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It's been months, yet nothing shakes Reo more than the sight of her. Her heart falls, out of love or despair, either way it doesn't matter to her because she's there. Her treasure.
Nagi looks the same as always as if nothing has changed, her expression bored and indifferent and her clothes are the same, casual and comfy. She looks soft, the exact same way Reo remembers her. The only difference is that her hair is a few inches shorter compared to the last time Reo saw her. She notices obviously and she wonders when she cut it and who cut it, did she go to a salon or did she do it herself at home because it was too much of a hassle to leave the house.
It's now just a little bit past her shoulders but still messy, like she just rolled out of bed, she probably did Reo thinks to herself. Yet she's still looks so effortlessly beautiful is the only thought that matters and is running through her mind. She's still so beautiful and she's there.
Nagi is here with her friends because what other reason is there for her to be out? Reo's heart clenches at the memories of dragging Nagi out of bed so they could go outside, although it always resulted in her giving into Nagi's whims and getting pulled back into bed so Nagi could cling to her.
Her arms wrapped tightly around Reo's waist, her face burried in her neck, messy hair brushing against her nose and the scent of cotton bedsheets mixing with the sweet scent of Reo's perfume. The way Reo would run her fingers through Nagi's hair softly brushing out the knots and rub lightly at her scalp, indulging in the sighs she would let out and how her breath would tickle her neck.The memory of the light kisses that Nagi would press to her jaw and how she would whisper her name sleepily are ingraved and burnt into her mind and it hurts.
It hurts to see Nagi without her. Reo knows jealousy is an ugly emotion but it's all she can feel. Bachira pokes Nagi's cheek, pulling her back into reality, continuing to chatter to her, Isagi let's out a laugh at whatever she said. Reo doesn't know about what, she's too far away to hear. Too far away for Nagi to even notice she's there, to see her like Reo is seeing her now.
Chigiri tugs a Reo's sleeve, enough motion for her to tear her gaze away. To slightly ground her "Come on Reo, we should go." Chigiri murmurs to her "We've done this too many times"
Reo gulps, eye watering slightly "Yeah. You're right Chigiri, We should go"
"And by go, you mean right now, right?" Chigiri jokes. Probably to lighten the mood. It doesn't really work and Reo really doesn't want to go. Not when Nagi is right there practically in her grasp, Nagi is there and Reo can't go.
She doesn't want to let Nagi go again. "Sure.Yeah we can go..." Reo mutters quietly barely paying attention to whatever Chigiri says next.
And Reo can't decide if this is lucky or unlucky but just as they're about to start walking again. Nagi looks up in their direction and as she's looking around her gaze slowly settles on Reo. Those soft round eyes stare right at Reo and it's so dazzling. Reo doesn't know if she can and how she can ever look away from her, how could she when Nagi has her eyes only on her. Nagi is finally seeing her and she's looking at Reo and Reo wonders if Nagi feels the same sharp pain in her chest and if her heart is beating slightly faster at the sight of her. Does it hurt her like it hurts Reo? It's probably all wishful thinking. Maybe.
They notice, obviously, Bachira and Isagi notice that Nagi has temporarily tuned them out again and started to gaze in the direction Reo is in. They've probably noticed Reo and Chigiri standing there now by following Nagi's line of sight and whatever has managed to catch her attention. Reo lets out a deep breath, only a matter of time, maybe even minutes before they decide to come over.
She doesn't think she could handle that right now or if she can even face Nagi again. And sure Reo and Nagi may no longer be together but that doesn't mean Reo doesn't talk to Isagi and Bachira, they are friends after all. Even if they are more Nagi's friends than hers. Bachira leans over and whispers something in Isagi's ear, her eyes widening slightly and looking at Nagi briefly before Bachira smiles brightly and waves at them. She waves at Reo and Chigiri and Chigiri waves back because those are her friends too right, of couse, they're all friends.
Friends that word stings but that's all they are. Can Nagi even be called her friend anymore if they haven't spoken or seen eachother in months? Can they even be considered acquaintances? Or is Nagi now just someone she used to know. A stranger who she held and poured her heart out to. It's all a faraway memory now, barely out of her reach.
Reo's heart beats quickens and she waves back politely because what else can she do they've seen her and Nagi has seen her too. Reo can feel Nagi's gaze burn into her and Oh God what can she even do, she needs to leave now. How does she leave. She feels sick and wonders if the universe is playing a sick joke on her. It's been months, almost a year and somehow she still feels this way.
Grabbing onto Chigiri sleeve, Reo turns them around. "Come on, Let's go get our smoothies then" Her throat feels tight fighting to keep her voice stable and giving her a strained smile. And Reo leaves breaking away from Nagi's wandering eyes. She won't do this again. She can't do this again.
"Reo?" Chigiri looks at Reo her expression worried."It's okay, you're okay right?"
"Yeah, I'm fine don't worry about it too much Chigiri" Reo can't say how everything isn't actually fine when her everything is just a few feet away from. After all this time she's dreaming of a fantasy where Nagi is hers again and it all seems so faraway when in reality, Nagi is just a few feet from her grasp and is so close to being Reo's again.
But Nagi isn't for her to have, not anymore and she hasn't been for a long time and Reo thinks of how can she ever let Nagi go.