable experience ever.
“More…” Akutagawa lazily murmured, as he was drowning in this addicting erotic euphoria that fried his brain. Their bodies perfectly slotted against one another with such precision. Like they were made for each other. Like they were meant to be.
“Nnngh, fuck… yes.” Chuuya agreed and he picked up the pace, thrusting and pounding up into Akutagawa with all of his might.
He shuddered against Akutagawa when he reached that deepest inner spot, which sent electrifying sensations down his own spine. Damn. Akutagawa was so well built, and Chuuya could feel himself fitting perfectly inside. This magical feeling was breathtaking beyond his wildest imaginations; it was difficult to describe with words. All he knew was that his heart soared with happiness, and he deftly placed his hands around Akutagawa’s sweaty, bucking thighs, so he could freely throw more of his weight deeper inside. Akutagawa deserved everything, and he intended to grant Akutagawa’s every desire.
“Mmmm… More… Aahhhhh…” Akutagawa let his voice ring out into the open and echo in between the panting and hot breaths that whipped against both of the bodies drenched in sweat. He couldn’t believe how wonderful it felt to be connected this closely to the person his heart most yearned for. This satisfying physical bond only further cemented their confession from earlier, which soothed both his uneasy heart and mind. He had nothing to fear.
“Aku…. fuuuck… Aku!” Chuuya cried out as he was unable to hold back any more, exploding inside of Akutagawa and filling him to the brim. Fuck. He had come so hard that he could feel his own excitement spilling out and leaking down Akutagawa’s tight butt cheeks.
“Mmhm!” Akutagawa muffled his shout, feeling extremely embarrassed that he had come again, but this time it was in sync with Chuuya. Ah! How did that happen? The release of Chuuya all over him delighted his heart more than he expected, but he was also feeling very conscious. Damn his body’s natural reaction.
Chuuya grinned at the sight of Akutagawa throwing his head back momentarily when his cum gloriously shot out, throwing that prized, wet stickiness into the sweltering air.
“Fuck. That was so hot.” Chuuya smirked, slothfully rubbing his finger over Akutagawa’s extremely wet tip.
“It’s all your fault.” Akutagawa stubbornly said, admiring the sexy way Chuuya moved.
“Yes, I fully accept that the reason you’re so hot is because of my love.” Chuuya teasingly said, as he pulled out of Akutagawa, flopping down on the bed beside him.
Akutagawa blushed at the compliment, then shyly said, “So are you.”
He buried his face into Chuuya’s chest, hiding his expression. Ah! He was saying more things than he meant to! His lips were loosened by this wonderful, intimate moment they were sharing.
Chuuya chuckled, warmly hugging his new lover within his arms, and he whispered into Akutagawa’s ear, “I love you, Aku. Forever and ever. I won’t ever let you go, my beautiful love.”
“Me too.” Akutagawa whispered back to Chuuya, feeling warmed that he was wholeheartedly accepted. He was such a stupid idiot to not have realized how Chuuya felt for him. He was too busy, wallowing in his own feelings. He was glad, though, that he was finally able to open up even if it wasn’t the way he imagined it.
Chuuya took advantage of Akutagawa revealing his face to return his affection by capturing those succulent lips. He refused to thank Dazai for giving them this opportunity to finally get together, but he would forever cherish Akutagawa returning this treasured love. He would do anything in the world to keep Akutagawa happy and by his side.