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Cath’s First Time
APRIL 2012
Levi was sitting on his bed with his knees up. Cath took her glasses off and placed them on the couch. She put one knee up on the bed next to him and raised her arms in the air. Levi looked at her and lowered his knees, pulling her onto his lap. He let his fingers gently trace the hem of her shirt before he pulled it up over her head. He tossed her shirt onto the floor next to his and ran his hands down her body. Cath shivered.
“Okay?” Levi asked. Cath nodded. “We don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do, okay?”
“I want to,” Cath said.
“Want to what?” Levi asked.
“Everything,” Cath said. “With you.” She swallowed. Levi pushed his way up to her, clashing his mouth against hers. He kissed her and ran his hands up her back.
“So soft,” he whispered. “You’re so beautiful, Cather. Can I?” Levi asked with his fingers on her bra clasp.
“Yes,” Cath whispered. If she tried to speak right now her voice would come out all gravelly. She’d probably cough and ruin the moment. Levi kissed her neck as he unclasped her bra and pulled the straps down her arms. He discarded it onto the pile on the floor. Levi could always be counted upon to help out. He ran his hands up her ribcage until his thumbs hit the bottom of her breasts. He ran one palm over her breast while he kissed her. She was glad they were kissing. Eye contact would be way too much right now. He ran his finger over her nipple and a jolt of pleasure went through her like she had never felt before. She had fooled around with Abel once or twice but nothing had felt like this. Nothing. She could feel a heat between her legs and Levi was hard under his jeans. She tried not to think too much about what to do about Levi. She didn’t know anything about how to handle a guy. Definitely not a guy with experience.
“This okay?” Levi asked as he kissed down her neck. A moan escaped Cath. “I’ll take that as a yes,” Levi said, grinning.
“Yes,” Cath whispered. Levi picked up Cath and flipped them so that Cath was lying on her back. Levi was above her with his arms caging her on either side. Cath realized that she felt safe with him. Even being here, not being on top, in control, she felt safe with Levi.
Levi was kissing his way down her neck and slipped his fingers into the waistband of her leggings.
“Are you sure?” Levi asked.
“Very sure,” Cath replied.
“Okay. If anything doesn’t feel good, or you change your mind, you have to tell me. Okay?” Levi was looking her in the eye now. This was serious business, after all.
“Mhmm,” Cath said in response.
“Cather. I’m serious. If ANYTHING doesn’t feel good, you have to tell me. If you want to stop at any point, you have to tell me. Okay?”
“Okay,” Cath said, understanding.
“Promise?” he asked. It was then that Cath realized they were having a serious conversation about consent and sex.
“I promise to tell you if something doesn’t feel right or if I want to stop.” Cath replied. She was right, her voice was gravelly. But it was sure, and strong.
“Good. I love you.” Levi said, kissing her forehead.
“Wait,” Cath said. Levi stopped immediately, looking at her. “Do you have a condom? I’m not on birth control.” Levi smiled.
“Yes, I have a condom. Don’t worry, sweetheart,” Levi replied.
“Okay. Kiss me,” Cath said. She was never this forthright. Levi obliged.
While he kissed her, Levi pulled her leggings down and with them came her underwear. She was completely naked lying under Levi who still had his jeans on. Cath reached down for the button and undid it. Levi did the rest, tossing his pants to the floor. He still had his boxers on. Levi kissed down Cath’s jaw, then her neck, her collarbone, until he got to her breasts. She liked feeling Levi on top of her. His weight was solid and it felt good. He took one of her breasts in his mouth while he used his thumb and forefinger on the other. She squirmed with pleasure. Levi flicked her nipple with his tongue and she could feel the heat between her legs growing. He moved his hand from her breast down her body until his fingers were between her legs. He parted her and rubbed the length of her up and down, feeling how completely wet she was until he stopped on her clit. He drew slow lazy circles around it. Levi lifted his head to look at her.
“Still okay?” he asked.
“Good,” she croaked. Levi smiled at her.
“Good,” he replied.
He slid his fingers down and inside her. She moaned. He felt so good. She felt so wet. She wanted to know what it would feel like to have all of Levi inside of her, not just his fingers.
“I want you,” she whispered. Levi thrust his fingers inside her a couple more times before taking off his boxers. She couldn’t see anything without her glasses, but she could feel him. He fisted his own length a few times and Cath thought she probably ought to be doing that, but she wasn’t sure how or what would feel good for him. She lifted her arm to help but he grabbed her hand and kissed her knuckles.
“Let me take care of you this time, okay?” He got up and she instantly missed his weight, his heat. She shivered. “Sorry, just have to grab the condom.” He grabbed it from his dresser drawer and she could only kind of see as blurry-Levi stood tall, completely erect. He walked back over to the bed, sliding the condom on and climbed on top of her again. She was happy to have him back. He leaned over her with one arm holding him up beside her head and kissed her deeply. He used his other hand to trace circles over her clit. She arched her back and pressed into him.
“I’m going to push into you now, okay? Tell me if it hurts too much,” Levi said. Cath looked him in the eye as he pushed in. There was a pressure to it, but it didn’t hurt like she expected. She couldn’t help but smile. “Cath?”
“Good,” she muttered.
He started to thrust in and out, slowly at first, and then faster once he knew she was okay.
“Oh god, sweetheart. You feel so good,” he moaned. While he was thrusting, he reached down and circled her clit with his thumb. Pleasure jolted through Cath. She had never felt anything quite like this before. When she wrote scenes about Simon and Baz there were always awkward kisses and heavy breathing, but she had never realized how much her entire body would feel alive. She could feel her pleasure in her toes, her fingernails, even in her ears. She moaned at Levi’s touch. His pressure on her clit made the pleasure building inside her intolerable. She felt like she was a star about to explode.
“Levi, I think I might…” Cath breathed.
“Might what, sweetheart? Talk to me,” Levi said, pausing, unsure if he should stop.
“Don’t stop,” she said, reassuring him. “I feel like I might explode,” she said with a little laugh. Levi smiled.
“You think you might come?” Levi asked. “Let yourself go, Cath. I’ve got you.” So Cath did. Her back arched, her toes curled, and she saw stars. She could feel her muscles clenching around him. She had never had an orgasm before. “That’s it sweetheart,” Levi whispered.
He thrust a little faster. “I’m going to come with you, okay?” Cath nodded feeling utterly breathless. Then she thought Levi might not be able to see her nodding, so she whispered,
“Okay” in reply.
Levi thrust into her one, two, three more times before his body became rigid and he let out a moan. When he relaxed, he kissed her softly on the lips and collapsed his body onto hers. She stroked his back. After a minute of deep breaths, Levi lifted himself up.
“I’m going to pull out now,” he said, giving her a heads up. “It might feel uncomfortable for a second.” He did, and it was strange.
Cath closed her eyes. She could feel Levi leave the bed, probably to dispose of the condom, and she could feel the bed dip when he returned. He slid in beside her and opened his arms to invite her in to snuggle. She obliged, wrapping one of her legs over his and laying her head on his chest.
“I’m glad you were my first,” Cath said, quietly. Levi kissed her on the top of the head.
“Thanks for trusting me,” Levi said.
They fell asleep like that, naked in Levi’s bed, tangled together, both of them happier than they had ever been.