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Dennis Whitaker’s back hit the cold metal locker with a dull clang, but the sensation barely registered. Not when his superior’s hands were leaving burning trails across his skin, searing through fabric, through thought, through anything that might have grounded him.
Whatever last fragments of reason he had were being kissed out of him stolen breath by breath as Robby’s mouth claimed his. The kiss deepened without warning, all heat and urgency, Robby’s tongue slipping past his lips like he had every right to be there.
Dennis let out a quiet, unsteady exhale, his knees threatening to give way beneath him. His fingers twitched uselessly at his sides before finding purchase in Robby’s shirt, clinging more than holding.
Robby’s hands moved lower, slower now, deliberate, sliding over the smooth fabric of Dennis’s scrubs, tracing the soft skin along his stomach
And God, Dennis felt it everywhere.
*
Robby managed to slide a hand into Whitaker’s hair just in time, steadying him so he wouldn’t hit his head against the locker as the space between them vanished to nothing.
Now, with the young doctor pinned between his body and the cold metal, something sharp and restless stirred in his chest hunger laced with something dangerously close to excitement. It felt out of place at this hour, wrong in a way he didn’t want to examine too closely. He couldn’t seem to keep his hands off him.
He knew he should stop. Still, he deepened the kiss. He knew someone could walk in at any second.
Still, his grip tightened as he lifted Dennis in one swift motion, setting him down on the windowsill. And just like that, he was standing between his legs.
Robby’s mouth found Whitaker’s neck, softer now, almost careful as he grazed the skin there holding himself back, just barely, from leaving a mark that would be impossible to explain later. The sound he got in return made something in him tighten. A small, breathy whimper.
Whitaker drew in a shaky breath, but it didn’t help if anything, it only made the quiet, involuntary moan that slipped past his lips more obvious.
Robby stilled for half a second, just enough to feel it. God, he loved this. Loved the way Whitaker unraveled under his touch.
*
Dennis, breath uneven and face flushed, suddenly pressed his hand over Robby’s, stopping it mid-path as it moved higher along his thigh.
Their eyes met.
Dennis shook his head, firm despite the way his chest was still rising too fast, despite everything still lingering between them.
No matter how much they wanted this, it was reckless. They were at work.
*
Robby leaned in once more, his lips brushing against Whitaker’s neck not quite a kiss this time, more a pause, a moment to take in the scent of his skin, the warmth, the faint tremor that still hadn’t left his body. He had to remember this. Because for the next three months, he wouldn’t have it.
“Dr. Robby…”
The whisper above him was quiet, strained meant as a warning, a reminder to pull himself together. But poor, naive Whitaker didn’t seem to realize that the slight tremble in his voice only made it worse.
“I’m sorry,” Robby murmured, finally pulling back.
He offered his hand, steadying the younger doctor as he slid down from the windowsill. He avoided those deep blue eyes on purpose, focusing instead on something safer running a hand through Whitaker’s hair, straightening it, smoothing out the creases in his rumpled scrubs as if that could erase what had just happened.
“Come see me after your shift,” he added, his tone shifting controlled now, almost professional.
“You said you’re leaving for the sabbatical tomorrow morning. You should get some sleep,” Dennis replied, words tangling slightly, still not entirely steady.
Robby’s lips curved, subtle but unmistakable, as he leaned in just a fraction closer.
“Are you planning not to let me sleep all night?”
The effect was immediate. Whitaker flushed, color rising fast across his cheeks, and Robby felt that familiar flicker of satisfaction settle deep in his chest. He took it as a small, private victory.
***
Dennis stepped out of the locker room and into the main nurses’ station the open space filled with soft chatter, the hum of computers, and the ever-present board listing patients and room assignments.
He forced his breathing to even out, his expression to settle into something neutral, professional like nothing had just happened behind closed doors.
It didn’t quite work. His thoughts kept slipping back to the heat, the closeness, the way Robby had looked at him.
Three months.
Three months without him.
The weight of it pressed somewhere behind his ribs.
Dennis stepped up to the board, scanning it automatically, searching for a patient anything to anchor himself in something real. But instead, he found Dr. Trinity Santos already standing there.
“Rough morning?” she asked, a knowing edge to her voice.
Before he could answer, she flicked something toward him. He caught it on instinct.
A tissue.
Dennis blinked, looking from it back to her, confusion written plainly across his face.
“What—?”
Santos’s lips curled into a sharp, almost wicked smile.
“That,” she said lightly, “is for wiping that look off your face.”
Dennis frowned. “What look?”
Her smile only deepened.
“The one that screams you’re completely gone for Dr. Robinavitch.”
Dennis clutched the patient chart tightly to his chest and stepped closer to Santos, his voice dropping into a urgent whisper.
“Can you not—? Just keep it down, okay? That’s not—there’s nothing—”
Santos didn’t even bother lowering her voice.
“Oh please,” she scoffed, waving a hand dismissively. “Relax. I’m not going to tell anyone about your little affair with Robby.”
Dennis went completely still. For a split second, he wasn’t sure if he was about to pass out or commit a felony.
“Lower your voice,” he hissed, panic sharp in his tone, eyes darting instinctively around the station.
Santos just snorted. A second later, she reached out and gave him a firm pat on the back.
“Easy there, Huckleberry,” she said, far too amused for his liking. “Honestly? Kind of impressive. Didn’t think you had it in you to land your boss.”
Dennis felt his entire face burn.
“I didn’t land—there’s nothing to—this is—” he cut himself off, words tangling, giving up mid-sentence as he shook his head.
Nope. Absolutely not. Abort mission. He turned sharply, already stepping away.
“I have a patient,” he muttered quickly, more to escape than to inform, and made a very deliberate attempt to walk out of that conversation before Santos could say anything else.
*
Robby moved through the ER with practiced ease, his pace unhurried but purposeful as he made his rounds. A glance at a monitor here, a quiet question there, a brief exchange with a nurse everything in its place, everything under control. Exactly as he should be.
No one looking at him would have guessed what had happened less than an hour ago. He paused briefly at one of the bays, scanning a chart, giving a short nod to a resident before moving on.
From the doorway of the next room, his gaze caught on something familiar. Bright, curly hair at the nape of a neck he knew far too well.
Whitaker.
Robby didn’t step inside. He stayed where he was, half-shadowed by the frame of the door, his expression unreadable as he watched.
Dennis was standing close to Park, the orthopedic consult too close, in Robby’s opinion. They were bent over a chart together, Park leaning in as he spoke, pointing something out. Their shoulders brushed, casual. But Robby noticed.
His eyes lingered, narrowing ever so slightly as he took in the details: the way Park angled his body, the way he dipped his head a little too close when explaining something, the ease of it. Something about it didn’t sit right.
A faint, unwelcome tension coiled low in Robby’s chest, sharp and sudden. Jealousy wasn’t a feeling he entertained often. But the prickling under his skin the quiet, insistent irritation felt dangerously close to it.
***
The next hour passed in a blur of charts, consults, and controlled chaos right up until it wasn’t controlled anymore.
“Incoming!”
The doors to the ER burst open as a gurney was rushed in, voices overlapping. Robby was already moving.
“What do we have?” he called, stepping in seamlessly as the paramedics rattled off details unstable vitals, suspected cardiac event, rapid deterioration en route.
“Whitaker. Mel. Santos—on me.”
They didn’t hesitate. Everything snapped into motion. Dennis was at the patient’s side within seconds, fingers already searching for a pulse, his voice steady despite the adrenaline kicking in. Mel moved to prep the IV line, Santos barking orders for meds, the room tightening around the rhythm of practiced urgency.
“BP dropping,” Mel said.
“Charge, now,” Santos added.
The monitor screamed.
„Start compressions.” Robby ordered, sharp, controlled.
Dennis didn’t think he just moved. Hands locked, arms straight, he began chest compressions, counting under his breath, body falling into the brutal rhythm of it. Push, release. Push, release.
“Come on, come on…” someone muttered.
“Get the resuscitation device in here now!”
The room filled with motion someone rushing past with equipment, voices cutting over each other, the sharp scent of antiseptic and stress thick in the air.
Dennis barely registered any of it. All he felt was the resistance of the chest under his palms, the strain in his arms, the relentless demand to keep going.
Push. Release. Push
Something snagged.
A sharp tug at his neck.
For half a second he felt it. The chain slipping free, catching against the edge of the equipment as it slid out from beneath his scrub top.
A snap.
His breath hitched but his hands didn’t stop.
“Switch in ten!” Santos called.
“Keep going,” Robby’s voice cut through, closer now.
Dennis nodded, jaw tight, focus snapping back into place as if nothing had happened.
Push. Release. Push.
“Charging—clear!”
The shock jolted through the body on the table.
A beat. Nothing. And then a flicker and sound.
“we’ve got rhythm.”
The room shifted instantly, tension snapping into something else relief, sharp and disbelieving.
“Pulse is back,” Mel confirmed.
Dennis finally pulled back, breath uneven, arms heavy, stepping away just enough to let the others take over stabilizing the patient.
It worked. The patient was stable. And only then, in the quiet that followed, did the absence at his throat start to feel real.
*
“Good work,” Robby said, his voice cutting cleanly through the aftermath, steady and composed, yet threaded with something warmer. “All of you.”
The team responded in small ways nods, short exhales, the quiet release of tension that always followed a fight won by inches. One by one, they peeled away, drawn back into the restless current of the ER.
Robby didn’t move immediately. His gaze settled on Whitaker.
“Those compressions,” he added, quieter now, stepping closer. “Exactly what they needed.”
Then, without asking he placed his hands on Dennis’s shoulders from behind. For a fleeting moment, he allowed himself the contact.
Pride settled in his chest, sharp and undeniable. If this was what he was leaving behind, if this was the level Whitaker had reached, then perhaps he could go.
The room emptied further, the noise receding into something distant, until it was just the two of them and the echo of adrenaline still clinging to the air. Robby’s gaze dropped. Something glinted faintly against the floor. He bent and picked it up.
A chain. Thin. Familiar.
Dennis noticed immediately. His hand rose to the back of his neck, fingers brushing the place where it should have been, a nervous gesture he didn’t seem aware of.
“Yeah,” he said, voice still uneven. “Guess it was only a matter of time.”
Robby didn’t answer. He turned the small cross between his fingers, watching the way the metal caught the light worn smooth in places, handled often. Kept close. Then, with quiet finality, he slipped it into his pocket.
“I was thinking of taking it off anyway,” Dennis added quickly, almost defensive. “But it just… doesn’t feel right without it.”
That made Robby look at him. There it was again that softness he kept tucked away beneath professionalism, beneath nerves, beneath that stubborn attempt to always do the right thing. Too easy to bruise.
Robby’s hand rose to the back of his own neck, fingers finding the clasp without hesitation. The chain came free with a soft metallic whisper, the gold catching the light as it fell into his palm the Star of David resting there, warm from his skin.
“For now,” he said, stepping closer “you’ll wear mine.”
Dennis blinked, startled.
“No—I can’t, that’s—Robby, it’s not necessary, I don’t want to—”
“Whitaker.” Soft but final.
The protest faltered before it could fully form. Robby lifted a hand slightly, not quite a command but close enough.
“Turn around.”
A pause. Then Dennis obeyed.
Robby stepped in behind him, close enough to feel the lingering heat still radiating through the thin fabric of his scrubs. He brought the chain up, letting it brush intentionally against the sensitive skin at the nape of Dennis’s neck before fastening it.
Robby leaned in, just enough for his words to belong only to him.
“Wear it,” he murmured, voice low, almost intimate. “So you don’t feel like something’s missing.”
A beat.
“I’ll fix yours.”
Dennis turned too quickly, something already forming on his lips but Robby’s hand was there first. Fingers beneath his chin. Gentle. Unyielding.
“That’s not what you say.”
His thumb shifted slightly, just enough to hold his attention.
“‘Thank you, Dr. Robby’ will do.”
Silence stretched for a fraction too long.
Dennis swallowed.
“…Thank you, Dr. Robby.”
Soft. Obedient. Breathless in a way that had nothing to do with the resuscitation.
Robby let go slowly. But he didn’t step back. Not immediately.
Three months.
The thought returned, heavier now. Three months without this, without the way Whitaker looked at him, responded to him, unraveled so easily under his touch.
Robby exhaled quietly. He was going to miss him. More than he intended.
***
Another hour bled into the next, the ER swallowing time the way it always did. Cases stacked one on top of the other.
A teenager with a gunshot wound contained, stabilized, handed off.
A middle-aged man doubled over with vomiting, pale and sweating, clutching his abdomen like it might come apart in his hands.
A woman complaining of wrist pain, indignant, loud, very certain it was broken.
Robby moved through it all with the same measured precision, shifting from patient to patient, voice steady, hands sure, presence grounding in the middle of the chaos. Now he stood by a younger woman, her hand carefully positioned under the light.
“Hold still,” he said, tone calm, almost absent-minded in its focus.
The door had slammed on her fingers. The acrylic nail long, artificial had pierced into the pad of her fingertip, lodged there at an angle that made most people wince just looking at it. The anesthetic had already taken hold; her shoulders had relaxed, tension melting into something softer, looser. Too loose.
“So…” she started, her voice taking on that particular light, curious, deliberate. “Do you always look this serious, or is it just for me?”
Robby didn’t react. Not outwardly.
“Just for the job,” he replied evenly, eyes still on her hand.
She hummed, clearly unconvinced.
“Shame,” she said. “I think you’d look better smiling.”
He almost did. But something else had already caught his attention.
Robby’s gaze lifted, just briefly and landed on Park. He was still here. More than that he was moving through the ER with a kind of intent that didn’t match the usual flow. Not quite urgency, not quite purpose.
Hunting.
That was the only word that fit. Park wove through the chaos like something patient and sharp, his eyes scanning, assessing searching.
Robby stilled. He saw it. The exact moment Park found what he was looking for. His gaze fixed. Locked.
Robby followed it without thinking. Something tightened, low and unpleasant, in his stomach.
Whitaker.
Park crossed the distance in a handful of unhurried steps. He came to a stop beside Whitaker, close enough to make it look incidental, casual but it wasn’t. Not really. His shoulder found the doorframe, bracing there as he leaned in, angling himself into Dennis’s space with a familiarity that hadn’t been earned.
Robby saw the exact tilt of it the way Park’s body curved inward, the subtle narrowing of distance that turned proximity into something else entirely. Claiming, almost.
Something in Robby went still. And then, just as quickly tightened. The scissors in his hand shifted before he realized it, his grip closing around them a fraction too hard, metal pressing cold and unyielding into his palm. He didn’t feel it. What he felt instead was sharper.
A slow, insistent pull beneath his ribs like something coiling there, something he didn’t name, didn’t want to name. It spread quietly, heat without flame, a tension that settled deep and refused to loosen. His gaze didn’t waver.
It stayed fixed on the small details the ones no one else would notice. The way Whitaker’s shoulders angled, just slightly, instinctively accommodating the intrusion. The way he didn’t step back. The way Park leaned in that fraction more, as if testing the boundary, as if expecting it not to be there at all.
Robby exhaled slowly through his nose, the motion controlled, measured professional. He had no claim here. No right. The thought came clean, logical, undeniable. It didn’t change the way something dark and restless stirred beneath his composure.
Didn’t change the way his fingers tightened again, almost imperceptibly, around the scissors.
Didn’t change the way his attention had already abandoned the patient in front of him, drawn instead back to the sight of Whitaker standing just a little too close to someone else.
Jealousy, he told himself, was a useless emotion. Unproductive. Unprofessional. And yet it settled in him anyway. Impossible to ignore.
Robby excused himself from the patient something brief, polite, automatic and stepped away before she could protest.
“I’ll be right back.”
He moved toward the nurses’ station, slipping seamlessly into the flow of the ER, picking up a chart along the way. To anyone watching, it looked routine another doctor checking notes, reviewing a case.
But his attention wasn’t on the chart. It was on Park. He saw everything. The way Park brushed something off Whitaker’s shoulder something that hadn’t been there to begin with. A meaningless gesture, except for the contact it allowed.
The way he took the pen straight from Dennis’s hand, uninvited, fingers lingering just a second too long. The way he leaned in. Close enough that his mouth was near Whitaker’s ear, his voice dropping, private, deliberate.
Robby felt something in him pull tight. He searched almost desperately for a reason to step in. A clinical interruption. A question. Anything that would be justified, that would let him cut through the moment without exposing what was really driving him.
But there was nothing. Nothing that gave him the right. Because the truth settled in, unwelcome and sharp: He wasn’t any better.
They were both the same circling the same person, drawn to the same thing. Wanting Dennis in a way that was immediate, consuming, dangerously easy to disguise as something lighter. Something temporary. A quick, intense distraction.
And Dennis, with that open, unguarded heart, that quiet need to give more than he ever asked for in return. He was the one who would pay for it.
Robby’s jaw tightened.
At least I don’t have a wife and children, he thought bitterly.
The justification came fast. And just as quickly it fell apart. Because this was Dennis. And Dennis deserved more than being someone’s momentary weakness dressed up as something meaningful.
Robby noticed it not all at once, but in fragments.
Dennis’s hand rose. Slow. Absent. Unthinking. Fingers brushing the chain at his throat. The gold caught the overhead light as Dennis’s fingers moved rolling the small Star of David between thumb and forefinger, tracing its edges as if grounding himself in its shape. Again. And again. A small, repetitive motion, almost nervous.
Robby felt it before he understood it. That subtle loosening in his chest. The tension easing not gone, but softened, dulled at the edges. The sharp, unpleasant coil of something dark unwinding just enough to let him breathe.
Because even now even here, with someone else standing too close, speaking too low, reaching too easily Whitaker reached for him.
It wasn’t just about the necklace. It was the way Whitaker reached for it without thinking.
The way his body chose it before his mind could catch up.
The way, even now, even with someone else standing too close, speaking too low Dennis gravitated back to him.
Robby felt it like a pull. A thread drawn tight between them. His gaze lingered on the curve of Whitaker’s throat, on the way the chain dipped with each breath, on the faint tension in his shoulders that only softened when his fingers closed around the small piece of gold.
And something in Robby gave. Because this wasn’t fleeting. Wasn’t just heat, or impulse, or something that would burn out as quickly as it had sparked.
Robby exhaled slowly, the realization settling into him with a weight he couldn’t ignore anymore. Whitaker wasn’t just someone he wanted. Whitaker was someone he was already quietly, irreversibly attached to. And the thought of leaving him for three months— For the first time, it didn’t just feel inconvenient.
It felt wrong.
Robby’s gaze lingered, drawn to the line of Dennis’s throat, to the way the chain dipped and rose with each breath, to the way his fingers wouldn’t quite let it go. A slow, dangerous warmth settled beneath his ribs. Possession
God, he liked it.
Liked that Whitaker wore something of his.
Liked that it rested against his skin, hidden beneath his scrubs, seen only in moments like this.
Liked far too much that when pushed, when unsettled, when caught off balance Dennis reached for that. Robby held onto that thought, turning it over once, twice, like something sharp he was testing in his
Three months.
The number settled heavily, but this time it didn’t hollow him out in quite the same way. Not when there was something of him that would remain, quiet and constant, resting at the hollow of Whitaker’s throat. He wouldn’t take it back. The decision came clean, final.
Let people talk.
Let them notice.
Let them wonder.
It didn’t matter.
Robby exhaled, slow and measured, forcing his gaze away pulling himself, piece by piece, back into the present. He turned without a word and returned to his patient, his voice steady once more, hands precise, expression composed as if nothing had shifted at all.
As if something deep and quietly irreversible hadn’t just settled into place.
***
The noise of the ER swelled and dipped around them monitors beeping, someone calling for labs, a stretcher rattling past but here, by the wall, the moment held in a quieter pocket. Whitaker was still leaning back slightly, fingers idly turning the small star at his throat, as if he hadn’t quite realized he was doing it.
Santos noticed. Of course she did. She tilted her head, watching him for a beat too long, a knowing glint in her eyes.
“So,” she said lightly, nudging his shoulder with her own, “should I start calling Ortho and tell them they’ve got a new resident coming?”
Whitaker blinked, pulled halfway out of his thoughts.
“What? No. I’m not—” he huffed out a quiet breath, shaking his head. “I’m not switching specialties because Park can’t respect personal space.”
Santos snorted.
“Mm. Sure. That’s what this is about.”
There was a beat. Santos stared at him. Then slowly she broke into a grin.
“Oh my God,” she breathed. “You don’t see it.”
“See what?” Dennis asked, genuinely lost now.
“The flirting,” she said plainly. “Park. With you.”
Whitaker just stared at her. Then he let out a short, disbelieving huff.
“No. He’s—he’s not. He was just—he needed the chart.”
Santos laughed under her breath.
“He took the chart from your hand and leaned into your ear like he was telling you a secret.”
“He was explaining something,” Whitaker shot back, a little too quickly.
“Mmhm.”
Whitaker faltered.
“…Okay, but still, that doesn’t mean—”
“That he’s into you?” Santos finished for him. “Yeah. It does.”
Dennis shook his head, a flush creeping up his neck now not flustered in the way she meant, more thrown off, almost defensive.
“No, it doesn’t,” he said, quieter. “I think I’d notice.”
Santos raised an eyebrow.
“You really wouldn’t.”
He shot her a look, already trying to step away, to end it before it could become something.
“I have patients,” he muttered, but there was no real weight behind it.
Santos didn’t let him go.
“Please,” she said, waving a hand dismissively. “You’re practically glowing. It’s distracting.”
Whitaker froze.
“I am not—”
“You are,” she cut in, grin widening. “Honestly, I’m impressed. One guy’s barely out the door and you’re already lining up the next one.”
His expression dropped immediately.
“That’s not—” he stopped himself, jaw tightening slightly. “It’s not like that.”
Santos raised an eyebrow, unimpressed.
“Oh? So Robby’s what, then? A hobby?”
Whitaker’s fingers tightened around the chain.
The movement was small but deliberate this time.
“He’s not—” he started, then faltered, like he needed to choose the words carefully. “He’s not a…”
His gaze dropped briefly to the star resting against his fingers, thumb brushing over one of the edges. There was something softer in his expression now.
“He’s…” Whitaker exhaled, almost embarrassed, but didn’t stop. “He’s important.”
Santos didn’t interrupt this time.
“He—” Dennis hesitated again, then let out a small, almost self-conscious huff. “I don’t know what this is. I just—” his fingers tightened slightly around the chain, grounding. “I want to be around him. As long as he… wants me there.”
The words were simple. Honest in a way that made them heavier than they should have been. For a moment, Santos just looked at him.
Her expression softened not by much, but enough.
“Okay,” she said after a second, quieter now. “That’s… actually kind of sweet.”
Whitaker groaned under his breath, already regretting saying anything.
“Don’t make it weird.”
“Too late,” she replied immediately.
But then, after a beat, she nudged him again lighter this time.
“Hey,” she added, tone shifting just slightly, losing the edge. “Just—be careful, okay?”
Whitaker frowned faintly, glancing back at her.
“I am.”
Santos tilted her head.
“I know you think you are,” she said. “I’m just saying guys like that?” she shrugged one shoulder. “They don’t always realize what they’re holding until they drop it.”
Whitaker didn’t answer right away. His fingers found the chain again, thumb brushing over it once, twice. Santos studied him for a second longer, then sighed, a small smile tugging at her lips despite herself.
“God, you’re hopeless.”
Whitaker huffed, but there was no real irritation in it this time.
“Yeah,” he muttered. “I’ve been told.”
Somewhere across the ER, someone called his name. Relief flickered across his face.
“That’s me,” he said quickly, already stepping away.
Santos let him go this time, watching him for a moment as he disappeared back into the current of the ward.
“…Yeah,” she murmured to herself. “…he’s so screwed.”
***
The last hours of the shift spared no one. Case after case bled into the next unforgiving no space to think, barely time to breathe. The ER moved like a storm that refused to break, only gathering force, pulling everyone deeper into its current.
Robby moved through it with practiced endurance. Room to room. Patient to patient. A quick check on one of his residents, before he was pulled away again, summoned into another case without pause. His voice stayed even, his movements precise, but the weight of it all pressed in, building, tightening.
At some point, he realized he needed air. He stepped out through the doors, the noise of the ER muffling behind him, replaced by the cooler, quieter outside. The shift in atmosphere was immediate, almost jarring.
And then he saw him. The smile came before he could stop it.
He would have recognized that silhouette anywhere the slight frame, shoulders just a little slouched with exhaustion, curls falling messily at the nape of his neck, as if the shift had run its hands through them one too many times.
Whitaker. Standing there like a pause in the chaos. Robby approached, slower now, something in him easing with every step.
“Good work, Dr. Whitaker,” he said, voice lower, warmer than it had been all day.
Dennis turned, and just like that he smiled.
“I’m going to miss you, Dr. Robbinavich.”
Robby huffed out a quiet breath, something between a laugh and an exhale, and nudged him lightly with his shoulder.
“Careful,” he murmured. “Sounds almost sentimental.”
But he was smiling too. He leaned back slightly, tilting his head up just enough to take in a deeper breath of the cool air. For the first time in hours, it filled his lungs properly.
Everything felt easier. Standing there, shoulder brushing Whitaker’s, the tension that had followed him all shift finally loosened its grip. Breathing was simpler when Dennis was next to him.
The moment stretched quiet, almost gentle.
And then it broke.
“Whitaker.”
Park’s voice cut through the air as he stepped out onto the ambulance bay, like he had every right to interrupt. Robby’s jaw tightened before he could stop it. Park didn’t even glance at him.
“Got a minute?” he added, already half-turning back toward the doors, as if the answer was a given.
Dennis hesitated. Just for a second. Then he straightened slightly.
“Yeah—okay,” he said, glancing briefly at Robby, something apologetic flickering across his face before he followed Park inside.
Robby watched him go. Something sharp flickered low in his chest again that same unpleasant pull from earlier. He pushed off the wall. Took a step forward.
“Robby.”
The voice stopped him.
He turned, tension still coiled in his shoulders, to find Abbott approaching, already shrugging into place like the shift had been waiting for him.
“Shift’s mine now,” Abbott said, glancing past him toward the doors. “You’ve got a handover for me?”
Robby exhaled slowly through his nose. Always perfect timing.
He forced his focus back, dragging himself out of that pull, that instinct to follow, to check, to interrupt something he had no claim over.
“Yeah,” he said shortly, running a hand over the back of his neck. “Cardiac arrest in bay three—ROSC after one shock. Labs pending. Gunshot’s stable, trauma’s aware. And—”
He spoke, because he had to. Because this was his job. But part of him was still inside, tracking the path Whitaker had taken, the way he’d followed Park without argument, without question. Robby kept his voice even, his expression composed. Only his jaw gave him away, tightening just slightly as he finished the handover.
Abbott fell into step beside him as if it were the most natural thing in the world, hands tucked into his pockets, eyes sharp in that quiet, observant way of his.
“Three months, huh?” he said lightly. “That a real sabbatical, or one of those ‘I’ll still answer emails at 2 a.m.’ situations?”
Robby exhaled through his nose, somewhere between tired and amused.
“Real enough.”
Abbott hummed.
“Right.” A beat. “And what are you planning to do with it?”
Robby glanced at him briefly. “Rest.”
“Mm.” Abbott didn’t sound convinced. “You don’t strike me as someone who rests well.”
Robby didn’t answer that.
They walked a few steps in silence, the distant noise of the ER bleeding faintly through the doors behind them. Abbott tilted his head slightly, like he was considering something.
“And Whitaker?” he asked, almost casually.
That made Robby look at him.
“What about him?”
Abbott shrugged one shoulder. “Just wondering what your plan is there.”
“There’s no plan,” Robby said, a little too quickly.
“Right,” Abbott repeated, voice mild.
Robby’s jaw tightened.
“He’s a resident,” he added, more controlled now. “I’m his attending. That’s… the situation.”
Abbott nodded slowly, like he was following.
“Sure. That’s the label.”
Robby stopped walking.
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
Abbott met his gaze, unbothered.
“It means,” he said evenly, “that I’ve seen the way he looks at you.”
Robby said nothing.
“And,” Abbott continued, “I’ve seen the way you don’t look at him when other people are around.”
“There’s nothing—” Robby started, then cut himself off, the words sounding thinner the second time around.
Abbott didn’t push. Not directly. He just shifted his weight slightly, glancing back toward the ER doors.
“You know,” he said, tone still casual, “people always think they’ve got more time than they do.”
Robby frowned faintly.
“That’s not—this isn’t—”
“Maybe,” Abbott cut in gently. “Or maybe it is exactly that.”
A pause.
“Three months is a long time,” he added. “Long enough for things to… change.”
Robby’s gaze flicked, involuntary, toward the doors. Whitaker had disappeared behind them minutes ago.
“He’ll be fine,” Robby said, quieter now.
Abbott nodded.
“I’m sure he will.”
Another beat.
“That’s not really the point, though, is it?”
Robby didn’t answer.
Abbott watched him for a second longer, something softer slipping into his expression.
“I’m not saying do anything reckless,” he said. “Or stupid.”
A faint smile.
“God knows we’ve got enough of that around here.”
Robby almost huffed.
“I’m just saying…” Abbott shrugged lightly. “If there’s something there, something that matters…”
He let the sentence hang for a moment.
“Make sure it’s still there when you get back.”
Silence settled between them. Robby looked away first, his gaze drifting again, unavoidably, toward the doors. Robby swallowed once, jaw setting as he dragged his focus back, pulling himself upright, back into something steadier.
“I’ve got it,” he said finally.
Abbott studied him for a moment. Then nodded.
“Yeah,” he said. “I hope you do.”
***
Cases like that always came at the end of a shift. As if they waited for the exact moment shoulders dropped, for that first glance at the clock, when the body dared to believe it was almost over. And then they hit.
The doors burst open, the gurney rushing in with the kind of urgency that erased everything else.
“Unconscious male—traumatic amputation—significant blood loss!”
Robby didn’t hesitate.
“Whitaker. Santos. Mel—move.”
His voice cut clean through the chaos. Dennis was already there.
They descended on the patient in a coordinated rush hands, voices, movement folding into something practiced, almost instinctive.
“Pressure here—harder!”
“I’ve got it—”
“BP’s crashing—”
“Fluids, now!”
Blood soaked through everything. Gloves, sleeves, the sheets beneath the patient turning dark, heavy. The smell hit fast iron, sharp and overwhelming. Garcia joined them mid-motion, slipping into place without needing direction.
“Tourniquet—tighten it!”
“On it—”
They clamped, secured, stabilized each step stacking on the last, holding the line just long enough to drag the patient back from the edge.
“Pulse—?”
“Thready, but there.”
“Good. Keep him there.”
The bleeding was controlled. Airway secured. Vitals stabilizing, fragile but present. They stepped back in pieces, the intensity breaking just enough to breathe.
Dennis dragged a hand over his forehead, leaving a smear of red across his skin, chest rising and falling hard. Santos leaned back against the counter, exhaling sharply. Mel adjusted her gloves with trembling fingers. Robby took one step back, scanning, recalibrating.
“Good work,” he said, quieter now but it carried.
They looked like it. Still covered in blood. The brief stillness didn’t last.
“Ortho consult’s here.”
Robby’s gaze flicked up.
Park. Of course.
He stepped in like he always did controlled, detached, already assessing before anyone spoke.
“Status?” he asked.
Dennis straightened slightly, forcing himself back into clinical mode.
“Male, mid-thirties. Traumatic amputation below the knee. Significant blood loss on arrival. He’s stabilized now. Tourniquet applied early, we’ve controlled active bleeding, fluids running. No other major injuries identified yet.”
Park barely glanced at him. His eyes were on the patient.
“How long since amputation?”
“Approximately forty minutes,” Dennis replied.
Park clicked his tongue softly.
“Borderline.”
Dennis nodded, pushing through.
“The limb’s been preserved we’ve got it on ice, minimal contamination. We were hoping—”
Park cut him off.
“You were hoping,” he repeated, flat.
The shift in tone was immediate. Robby noticed it. Dennis did too but he kept going.
“We thought there might be a window—if we move quickly—”
“You thought,” Park said again, sharper this time, finally looking at him. “Based on what?”
Dennis blinked, thrown just enough for it to show.
“The—standard timeframe for reattachment—if vascular supply—”
“This isn’t a textbook case,” Park snapped. “You don’t get to ‘hope’ your way through surgical criteria.”
The words landed harder than they should have. Too sharp. Robby’s gaze shifted between them, something in his expression tightening.
Dennis straightened, jaw setting, trying to hold his ground.
“I’m aware,” he said, controlled, but quieter now. “I’m just presenting the—”
“Then present facts,” Park cut in, dismissive. “Not assumptions.”
Silence flickered for half a second.
Robby stepped forward just half a step, nothing dramatic yet it placed him unmistakably behind Whitaker. Close enough to be felt, not announced.
“Dr. Park.”
His voice was calm. The kind of calm that didn’t invite argument.
“He presented the case correctly.”
A beat.
“Time of amputation. Mechanism. Current stabilization.”
Another.
“If you need clarification, ask.”
There was no edge. No visible irritation. And yet the message settled heavily in the space between them. Robby shifted just slightly, not enough to draw attention, but enough that his presence became unmistakable. A quiet line drawn. A boundary.
“You don’t speak to my resident like that,” he added.
Park stilled. For the first time since he’d walked in, he actually looked at Whitaker not through him, not past him, but at him. Then his gaze slid back to Robby. Something clicked.
It was subtle just a shift in his eyes, a quiet recalculation but it was there. Like he’d been circling a conclusion and had finally, inevitably, reached it. He looked between them again.
Whitaker, standing just a fraction straighter now, still silent.
Robby, close behind him, composed. The proximity. The tone. The way Robby had stepped in without hesitation. Understanding settled. Park’s jaw tightened once, then eased. He exhaled quietly.
“…Right,” he said at last, the sharpness gone, replaced with something flatter, more controlled. Professional again but this time, deliberate. No more pushing.
“Show me the limb.”
That was it. No apology. But no challenge either. He turned toward the nurse, already moving, already shifting into the role he knew. The tension dissolved enough to move forward.
Robby stayed where he was for a second longer. Then, finally, he stepped past Whitaker close enough that his shoulder brushed his. Before returning to the case like nothing had happened at all.
***
Robby handed the patient off with a few final, precise instructions voice steady, movements economical before stepping away, the momentum of the ER finally loosening its grip on him.
He didn’t slow until he reached the restroom. The door swung shut behind him with a muted click. As he walked in, he was already shrugging off his blood-stained coat, peeling it from his shoulders with a tired exhale, the fabric heavy and stiff where it had dried. He dropped it aside without looking.
The fluorescent light overhead flickered faintly casting the room in a washed-out, almost hazy glow. And there was Whitaker. Leaning over the sink, hands braced against porcelain, head slightly bowed.
For a moment, Robby didn’t move. He just looked. At the slope of Whitaker’s shoulders lower than usual, weighed down in a way that had nothing to do with posture. At the damp curls at the nape of his neck, still dark from where he’d splashed water over his face. At the faint sheen of moisture clinging to his skin, catching the light along his cheekbones.
He looked tired. Not just physically. It showed in the looseness of his stance, in the way his breath came a fraction deeper than normal, like he was still trying to come down from everything.
Robby stepped forward. He reached back and pushed the door closed fully this time, the click softer, more deliberate. The noise from the ER dulled further still there, but distant now.
For a moment, in the dim, humming quiet of the room they were alone again. Robby came to stand behind him. Then his hands lifted. They settled on Whitaker’s shoulders, firm, warm.
Dennis didn’t startle. If anything, something in him eased.
Robby’s thumbs pressed in slightly, feeling the tightness there, the tension wound deep into muscle and bone. He began to work it out slowly, deliberately down the line of his shoulders, easing pressure where it had gathered, grounding him back into his body.
“You held that well,” he murmured, voice low, almost lost beneath the hum of the light. His hands slid lower, following the tension, pressing into the muscles along Dennis’s upper back, coaxing them to loosen.
For a moment Robby let himself stop holding back. He leaned in. Barely. And pressed his lips, soft and brief, against Whitaker’s shoulder.
Dennis inhaled sharply. Not loud. But enough. His eyes lifted, meeting Robby’s in the mirror. Their gazes locked. And there was nothing guarded in Robby’s expression now.
“Good work, Dr. Whitaker.”
He stepped beside him, turning on the tap. Water rushed over his hands, pink at first as it carried away the last traces of blood, swirling down the drain.
Beside him, Dennis straightened slightly. A small smile appeared tired, a little shy, but real.
“Thank you… for stepping in for me,” he said, turning just enough to face him.
Robby didn’t look at him immediately. He rubbed his hands together under the stream, methodical, as if the motion itself helped him stay composed.
“Anytime.”
He reached without thinking and brushed the edge of his sleeve along Dennis’s jaw, catching the stray droplets still clinging there, dragging them lightly down from his chin.
Robby’s gaze lingered on him for a second longer than it should have. Then he looked away. Back to the sink.
“What was that?” he asked after a moment, tone even, almost casual but not quite.
Dennis’s reflection shifted. The softness faded just slightly.
His brows drew together. He looked down, then away, teeth catching briefly on his lower lip as if buying himself a second.
Robby noticed. Of course he did. He dried his hands slowly, giving Dennis space to answer.
He wanted to know.
What Park was to him.
What that moment meant.
Whether he’d imagined it or not.
But the thought came just as quickly, sharp and unwelcome: Did he have the right?
Robby’s jaw tightened slightly.
No promises. Nothing said out loud. So what exactly was he asking for?
Robby exhaled quietly, gaze fixed on the sink, on nothing at all. Still waiting. Even if he wasn’t sure he deserved the answer.
Dennis hesitated just a second longer, then lifted his hand to the back of his neck, scratching lightly an old, unconscious habit that surfaced whenever he didn’t quite know how to phrase something.
“I turned him down.”
Robby’s head snapped up before he could stop himself.
“Who?”
It came out too fast.
Dennis blinked at him, a little surprised by the urgency, but answered anyway.
“Park.”
A small exhale left him, shoulders dropping a fraction.
“He asked me out. For dinner. Earlier.”
Robby felt it sliding down his spine, settling somewhere deep and heavy. Something tight coiled in his chest. Because he hadn’t not once. He hadn’t taken him out to dinner. He hadn’t asked. He hadn’t named whatever this was. It had always been just stolen moments between shifts, at his apartment, in between everything else.
His gaze darkened slightly before he could smooth it over. He stepped closer. Just enough to close the distance that had been carefully held until now.
“And why,” he asked, voice lower now but edged with something he didn’t bother hiding this time, “did you say no?”
His eyes stayed on Dennis. Watching. Waiting.
Dennis’s gaze dropped. Not abruptly just… slipped, like he couldn’t quite hold it under the weight of the question. His fingers tightened faintly at his sides.
“You know why,” he said, quieter now.
Robby felt it then that low, electric pull along his spine, subtle but unmistakable, spreading warmth where there had been tension just seconds before. He stepped in. His hand lifted, almost without thought, fingers settling under Dennis’s chin to make him look at him.
“Say it,” Robby murmured, voice low, threaded with something tighter now. “Out loud.”
Dennis’s breath hitched. His hand came up instinctively, resting over Robby’s wrist not pushing it away, just holding on.
For a moment, he didn’t speak. Then, softly breath uneven, voice barely steady:
“…because of you.”
The words hung between them. Heavy in a way neither of them could ignore.
Robby’s breath caught just for a fraction. Something in his chest shifted, deeper than before. The realization of being chosen consciously, settled into him in a way he hadn’t been prepared for.
He glanced at the door. Quick. And then he moved. He pulled Dennis in, closing the distance in one smooth motion, his hand still at his jaw as his mouth found his.
The kiss was quick but not gentle. Hungry. Grateful. Almost disbelieving in its urgency, like he needed to feel it, confirm it.
Dennis responded immediately, breath catching again, fingers tightening at Robby’s wrist as if that was the only thing keeping him steady.
It lasted only a moment. A stolen second. But it was enough. Whitaker pulled back first. Just enough for breath to return for the moment to settle instead of overwhelm. His lips parted slightly, chest still rising too fast.
Robby’s gaze dropped to his mouth for half a second before lifting again.
“I hope that was clear,” he said, voice low, still carrying the warmth of the moment.
“You’re coming home with me tonight.”
Not a question.
For a second, it looked like Dennis might just nod.
Instead he smiled. Small, almost apologetic.
“I—” he exhaled softly, glancing down before meeting Robby’s eyes again. “I told Santos I’d have dinner with her.”
A beat.
“But I can come after,” he added quickly. “I’ll cook something, and then I’ll—”
Robby’s smile shifted. He stepped in again before Dennis could finish, reaching for him with quiet certainty like there had never been a question of whether he would.
His hand slid to Whitaker’s back, firm, certain, spanning the space between his shoulder blades. And then he guided him back. Tilting him back just enough to take his balance, to make him depend on the hand holding him there.
Robby didn’t rush. He took a second. Watched the way Whitaker’s body reacted, the way his fingers twitched at his sides before catching weakly at Robby’s sleeve.
Then he kissed him again. Deeper. Slower. Not frantic no, worse than that. Controlled. Deliberate. Like he knew exactly what he was doing and had no intention of stopping.
Dennis melted. There was no fight in it this time, no attempt to stay upright, composed, reasonable. His body gave way under Robby’s hand, breath slipping out of him in broken pieces, thoughts clearly scattering somewhere far out of reach.
Robby felt it.
The way Dennis lost himself under him.
The way he stopped thinking, stopped resisting.
And God… Robby liked it. Felt it settle low and warm in his chest, something dark and satisfied and dangerously close to pride. He pulled back slowly. Not enough to break the moment completely. Just enough to look at him.
Whitaker was still tilted back, still held in place by Robby’s hand, breathing uneven, eyes unfocused for a second too long.
Ruined. By him.
Robby’s thumb shifted slightly against his back, grounding him just enough to keep him from slipping entirely.
“Not a chance,” he murmured. And then he let go.
Just like that.
Dennis swayed barely, but it was there having to catch himself, breath still uneven, thoughts clearly struggling to reassemble into something coherent.
Robby watched it happen. Watched him try to come back to himself. And felt that same, quiet satisfaction settle deeper. Then he stepped back. Composed again. Like none of it had touched him at all.
***
Whitaker needed a second. Maybe five. Maybe an entire new nervous system.
He pushed the bathroom door open like someone resurfacing too fast, blinking against the brighter light of the corridor, lungs still not entirely convinced they remembered how to work properly. He dragged a hand through his hair, then gave up halfway through fixing it and walked straight back into the chaos of the ER, trying very hard to look like a functioning human being.
Santos spotted him immediately. She was leaning against the counter, coffee in one hand, chart in the other, looking entirely too relaxed for someone who had just come off the same shift.
Her eyes flicked up. Narrowed.
“…Wow.”
Whitaker stopped in front of her, still slightly out of breath.
“What?”
She took a slow sip of coffee, not breaking eye contact.
“You look like someone just unplugged and replugged you incorrectly.”
“I’m fine,” he said, too fast.
“Mm.” She lowered the cup. “ Did he short-circuit your brain or just temporarily erase it?”
Whitaker closed his eyes for a second.
“I hate you.”
“No, you don’t. Go on confess.”
He scrubbed a hand over his face.
“There’s nothing to confess.”
“Whitaker.”
He dropped his hand.
She was smiling. That smile.
“…I might be going to his place tonight,” he muttered.
Santos blinked.
“‘Might.’”
He exhaled, giving up.
“I am going to his place tonight.”
“Ah.” She nodded, deeply satisfied. “There it is.”
Whitaker leaned his hip against the counter, still looking slightly undone, like his brain hadn’t fully rebooted yet.
Santos studied him for a moment, then sighed.
“If he makes you cry, I will make it everyone’s problem,” she added calmly.
He blinked.
“That’s… not reassuring.”
“It’s not supposed to be,” she said sweetly. “It’s a threat.”
Whitaker huffed out a small, helpless laugh despite himself, shaking his head.
Santos nudged him lightly with her elbow.
“But,” she added, softer now, “you have my blessing.”
He glanced at her, surprised.
“Really?”
She shrugged.
“I mean, you’re clearly already gone, so at this point I’m just hoping it’s worth it.”
Whitaker rolled his eyes, but there was a faint smile tugging at his mouth now.
“Wow. Thank you for the support.”
“I’m incredible, I know.”
She picked her coffee back up, already turning back to her chart.
He pushed off the counter, lighter now, something in his chest less tight.
“Thanks.”
“Anytime.”
He took a step.
“Oh, and Whitaker?”
He paused.
Santos tilted her head, eyes glinting.
“What happened to my dinner?”
He hesitated.
“That was before—”
“Before your brain got kissed out of your skull?” she offered helpfully.
Whitaker covered his face with his hand.
“Oh my God.”
Santos grinned.
“I hope he at least feeds you, because I am now both emotionally and nutritionally betrayed.”
“I can cook for you tomorrow,” he said quickly.
She narrowed her eyes.
“You better. And it better be good.”
“It will be.”
“Mm.” She picked up her coffee again. “We’ll see if you remember how to use a stove by then.”
“…unbelievable,” he muttered. He started to walk away.
Santos didn’t look up.
“…And Whitaker?”
He paused.
“…try to keep at least some brain cells operational, yeah?”
He snorted under his breath.
“No promises.”
“Thought so.”