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Lohen was never at the receiving end and wasn’t sure how he ended up here, under Illuga’s weight that pressed him to the bed. When did his instinct turn off, why did he stop fighting to lead, did he even try? Illuga kissed him, easily taking away Lohen’s breath and all remaining ambition to change this situation. His body melted under the touch, the man could do anything to him and he’d comply. Illuga showered his chest with kisses, never wasting an occasion to nib on his nipple, tearing out small mewls from his throat. Lohen threw his arms over his head to not grab Illuga’s hair and let the man freely roam. Illuga peeked at him, his eyes wide and awake, completely opposite to whatever was going on with Lohen’s. Teary gaze, yearning so loudly Illuga could barely hold himself back from hugging the man and offering a break. He sucked on his nipple and left a wet line of kisses along his ribs. He glanced at Lohen once again as if waiting for permission or refusal, but Lohen would never step back once he stepped in. Illuga licked the hollow of his shoulder and then dug his teeth in the outer curve of his arm, rough enough to sting.
Lohen whimpered, his back arching, body miserably attempting to get closer to Illuga who kept kissing the bite to soothe it. Lohen’s skin still tingled and the touch of soft lips only made it burn. Illuga seemed to add more heat to every kiss, pressing the marks so hot that Lohen expected tomorrow he’d wake up with scars, carved forever into his arm. He watched Illuga, how his slightly damp hair framed his face, how pale his eyelashes were - there was something unbearably beautiful in him, almost godly, and Lohen prayed desperately for it to never stop. Illuga didn’t look like the type who’d match with him, especially in bed, but there they were, Lohen completely at his mercy and enjoying it.
He held back another gasp when Illuga’s sucked more than kissed, bruising his skin wherever it wasn’t already scarred. He’d go on if Lohen didn’t breathe in sharply when he got closer to the elbow. Illuga’s eyes snapped back to him, lips never moving away from the spot he was just biting into. His eyes glimmered, like he only now remembered Lohen was still there, but his little gasp betrayed his hideout. Illuga kissed the bruise before moving back to Lohen’s face, his cheeks, jaw and lips. Their chests collided, and Lohen was glad to feel Illuga’s heart was racing as fast as his. And yet, the Captain was a lot more collected, all moves methodical, kisses planned, touches never accidental. Kissing along his jaw, he kept Lohen’s wrists above his head. It was just a formality, his grip wasn’t strong at all, it served only as a reminder to stay still. However, if Lohen tried to escape it, it could have been problematic in this state. All he heard was his own heart beating, blood rushing in his ears.
Dear Lord,
If that’s a sin then I never want it forgiven.
He was not ready to give it up, he would never truly regret whatever they were doing with Illuga right now. Maybe he shouldn’t like it, shouldn’t like him. He was growing up knowing what he longed for wasn’t appropriate and already gave up on searching for someone, something that could fully soothe those needs.
Meanwhile Illuga was right there, finding every sweet spot even without Lohen giving him any hints. What a blessing, a true light in the dark. Lightkeeper gazed at him with these bluish irises, as if he was checking on Lohen, studying what the other could stand without breaking apart. Knight barely managed to exhale fully before trying to get another inhale.
“Do cryo users overheat easily?” He whispered and pressed his forehead against Lohen’s, finding it feverish.
“Shush it…” Lohen mumbled and sighed with relief when Illuga put his cool cheek against his. He knew there were more than one reason for his state right now. Firstly, nobody ever pushed him till the edge like that before, a golden ratio of hurt and comfort, taking and giving. Secondly, he was terribly turned on. Illuga hid a lot under all of these layers, and if Lohen’s hands weren’t busy, he’d long ago tear all of his undergarments off.
And he was embarrassed.
His face was awfully hot, burning with awkwardness because it was the first time in his life someone wrecked him like that and it was the sweetest lightkeeper in the whole Nod Krai. Lohen tried to move a little to fix the pillow under his head and Illuga gave him a soft glance.
“Uncomfy?”
“I’m fine.” He didn’t want to squirm too much so he gave up. Illuga leaned closer, his arms sliding behind Lohen’s neck and moving the pillow so his nape could rest on it. They gazed at each other for a while.
Why are you so good to me?
He didn’t ask, but Illuga’s hand combed through his hair with gentleness Lohen never knew was possible.
“Tell me when something’s wrong.” He asked quietly and started giving his cheek little pecks and Lohen closed his eyes. They didn’t even do anything and he was shaking, his breath still immeasurable, making him feel dizzy as if he was about to faint. “Lo, breathe.”
He wasn’t sure if he couldn’t hear him well or it was Nod Krai’s wind that took away the other letters from his name.
“Lohen.” Illuga’s voice was right by his ear, his name accented more sharply than at home, yet with more tenderness. “It’s fine.” He let go of Lohen’s wrists and they immediately moved to grab Illuga, holding onto him as if he was the only stable part of this room. Illuga cupped Lohen’s cheek and his thumb kept brushing the skin under his eye. Lohen felt how he wiped away something wet. Why? Did he cry? When did he cry? Illuga kissed his temple. “Relax and please breathe with me.”
At a loss for words, Lohen nodded.
“Let out whatever breath you’re holding.” He lay down on Lohen’s chest, their faces so close that they had to share the air. “I’ll count to five for inhale, we’ll hold it for another five and keep exhaling for ten.”
“Complicated.” He stuttered out, not understanding why he lost control over his body.
“I’m sure the Vice Captain can do it just fine.”
And he did. Illuga’s guidance turned the whole room calm again. Lohen would die before he was known for listening to anyone obediently, but for some reason he’d religiously obey this man.
“Are you back with me?” He moved only when Lohen whispered a quiet yes. He kissed him on the lips for the last time and then slowly lowered himself to Lohen’s navel, teasing him with gentle pecks all over his stomach. He brushed against his crotch, as if only by chance, making the man squirm underneath. Lohen wouldn’t beg, he could bear it, he could stand Illuga smiling against his skin and chuckling whenever he tensed his muscles. The worst was only about to come.
Illuga sat between his legs, leaning lazily against Lohen’s thigh. He truly wanted to annoy Lohen out of his mind. His hand slid along the line of his undergarments and then softly, barely noticeably brushed against his crotch. Lohen let out a weak noise and Illuga’s hand pressed on his cock. Lohen bit on his lip, his eyes rolling when Illuga grabbed his hard length through the fabric.
“Illuga…” He mumbled and threw one arm over his face, covering his eyes.
“Mhm?” Illuga lay on his stomach and nuzzled his face close to Lohen’s cock, feeling it tremble at the briefest touch.
“You’re-” He yelped when Illuga sucked on his tip, still not releasing him from the clothes. What was this man doing to him? And where did he learn it? He finally pulled Lohen’s pants off and exposed his cock. Lohen heard him letting out a noise of content and blowing on him as if he tried to see how many pitiful noises he could get out of him. “Illuga…”
“You’re already close.” He said calmly and Lohen felt the words brush against his skin.
“I wonder whose fault is that…” He finally managed to blurt out the whole sentence and Illuga smiled softly. He moved his pointer finger along Lohen’s cock, spreading precum from the top to the base. He continued, finger travelling up and down, watching the cock twitch and chasing more friction. He felt his own pants getting wet at the sight alone, and he finally lowered his head and closed his mouth around him, moving his tongue just enough to lick the precum off it. Lohen gasped and then whimpered when Illuga did nothing, but kept him inside his mouth, saliva dripping out. He let out a choked grunt when a gentle slap landed on his balls and then Illuga began bobbing his head. His mouth felt warm and wet and just when Lohen felt he was getting close, Illuga must have sensed it too, gripped his cock tight and stopped his release. Lohen’s legs twitched restlessly.
Illuga coaxed him to lie still, pressing his legs against the sheets, lying his cheek against the inner part of the left thigh. Lohen peeked at him from behind his arm. Illuga gazed straight at him, as if waiting for his attention. He licked the scar that ran along the man’s thigh, not aware Lohen just learned that he was fucking ticklish there. Illuga did a whole trip all over his body, touching him where he was never touched, kissing him where he never asked to be kissed, and he boldly explored each of his scars, as if he tried to learn them by heart.
Oh fucking Lord.
Lohen bit on his hand not to laugh when Illuga sneaked his hand under his thigh to hold it more steady. It was even worse. The back of his thigh was horrible, finally making him shudder and escape Illuga’s hold.
“Illuga…” He whispered beggingly, saliva dripping down the corners of his mouth and cheeks. Illuga tilted his head to the side.
“Did it hurt?” He asked even though he was pretty sure it didn’t. His hand found the previous spot quickly and Lohen cursed. This time Illuga held him tighter so Lohen’s squirming didn’t help him at all. “I see.” He rubbed the spot with his thumb, chuckling at a few more swear words slipping from Lohen’s mouth. “You should have told me you were ticklish. I wouldn’t torture you like that. Maybe just tease a little.” Illuga moved his fingers softly against his skin, making Lohen lose his marbles. Marbles were being completely lost over a few patches of sensitive skin. Illuga shifted to sit back on his feet, swiftly pressing his hands against Lohen’s thighs to keep them spread so he could take care of his forgotten cock. He kissed the tip, smiling as he took the whole length back into his mouth.
Lohen was made for him, his jaw didn’t hurt and he didn’t choke once he swallowed him. He barely moved his head a few times and Lohen was already shaking, eyes rolled back. Illuga would be a liar if he said he didn’t imagine that moment before. He wanted to show Lohen he could take control as well, and when the Vice Captain once offered ‘catch me and do anything you want to me’, Illuga was not going to waste the opportunity. This man was a truly beautiful sight and Illuga took a liking to him no matter how often he caused him troubles. He itched to give him a lesson, but he also quietly enjoyed it when Lohen misbehaved. From the very beginning he couldn’t tear apart his gaze from this man, half Mondstadtian, half insane, but they had a lot more in common than people might have thought.
Illuga fastened up the pace, feeling Lohen’s thighs pressing onto the sides of his head. He was close, he thrusted into Illuga’s mouth as much as he could in this pose, sobbing quietly every time he bottomed out. Illuga let Lohen move his legs freely and grabbed the bottle of lube he took out before. The cold liquid spilled on his hand so he let it warm up before covering his fingers in it, and sliding one into Lohen’s hole. The man tensed immediately at the penetration and Illuga wondered how long had it been for him that he reacted so strongly to anything Illuga was doing to him.
Meanwhile Lohen barely held back a sob. The amount of completely unknown stimulation made his brain turn off, and he tried to move away from Illuga’s hand, but in vain. The other pressed on his stomach and held him in place, elbowing away his right thigh. Too much. Illuga’s finger reached deeper and kept bending until Lohen shuddered when he found a bundle of nerves and kept pressing on it as if checking the reaction was genuine or not.
Too much.
Lohen felt the warmth spreading inside and whenever he moved, it felt like he saw stars. He leaned his head back, hand covering his mouth to muffle the sounds. There were waves of pleasure spreading all over his groin and he was scared he could not control his bladder if Illuga kept teasing him like that for longer. He clenched around his finger, but it didn’t discourage the other at all.
“Illuga…” That was a mistake because the other hummed and the vibration of the sound was sent right through his cock. He opened his mouth, but it was too late and he came before he could warn him. “Sorry-” his voice hoarse, letters barely forming a word. Illuga glanced at him, making sure Lohen saw his clean cock sliding out of the lightkeeper’s mouth before the man swallowed everything. Illuga thought he would have to spend more time on the Vice Captain, but it seemed his eagerness didn’t limit only to fighting.
“What for?” He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand and got rid of his undergarments, enjoying how Lohen devoured him with his gaze. “Wait a moment.” He caressed his thigh, cautious not to get kicked by accident. As much as he’d like to already feel Lohen around himself, he didn’t want to cause him unnecessary pain.
Lohen lay back, his body so sweaty he got stuck to the sheets. He gazed at Illuga’s ceiling, wondering how he got into this situation and suddenly remembered that he was the only one he could blame. He felt a kiss on his knee and slowly sat up, not knowing how he was going to walk away later since he struggled already. Illuga stroked him under the chin as if he was a cat.
“Did you lie to me?” He kept his hand by Lohen’s face, fingers tapping his jaw playfully.
“When?” Lohen barely remembered what they talked about today.
“You told me not to bother as it was not your first.” The fact he could maintain such composure while asking him that straight into Lohen’s face was something to marvel at. “I have a feeling that my Vice Captain was shy.” He poked his cheek and Lohen ran away with his gaze.
“I prefer to be in control.”
Illuga blinked in confusion.
“Why didn’t you say so when I asked if you were okay?” He grabbed Lohen’s chin and forced him to look up. “I asked you for a safe word and you didn’t want any.”
“I still don’t.”
“I do.” Illuga glared at him. “We can switch.”
“I quite like it.” Lohen leaned closer and stole a kiss from him. And then another. Then, Illuga was back on him, kissing his uncertainty away, letting him relax.
“Safeword.” The man pressed and Lohen rolled his eyes.
“I don’t mind if it hurts.”
“I do. Choose your word or we’ll stop.”
“You’re driving me insane.”
“Not much I can change by doing so.” He chuckled when Lohen tried to bite him. “Lohen.”
“Hm?”
“Choose that fucking word.” He forced him back down when the other tried to nibble on Illuga’s jaw. Lohen sighed and gave in.
“Blue.”
“Thank you.” Illuga fingers moved between his legs. “Do you want me to talk to you?”
“No.” He mumbled, eyes already closed. At the sensation of any attempt of intrusion he tensed all over again and Illuga needed to try a few times before his finger slipped inside again. Lohen gasped. He wasn’t used to being stretched, forcefully, and he kept following Illuga’s movement with his body whenever he tried to slide out from his hole.
“You’re doing good.” The man cooed and put a fluffy pillow under Lohen’s lower back. He grabbed his flat cock and started slowly pumping in the rhythm with thrusts before moving to his own. Now Lohen couldn’t see him fully, but Illuga’s arm and finger still were synchronised in their action.
“Illuga…” He whimpered when the man teased his prostate again and again. He finally felt the second finger coming and then the third and he was already on the edge. “Illuga please…” He nudged him with his leg and Illuga leaned over, kissing him softly.
“A moment, Lo.” He promised and poured more lube over his cock. “Can you move closer to this side of the bed for me?” He had to help him, but finally, Lohen was chaotically sprawled in front of him as Illuga stood between his thighs. He put Lohen’s legs over his shoulders and kissed his ankle before finally taking his cock and positioning it towards Lohen’s entrance. His tip slid in without much difficulty, but he underestimated how much it swelled over the last hour, dripping from the sight of the man. “Are you okay?”
“Yeah…” Lohen reached for his own cock, but Illuga was first. He pressed harder and Lohen whimpered, his brows furrowing. “Illuga…” Illuga shifted slightly, trying to get him accustomed to his cock, pushing a little more each time. Lohen was tight around him and Illuga almost came when he finally reached as deep as he could.
“Lohen.” He leaned forward, making his cock move further inside. “Lo. Look at me.” Lohen reached out his hands and tangled his fingers behind Illuga’s neck. A few tears spilled from his eyes, but he didn’t make a sound. “Lo, hey.” He nudged his nose with his own and pressed a kiss to his temple. “You’re doing so well, but I don’t want to hurt you.”
“Give me a second” He pulled Illuga closer, legs immediately embracing his waist, not letting him move away.
“It’s okay. Breathe.” His back was hurting, but he stayed above the man, gently pecking his left cheek and stroking the other.
“It’s already better.” Lohen whispered, but Illuga waited until he felt the walls’ loosen up just slightly around him and only then risked moving. He felt nails digging into skin and scratching his back when he thrusted back in.
“How do you want me?”
“Just like that.” Lohen mumbled and Illuga didn’t change their slow rhythm. He felt Lohen trembling underneath, his body longing to be close to Illuga’s, not letting go of him even for a moment. “Mhm…”
“Colour?”
“None.” He answered with a careless tone. “You’re so hot… Lord…”
“Don’t overheat again.” Illuga teased and kissed him behind the ear and Lohen finally got him, biting the shoulder, his canines easily breaking the skin. “Lohen.”
“You can, but I don’t? Unfair, Captain…” He smirked and licked a few drops of blood off his skin. Illuga’s thrusts became more methodical and Lohen swore he could feel him pulsing inside. He freed one of his hands to brush through Illuga’s hair, so soft. He moved the fringe away to see his eyes fully. “Illuga…”
“Is it better?” He pushed a little deeper, pressing the man into the sheets. Lohen moaned and grabbed a handful of his hair. Illuga went still and let him adjust before moving again.
“Please.” He never heard Lohen asking for anything like that. He gazed at his teary eyes, reddish cheeks and completely disheveled hair. Not much left of the rascal from the battlefield. “Illuga…”
“I don’t want to get you dirty.” He whispered and tried to pull out, but Lohen suddenly got all of his strength back. “Lo, I’m not wearing any-”
“Don’t do it to me.” He stuttered, voice completely exhausted. “Not on my first time, you can pull out some other time.”
“Lohen, it will hurt you, and to add up to that you’ll have to clean yourself up, I don’t want that.” He kept kissing his neck, hoping it would distract the other, but there was no use. Lohen moaned into his ear and weakly repeated his pleas and finally Illuga sent one last thrust inside and they both reached their climax. Illuga didn’t stop, trying to make Lohen enjoy every second of his orgasm. His name was the only thing he could tell apart from all the noises the other was making.
“Don’t stop…” He whimpered and even though he was shaking, he held onto Illuga like unto dear life.
“Lohen, you’ve done so well, it’s okay…” He tried to talk him out of the idea, but the orgasm left him in a daze as well, pressure building up almost instantly after it was released. He swallowed another of Lohen’s gasps, kissing him as he continued thrusting, chasing another climax. He heard how their sweaty bodies collided, and how his cock was pushing back the cum that tried to spill out from Lohen. “I’m close.” He broke the kiss and started jerking off Lohen more aggressively than before. The man groaned and caught Illuga’s lips in another kiss. With their mouths open, they were gasping together, calling out each other’s names with desperation. Illuga felt Lohen’s orgasm faster than he felt his and the man moaned so loud that the sound pierced his ear, enough to make him reach the peak. He came once more, another portion of cum stretching Lohen’s sensitive hole. They kept humping against each other for a while, rubbing in the post-climax high before the overstimulation became too much and Illuga slowly laid his body over Lohen’s.
“Illuga…”
“I just need to-” He stuttered, but Lohen embraced him gently, hand rubbing the nape that was covered with scratches made by his nails.
“Stay. Don’t move.” He held him as if he was scared someone could take Illuga away from him. They slowly came back to reality, bodies regenerating enough to pull apart. Lohen sat up with a groan and Illuga kept brushing his hair, promising to take care of him once they were in the bathroom. “You might have been a little right…” He held his stomach, and gazed between his legs, watching the mess they made.
“A little?” Illuga laughed breathily. “Come, I’ll-”
“That’s the last thing I wanna do right now.” Lohen whined and reached out to Illuga so the other could help him stand up.
“I see you haven’t lost your humour.”
“Oh I’m in a very good mood right now, if you ask me for anything I’ll probably say yes.”
“Really? How about not ambushing Grand Master for a week?”
“Can be, I won’t move tomorrow anyway. Will I get permission to stay with a kind Captain from lightkeepers to make sure I won’t get into trouble?”
“We’ll check if he has some free time tomorrow.”
“It would be great.”
They heated up the water and showered roughly before they sat in the bathtub with relief. Lohen gazed at Illuga dreamily.
“What are you thinking about?”
“That I’ll need to take out fresh duvet and bedsheets once we’re done.”
“Maybe think about me instead and about duties later?”
Illuga gave him a smug smile.
“You don’t want to sleep in that.”
“I can stay?” He asked, truly surprised. Illuga blinked in confusion.
“Of course.” He added softly. “Why shouldn’t you?” He reached his hand and brushed a few strands behind Lohen’s ear.
“Not how it usually goes…” He gave him a fake smile and then looked up at the ceiling to avoid Illuga’s wide eyes. Illuga kept brushing his hair even though the strands didn’t want to stay where he put them.
“I would like you to stay. It’s an offer. I can make some dinner if you haven’t eaten any.”
“I haven’t.” Lohen said weakly and Illuga smiled in content.
“Anything you like?”
“Whatever you make is tasty.”
“Maybe you miss any desserts from Mond? I could give them a try.”
“Would you?”
“I have a really nice Mondstadtian guest so why not?”
***
When the rooms were already aired out and the scent of sweat was gone, they moved to the kitchen - or rather Illuga did and Lohen limped. He settled comfortably on the counter taking away some work surface from the other, but the lightkeeper didn’t mind. Lohen liked how everything blended into a quiet evening, how the day seemed not to end, only stretching into another activity they could do together. His role was limited to peeling vegetables and serving as eye candy, but he knew it was part of Illuga’s hospitality and out of consideration for his legs. Suddenly someone knocked and they could hear Varka’s voice behind the door.
“Master Illuga, would you spare me a moment?”
Before Illuga could answer, Lohen was already replying for him.
“No, Master Illuga wouldn’t spare you a moment.” He mocked Varka and Illuga sighed.
“Please come in, Grand Master.” Illuga unlocked the door and then came back to his spot by the counter.
“Thank you for your time and consideration, I was actually looking for one of my rascals.” He pointed at Lohen.
“Me? I’m busy, I have no time for anything today.” Lohen raised his palms.
“You’re only bothering Master Illuga.” Varka crossed his arms and Lohen frowned.
“I’ve been invited for food and sleepover so forgive me Grand Master, find some other knight to help you out with whatever you need help with.” He already claimed this spot as his and he didn’t intend to move. Varka sighed and wiped his face.
“Can we go outside?”
“No.” Firstly, he didn’t want to go, secondly, his legs were not made for walking.
“Fine, let’s talk here then, care to explain to me why did you beat up half of the Fifth Company?”
“Me?” Lohen was genuinely baffled. “When?”
“Well, around an hour ago. They didn’t want to say what happened so I figured it out on my own.”
“It was not me.”
“Lohen.”
“Grand Master.” Illuga peeked from behind the Vice Captain. “You have my word, he’s been there for a few hours already, it couldn’t be him.”
“You see? Not all that's bad is my fault.” Lohen scoffed.
“I believe they could take part in lightkeeper’s duels.” Illuga smiled at Varka, ignoring what Lohen had said. “Unfortunately our squads are quite keen on showing off as well.” He bowed. “I’ll talk with them tomorrow, for now take my apology.”
Varka brushed it off.
“If they were fighting fair and square then it’s no trouble, Master Illuga.” Varka thanked him and left the house so they were alone again.
Illuga held the spoon to his mouth and blew on it before handing it to Lohen for tasting.
“Any wishes? Saltier, spicer?”
“Perfect.” Lohen gave him back the spoon and Illuga poured the soup into bowls before placing them on the table. They sat together in comfortable silence, wolfing down their portions.
Lohen yawned, the day finally taking a toll on him.
“My Vice Captain is sleepy?”
“Captain can read me well, what sold me?” He sprawled on the table and yawned again.
“It was just a hunch.” Illuga intertwined their fingers together and pulled him towards the bedroom. Lohen stopped in the doorframe, eyes a bit lost. “What’s wrong?”
“Are we sleeping together?”
“You said it yourself, you came for a sleepover, where else did you want to sleep?”
“You have a sofa too…”
“Lo, if you don’t want to sleep here you can take the sofa, but I wouldn’t let you sleep here if I didn’t want you to.” He squeezed his fingers.
“Are you sure?”
“Yeah, I am. I wouldn’t do that if I didn’t like you. I wouldn’t go to bed with you either. Clear?” He tilted his head and Lohen couldn’t help, but smile at his cute expression. Now that he was wearing an oversized sweater and a pair of white tracks he looked more like a cozy homebody than a Captain. “I’ll let you take the side you like more.”
“The one closer to the window.”
“It’s all yours.” He stood on his toes and kissed his cheek.
“Illuga.” He uttered, not expecting the gesture.
“Why did you freeze like that? It’s not the first one you’re getting.”
“I wish it wasn’t the last one either.”
“It won’t be. Now stop finding pessimistic scenarios. We should get some rest.”
They curled up on the bed and Lohen embraced Illuga’s middle, nuzzling up close to him.
“You have cold hands.” Illuga noticed and let him sneak them under own sweater to heat them up.
“You’re warm so the problem is solved.” Lohen whispered and Illuga pressed the kiss to his hair.
“Sleep tight, Lo.”