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Tweek sat on the floor of Craig’s bedroom, his back hunched, his hands clenched too tightly around the game controller. He twitched every few seconds, one shoulder jerking up, then his head shaking sharply as if trying to rid himself of some invisible weight. His legs bounced, restless energy trapped in his small frame, and Craig watched, mesmerized.
He'd seen Tweek like this a million times before, ever since they were little. Ever since their classmates decided they were dating and neither of them bothered to argue. Two years of "fake dating" later, and Craig was starting to wonder if it was fake at all.
The screen flickered as their characters ran side by side, but Craig barely paid attention. His fingers moved on instinct. His focus was on Tweek, on the golden mess of his hair, fluffier than it had any right to be, sticking up in every direction no matter how much he tried to smooth it down. On his big, darting green eyes, always wide, always flickering between paranoia and something softer, something hesitant but bright. On the freckles dusted across his nose and cheeks, the kind that darkened in the sun, little constellations scattered across his pale skin. And when he mumbled something under his breath, frustrated with the game, Craig caught a glimpse of his teeth, the little gap between them that made his already too-expressive face even more expressive.
Tweek is beautiful.
The thought came suddenly, unbidden, and Craig felt warmth rise to his ears. Not in the way people in movies said it, not in a way that made his stomach twist or his heart race, just a quiet, simple truth. Tweek was beautiful in the way sunlight made dust motes glow in the air, in the way warm laundry smelled when it came fresh out of the dryer, in the way laughter felt when it snuck up on you.
Tweek groaned and flopped back onto the carpet, his limbs sprawled out, his chest rising and falling quickly. Craig let out a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding.
"This game is RIGGED," Tweek declared, throwing an arm over his face.
Craig huffed a small laugh, "you say that about every game."
"Because it's TRUE," Tweek whined. His leg kicked out, knocking against Craig’s knee. Craig could’ve moved. Could’ve shifted away, the way he might have with anyone else. But instead, he stayed right where he was, feeling the warmth of Tweek's skin through the fabric of their pants.
It was so easy to be near him.
Craig didn't understand everything about the way he felt. He didn’t have the right words for it. He just knew that he liked having Tweek here, sprawled out in his room, whining about video games and knocking their knees together. That he liked the way Tweek's hair caught the light from the window, the way his nose scrunched up when he was frustrated, the way he never sat still but always stayed close.
Maybe it didn't matter if what they had was "fake" or not.
Craig picked up Tweek's wrist and dropped it lazily over his face, making Tweek sputter in protest. He smirked as he picked up his controller again.
"You wanna go again?"
Tweek peeked at him through his fingers, eyes still bright, still darting. Then he sat up fast, nearly bumping their heads together.
"Yeah," he said, grinning, the gap between his teeth showing.
Craig smiled back, heart light, stomach warm.
Yeah. He liked him.
Tweek's hands trembled as they hovered over the piano keys. They always did, but somehow, when he started playing, the shaking never seemed to matter. His fingers moved with a frantic sort of grace, like a storm barely kept in check, a current that could pull him under at any moment but never quite did.
Craig sat cross-legged on the floor beside the piano bench, watching him. He had come over under the usual excuse, homework, hanging out, whatever, but he had mostly just wanted to see this. See Tweek with his back straight, his jaw tight with focus, his wild blond hair catching the afternoon light. See his big green eyes darting between the keys and the sheet music propped up before him, brows furrowed in concentration.
Tweek played like he did everything else, intensely, all at once, with his whole body. His foot tapped out an anxious rhythm against the floor even when the pedals didn't require it. His shoulders twitched in time with the music. His breath came fast, like he might forget to take another if he wasn’t careful. But his hands… his hands knew exactly what to do.
Craig could listen forever.
The song was something classical, Tweek had told him the name earlier, but Craig hadn’t really been paying attention. It wasn’t the song that mattered. It was Tweek. It was the way he threw himself into it, the way he became the music, the way he took something written by someone else a hundred years ago and made it feel like it belonged to him.
Craig swallowed. He wanted to say something.
He wanted to ask.
Do you like this, too? Not the music. This. Us.
Was it still a joke to Tweek, still something they just let people believe because it was easier than correcting them? Or had it become something else, the way it had for Craig?
Craig knew how he felt. He liked Tweek in a way that wasn't complicated, wasn't difficult, wasn't scary until he thought about actually saying it out loud. He just liked him. He liked how Tweek's freckles darkened in the summer, how he curled in on himself when he laughed, how he never did anything halfway. He liked that Tweek trusted him enough to let him sit here, in his house, in the corner of the room, watching him play.
He liked him enough to be scared of the answer.
Tweek hit a note wrong, flinched, growled under his breath. His fingers slammed down on the keys with more force than necessary, frustration curling his shoulders in.
"Ugh, I suck," he muttered.
Craig rolled his eyes, "no, you don't."
Tweek turned sharply, green eyes wide, like he had forgotten Craig was even there. His face went pink, not in embarrassment, just in that way it always did when he was worked up. His gaze darted away almost immediately, back to the piano.
"Just, it's's not good enough," he mumbled, fingers hovering over the keys, unsure whether to start again or give up entirely.
Craig watched the way his hands flexed, the way his bottom lip caught between his teeth, the way the sun hit the soft edges of his hair.
He didn't say what he was thinking. Didn't say that it was more than good enough, that he liked it when Tweek played, that he liked him.
Instead, he just said, "play it again."
Tweek hesitated for a second, but then he did. And Craig let himself sit there, listening, watching, feeling his own heartbeat match the rhythm of Tweek's hands on the keys.
Stark's Pond was probably not safe to swim in.
Clyde had been the first to say it, floating lazily on his back, arms spread like he was about to ascend to the heavens, "dude, what if this water gives us superpowers? Like, what if there's, like, nuclear waste or some shit in here?"
Tolkien snorted, pushing water into Clyde's face, "it's a pond, idiot. Not a science experiment."
Craig heard them, but he wasn’t really listening. His attention was somewhere else. Or rather, someone else.
Tweek was a few feet away, knee-deep in the murky water, tilting his head back to squint at the sun like it had personally wronged him. His shoulders were red, sunburnt in splotchy patches, and his face had taken on a slightly pink hue. A few months ago, Craig might have teased him about forgetting sunscreen. Now, he just thought it made him look kind of… cute.
Not that he wasn't already.
That was the problem, really. Tweek had always been beautiful in a way Craig couldn't explain, but now it was different. Now Craig was noticing things he hadn’t before. Like how Tweek's freckles had spread, dusting down his arms along with the ones already across his nose. Like how his arms and legs looked leaner, how he was almost the same height as Craig now. Like how, despite the awkwardness of growing up, despite the acne that had started to show along his jaw, despite the nervous energy that still made him twitch and fidget, Tweek was only becoming more… himself. And Craig couldn't stop staring.
Tweek turned suddenly, catching Craig's gaze head-on. His green eyes were bright, squinting slightly from the sunlight, water dripping from the ends of his wild blond hair.
Craig looked away immediately.
The water rippled beside him, and then- splash!
Cold water hit Craig's face, soaking his hair, and he let out a surprised grunt. Tweek was cackling, arms flailing, his laughter bright and reckless in a way that made Craig's stomach tighten.
"You looked like you were drowning in your thoughts, dude!" Tweek shrieked, still giggling as he half-ran, half-splashed away.
Clyde and Tolkien were laughing now, too, and Craig knew he should retaliate. He should splash back, dunk Tweek under, something.
But he didn't. He just wiped the water from his face and watched as Tweek kept laughing, his whole body curled slightly inward, his arms jittering from too much energy.
Craig wanted to tell him.
He wanted to tell him that this, whatever they were, wasn't fake to him, hadn't been for a long time. That it wasn't just because their classmates decided they were a couple, wasn't just because it was easier to play along. He wanted to say it. Wanted to ask if Tweek felt it, too.
But if he said it out loud, what if it changed things? What if it ruined what they did have?
Craig took a deep breath and let the words sit, unspoken, in his chest.
For now, he could just watch Tweek in the summer sunlight, water dripping from his chin, freckles standing out against sunburnt skin, laughing like he belonged here. Like he belonged with Craig.
And for now, that was enough.
Craig hated the winter.
Or maybe he just hated this winter, this particular night, this particular kind of silence. The kind that settled too heavily in his room, pressing against his ribs like a weight he couldn't shake.
Outside, the snow drifted down in slow, lazy spirals, catching in the glow of the streetlights. It was the kind of night that should've felt peaceful. It should've been one of those nights where he and Tweek were holed up in his room, blankets piled high, talking about nothing and everything until they passed out in the middle of a movie neither of them had really been watching.
But Tweek wasn't here. And he wouldn't be.
Craig glared at the snow, as if it were personally responsible for the fact that his parents had decided, actually, they were too old for sleepovers now.
He tugged at the loose threads on his hoodie sleeve, his jaw clenched. It was stupid. They were stupid. What did they think was gonna happen? It was just Tweek. They'd been doing this since they were kids.
But that was the problem, wasn't it?
They weren’t kids anymore.
Tweek had started… changing. Not in a bad way. Just in a way that made Craig's stomach twist up into something uncomfortable. He was figuring himself out, joining clubs, getting involved, finding other people to be around. Craig had always thought of Tweek as his, like something constant in his life, something he could always count on to be there. But now, Tweek had a whole world outside of him, outside of their little routine.
And Craig didn't know what to do with that.
He sighed, pressing his forehead against the cold windowpane. He knew he was being an idiot. It wasn't like Tweek was avoiding him. They still hung out. They still texted every day. Tweek still smiled at him like he was the same Craig he'd always known.
But it felt different.
Because Craig hadn't told him.
Because every time he got close to saying something, close to looking Tweek in the eye and admitting that it wasn't fake for him, that it hadn't been fake for years, his throat locked up, and he swallowed the words back down.
Because what if he lost him?
Not just in the way he already was, the slow drift of two people growing into themselves. But completely. What if he said it, and Tweek looked at him like he was wrong? Like he had been wrong this whole time?
Craig didn't think he could survive that.
So he just sat there, watching the snow fall, listening to the empty quiet of his room, feeling the weight of everything he couldn't say press heavier and heavier against his chest.
Tweek was driving like a grandma.
Craig's dad was doing his best to be patient, he really was, but Craig could hear the strain in his voice as he said, for probably the tenth time, “okay, Tweek, you're doing great, but you can go a little faster. You don't have to go ten under the limit.”
Tweek, hunched forward like the steering wheel was some kind of volatile bomb, let out a shaky breath, “n-no, no, I do, Mr. Tucker. You don't understand, I-I can’t just, just speed up!”
“You can, though,” Craig murmured from the backseat, watching as Tweek's hands tightened even more on the wheel.
Tweek shot him a glare through the rearview mirror, “dude. Not helping.”
Craig smirked, resting his chin in his hand. He wasn't trying to make fun of him. He just… thought it was kind of cute, how seriously Tweek was taking all of this. The way he overcorrected even the smallest turns, the way he whispered, “oh God, oh God,” every time he had to check his blind spot.
Craig had already decided he'd be the one to drive them places. It just made sense. Tweek didn't like it, and Craig didn't mind, so why not? He'd even told Tweek that, months ago, when they'd first started studying for their learner's permits.
“If you don't wanna drive, I'll just do it. I don't care.”
But Tweek had shaken his head, eyes wide and insistent.
“No, Craig. I gotta, I gotta learn, man. I can't just, just rely on other people forever!”
Craig had dropped it after that. But the memory stuck with him now, as he watched Tweek force himself through something that terrified him.
It made Craig feel two things at once.
Pride, because Tweek was doing it, even though it scared him. Even though every fiber of his being was telling him to pull over and get the hell out of the car, he was still gripping that wheel and doing it anyway.
And fear.
Because Craig realized, with a small, sinking feeling, that Tweek didn’t need him.
Not the way he used to.
When they were younger, Craig had always thought of himself as the protector, the one who took the hits, who kept things steady. Tweek was the nervous one, the one who clung to him, the one who needed Craig's calm presence to balance him out.
But that wasn't true anymore, was it?
People didn't really talk about them like they used to. No one teased them for being a “couple” anymore, no one treated them like a novelty. They were just Craig and Tweek, and if they stopped dating tomorrow, would anyone even care?
Would Tweek even care?
Maybe it was just Craig. Maybe he was the only one who still needed this. Maybe it had always been that way, and he'd just never noticed.
Craig swallowed, looking down at his hands.
He had to talk to Tweek. Soon.
But would he actually do it?
Craig had always been the one people thought of as fearless. The one who could do anything without caring. The one who didn’t hesitate.
But sitting in the backseat, watching Tweek take control of something that scared him, Craig realized… He was the scared one. Tweek was the brave one.
Craig wasn't nervous.
He wasn't.
He was just sitting in his room, staring at the ceiling, hands clenched into the fabric of his blanket like it might stop his heart from beating too fast.
It was stupid. So stupid. He had nothing to be nervous about. It was Tweek. They had been doing this for years.
But this was different.
Because this time, he wasn't going to just assume they were going together. He wasn't going to let other people make the decision for them, wasn't going to play along with some unspoken rule that Craig and Tweek were always a package deal.
This time, he was going to ask.
Like a real date.
Not a fake date. Not the comfortable routine they'd been coasting on for years. A real one.
Craig exhaled, dragging a hand down his face.
Lately, he'd been catching himself wanting things he knew he wasn’t supposed to want.
Like kissing Tweek.
It was so dumb. He didn't even know when it started, when the thought had first crept into his head, but now it wouldn't leave.
He'd catch himself staring at Tweek's mouth. When he laughed. When he chewed on his straw. When he nervously bit his lip while trying to think of the right words to say.
Craig wanted to know what it would feel like. If it would be awkward. If Tweek would even want that.
That was the part that made his stomach twist.
Because what if Tweek said no?
Craig could not picture that. It was too awful to even think about. What if Tweek gave him that nervous, wide-eyed look, the one that meant he was afraid to hurt Craig's feelings? What if he stammered out some excuse, some reason why it wasn't a good idea, why he didn’t see Craig that way?
What if everything changed?
Craig wasn't sure he could handle that.
He rolled onto his stomach, pressing his burning face into his pillow.
It was fine. It was fine.
He wasn't gonna do anything dramatic. No big, embarrassing promposal. No stupid signs or speeches. He'd just wait until they hung out next, just the two of them, and he'd ask.
And maybe, hopefully, Tweek would just say yes.
And maybe, hopefully, they could start fresh. Not as two kids faking something because everyone told them to.
But as them.
Maybe Tweek would even kiss him.
Craig groaned into his pillow.
God, he was the worst.
Craig wasn't sure how long he had been sitting there, but time always moved differently when Tweek played.
It was insane, honestly. How someone so jittery, so constantly in motion, could sit down in front of a piano and create something so perfect.
Craig didn't know much about piano. He knew the names of the keys, could pick out a middle C if he really had to, but that was about it. Still, he was pretty sure Tweek was the best piano player who had ever been born.
Objectively.
Okay, maybe he was a little biased.
But it was hard not to be, watching the way Tweek's fingers moved over the keys, the way his face twisted with emotion as he played, completely lost in the music.
Craig should have been paying more attention to the song. But instead, all he could think about was how he was going to ask him.
He had planned this. He had practiced. He had told himself over and over that this wasn't a big deal.
But somehow, sitting here now, watching Tweek play, watching the way the light from the window caught in his wild blond hair, the way his freckles stood out on his pale skin, the way his mouth moved slightly as he concentrated…
Craig forgot everything.
Tweek finished with a flourish, the last note ringing out through the room before fading into silence. He let out a breath, then turned to Craig expectantly.
“Well?”
Craig opened his mouth.
Nothing came out.
Tweek tilted his head, “what'd you think?”
Craig panicked.
“I'm in love with you.”
The words tumbled out before he could stop them, crashing into the space between them like a train wreck.
Tweek blinked.
Craig stared.
He could not believe he just did that.
Oh God. Oh God.
He needed to leave. Right now. Get up, walk out the door, move to another country!
“And you should go to prom with me,” he blurted, because apparently his mouth was still moving.
Tweek's expression didn’t change. He just… sat there. Staring.
The silence was unbearable. Craig felt like he was going to pass out.
He was seriously considering making a break for it when Tweek suddenly smiled.
“I'd really like that.”
Craig blinked.
“What?”
Tweek’s smile widened, “I'd really like that,” he repeated, softer this time. His hands twitched where they rested on the piano keys, like he wasn't sure what to do with them, “going to prom. With you.”
Craig didn't even know how to feel.
He had spent so much time preparing for rejection, for the possibility that this would be the moment everything changed, but it had changed.
And maybe that wasn't a bad thing.
“…Cool,” Craig said, in the most pathetic attempt at casualness ever uttered by a human being.
Tweek laughed.
And God, Craig wanted to kiss him.
The limo was dimly lit, the low hum of conversation filling the space as Clyde chattered excitedly about something Craig wasn’t listening to. He was too busy thinking.
Prom had been… fun. Surprisingly fun. He wasn't really a dance person, but everything had felt easy tonight. Normal, even. Just him, Tweek, and their friends.
The gym had been decorated with gold streamers and cheap art deco cutouts, the school's attempt at a Great Gatsby-themed prom. It hadn't really worked. The banner at the entrance had misspelled Gatsby as 'Gatsy', which had kind of killed the illusion from the start.
But none of that had mattered.
Not when he and Tweek had walked in together, hand in hand.
They held hands all the time, but this had felt different. Intentional.
Craig glanced at Tweek now, sitting beside him in the limo. His suit was floral, bold, with a black tie that had matched Craig’s own floral-patterned tie and black suit. It suited him, somehow. A few years ago, Tweek wouldn't have worn something like that. He would have been too anxious, too worried about standing out.
But now… now he had stepped into himself. He was more confident, more self-assured. He liked attention, not in an obnoxious way, but in a way that made Craig proud of him.
And God, he'd looked good.
Craig had never really understood why people made such a big deal about prom. But then Tweek had pulled him onto the dance floor, grinning and tugging at Craig's hands. They had laughed when they realized neither of them knew how to slow dance, awkwardly adjusting their arms until Tweek had snorted and said, “this is so heteronormative.”
Craig had laughed. He had felt light.
Now, as they rode to Tolkien's for the after party, Craig felt warm.
He still wanted to kiss Tweek. He had wanted to all night.
But it hadn't happened yet. And that was okay.
Because Tweek was worth waiting for.
The house was quiet, everyone else already asleep after hours spent watching low budget horror movies. Craig had been dead to the world, his exhaustion from the night at prom catching up with him. But then, a soft whisper broke through his dreams.
“Craig.”
His eyes fluttered open, still groggy from sleep. There was Tweek, standing beside the bed, his silhouette barely visible in the moonlight.
"Come on," Tweek whispered again, softer this time, and though Craig wasn't entirely awake, he didn't hesitate. He followed without a word, as if it were the most natural thing in the world.
Tweek led him through the quiet house and out onto the back deck. The cool night air hit Craig's skin, still warm from sleep, and he shivered slightly. He could barely keep his eyes open, but he wasn't about to let Tweek down.
They sat together on the lawn chairs, the deck creaking underneath them as they settled in. Tweek pointed up at the sky, his eyes reflecting the pale light of the stars, "show me the constellations," he said, his voice soft, almost nostalgic.
Craig blinked a few times, still shaking off the sleep, "huh?"
Tweek smiled gently, his eyes focused on the stars above, "you used to show me the constellations all the time when we were younger. I loved it. We haven't done it in so long."
A sleepy smile tugged at Craig's lips as the memory washed over him. He remembered those nights, laying outside, Tweek next to him, both of them pointing at the stars and making up stories about them. It had been a simpler time.
"Alright," Craig murmured, his voice thick with sleep. He started pointing out constellations, even if he wasn't sure he was doing it exactly right. It had been years since he had kind of fallen out of his space obsession, "that's Orion," he said, his finger tracing the outline in the sky, "and that's the Big Dipper…"
They fell into a comfortable silence after that, the cool night air settling around them. Craig could feel the weight of Tweek sitting next to him, the quiet between them not awkward, just… easy.
Then, out of nowhere, Tweek spoke again, "I really like you, Craig," he said, and Craig's heart skipped a beat.
Craig turned his head, his sleepiness suddenly evaporating, "what?"
Tweek smiled but there was a trace of nervousness in his eyes, "I'm not sure if I love you yet… but I've wanted our relationship to be real for a while. I wasn't sure how to tell you."
Craig's face burned. He had never meant to blurt out his feelings the way he had a few days ago, but now Tweek was saying the same thing. Craig swallowed, his chest feeling tight, "I feel the same way."
They scooted their chairs a little closer, the distance between them closing slowly but surely. Craig's hand found its way to Tweek's, and he squeezed it gently. He looked at Tweek, really looked at him, noticing how the moonlight made his blonde hair glow and how the stars reflected in his eyes.
Tweek stared up at the sky, lost in thought for a moment, but Craig couldn't tear his gaze away. He wanted to kiss him. The urge was there, strong and undeniable, but his nerves were still twisting in his stomach. Tweek was so close, and yet…
He had to be brave.
Craig took a deep breath. He gently placed his hand on Tweek's cheek, his thumb brushing against the soft skin. Tweek's eyes met his, and for a moment, everything went still. The night, the stars, the world, it all seemed to fade away until it was just the two of them, gazing at each other.
Then Tweek smiled. It was small, shy, but it made Craig's heart flutter. And before he could second guess himself, Craig leaned in, his lips meeting Tweek's in a soft, tentative kiss.
It felt perfect.
When they pulled apart, Craig couldn't help the smile that spread across his face. He looked at Tweek, still holding his cheek, and couldn't help but think how lucky he was.
Tweek was beautiful. He was everything. And this, this was real.
Craig couldn't wait to see where they went from here.