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Lucia’s POV
They promised a world of superheroes would be a safer one. It was the greatest lie ever told. I sat in the living room of my childhood home, but the air felt thin, like the house itself was holding its breath. The kitchen, once a sanctuary of clattering pots and the sharp, bright scent of my mother’s mole, was cold. The hallway where my sister’s voice used to echo—chattering a mile a minute about her university lectures—was a vacuum. Now, there was just the dust dancing in the sunlight and a silence so heavy it felt like a physical weight against my chest.
“You can’t keep sitting on this couch, Lucia. You’re disappearing into the cushions,” my father’s voice cracked from behind me. It had been a year. Twelve months of this suffocating stillness. All because some titan from a corner of the galaxy we couldn’t even see decided the Universe needed to be halved.
“I know, Apá,” I whispered, the salt of a stray tear stinging my lip.
“Mija, I need you to do something. Anything.” He sat beside me, the weight of him shifting the world just enough to make me look up.
David Villarreal wasn't a man who broke. I could count the times I’d seen my daddy cry on one hand and still have fingers left over to grab a beer. But looking into his hazel eyes now, the glassiness there terrified me. I was a ghost haunting my own life—jobless, friendless, and hollowed out by the loss of my mother and sister. I wasn't just grieving; I was fading away.
I didn’t move. I couldn't. I just watched the dust motes dancing in the light where my family used to be. After a moment, he patted my knee—a silent, heavy command.
“They’re holding a support group down the street, in the church basement,” he said. “They meet every Friday. I want you to be there, Lucía.”
Friday. Four days away. My mind immediately began building a wall against the idea. I didn't want to hear about "healing" or "moving on" from people who didn't know the specific way my mother laughed or how my sister’s perfume smelled. The thought of walking into that damp, dim basement made me feel claustrophobic. I wanted to scream that a folding chair and a cup of lukewarm coffee wouldn't bring back my life. But the desperation in his hazel eyes silenced me. I could survive the alien, the loss, and the loneliness, but I didn't think I could survive disappointed expectations from the only person I had left.
I was an expert in the architecture of loss. Six years of university, a Bachelor’s in Psychology, and a Master’s in Clinical Mental Health Counseling had given me every tool necessary to dismantle grief for a patient. But sitting in the wreckage of my own life, I realized that knowing how to treat a wound is a far cry from knowing how to bleed.
“Fine, I’ll go,” I whispered.
The basement air was a thick mix of burnt coffee and store-bought cookies. I scanned the room, watching the groups of strangers—young, old, a cross-section of every walk of life—drifting through low-stakes conversation. I took a sharp breath, trying to pin down the courage to actually step inside.
“First time?”
The voice was deep, vibrating right behind me. I jumped, spinning around only to find myself staring at the center of a broad chest. The man was massive, tall enough that I had to tilt my neck back, past a rugged beard, until I finally reached a pair of blue eyes so striking they felt like a physical shock.
“What?” I squealed, the word escaping me before I could find my dignity.
“Sorry, I just haven’t seen you around here before,” he said, his voice level and steady. There was a nagging sense of familiarity about him—not the kind you have with a neighbor, but the distant, polished recognition of a face seen on a screen or a glossy page. He looked like someone the rest of the world was supposed to know.
“Yeah,” I managed, the word barely a breath. “It’s my first time.”
“Well, welcome.” He stepped back, a subtle invitation for me to finally cross the threshold. I took a steadying breath and forced my feet to move, officially entering the room.
“I’m Steve, by the way,” he added, extending a hand that looked like it could crush a grapefruit without trying. I hesitated for a heartbeat before slipping my hand into his; the contrast was almost comical, my fingers disappearing completely within his grip.
“Lucia,” I replied, my voice finally finding its footing.
“Captain!”
The shout cut through the hum of the room as a teenage boy waved frantically from across the basement. Steve raised his free hand—the one not currently enveloping mine—and offered a casual, practiced wave in return.
The word echoed in my mind, acting like a key sliding into a lock. Captain.
The recognition didn't just dawn on me; it hit with the force of a physical blow. The broad, impossible shoulders, the steady authority in that deep voice, those piercing blue eyes—they weren't just familiar from a movie screen or a history book. This wasn't just a man named Steve. This was Steve Rogers.
My breath hitched as the world tilted. I was standing in a church basement, clutching the hand of a living legend, an Avenger, a man who had literally saved the world more times than I could count. The familiarity I’d felt wasn't some hazy memory; it was the global iconography of Captain America. My hand suddenly felt tiny and trembling inside his, and I realized I was staring at a man who was supposed to be a statue or a headline, yet here he was, smelling like cheap coffee and looking at me with total, human kindness.
A sudden, sharp spark of resentment flared in my chest, hot enough to make my throat tight. This was the man who was supposed to be the shield. He, and the rest of his "mighty" friends, were the ones tasked with standing between us and the unthinkable—yet they had let the world break anyway. They had let Thanos win, and no amount of heroism after the fact could un-shatter the lives of those of us left picking up the pieces.
But I forced the anger down, burying it deep under the weight of a promise. Just sit through it, I told myself, my pulse thudding in my ears. Do it for Dad.
I had promised him I would try. I would find a chair, listen to the platitudes, and endure the hour. Then, I’d go home, look him in the eye, and tell him with a clear conscience that the group just wasn't the right fit. I just had to hold it together until I reached the door.
I snatched my hand back from his warm, comforting embrace. The warmth of his palm felt like a lie—a cruel reminder of a safety that didn't actually exist. I pulled my hand back so abruptly it was practically a shove, my skin tingling where the contact had been broken. For a split second, I wanted to scream at him, to ask where that comforting grip had been when the world was turning to ash, but the look of mild, earnest confusion on his face stopped the words in my throat.
"Lucia?" he asked softly, his brow furrowing.
"I’m fine," I snapped, the lie tasting like copper. I didn't look at him. I couldn't. If I looked at him, I’d see the hero, and right now all I saw was a broken promise in a jacket.
I turned my shoulder to him, scanning the room for the most inconspicuous folding chair I could find. My heart was a frantic drum against my ribs, but I kept my spine rigid. One hour. I just had to survive sixty minutes of "sharing" and "healing" in the presence of the world’s greatest failure. Then I could go back to the house, tell Dad I checked the box, and never have to look at those blue eyes again.
But of course, the universe wasn't feeling generous. There were only two empty folding chairs left in the entire circle, and the moment I claimed one, I watched Steve approach and sink into the one directly beside me. His presence felt like a physical weight, pressing against my side.
I scanned the other faces in the room—they looked weary but open, the kind of expressions you only see in people who have run out of tears. I braced myself, wondering which one of them would step up to facilitate this healing circle.
"It’s nice to see all of you back," Steve’s voice rumbled from my right. “I see some new faces.”
I nearly choked on my own frustration. Of fucking course. Captain America wasn't just attending the meeting; he was leading it. I squeezed my eyes shut for a second, fighting the urge to let out a long, dramatic sigh that would likely get me kicked out before the first share.
"I’ll start us off," he said, shifting his large frame in the tiny plastic chair. "Um... I’ve started baking. I’m not great at it, but I’m trying." A small, self-deprecating chuckle escaped him. "Nat has been my taste tester, and she doesn’t pull her punches. So far, the consensus is that everything I make is... lacking."
He paused, his gaze dropping to his boots. "Honestly, Sam was the one with the talent for that stuff. He tried teaching me while we were on the run, but nothing ever seemed to stick. But it’s a nice break from the turmoil, I guess. It keeps my hands busy so I don't spend every second racking my brain for what we could have done differently."
The room went silent, the kind of heavy quiet that follows a confession.
"I keep coming up blank," he whispered, his voice cracking just enough to be heard. "We had a literal god on our side, and we still lost." He reached up, quickly brushing away a stray tear before it could fall. "I just miss them. I miss them every day. But... I’m trying to deal."
I stared at the scuffed linoleum floor, my anger suddenly feeling like a heavy coat that was two sizes too big. I wanted to hate him. I needed to hate him for being the man who failed to save the world. But looking at the way his broad shoulders slumped—the way he talked about his lost friends not as legends, but as people he missed in the kitchen—I felt a traitorous pang of empathy.
Why did I feel bad for him? He was an Avenger. He was supposed to be untouchable. He wasn't supposed to be human enough to cry over a burnt tray of cookies and dead friends.
“I feel you, Steve,” a woman across the circle said, her voice thin but steady. She offered a small, weary wave. “Beatrice. It’s been months, and I still find myself listening for the garage door on Friday afternoons. I think Richard is just late getting home from golf... and it’s always a slap to the face when the sun goes down and the house stays quiet.”
A man sitting two chairs down from her, his hands clasped tightly between his knees, cleared his throat. “I’m Marcus,” he muttered, not quite looking up. “I keep buying the wrong groceries. I’ll be halfway through the aisles and realize I’ve got three cartons of almond milk in the cart. My daughter was the only one who drank the stuff. I stand there in the middle of the store feeling like a ghost, wondering if I should just leave the cart and walk out.”
“It’s the dreams that get me,” a younger woman added, her voice trembling. She was twisting a wedding band around her finger—one that looked slightly too large for her hand. “In the dreams, everything is normal. We’re just arguing about whose turn it is to walk the dog. Then I wake up, and the dog is gone, and he’s gone, and I’m just... I’m just tired of waking up.”
The air in the basement felt heavy, thick with the weight of a thousand small, domestic tragedies. These weren't stories of cosmic battles or infinity stones; they were stories of empty chairs, quiet houses, and grocery lists that no longer made sense.
I sat there, my fingers digging into the plastic seat of my chair. As a therapist, I knew exactly what was happening—this was a textbook communal mourning process, the breaking of isolation through shared narrative. I could practically see the stages of grief written on their faces like a diagnostic manual. But as Lucia, the woman whose world had ended while the heroes were busy losing, I just felt a raw, jagged ache.
The circle continued, the stories jumping from one person to the next like a slow-burning fire, until finally, the quiet drifted toward my corner of the room. Steve turned slightly toward me, his expression open and patient, waiting to see if I would speak.
“I’m Lucia,” I said, my voice barely rising above the hum of the overhead lights. I took a deep breath, trying to keep the tremor out of my lungs. “Um... I lost my sister, my mom, and my best friends. It’s hard.”
A small, hollow laugh escaped me—the kind that surfaces when the scale of the loss is too massive to handle with anything else. Around the circle, I heard soft murmurs of agreement, a collective sigh of people who knew that exact brand of exhaustion. I kept my eyes fixed on a jagged scuff in the linoleum, unable to look up.
“It’s just me and my dad now. I had to move back home because the idea of walking into my apartment and not seeing Ashley there... I couldn't fathom it. She was my best friend, my rock. Now I’m just living in this thick, suffocating cloud of grief. Which is ironic, really. Before the Blip, my entire job—what I went to school for six years to do—was to pull people out of that exact cloud. And now, I can’t even find my own way through it.”
The silence that followed was heavy, but it didn't feel judgmental. Beside me, I felt Steve shift, his presence felt steady.
“The hardest part about being the person everyone leans on,” Steve said softly, his voice echoing with a weariness that matched my own, “is that people forget you need a place to lean, too. You’re trained to see the path, Lucia. But when the world changes like this, the old maps don't work anymore. Not for us, and not for the people we were supposed to protect.”
I finally looked up, catching his eye. There was no ego there, no Captain America bravado. Just a man who looked like he had been carrying the weight of the sky on his shoulders and was finally admitting how much his back ached.
“We spent so much time looking at the big picture,” he continued, a ghost of a sad smile touching his lips. “The world, the mission, the stakes. But grief isn't a big picture. It’s a thousand tiny ones. It’s a grocery list, or a Friday afternoon, or a sister who isn't in the kitchen. You aren't failing because you can't 'fix' yourself. You're just human. And even the people who are supposed to be symbols... we're just trying to figure out how to be human again, too.”
For the first time since I’d entered that basement, the sharp edge of my anger softened. I had been blaming them for not being gods, for failing to be the invincible shields the propaganda promised. But looking at Steve now—really looking at him—I saw the cracks. He wasn't a failure; he was just another survivor standing in the wreckage, wondering where the instructions were for a world that had been torn in half.
I didn't forgive him—not entirely, and not yet—but as I sat there, the air in the room felt just a little bit easier to breathe.
“I hope this helped,” Steve murmured as we stood up, the screech of plastic chair legs against the linoleum signaling the end of the night.
I offered him a tight-lipped smile and a noncommittal shrug. “It wasn't as horrible as I’d imagined.”
He chuckled, the sound low and genuine, and rubbed the back of his neck with a massive hand. It was a strangely human gesture for someone who looked like he belonged on a recruitment poster. “Well, I hope to see you here next week, Lucia.”
“Maybe,” I said, gathering my purse and adjusting the strap on my shoulder. I gave him a small, hesitant wave before turning toward the stairs.
As I walked home, the night air felt different—sharper, clearer. I wasn't fixed. I didn't think 'fixed' was a destination I’d ever reach again; the math of my life simply didn't add up to the same sum anymore. But for the first time in months, the suffocating weight in my chest had shifted. It felt less like a boulder and more like a backpack—still heavy, but something I could actually carry. There was a strange, quiet comfort in knowing that even a man who could jump out of airplanes without a parachute was also struggling to stay afloat in the same dark water.
I unlocked the front door, the familiar scent of home—sandalwood and old paper—wrapping around me. I followed the flickering blue light and the low hum of the TV into the living room. My dad was in his usual spot, settled into the recliner with a thick history book resting on his lap.
He looked up as I entered, his eyes searching mine with that quiet, hopeful anxiety he’d been wearing since the day I moved back. He reached for the remote and paused an old sitcom, the silence of the house rushing in to fill the gap.
“Hi, mija,” he said softly. “How’d it go?”
I sank onto the couch next to him, the cushions dipping under my weight. I stayed quiet for a moment, listening to the house settle. “It wasn’t awful,” I finally said, leaning my head back.
“Hmm,” he murmured, his thumb tracing the edge of his book. He didn't push. He never did. He just waited, giving me the space I used to provide for my own patients.
“I might go back next week,” I added, focused intently on picking a stray piece of lint off my leggings.
My dad didn't say anything at first, but I saw the tension leave his shoulders—the subtle drop of a man who had been holding his breath for a long time. He reached over and patted my knee, his hand warm and steady.
“I think that would be good,” he said. “I think... it’s okay to let someone else hold the lantern for a while, Lucia. You’ve been wandering in the dark long enough.”
I nodded slowly, the irony of his words not lost on me. I had gone to that meeting to prove to him that I was beyond help, but instead, I’d found a circle of people who weren't trying to cure grief. They were just sitting in it together. And for the first time since the world broke, I didn't feel like I had to be the expert. I could just be the daughter who missed her sister, sitting in a basement, listening to a hero talk about burnt cookies.
I could see the quiet rhythm of his healing in the way he moved through the house. My dad wasn't "over it"—I knew better than that—but he was navigating the wreckage with a grace I couldn't yet find. While I had spent months paralyzed by the clinical definitions of my own despair, he had been busy tending to the small, living things. He kept the garden watered; he made sure there was always fresh coffee in the morning; he kept his library books organized.
He was treating grief like a long winter—something to be endured with patience and a warm coat—while I was treating it like a house fire I was supposed to have known how to put out.
"You're stronger than me, Pop," I murmured, more to myself than to him.
He closed his book, marking the page with a weathered ribbon. "It's not about strength, mija. It's about surrender. I stopped fighting the fact that they're gone, and I started looking for the parts of them that stayed." He looked around the room, his gaze lingering on the empty chair where Mom used to sit, then back to me. "You’re still trying to outsmart the pain. But you can't degree your way out of a broken heart."
I looked at him—really looked at the new lines around his eyes—and realized that while I was the one with the Master’s in counseling, he was the one teaching the real masterclass. He wasn't drowning because he had stopped trying to swim against the current. He was just letting the water carry him, trusting that eventually, it would wash him ashore.
The following Friday, I found myself standing outside the church doors twenty minutes early. I wasn't sure if it was the therapist in me needing to be prepared or the daughter in me wanting to prove something to her father, but I was one of the first ones there.
The basement felt different this time—less like a bunker and more like a sanctuary. I walked down the stairs, the familiar scent of cheap coffee already beginning to bloom in the air.
Steve was there, of course. He was in the corner, struggling with the erratic legs of a folding table. He looked up as I approached, and a genuine, easy smile broke through his focused expression. He was in a plain charcoal sweatshirt with the sleeves pushed up, looking less like a legend and more like a man who just wanted to be helpful.
"You're early," he noted, finally winning his battle with the table.
"I figured I could help with the chairs," I said, setting my purse down. "And the cookies. Last week's were... well, let's just say I have a clinical appreciation for store-bought consistency."
Steve let out a short, bark-like laugh that seemed to startle even him. "Fair point. I took your advice—I stayed away from the oven this week. These are from the bakery down the street. Sam used to swear by their cinnamon rolls."
His mention of Sam didn't come with the heavy, tearful weight of the previous week. It sounded more like a fond tribute. As we began setting up the circle, the silence between us wasn't awkward. It was the quiet of two people who understood the unspoken rules of the room.
"How was your week, Lucia?" he asked, snapping a chair into place.
I hesitated, thinking about the quiet evenings with my dad and the way I’d actually looked at my old textbooks on Monday without feeling like a failure. "Quiet," I admitted. "Which is an improvement over 'loud and agonizing.' I told my dad about the group. He was... glad."
"Dads usually are," Steve said, his voice softening. "They hate seeing the people they love try to carry the world by themselves. It’s a habit we both seem to have."
I paused, a chair gripped in my hands. "Is that why you do this? To stop carrying it alone?"
Steve stopped and looked at the empty circle of chairs, his blue eyes reflecting the dim fluorescent light. "I spent seventy years being the man with the plan, Lucia. I was the one people looked to when they were afraid. But in this room, I don't have to be the Captain. I can just be Steve. It’s the only place where I’m allowed to not have the answer."
I looked at the chair next to his—the one I would sit in again. I realized then that I hadn't just come back because I was grieving. I had come back because for the first time in six years of study and months of personal hell, I had found someone who understood that being an expert didn't make you immune to the dark. It just made you more aware of how far you had to fall.
"Well, Steve," I said, finally setting my chair down next to his. "I don't have the answers either. But I’m pretty good at listening."
He nodded, a look of profound relief crossing his face. "That’s more than enough."
The next few months passed in a blur of Friday nights. The basement, once a place I dreaded, became the steady heartbeat of my week.
I stopped being the woman hiding in the corner and started being a voice in the circle. It happened naturally. One night, Marcus was spiraling, caught in the "bargaining" stage I’d memorized from a textbook years ago. Without thinking, I reached out. I didn't give him a clinical diagnosis; I told him about the time I tried to bargain with the universe to take me instead of my sister. I spoke to him not as a therapist, but as a person who had survived the same wreckage.
Steve noticed. Whenever the room grew heavy with a silence too thick to break, he’d catch my eye—a silent, "Captain-to-First-Mate" look—and I’d find the words to bridge the gap. I started staying late to help him put away the tables, our conversations shifting from the Blip to the mundane: the best place for street tacos, the absurdity of modern technology, and the books my dad was recommending.
By the third month, the cloud hadn't disappeared, but it had thinned enough for me to see the horizon. One morning, I woke up and didn't immediately feel the urge to pull the covers over my head. Instead, I pulled out my laptop and opened a blank document.
Lucia Villarreal, M.A., LPC.
My credentials looked strange on the screen—symbols of a past life. But as I began looking for local clinics and community outreach programs, the resentment I’d felt toward my degrees was gone. I realized I didn't need to be fixed to help others; in fact, the cracks in my own foundation made me better at spotting the ones in theirs.
The following Friday, I arrived at the church with a folder tucked under my arm. Steve was already there, leaning against the counter with a cup of that terrible coffee.
"You look determined," he said, his blue eyes crinkling in amusement. "New plan?"
"A new map, at least," I said, setting the folder down. "I started applying for jobs today. Local stuff. Mental health crisis work for families who... well, for people like us."
Steve straightened up, a look of genuine pride blooming on his face. "That’s big, Lucia. Really big."
"I think I’m ready to stop being just a survivor," I admitted, looking at the circle of chairs we were about to fill. "I think I’m ready to be a counselor again. Just... a different kind."
He nodded slowly. "The kind that knows how it feels to bleed."
"Exactly." I smiled, and for the first time, it didn't feel like a mask. "So, Captain, what’s on the agenda tonight? Aside from the store-bought brownies?"
He laughed, reaching for a chair. "Tonight? I thought we’d talk about the things we’re actually looking forward to. Even if it’s just a cup of coffee tomorrow morning."
I took my seat next to him, my purse at my feet and my future feeling a little less like a ghost story. I wasn't the woman who had walked in here months ago, terrified and angry. I was Lucia. I was a daughter, a friend, and a therapist. And as the room began to fill with the familiar faces of my second family, I realized I finally knew how to treat the grief—not by curing it, but by walking through it, one Tuesday at a night.
"I'd like to walk you home tonight, if that's alright," Steve offered as the meeting wound down.
I blinked, caught off guard. "Sure," I managed, trying to sound casual despite the sudden jump in my pulse.
He was wearing a deep blue t-shirt that fit him like a second skin, the fabric straining across his chest and making the blue of his eyes look almost electric. Over the last few months, the hero had faded into the background, replaced by the man standing in front of me. And the man was, quite frankly, unbelievable. It wasn't just that he was the most handsome human being I’d ever encountered—though my eyes certainly didn't mind the view—it was that he had a heart of gold that felt almost too pure for the world he lived in.
To say I had developed a crush would be a massive understatement. I was teetering on the edge of something much deeper. But I was twenty-eight years old, a trained clinician with a Master’s degree; I knew how to compartmentalize. I knew how to tuck a crush away behind a professional, friendly mask.
At least, that’s what I kept telling myself as we stepped out into the cool night air, my shoulder just inches from his. I only hoped my clinical training was enough to keep my heart from beating loud enough for him to hear.
The walk home was quiet at first, the rhythmic click of my boots on the pavement echoing against Steve’s heavier tread. The night air was crisp, and for the first time in a long time, the silence didn't feel lonely.
"You mentioned Ashley tonight," Steve said softly, breaking the quiet. "And Louie. You said they were the ones who could always make you laugh until you couldn't breathe. I’d love to hear more about them. And about your mom and sister, too."
A year ago, that question would have felt like a serrated blade across my chest. But tonight, looking at the soft amber glow of the streetlights, it felt like an invitation.
"Ashley was chaos in a blazer," I said, a genuine smile tugging at my lips. "She was a corporate lawyer who spent her weekends rescue-fostering senior dogs. Louie was her polar opposite—quiet, methodical, the only person I knew who could actually make Ashley sit still for five minutes."
I found myself telling him about my mom’s legendary, failed attempts at gardening and how my sister, Sofia, used to steal my psychology textbooks just to mock the diagrams. I talked about them for blocks, the memories flowing out of me not as jagged shards of pain, but as colorful threads of a life I was finally proud to have lived. Almost two years had passed since the world turned to ash, and while the holes they left were still there, the edges didn't feel quite so sharp tonight.
Steve listened with an intensity that was almost unnerving. He didn't interrupt; he just nodded, his expression reflecting a deep, quiet respect for the people I had lost.
When we finally reached the steps of my house, the porch light casting a warm yellow square onto the sidewalk, I turned to him. "Thanks for walking me, Steve. And for listening. I don't usually talk that much."
"I liked hearing it," he said, but his posture had changed. The confident, steady leader of the grief circle was gone, replaced by a man who suddenly seemed very interested in the toes of his boots. He reached up, rubbing the back of his neck, his face tinged with a faint, sheepish red that I could see even in the dim light.
"Lucia, I..." He trailed off, clearing his throat. He looked up, those blue eyes wide and suddenly vulnerable. "I know we met under... heavy circumstances. And I know things are still complicated. But I’d really like to spend time with you outside of a church basement. Somewhere with better coffee. Or actual food."
He took a breath, the words suddenly tumbling out in a rush. "Would you like to have dinner with me? Like, an actual dinner? A date?"
I froze, my hand hovering over my purse strap. I looked at the man who had seen me at my absolute worst, the man who had helped me find my footing when I thought I was drowning. The hero was gone; there was just Steve, hopeful and human, waiting for an answer.
"I'd love to, Steve," I whispered. "I'd really love to."