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To Miss Penelope Featherington
Somewhere beneath a growing mountain of yellow lace and familial obligations
April, 1813
My dear Miss Featherington,
It has come to my attention (and I say this with the utmost dismay) that you have failed to respond to my last two letters. I must assume one of the following has occurred: you have finally eloped with a poet, as I long suspected you might; your mother has mistaken my last missive for an advertisement and attempted to wear it; or—most tragically—you have simply grown bored of me.
Should it be the last, I suppose I cannot blame you. I am, after all, growing steadily less interesting with every new obligation heaped upon me. This week alone, I was required to escort my mother to view two potential portrait artists, three florists, and one very alarmingly eager milliner, all in the service of my sister Daphne’s upcoming presentation. I daresay the poor girl is being prepared for court like a lamb for slaughter. (An elegantly coiffed, painfully well-dressed lamb, but a lamb nonetheless.)
If there is one small mercy in all of this—besides the wine stash I have hidden in the third drawer of my study—it is that I am not, at present, the one being presented to society. Though I suspect my mother plans to parade me as well, should time permit. A charming notion, really. Nothing inspires confidence in the ladies of the ton quite like a Viscount who has been publicly compared to a prize goose.
Now. You will, of course, not tell her I said any of this. Should Lady Bridgerton discover I am complaining about debut season before it has even begun, I shall be exiled from the drawing room and forced to take up residence in the orangery with the overwatered ferns.
Do write back, Penny. I’ve grown rather used to your particular way of dissecting my poor decisions. I find myself missing it far more than is appropriate.
Yours (begrudgingly flattered should you still read me),
A.B.
To Lord Bridgerton
Somewhere between his ego and his wine drawer
April, 1813
My dearest Lord Bridgerton,
What a delightful surprise it is to hear from you—and so soon, too. I had almost forgotten the singular joy of receiving a letter that manages, in a single page, to both lament the trials of aristocratic life and compare one's younger sister to livestock.
Rest assured, I have not eloped with a poet (though the idea grows more tempting each time my mother mentions “marrying well” with the sort of intensity usually reserved for war declarations). Nor has she worn your letter—though I wouldn’t put it past her, should you ever write on fabric instead of parchment.
You will, I’m sure, be thrilled to learn that your complaints about milliners and florists have moved me deeply. So deeply, in fact, that I very nearly felt inclined to shed a tear. Instead, I opted for laughter. Forgive me—I know how sensitive you are to matters of dignity.
As for Daphne, I believe she’ll navigate the season far better than you expect. She’s not a lamb, Anthony. She’s a lion in lace—and if society underestimates her, I rather think they deserve the bite. You, on the other hand, might do well to prepare yourself. I suspect your mother’s matchmaking ambitions for you are only just beginning. Perhaps invest in stronger boots. Or a fast horse.
Now, regarding your accusation that I have grown bored of you—please. You are many things, my lord, but boring is not one of them. Frustrating, infuriating, prone to overdramatic metaphors? Certainly. But never dull.
Write again, if only to distract yourself from your ferns and your fate. And do try not to ruin Daphne’s debut with one of your brooding silences. Society expects a show. You might as well give them one.
With affection far too improper for the ton,
Penelope F.
To Miss Penelope Featherington
Currently enduring lace, lemons, and lunacy
April, 1813
My dear Penny,
It is with great reluctance—and no small amount of humility—that I admit your last letter made me laugh aloud. Worse still, I read it twice. Once for the biting commentary, and again for the insight I pretended not to see. You are, as always, annoyingly perceptive.
Now, I must ask a question I suspect you will dodge with some clever quip, but I ask it anyway: how are you?
Your own debut draws closer, does it not? Have the Featheringtons unleashed a battalion of seamstresses upon you yet, or are they still busy arguing about sleeve lengths and suitable husbands as if you were a fruit at market?
I worry for you, Penelope—though I know you will hate that I say it. I worry that your mother sees dresses when she should see your mind, that your sisters speak too loudly to hear you, and that the ton will be too foolish to recognize what they are given when you walk into that ballroom.
You are not meant to be background. Do not let anyone—least of all your family—convince you otherwise.
As for Colin and Eloise, allow me to remind you (as their elder and long-suffering brother) that their opinions, while loud and often dramatic, are not law. Should they attempt to bulldoze you into silence or submission, please refer them directly to me. I shall write a strongly worded letter. Or better yet, unleash Daphne. She’s far more terrifying than I am.
Now, tell me truthfully—are you nervous? Excited? Planning to sneak a book under your gloves again as you did at Lady Berbrooke’s dreadful luncheon? (Yes, I noticed. No, I didn’t tell.)
Whatever you feel, Penelope, feel it. You are allowed to take up space. You are allowed to be seen.
And should you need someone to glare at whichever lord dares dismiss you—well. I’m already quite practiced at glaring across ballrooms.
Write soon. Or I shall be forced to seek you out at some ghastly event and ask about your hemline, just to scandalize you.
Yours (stubbornly so),
A.B.
To Lord Bridgerton
Far too comfortable behind a well-aimed glare
April, 1813
My dearest Anthony,
(Yes, I’ve decided to abandon formality. You may report me to the Queen.)
Your letter was a balm. A rather smug, overly wordy balm, but a balm nonetheless. I find myself rereading it more often than I’ll admit—mostly to roll my eyes, but occasionally to smile. And occasionally… for something else I don’t quite have the word for.
As for your questions—yes, the battalion of seamstresses has arrived. My mother has declared war on my neckline, and the first casualty appears to be my self-esteem. She says I must learn how to “distract from the unfortunate.” By which she means: my waist, my freckles, and my fondness for lemon tarts. The list grows with each fitting.
I try to laugh it off. I try to be grateful. At least she cares enough to prepare me, I suppose—but sometimes, Anthony… sometimes her words sink in deeper than I’d like. It’s difficult to feel beautiful when your own family treats your reflection like a flaw to be corrected.
But I am trying. Trying to believe I’m more than what they see.
You asked how I feel about the season. I’m nervous. Not about dancing or tripping or wearing something horrifyingly yellow (though those are very real threats). I’m nervous about being seen, as you put it. Because I want to be. I want someone to look at me and see me. Not just the girl with the too-colorful gowns and the too-small voice.
Sometimes—when Colin smiles at me a certain way—I think he might. And then I remind myself he smiles at everyone that way.
And Eloise—she means everything to me. She always has. She’s bold, and brilliant, and thinks I should run away to write novels in Paris. But sometimes even she forgets I have thoughts of my own. It’s a strange thing, to love people who don’t always know how to love you back the way you need.
Except you. I don’t know why you write to me, or why you’ve kept doing so all these years, but it matters more than I can say. I feel braver when I write to you. I feel… real.
Thank you for that.
(Also, do try not to scare off any suitors. The pickings are already slim, and I’d hate to die alone just because you glared someone into retreat.)
Yours—though I really shouldn’t say so,
Penelope F.
Anthony Bridgerton folded the letter slowly, smoothing the parchment as if it had something to confess.
Penelope’s words had always been clever. Sharp. But lately, there was something else beneath them. Something heavier.
He read the last line again, eyes lingering on her signature.
Yours—though I really shouldn’t say so.
He exhaled, low and steady, and leaned back in his chair.
Penelope Featherington.
There had never been a moment where he thought of her as anything other than… Penelope. She was not like the ladies who batted lashes at him during balls, nor the ones who angled for titles with polite desperation. She had always been simply herself—opinionated, observant, and far too intelligent to be safely ignored. And somehow, over the years, she had become… essential.
He’d forgotten how it began. A conversation, a shared look across a drawing room, a chance moment where neither of them had been expected to shine and so, for once, they had been free to speak plainly. She was the only one who didn’t treat him like a title or a disappointment waiting to happen. And she never asked for anything. Not recognition. Not affection. Just honesty.
She gave it freely, and in return, he gave her… everything he never said aloud.
His gaze drifted to the stack of her letters—bundled neatly, hidden in a box behind the decanter in his study. A secret friendship, forged in quiet corners and sealed in ink. It had always been their way.
He thought again of what she wrote. About her mother. Her sisters. About feeling small in a world that wanted her to stay that way.
His jaw tightened.
He’d heard Portia Featherington speak. Seen her smile while wielding words like weapons—dressed in citrus, dripping in judgment. Her barbs weren’t just careless; they were deliberate. And worse, they were aimed at her own daughter.
And Penelope—Penelope endured it all with that quiet resilience he admired more than he dared say. She turned cruelty into wit. She folded pain into paper. And she never once asked for sympathy.
But she deserved better. Better than to be dismissed. Better than to be weighed and measured against her sisters’ silhouettes. Better than to feel grateful for scraps of kindness.
And if no one else would give that to her this season—then he would.
Not because she was fragile. But because she wasn’t.
He would not let the ton treat her like wallpaper. Not while he still had influence, still had the sharp edge of a glare and the weight of a name to throw behind it.
And then—Colin.
Anthony sighed, raking a hand through his hair.
His mother, ever the hopeful romantic, had spoken fondly of Penelope. She liked the idea of them—Colin and Penelope—as if the story could write itself. As if two good hearts could make a match, just because the symmetry of it pleased her.
But Anthony knew his brother.
Colin was kind, yes. Loyal, when it mattered. But still too easily distracted by wonder, too hungry for novelty to see the quiet strength of someone like Penelope. And love—real love—required seeing. Seeing someone clearly, and choosing them all the same.
He didn’t think Colin was ready for that. Not yet.
Still, Anthony wasn’t sure what Penelope felt, not truly. There had always been a softness in the way she spoke of his brother. A wistfulness. But not once had she asked him to interfere. Not once had she leaned on him for that kind of support.
She asked for so little. And gave so much.
Including her silence, when it mattered.
His eyes shifted to the hearth, to the embers burning low in the grate.
Penelope had known about Siena. Of that he was certain. She never said as much, of course. But she had hinted. Once. Twice. Just enough to let him know she understood where he went on late nights, and why.
And she never judged.
Never pried. Never warned.
She simply offered her support—quietly, without condition—and, on one occasion, stood by the garden gate with a ridiculous story about a lost glove to explain his absence.
He had never forgotten that.
She had always been his ally, even when he did not ask her to be. And now, with her debut season looming like a storm, he would be hers.
Anthony rose and moved to the desk, selecting a fresh sheet of parchment.
He would write to her again.
He would do what he could.
He would be the shield she’d never ask for, and the voice behind her when hers was not heard.
Because she mattered. Not as a potential match. Not as his brother’s maybe-someday.
But as Penelope.
His friend.
And that—that was everything.
