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The first thing Elijah notices is the stench.
It drags him out of sleep—the mansion is heavy with it, thick and cloying, seeping into plaster and paint, a metallic rot that sticks to the back of his throat.
He inhales and finds the air swollen with too many stories at once: the thin copper thread of at least a dozen throats torn open, the sour bloom of stomachs split, the dull sweetness of blood cooling in broad pools. And beneath it all, the heavier musk of what a body does when life has already left it—the slack release of bowels, the last sour note of lungs emptied.
Elijah has lived long enough to catalogue death by scent alone.
He knows the faint coppery thread of a single vein opened in an alleyway, a sin neatly done. He knows the hot sweetness of a tavern emptied by one of his brothers, laughter still echoing in the rafters, glass still wet on the counter. He knows the iron hush of a battlefield the morning after—ashes cooling, the bodies stacked, silence pressed into the earth.
This is similar, but not the same.
It carries the sharpness of a tavern emptied, but without the raucous echoes—quieter, as if the revelry had been strangled before it began. It has the density of a battlefield, but contained within walls too narrow, a small massacre forced into the frame of a household. It has the intimacy of stumbling across a lone body in an alleyway, but multiplied until the air is heavy with it.
And none of it bears the shape of his siblings.
Niklaus would have filled the air with noise as well as ruin—had it been him, Elijah would have woken earlier to the crash of furniture and the howl of rage echoing down the halls. Kol would still be laughing, incapable of silence, his mirth cutting sharper than the blood itself. Rebekah, though capable of the rage required, would have already sent for a servant to wake him.
Finn and Miriam were… unlikely.
From what Elijah recalled of his elder brother, Finn rarely slaughtered groups like the rest of them did and it was almost always accompanied with the sounds of soft weeping. Miriam—quiet, careful Miriam—he could not imagine bent to such hunger.
And yet—
He sits up in bed, already cold.
Elijah is moving before the thought is whole, instinct carrying him down the hall. Bare feet over hardwood, the boards creak faintly, too loud against the heavy quiet. Silence wraps tight around him. The corridors are empty, but they seem to watch him back.
And then—sound.
Faint at first. He leans toward it, straining his ear the way a man might for a prayer in the dark.
A wet crunch, brittle as bone giving way between teeth. A slow, obscene squelch, the sound of flesh pulled loose and chewed. The rhythm of it—patient, deliberate—makes his stomach knot.
Between them, softer still, a sigh. Thin, girlish, disturbingly tender, almost like the ones he thinks he might remember from a distant century.
He follows the sound.
Each step closer makes the sounds sharper—tearing, swallowing, the hush of breath escaping between mouthfuls. The house has become an ear, funneling it all toward him.
The smell is stronger when he nears the kitchen.
He stops once, hand suspended above the doorknob—a pause, no longer than a heartbeat.
It is not fear, exactly—but a gathering of his courage because he has begun to imagine what he might encounter past this doorframe and already he hates it. He presses composure into his own bones, the way he always does, the way he has done for a thousand years—the steel of his spine corseted by the softness of his flesh.
And then he pushes the door open.
It is carnage.
The first thing he sees is not Miriam but the floor.
A scatter of bodies—too many, there is no living human soul left in his room—arranged in no order but that which panic and violence created.
They are human or had been—once. Men, women. Limbs tangled. Eyes glassy.
Elijah realizes that his sister has slaughtered their entire kitchen staff.
Some of their throats have been torn open in the familiar, efficient manner of a vampire feeding, but others—most—are ruined in ways that have nothing to do with drink. Chests cracked open like crab shells. Ribs splintered outward. Stomachs unzipped. The meat of them pulled free.
The tile glistens. Blood has pooled and spread, black-red, tacky beneath bare feet, slick where it is still fresh. The air is too thick to breathe. The stench of iron has curdled into something heavier—organs split, marrow exposed.
And in the center of it—
Miriam.
Crouched low, the wreckage of her threadbare dress dragging in filth, her body bent over what remains of a man. For a moment Elijah’s mind refuses to name it. He sees only shape, ruin. But then the light shifts, and there: an exposed wrist, slack, pale, drained.
It had been human once.
Now it is only a husk, cavity emptied.
And Miriam—his sister, once-proud, once-gentle—feeds.
Her jaw works with a deliberate, bestial rhythm. She tears strips of flesh loose with her teeth, chews, swallows. It is the sound that sends a shudder through him: tendon snapping, cartilage crunching, the heavy wet swallow of flesh consumed.
Not the neat puncture and draw of a vampire, but the grotesque labor of cannibalism.
She does not know he is there. Her hair—dull with dust, tangled—hangs over her face.
For a moment, absurdly, he thinks she is weeping, bowed over the dead, but the wet smacking of her mouth belies it.
Elijah’s gaze drifts despite himself, cataloguing as he always does. A young man’s body among the dead, ribs snapped in two, marrow sucked from the bones, chest hollowed and a heart pulled out and consumed. A woman missing half her face, her jaw wrenched free, discarded at an angle that suggests Miriam’s hand had not bothered to release it gently. The head chef’s torso cracked wide open, sternum cleaved, cavity emptied as if scooped by starving hands.
This is desecration. This is ravenous. This is so utterly wrong—so utterly—
Elijah’s chest squeezes strangely.
Her hand, pale and slick, slips deeper into the ruin before her. Fingers curl with too much familiarity to feel as if they belong to his sister. She roots once, twice, then closes around something solid. When she withdraws her hand it drags with it a mass of red and purple—a kidney—still glistening, still warm.
She brings it to her mouth without hesitation.
Her teeth shear through the organ, the bite loud in the silence. The sound of raw organ meat parting, flesh breaking, giving way to teeth. His sister chews with slow purpose, lips working, jaw tight, blood slipping down her wrist in thin, dark rivulets.
When she is finished she does not discard what remains.
She licks her hand instead, long swipes of her tongue, gathering every smear. It paints her mouth fresh, streaks her cheeks where the back of her hand passes over them.
And then she slowly moves her head towards where he stands.
There is a crack, then another, the vertebrae in her neck shifting, popping, grinding into alignment.
She stares at him and does not blink.
Her chin is smeared, her lips slick, blood painted to the corners of her mouth like some obscene cosmetic.
And her eyes—
They are not hers.
Scarlet-rimmed, wide, unfocused, as though another thing peers through them. Elijah has seen hunger in every form a vampire can bear, but this is different. There is no shame in it, no desperation. Only void. Something old and wordless crouched behind her gaze, puppeteering.
“—Miriam,” Elijah whispers, but the name feels broken, foreign.
Her head tilts to the left, birdlike.
The sound seems to reach into her skull and scrape, though whether it hurts her or delights her he cannot tell. Her jaw flexes and a visible tremor runs down her throat.
She does not answer.
For an instant, his memory betrays him.
A different Miriam, centuries ago—kneeling at a stream, rinsing blood from her hands after feeding from a deer. Proud of her restraint, proud that she could live on animals while the rest of them drowned in crimson indulgence.
She looked up at him then—caught him watching—and blinked, shy and sheepish.
That sister is not here.
Elijah takes one step closer, deliberate and careful.
The air tightens. He does not know whether he approaches his younger sister or an enemy wearing her flayed skin like a gown.
Her lip curls, baring teeth pink with gore.
He prepares himself for a lunge, but her eyes go flinty on him for a moment before she drops her gaze back at the corpse.
Her mouth stretches into something too wide, delighted and sinister—it reminds him of nothing.
His sister never looked like this.
Or perhaps she had, and Elijah had simply forgotten.
She collapses to her knees, almost boneless, palms slipping in the congealed slick across the floor. Her hands spread there, leaving smears like fingerpaint as she braces herself, and then she plunges her face straight into that man’s ruin abdominal cavity.
No searching, no choosing—just the brute instinct of an animal nosing into carrion.
Her teeth scrape bone this time. He hears it, the high, splintering snap as she pulls a rib loose. She gnaws, chews, crunches through it with slow determination until the sound becomes unbearable.
Blood mats her hair, streaks her cheeks, coats her jaw.
When she lifts her head just enough to breathe, strings of red hang from her lips, clinging until she sucks them in with a wet inhale.
Elijah cannot endure it.
He moves before he thinks, crossing the last inches of silence to seize her shoulders. His hands close hard, wrenching her upright out of the gore.
She is so much smaller than he is that when he holds her there, her feet dangle for a moment before she tips onto her toes, straining for balance, her body shuddering in his grasp.
“Miriam,” he says again. Firm. Desperate. Commanding, pleading—every register at once.
She stares at him. Her face is red, every inch of it, the mask of a butcher. Sticky streaks in her hair, clotting in her lashes, her mouth slick and shining. Her eyes roll once, unfocused, then settle on him.
Her lips part.
“Hungry.”
It is not her voice. It is two voices, layered and scraping against each other.
He opens his mouth to answer, but she moves first.
The lunge steals the air from him. Her hands seize his face, slick with blood, her palms burning hot where they touch him.
Before he can recoil, her mouth catches his.
It is a kiss—undeniably, unbearably a kiss.
The kind he has imagined and never admitted to imagining: sudden, absolute, ruinous. Her lips are soft beneath the grit of clotted blood, her mouth impossibly hot and soft and wet. The taste of her floods him—iron, smoke, something bitter and old beneath it all, the flavor of a tomb just opened to air.
Elijah thinks the shape of her mouth on his feels like a memory he had never let himself imagine.
He breathes her in—bone marrow and organ tissue and dust, and still he does not pull away. The press of her hands against his body makes his chest ache, the ghost of tenderness so at odds with the ruin surrounding them that he almost groans aloud.
Her tongue drags against his, rough, greedy. He feels the grain of a dozen strangers’ blood scrape his teeth, the tiny grind of bone dust caught between them.
A low sound breaks from her throat—a tremor halfway between a moan and a sob—and the noise vibrates against his lips.
He almost answers it.
His hands, meant to hold her still, flex instead—his fingers slide up to her jaw, holding her there as if the right angle of his touch might coax her back into herself.
He forgets the smell, the slaughter, the slick floor beneath them. There is only her mouth and his own, the shared breath, the desperate, miserable want that sits like fire in his ribs.
And then the fangs.
They break skin before he realizes she’s biting.
A clean puncture, sharp as heat—pain flowers in his lip and the taste of his blood floods both their mouths.
She drinks it in greedily, humming, pressing closer. Her chest slams against his, the wet fabric of her dress gluing to his shirt. Her hands slide up into his hair, sticky and strong, pulling him down until her teeth meet his again, tugging, worrying at the wound.
He gasps—half pain, half in the sound of a door hinge squeaking half open—and the spell shatters.
He tears himself free, the separation thick and wet, a thread of saliva and blood stretching between them before it snaps.
She sways in his arms, lips shining dark with him, eyes wide and trembling.
“Hungry,” she babbles, voice shredded, lips still moving as if to taste the word. “I want—please—hungry—”
Elijah’s breath stutters. His own blood runs warm down his chin. The air tastes like ash and iron. “Miriam,” he whispers, rough and shaking, “you must stop—please, look at me.”
She doesn’t look at him, only presses her newly freed fingers to her mouth.
They come away slick—from the floor, from him, from everything she’s touched.
For a heartbeat she stares at her hand as though it doesn’t belong to her.
Then she drags her fingers through the ruin painted across her face, scooping up what’s left there—what’s left of them—and brings it to her lips.
She slides her fingers into her mouth one by one, slow, dazed.
Her tongue traces the blood from her skin as if she’s trying to taste herself back into being—each movement makes a messy, wet sound.
He catches her wrist mid-motion, his grip is trembling but sure.
“Miriam,” he says, voice fraying at the edges. She doesn’t stop. Her eyes are glassy, unfocused. “Miriam—listen to me.” His other hand finds her shoulder—he gives her a short, sharp shake, enough to startle but not to hurt. “Enough, sister. Do you hear me?”
She makes a sound then—a thin, broken cry that does not belong in her throat. Something between a coo and a sob.
“I am hungry,” she wails, shaking into his hold. “I want to eat. You said—” her head jerks, her mouth twisting wide—“you said I could eat. I am hungry. I want to eat. Please. Hungry. I am so hungry—”
The words spill out again and again, frantic, raw, as if she is being pulled apart by them. “Hungry. Hungry. Hungry.”
Revulsion seizes him—and his fingers unclench without permission.
She crumples instantly. Her knees buckle, her body folding into itself as she hits the floor with a wet slap, small and pitiful in the wreckage.
Elijah staggers back.
She is crying now—thin, ragged sobs that shake her ribs.
“Hungry,” she moans, thick with tears, the word unraveling into a whimper. “Hungry. Hungry.”
Her hands slip against the slick tile as she drags herself forward, mouth pressed to the floor. She licks greedily at the blood pooled there, tongue working, desperate, gathering what she can.
Her sobs thin, then stretch into silence broken only by the wet rasp of her tongue dragging over the floor.
Between the bright blue she once carried and the seep of scarlet flooding outward, her eyes are shifting into something near-violet, uncanny in their half-beauty.
It should have been ordinary—veins darkening, the familiar corruption that marks a vampire’s excess, but there are no veins. Nothing blooms across her face.
Instead, she wears a terrible pallor, a mask as smooth and unnatural as porcelain dipped in gore.
Elijah stands.
His throat burns with the effort of his horrible stillness.
This is not hunger as he has known it, nor grief, nor even madness. It is defilement made animate.
The sound of her lapping fills the room like a starving animal, like a dog—relentless, instinctive, obscene. And all the while she weeps, each broken whimper threaded through with that single refrain: hungry, hungry, hungry.
His chest tightens.
The urge to strike—to end this travesty before it carves itself deeper into memory—rises sharp as steel in his hand.
But this is Miriam, is it not?
Sister, once gentle. Sister, once proud.
His body will not betray her, even as his mind whispers that she has already been betrayed by something older, something that now puppeteers her bones.
He turns at last.
Each step away feels like treachery, yet still he moves, soundless over the boards, the slaughter still thick in his lungs.
He suspects that he knows where Nik keeps the daggers.
Tonight, he will use one.