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i beat myself down to dirt,
i cover myself in the mud.
i wake up alone.
tear my eyes open.
i go to work
and then i go home
i sleep and repeat the same cycle.
i stumble in front of their gazes,
i make myself look like a fool.
then i wake up alone, again.
i tear my eyes open, anew.
then i go to work, one more time,
and then i go home, for now.
then i sleep and the cycle repeats.
i make sure for the bad things to happen,
so the good ones will be a surprise.
if lady luck isn't smiling
and not even looking at me,
i just didn't fall hard enough.
still, i can hurt a bit longer.
still, i have to tip the scales.
for the sun to shine in my favor
and not burn out my flesh.
i made sure to attract misfortune,
so good luck can come looking herself.
she will find me
soon,
i know it.
there are luckier days ahead.