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finishing up university had been a pain in the ass. from finalizing everything to exams and getting ready for graduation, the stress was building tenfold. you felt like there had been no time off to just breathe and with John away on a mission, it felt like you were suffocating.
he was your lifeline, the one who knew your limits and oh how you missed him. missed his warmth, missed the way he held you. you could hear his voice softly scolding you, “you need to take a break darlin’ , stressing this much will only make you sick.” he was always right when it came to you and as much as you wanted to listen to that phantom voice in the back of your head, you just couldn’t.
you continued putting pressure on yourself to get your work done. pushing yourself to meet those demanding deadlines. stressing yourself to the point of exhaustion. maybe a break was what you needed right now to clear your head and start back up anew. maybe closing your eyes for two seconds wouldn’t hurt.
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John had finally come home after 2 weeks of a grueling mission in the middle of nowhere. he missed you dearly and felt regretful leaving you in the middle of such a tough period in your life. he thought about you everyday and texted you when he could, albeit not getting responses sometimes because of how busy you were. he was worried, so when the time came he rushed to your apartment to surprise you, no text— no call, he just needed to see you.
what he didn’t expect was the state you were in to be so heartbreaking. papers scattered across the floor and your desk, empty coffee cups filling up the waste basket and your slightly tear stained face. he frowned at the thought of you crying and not being here to stop your tears from falling. he felt the need to clean up a bit because he knows how you reacted to messes, even if you created them. he dumps the bins and organizes your scattered papers on your desk.
he finally crouches near your sleeping form and lightly shook you awake.
“swee’heart ’m home.”
you stirred and groaned about being woken up and he chuckled at your usual behavior. you turned your head and opened your eyes to see the man you loved so dearly in the flesh. you’d completely forgotten he was due to come back this week and grimaced at the mess that you thought was still surrounding you both.
“john i’m sorry. i forgot you were coming today and i’ve been so, so stressed. it’s too much.”
Too much.
Too much.
you felt yourself finally break and he was there to catch you. to hold you as sobs wracked your body as you finally let all these emotions you had been experiencing come to a head.
“let it out, i’ve got you dove.”
hearing that gravelly voice soothed you like no other. it was home and you’ve needed to hear it so much lately, to feel it course through you, to reassure you that this challenging time will pass.
it took a few minutes but after a while your sobs turned into small hiccups and deep intakes of breath to steady yourself. you were seated on John’s lap now, a place so familiar and so comforting. he was rubbing the small of your back patiently as he waited for you to speak.
“i’ve missed you john, so so much.” your voice still had a slight tremor to it but the tears had stop falling.
“i’ve missed you too darlin’ , the last bit of uni doing you in that much, hmm?” he asked softly and you nodded, playing with the hem of his uniform.
“did you come straight here?” he made the habit of coming straight to you after coming back.
“ ‘course i did, i knew you were going through a rough time so everything else can wait until i know you’re okay.” he adjusted you and you wrapped your arms around his neck, needing to be incessantly close to him.
you decided to brace yourself and look around at the mess you created over the past couple of days. to your surprise everything was cleaned up and you looked up at John.
“wait did you clean up? you didn’t have to ‘m sorry John. i would’ve cleaned if i’d known you were coming.” he looked down at you on his chest and grabbed your chin softly.
“no need to apologize, you’ve had a long week the least i could do was ease your mind a bit.” you kissed him softly and smiled tearily at how considerate he was even though he had just come back tired from who knows where.
“what do you need from me right now dove, i’ll do anything you need.” he looked at you with eyes full of love.
“i wanna shower with you, it’s been so long. need to be close to you.”
“c’mon then lovie, let’s get you clean.” he picked you up right off his lap with ease and walked down the halfway.
you stepped into the shower and it felt like absolute bliss. the hot water and steam clearing out any worries you had, john stepping in behind you and pulling you flush against him. you sighed in relief at the contact you ached for. he caressed your body with practiced ease, knowing just how to make you melt in his hands. his fingers grazed your nipples, causing you to jolt and grind back against his hardening cock. he groaned and licked a stripe up your neck. “that feel good swee’heart?” he whispered in your ear and you nodded, already blissed out.
“words darlin’.” his tone had a gentle dominance to it as he stilled his movements, waiting for your compliance.
“yes- fuck it feels amazing, needed this.” he resumes feeling down your body and palms your stomach with a sigh.
“you were made for me, built like a fucking dream. so perfect in my hands.” his hands can’t help but continue caressing your curves and roaming down your soft body. he hovers right over the heat of your pussy and lightly slides over the wet folds. you throw your head back in pleasure on his shoulder and let out a shaky sigh.
“fuck you’re soaked love, couldn’t wait for me to come home and take care of this needy pussy hmm?” you moan and move your hips desperately, needing for him to give you any stimulation.
“please move i need it so badly.” you plead and whimper so prettily for him and he obliges, thrusting two fingers into you. you nearly yell in pleasure and your legs would’ve given out if he wasn’t holding you up in his other arm.
he licks and sucks on your sensitive neck, giving you the overwhelming stimulation you needed. you writhe and move back again against his painfully hard cock, and he moans into your neck. “i missed this darlin’ , missed you moaning all pretty for me and opening up for me so beautifully.”
the sounds of the shower water raining down and his thick accent fall upon deaf ears as you hear nothing but the wet squelch of your drenched pussy. he’s curving his fingers just right every time to hit that spot that he knows makes you fall apart. his cock throbs each time you squeeze around his fingers and he knows you’re close, he can feel it. your moans are all he can hear and he needs to feel your warmth around him so the moment he feels you about to come he pulls out.
“john! pleaseplease i was so close i need-” you slur your words together and your moan cuts you off as he lifts your leg up and bottoms out into your dripping core. he groans deeply into your ear and starts moving at a pace that makes you desperate and compliant in his arms.
“there you go swee’heart, look at you. so gorgeous wrapped around me, just needed me to come back home and fill you up.” you moan at his filthy words and clench around him.
“‘m so close, so close please, i need to come!” his thrusts quicken and he drives into you at a pace that makes you see stars.
“come for me love, you can do it.” his free hand finds your clit and rubs it until your orgasm crashes into you.
“that’s it baby, let go.” he purrs into your ear as you squirm and moan in his hold. you tighten around him once more and that spurs him on to his orgasm and with a few thrusts he releases into you with a deep moan.
both of your breathing has settled and you turn around and kiss him deeply. he moans into it and takes control of the kiss. you kiss like two feverishly in love teenagers and press your foreheads together.
“thank you john, that was amazing.” you cup his face and caress his bread, giving him a look of love.
“anytime dove, are you feeling better?” he kisses your nose, smiling as you let out a small giggle.
“much much better, lets actually shower now yeah?” you chuckle and he nods with a smile.
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after the shower, you immediately find yourself wrapped in his arms as you two are wrapped up in the blankets.
“do you need anything else love?” he caresses your exhausted form as you melt into his embrace.
“just need you, need to be close. ‘m glad you’re home.” he lips curve up and he kisses your temple.
“’m here swee’heart, always.”