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Zhang Hao thinks Thursdays shouldn't exist. Not to be superstitious in a weird, never seen before way, but the fourth day of the week? Fourth? The number of death? It's so, so over. Everything that has gone wrong for him, was because he did something extremely important on a Thursday. He almost always scores lower on Thursday exams, for one (Taerae says he’s overthinking, because a 92 when he usually gets a 98 is "basically the same score", but Hao insists it's the curse of the Fourth Day). His driving exam was on a Thursday, and he rammed into a fence after carefully backing it out to park (Ricky says it's because he still had trouble differentiating the gas and the brake, huge difference— apparently. Hao wouldn't know). One time he was walking to a Kuanjui's birthday party and got water all over him when a bus ran through a puddle full speed and sure enough, when he checked, it was on a Thursday.
So, yes. Zhang Hao believes Thursdays are cursed days. He does everything in his power to ensure important things he had control over never, ever, happens on a Thursday.
Today, too, is a Thursday, because unfortunately for him, Thursdays come again every single week. Every single week of the year has a Thursday in it, because that's how days of the week works. This is one of the ways the world has fucked him over.
Speaking of being fucked…
“Don’t— Hahh, Donggook-ah… Outside please… I don't want to— hahhh— clean up,” Hao moans, rocking in time with his boyfriend as he feels Donggook rushing into him faster, a sign that he’s close to cumming.
Hao pushes on to Donggook’s shoulders, slowly trying to get him out, his own dick still half-hard and weeping precum. Donggook doesn’t listen, or Hao has warned him too late, because Hao feels his boyfriend tensing up and warm wetness filling inside him. It's something Hao would normally enjoy, but he’s in a rush to an afternoon class and he hates how long it takes to clean himself up and get to class after.
He feels Donggook’s warmth on top of him, his boyfriend finally pulling out and looking proudly at his cum all over Hao’s hole, shoving his thumb inside and letting Hao’s hole pucker against his finger. Hao is still so sensitive, and his dick is still barely hard. He wants to cum, eventually, but he’s exhausted and he can't move. He reaches out to Donggook, wanting a short cuddle session before freshening up and going to class.
Donggook smiles at him, but doesn't move closer. Hao feels like something is coming.
“Hao-ya,” Donggook breathes out in front of Hao’s face, his bangs moving from the motion. Donggook brushes Hao’s bangs away from his face, his touch gentle in a way it sometimes is. He smells lightly of cigarette smoke despite promising countless times that he's never touched them anymore, that he's trying to quit. Hao feels like his boyfriend’s next sentence will be life-changing for him. For both of them, maybe. “Let’s open our relationship.”
Hao, still butt-ass naked with his half-hard dick out and cum drying in his ass, nearly passes out.
“Why?” Hao panics. He thinks he must've been imagining things, maybe it's his high from their 1.5 year anniversary celebration just this morning, with flowers and drinks and a nice cute breakfast in bed. He celebrated alone though, Donggook saying he had plans, but he was still happy that they've gone this long in their relationship. It's Hao's longest relationship so far. “Is there someone else that you like?” Am I not enough?
As a reply, Donggook drops a bomb. “I think our sex is getting boring,” he pauses, looking right into Hao's eyes. Hao feels like throwing up. Maybe he’ll throw up the breakfast he got for himself this morning. “You think so too right, that it's getting boring? You said it just yesterday-” (Hao doesn't remember this, but sometimes the things he says does escape him, so he stays silent). “That was good, and I am satisfied, Hao, don't get me wrong. But we keep doing the same things. So I was thinking we can have other partners, just to spice things up, you know?”
Hao feels a pit inside his stomach. he thinks his eyes might be wet too, but he blinks them away before the tears has a chance to fall.
“I still love you the most, don't worry, babe.” If you really do love me the most, why do you need other people? Why am I not enough for you? Hao thinks, but doesn't say out loud.
Through the bile rising up to his throat, Hao speaks. It feels like an out of body experience, like he’s watching himself talk instead of actually speaking. “Do you want a threesome or something? Because… I can do that if that's what you want…” He couldn't, not really, but if he keeps telling himself he could, then maybe…
“No, not a threesome, babe… something more…. private? For each of us, you understand?” Donggook doesn't even look like he's thinking Hao’s suggestion over, like he's already decided how he wants this arrangement to go.
“And we’re not breaking up?” Hao hates how small his voice sounds, how the edge of his sentence trembles.
Donggook nods, but Hao doesn't feel better. All Zhang Hao feels is dread. “Yeah, we’ll still be together and go on dates and have sex, it’ll be the same as usual, babe… Just that we can also go out and have sex and go out on dates with other people too.” Donggook comforts him, pulling Hao into the crook of his neck as he combs his fingers through Hao’s hair. Hao doesn't even remember the last time they went out on a date together. “No big deal, you know. Just to have some fun! You really have to loosen up a little, babe.”
Hao buries his face into Donggook’s shoulder, whispering. “And you’re sure you really want this? We’re really okay?”
Hao feels the rumble of Donggook’s laugh against his cheek and his chest, all their points of contact. If Donggook is happy, then maybe everything really will be fine. “Yeah babe, of course we’re okay! You’re okay with this, right? You want this too…. Right?”
A pause. Hao is hesitant to agree, or disagree.
Donggook smiles at him again. He's so smiley today, it makes Hao feel complicated. “You know, if you don't want to, we can just break up. But you do want to right?”
Hao can't help it. He smiles back. Whenever Donggook smiles at him, he can't help but smile back.
“Of course you’re okay with it,” Donggook affirms. “This is why I like you so much. I'll see you tomorrow, babe. Busy night!” And then he's gone, fast as light. Hao doesn't even realize he's already put on all his clothes. Maybe the shock has really got to him.
He stares at the dirty sheets, feels the cum dripping out of his asshole, and the tears he’s holding back starts falling.
Of course this happens on a Thursday. Thursday should be renamed Fuck Zhang Hao Over day.
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[Zhang Hao (Yes, That Zhang Hao) is Now in an Open Relationship]
I’ve always had a crush on Zhang Hao, and I’ve always been jealous of his boyfriend, who is my classmate in Advanced Mathematics. Sometimes I pretend to shoot lasers at him with my eyes during class because he usually sits in front of me.
Today, after class, he approached my friend and propositioned him. Zhang Hao and his boyfriend never announced their relationship, but basically everyone knows that they’re together. My friend (who also has a crush on Zhang Hao, by the way) declined and asked him if he’s broken up with Zhang Hao.
He said that they are now in an open relationship, so they’re still together but they’ve decided that they’re going to freely see other people as well. From the way he’s saying it, I think it was his own idea to open the relationship, not Zhang Hao’s.
Is it time for me to shoot my shot?
> is he fucking stupid genuine question
> he’s letting(?) making(?) The Zhang Hao see other people?????
> whats his name again. not like it matters but like
> i think his name has dong in it i cant remember
> does he know at least half of the campus population wants zhang hao carnally
> i had one class with zhang hao and hes so beautiful and nice and helpful TT.TT without him i wouldnt have passed music theory
> im ctfu does he think people want him omg brother the people want ur boyfriend
> i mean hes not bad looking i guess if thats what ure into but next to zhang hao. well….
[Shim Ricky: Miracle from Shanghai?]
[TO THE MANGOSTEALER WHO STOLE MY MANGOES FROM THE COMMUNAL DORM FRIDGE: I WILL FIND U]
[Zhang Hao Back in the Dating Scene]
[Campus Crush: Zhang Hao Open to Date Other People?]
[Woo Donggook and Zhang Hao: Not Single But Ready to Mingle]
[Zhang Hao Now Available to Date!]
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Zhang Hao has always known he was popular. He doesn't quite understand why, but in a distant, imaginarily factual way, he does know that a lot of people on campus likes him. His friends, mainly Ricky and Taerae, also keeps telling him that when (not if, they insist, but when) he breaks up with 'fuckass Donggook' (their words, not his. He thinks Donggook is quite lovely), he would be able to get anyone he wanted.
Today, though, it feels like everyone on campus is staring at him.
Hao feels like his every move is being watched. He does have an inkling of how popular he is, but being in an exclusive, monogamous relationship for more than a year has made him forget what it's like to be dating around again. Everywhere he goes on campus he can feel people staring at him, and some people even attempts to ask him out when he's with his friends (Ricky has rolled his eyes and said I told you so to him at least 3 times just today), but Ricky’s gone to class now, and the advances keep coming.
He's alone, walking back to his dorm during class, he feels some people’s eyes on him, and he thinks it's just his imagination, but then some people came up to him for a bit of small talk and then asked for his number, trying to subtly gauge how interested he is in a new relationship. Some people winks at him, and some slips in napkins into his bag in front of him, clearly showing him their numbers written on it. He's dizzy from the attention. He's never been pursued by this many people at once. And there's so many people. He barely caught all their names.
He doesn't really respond to them, mostly saying that he's not ready for anything new yet even though the relationship is technically open. Most people accept this answer, but the confessions and the proposition for sex don't stop. They just keep on coming. They come in more abundance even, as word about Hao's newly open relationship hasn't finished spreading out yet.
Apparently Donggook's mission to find partners is going swimmingly as he brags about whatever he did with whoever just yesterday. Hao wants to tunes him out, but he doesn't. He really, really doesn't want to know what his boyfriend does with his one night stands, but there's a part of him that can't help but listen.
"You're still the best, of course, babe. Honestly. No one compares," Donggook says, after talking about how he 'absolutely destroyed' a so-called 'random twink from the club'. This somehow does make Hao feel better. He's not getting replaced. Donggook still likes him, he just wants to feel something different from someone else.
Hao tells him about the numbers, the confessions, sex propositions, and that he's unsure about what he's going to do next with all this attention on him. As Hao keeps going, Donggook progressively looks more and more annoyed, and he starts scowling.
"I just… I'm just a bit surprised, I guess… From all the attention? I don't know what I should do, Donggook-ah."
"If there's no one you're into you can just reject them, babe. You will always have me," Donggook answers.
Then they have sex. Donggook comes, Hao doesn't. The usual.
Donggook leaves before ten. Hao just cleans himself up, tells himself that everything will be fine, and sleeps.
._. ._. ._.
matthew
hanbin hyung be calm when i tell u this
did u hear the news
this is insane hyung uve got to listen to this
or read i guess since were texting lol
this is crazy like LIFE changing. but like. for u specifically
oh my God hyung where r u U SHOULD BE checking ur phone more
this is like a life and death situation. but like for U. not for me
i need to see ur live reaction to this so i wont say anything until u respond but like
LIFE CHANGING HYUNG!!!!!!!!! THIS IS LIFE CHANGING NEWS
how do i summon u without spoiling the news
heck maybe u already know n arent telling me that u Know
if thats what ure doing our relationship is over hyung
(BIG JOKE I WILL NEVER LET U GO)
ure stuck with me for life btw hyung
oh my god hanbin hyung WHERE ARE U!!!
hyung my life could be in danger right now n you wouldnt know bc u NEVER CHECK UR PHONE!!!!!!!
hanbin
seokmae-ah i love you but i responded within five minutes
sorry hyung was in the studio (｡>﹏<)
tricky new choreo to teach so i went a bit over time to practice
matthew
hyung arent u curous
curious
haha and2ble #mentioned
ive been saying
LIFE CHANGING news
for YOU btw not for me
hanbin
yes uve been saying
life and death situation
genuinely cant think of anything
im gonna die? 😂
matthew
no hyung like
if u know whats at stake
u wont be laughing
wait
U Will be laughing
u should Laugh
this is going to be
the BEST DAY
of your sad miserable life
hanbin
OUCH
i think im pretty happy u know
i have u and everyone… not a bad life
matthew
okay but think about this
this news
will CHANGE UR LIFE
FOREVER!!!!!!
hanbin
this is taking too long mashu-ya
what is it
the only life-changing thing i can think of is if the studio decides theyre gonna hire me full-time after graduation
or if zhang hao agrees to date me lol which would never happen
lol
matthew (reply to if zhang hao agrees to date me lol…)
DING DING DING
hanbin
What Do You Mean
matthew
zhang hao’s bf opened their relationship
so now they can date other people
while still dating each other
idt hao is dating any other people rn tho
hyung this is ur Chance
hanbin
wha th the fuck
u can do that???????????
what
so theyre meeting other people
but theyre still
a couple?
matthew
hyung its 2026 people can have open relationships
u can like. text him or sth
hanbin
i cant text him
i would sound so
i would sound so creepy
the last time i talked to him was before i knew he was dating that guy
when we were doing that assignment
and we got along well
u know i Was going to ask him out
but he was so pretty and his eyes were so big i freaked out
and then a few weeks later i found out they were already dating
saddest day of my life
matthew
okay but you have to do something
i cant deal with u being a sad pining mess of a blob every time i see u
like Now hes in your reach u gotta do sth hyung
hanbin
okay. im gnna. do sth
what should i do
i dont want to scare him off
matthew
so theres this party…
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Zhang Hao was Not at the party.
He's not at that party, or the next party, or the next, next parties. He's never at any parties. Before, he was too busy juggling his university classes and his recitals and dates with his boyfriend and hangouts with his friends to even think of going to a party. Now, he hasn't met Donggook in a few days and the last time they met was for a quickie in Donggook's apartment. He can't remember the last time they actually went out on a date together.
"I've been telling you, he's not worth it, and now that you're kind of like…. free from him, you have to go to a party! I swear to god…. I'll drag you there myself if I have to." That's Ricky. He's tapping his newly painted black nails on the table as he tells Hao about a party Hao needs to go to tomorrow night.
Zhang Hao, running his hands through his hair, replies, "But it's been a while since I've been to a party…."
Taerae chimes in, the snack he snatches from Hao letting out a crunch as he talks. Hao lets him steal it because he's too tired to complain. "Last time was when he ditched you, right… to go bowling? Golfing? Or something on your one year anniversary. Golfing, really? Who the hell goes golfing with someone else on their one year anniversary?"
Hao remembers that day clearly, sitting at a dinner reservation he has planned for weeks before and has told Donggook about only for Donggook to call him and say that he won't be able to come because his boss forced him to accompany him golfing. Not a good memory.
"You gotta let loose, Hao-hyung." Taerae pats his back.
"We’ll keep you company. And we'll dress you up! You're gonna look so sexy…. Everyone will be falling all over their feet trying to impress you."
Ricky is grinning now, and Hao has only just realized that he's sipping on his drink again. Hao thinks it's yuzu tea this time. "And if there's a hot guy hitting on you…. you should sleep with him since that's what your boyfriend's been bragging about doing!"
Hao thinks. He's about to reject their suggestions again, saying that he'd rather stay and rest at home, but he thinks about how he feels every time Donggook talks about his 'adventures' with someone else. Maybe it's about time he accepts the way their relationship works now. Maybe it's time to find another person just for him, too.
He notes that today is a Wednesday, which makes tomorrow a Thursday. The party is on a Thursday. But no matter. He will go. Thursdays aren't always that bad. "Okay whatever, I'm going!"
._. ._. ._.
Hao doesn't know how he got here. One second he was at the party Ricky and Taerae was dragging him to and one second later he's making out with a guy he's only ever had one class with and had only seen in passing after. In his defense, Sung Hanbin is probably one of the most attractive person on campus. And he's not a stranger! They had class together once, even did a project together. They have mutual friends! He can confirm that Hanbin is not a weird person! And, oh, wow.
Before, there are three things Hao knows about Sung Hanbin. One, he's a Dance Major (Psych Minor). Two, he's friends with Hao's friends Gyuvin and Taerae. Third, he's hot as hell. But now, Hao can confidently say that he knows four things about him. Hanbin is a really, really absurdly good kisser.
Hanbin's hands frame his face, his hot mouth moving languidly against Hao's lips as Hao reminds himself to keep breathing. It's been a while since Hao has been kissed with this much passion, and Hanbin's eagerness makes him feel wanted in a way he has never felt before. Hanbin's knees rub on his crotch and his hands move to hold Hao's waist.
"Wanna get out of here, Hao-sunbae?"
"Call me hyung," Hao replies. "If we're really going to do anything, you can't be calling me sunbae in bed."
Hanbin laughs, throwing his whole upper body all over Hao's as he does. He laughs so freely, and his smile shines even through the dim light of the party. "Okay, Hao-hyung," Hanbin whispers, his lips grazing against Hao's earlobes. "Wanna get out of here?"
Hao is ready to immediately say yes, but he needs Hanbin to know that he's… still in a relationship. He doesn't know how other people know, but he also doesn't know if Hanbin knows. Better safe than sorry. "I… want to." Hao pauses. He needs to say it, but he's never done this before. It's been a while since he's been with anyone but Donggook, and he's never dated more than one people at once before. "Hanbin… you know that I'm in an open relationship right now, right? I have a boyfriend…"
Hanbin's grip on his waist tightens. "I'm aware, hyung."
"And you still wanna get out of here with me?"
"There's nothing I want more than that, hyung. You don't even know."
Hao is still hesitant. Hanbin is so, so, hot, but Hao is so terribly out of practice. This also feels an awful lot like cheating. "But-"
Hanbin still has his hand on Hao's waist, and he uses his other hand to reach for Hao's, kissing his knuckles. "I really want to take you home, if you'll let me."
Hao doesn't know what it is. The sincerity in Hanbin's eyes? The way Hao can feel Hanbin slightly tremble from nervousness? The way he's holding onto Hao so gently like he's someone precious? Hao doesn't know what it is that makes him follow Hanbin, but he follows.
"Thank you, hyung. I'll make it worth your while, I promise."
._. ._. ._.
After clearing things up, they got a taxi to Hanbin's apartment, Hanbin's hand not leaving his waist the whole ride. Hao feels jittery, in the way you do when you're doing something that feels wrong, but you really want to do it anyway. Hao told Donggook (by text, since Donggook has been busy these days) that he's going to this party, and hinted on getting it on with someone else. Donggook just reacted to his text with a thumbs up emoji.
Hanbin's hold on him grounds him, but its clear that he's impatient. After unlocking his door, Hanbin slams Hao (gently) to the door and kisses him breathless. Hao circles his hands around Hanbin's neck, pulling him closer as Hanbin starts peppering kisses on his neck.
Hao didn't even have a drop alcohol during the party (he didn't drink anything period), but he's so drunk off of Hanbin's mouth and his touch on Hao's skin. The slide of Hanbin's tongue on his feels heavenly. Hao is so out of it he lets out a shout when Hanbin picks him up and sits him down on his bed. When did they get through the bedroom door?
Hanbin kisses him again, and again, and again and again. Hao sees a string of drool connecting their lips when they pull apart, and his heart is thumping so hard he feels the rhythm of it in the inside of his head. There's also Hanbin's hands, warm and all over Hao, and somehow in no time they're both naked.
Hao is naked and Hanbin is, too.
Hao stares.
He stares at Hanbin’s crotch so hard he feels like he can’t move. He can’t believe his eyes. Without his permission, his brain compares Hanbin’s dick and Donggook’s. Other than the… massive, massive size difference (Hao wonders if his boyfriend’s penis is actually really small, because Donggook has always been proud of his endowment, but Hao has always thought he’s average at Most), Hanbin's cock is also much more pleasant to look at.
Hanbin is also decidedly Not Average. And Hao’s boyfriend’s dick is definitely Not Above Average despite what he himself believes. Hao doesn’t like comparisons, but when he sees Hanbin’s cock, huge and curved and a beautiful pinkish brown colour, he can’t help but think that he’s been missing out. Who knows that dicks could be… pretty?
“That’s too big…”
Hanbin’s breath hitches, and he clutches onto Hao’s shoulders as Hao gawks at his dick. His massive, gorgeous dick. God.
“Hahh... Hanbin… it’s so big... I don’t think it’ll fit...”
Hao feels Hanbin’s breath on his cheeks. He thinks he sees Hanbin’s dick twitch. Hao cannot look away from his dick. He feels like he's been hypnotized. “It’s okay, hyung… we don’t have to do anything today… we can even stop now, if you want?”
He’s so sweet. Hao wants to eat him whole and keep him inside his mouth forever. Not in a sexy way. Or maybe in a sexy way. What is happening to him?
“No, I want to… but maybe not inside…?”
“Okay, hyung…” Hanbin moves even closer, his lips brushing Hao’s ear. “May I touch you?”
Hao nods, and Hanbin drags his lips across Hao’s skin and traces his fingers over the rubber of Hao’s waistband. Every touch of Hanbin’s hand on his skin feels like it's on fire.
Hanbin’s touch reminds him of his boyfriend’s, but not in the way he thought it would be. Hanbin’s touch is gentle, every brush of his hands asking for permission. It’s very different to how Donggook would toss Hao around even when he said that he’s tired and needs to rest. Thinking about his boyfriend, Hao feels guilty, like he's cheating, even though he knows his boyfriend asked for this. (He thinks of his boyfriend's stories about his one night stands, and the guilt feels much less severe.) Hao has been so lonely, these past few months. And Hanbin is hot and available and lovely and his dick is so huge Hao almost can't think of anything else.
Hanbin starts touching himself too, pumping his cock in his fist. He keeps mumbling under his breath, reassuring Hao that they really don’t have to do anything today and that it’s okay if Hao has changed his mind…. that he just wants to make Hao feel good if Hao would let him. Hao is so hard he thinks his dick might explode.
Hao lays himself down on the bed, and Hanbin slowly kisses him all over his body, his neck, the back of his ears, his chest. When Hanbin's mouth brushes lightly on his nipple, Hao can't help but let out a light gasp. Then Hanbin starts sucking his nipple into his mouth, using the other hand to play with his other nipple. The sensation is so new and so good that it leaves him blank. He never knew his nipples were so sensitive. Hanbin keeps touching him all over, so eager and yet so, so gentle. Hao puckers up his lips, and Hanbin, sweet, considerate Hanbin, looks down at him and kisses him so deeply he feels like he's just been reborn. God.
After being kissed like his whole life depends on it, Hao feels lightheaded, like he's not real, and when Hanbin moves away to do god knows what, Hao lets out a whimper so loud he couldn't believe it was a sound that could come out of him.
"I'm just going to get lube, hyung," Hanbin says. There's a sound of clacking drawers and doors opening and closing. "It should be around… here!" Hanbin bounces a little, lube in hand as he raises the bottle in front of his head to show it to Hao. He's so cute, like an animal crossing character. Fuck. Donggook's little sister plays animal crossing. He misses her, he hasn't seen her for so long.
Hanbin moves closer, the bed dipping down with his weight, and Hao decides it's really not the time to be thinking about his boyfriend's little sister.
Hanbin squirts the lube onto his hands, warming it up. (Donggook never does that. Sometimes he doesn't even use lube, and most of the times he makes Hao prepare himself). There's. So Much Lube. Possibly every liter of lube in the world is being warmed up in Hanbin's hands. There's just so, so much. He warms more up and massages Hao's thighs and starts circling Hao's hole with one of his fingers. It feels warm, and so wet, but not uncomfortable. Then Hanbin adds more lube. More, more, and more (like the Twice song).
"All good?"
Hao nods. He feels drenched, like the slick is coming from him… like he's the one producing the wetness. It's crazy. and then, Hanbin is all over him and licking him everywhere. He spreads Hao's thighs with his hands, pushing his thighs upwards, and starts nipping all over his legs. His fingers massages Hao's hole while his mouth is sucking on the rim of his hole. Hao has never felt anything like it in his life.
As Hanbin continues sucking on him, Hao continues making breathy ah, ah, ah, sounds, and when Hanbin's tongue starts breaching inside, Hao's brain melts and his head rings. Hanbin keeps sucking on his rim, his tongue going even deeper inside Hao. His saliva mixes in with the lube and makes everything even wetter and even better.
"I've never- no one's ever done- hahhh… this for me before…"
Hanbin hums, and Hao can feel the vibration inside him through Hanbin's tongue. Fuck. Hanbin keeps on eating him out, his tongue flexible as it reaches places he's never thought they would be able to reach.
"Really, no one?" Hanbin sounds surprised, but there's also an undertone of something else when he speaks. Hao cant bring himself to talk, so he nods as an answer.
"You taste so good, hyung," Hanbin says, and immediately sucks on Hao's rim so hard he sees stars. Hao feels sensitive all over, and Hanbin doesn't stop even when Hao's moans get louder and Hao nearly comes all over himself.
As if it couldn't get any worse (better) Hanbin's mouth moves to suck Hao's dick into his throat, immediately sucking him fully until his lips reaches and touches on Hao's pelvis. His fingers replace his tongue, prodding at Hao's prostate in nearly one try. Hao shrieks, his eyes rolling back as his brain whites out and he spills so hard inside of Hanbin's mouth that he feels the pressure of Hanbin's throat around his dick. He spasms as he comes, tears running down his face as the feeling of his orgasm washes over him in waves.
Hanbin swallows, and Hao feels so overwhelmed he nearly moves to kick Hanbin off of him. He doesn't, and Hanbin licks off the rest of his cum while his fingers are still nailing right on Hao's prostate, and Hao feels so wet and halfway insane. Hanbin gets up and crawls over him to look at his face, his hands still touching all over Hao as his lips reaches Hao's cheek and forehead and he kisses all over Hao's face. His dry hand moves to wipe Hao's tears, then he sucks and licks on Hao's nipples as Hao moans at the sensation.
"Hanbin… I want to help you out, too… hand?"
"No need, hyung."
"But—"
"I, um," and here Hanbin pauses, his cheeks flushing red and his gaze shifting away. "I already came…"
At this, Hao look down at Hanbin's crotch to check, and Hanbin really wasn't kidding. Hanbin's cum splatters across his stomach, and his dick seems to have just started softening.
Hao doesn't know what's gotten into him. When he sees proof of what Hanbin said (that he's already came… untouched… just from pleasuring Hao…!), Hao wants so badly to kiss him stupid. So he does. He pulls Hanbin by his neck and kisses him so hard their teeth clack together, and yet he still doesn't want to stop. When one of them pulls away, they're both breathless, huffing and puffing into each other's mouths.
Hao feels so, so good. He probably came like. Five times total (an exaggeration for sure, but it does really feel like that much). But he also feels a bit uneasy, like a pit is forming in his stomach. In a sick, twisted way, he now understands what his boyfriend means by the sex getting boring.
These past few months, he has never felt this excited and horny during sex with Donggook. Being with Hanbin, though? Everything he does is hot as fuck. Seeing Hanbin jack off is hot as fuck. Seeing Hanbin cum from eating him out and sucking him off is hot as fuck. Seeing Hanbin’s face slick with lube is hot as fuck. So hot that Hao feels like he also could've come untouched.
Hao nearly passes out. Or maybe he did, because the next thing he knows, Hanbin is wiping him down with a wet towel and asking him if its okay if they take a bath together. Hao tries to stand up, but his legs give out and Hanbin caught him and princess carries Hao into the bathroom.
Hanbin puts him in the bath (when did he fill in the warm water?) and washes Hao's hair for him. He even dries him up too, toweling his hair until he's nice and dry. Then he tucks him into bed, kissing his forehead as he lets Hao sleep on his arm. Hao feels warm all over, and its not just from the bath.
._. ._. ._.
Despite how they got to know each other, they don't immediately have sex again. And unlike one night stands, they don't avoid each other and say it was a one time thing. Hanbin had asked for Hao's phone number the morning after their time together and Hao gave it to him, and they've been conversing for a few days, sweet good night and good morning texts from Hanbin that Hao replies to in turn. Today is a Thursday, but Hao decides to think nothing of it as he opens his phone to another one of Hanbin's texts.
hanbin
hao hyung good morning ><
i saw a puppy just now and it reminded me of u!!!
look
[insert image of a cute dog here]
r u doing anything today!
*?
not screaming at u just curious ㅎㅎ
hao (reply to: i saw a puppy ju…)
cute puppy!!! where did u see!!!!
hao (reply to: r u doing anythi…)
going to the library today after class to study for finals
wbu?
hanbin (reply to: cute puppy!!!…)
near the park! she was so cute ><
i immediately thought of you…
Hao wonders if this means Hanbin thinks Hao is cute, and just the thought makes his cheeks feel warm. As he contemplates his reply, another text from Hanbin comes in.
hanbin
wanted to ask if u wanna go get lunch with me today!
or maybe dinner if ure too busy for lunch ><
i can meet u at the library too! i was also gonna go ㅎㅎ
hao
lets meet at the library!
we can get dinner too! are you gonna treat your hyung food hehe
hanbin
of course ill pay!!!! im the one who asked u out hyung!!! ill pay for everything!!!
not to be weird but u can even hold on to my card if u want >< im that serious!!!
The corners of Hao's mouth turns up, and he types in a quick 'see u! 💕' and closes his phone as he actually goes and prepares for class.
During class, before the lecturer comes in, a few people approached him, some citing small talk and others whispering to his ear that they 'could show him heaven'. Hao is a bit uncomfortable with the whispering, but he's flattered nonetheless. All this attention on him is going to need some getting used to.
He meets Hanbin after class, at the library, and they sit down in a comfortable silence filled with the sounds of paper rustling and pencil scratching across paper. Every time Hao looks up from his books to check on Hanbin, Hanbin is already looking back, a slight smile on his face. They're sitting across from each other, and Hao takes note of how their legs tangle and sometimes knock into each other.
Hanbin was first to break the comfortable silence. "What are you working on, hyung?"
"My music theory finals… so I can focus on my recital practice later. What about you, Hanbin?"
They talk for a bit about their studies, and Hao found out that Hanbin has a showcase lined up too, but it would be a few months after Hao's recitals. They promised to go to each other's shows, and immediately went back to work.
After a few hours of studying, Hao stretches his back and hears the crackle of his bones. Hanbin giggles, then also stretches, and Hao can hear his bones crackling even harder.
"Where are we going for dinner?" Hao is really, really starting to get hungry.
"Wherever you want, hyung! You can choose!" Hanbin replies. He's looking right at Hao now, his textbooks seemingly forgotten.
"Huh, but you're paying, though?" Hao pouts a little. "You choose!"
Hao thinks he sees Hanbin's eyes flicker to his mouth, but Hanbin looks back up so fast Hao isn't sure if he saw correctly. "Uh… then… um… Haidilao?"
Hao gasps, clutching onto Hanbin's arm. "I love Haidilao! Yes, let's go!"
In the restaurant, Hao orders duck blood, pig brain, and frog legs, and instead of being disgusted and calling Hao disgusting (like Donggook did once— they never went to Haidilao together again), Hanbin says he's been interested on trying them out too.
"You know, I brought Donggook here once and he thought everything sucks but I hope you like everything! They're really good."
Hanbin bites on his lips. "I'll try everything, hyung! I'm sure they're all delicious!"
As their orders start coming in, Hanbin takes the tongs up and starts putting all the meat and vegetables inside the boiling soup. Hanbin's hair is soft, flopping on his hair across his forehead as the light shines on him. His smile stretches across his face as Hao looks at him. There are tiny crinkles on his cheeks as he smiles that Hao hadn't noticed the last time they met.
Hao reaches for the soup, his stomach growling, and Hanbin pulls on his sleeve to roll them up so it doesn’t dip into the soup in the pot. It's such a sweet, thoughtful gesture, and Hanbin does it so casually Hao wonders if it just comes naturally to him, or if he's had… practice. It makes his heart flutter nonetheless. He pours some soup into his bowl, and then some to Hanbin's too.
"Here, try this," Hao says, as he picks up the pig brain and soup and gives it to Hanbin. "Tell me what you think."
Hao is nervous about sharing the things he likes, but he doesn't care anyway whether Hanbin likes it or not but he does hope Hanbin does. Hanbin mutters a cute little thanks and bites onto the food. His brows furrow as he looks at the food, and Hao is worried that he doesn't like it, but then Hanbin says, "I like it! This is really good, hyung! It tastes so good with the soup."
Hanbin spends the whole evening trying out everything Hao ordered, some food he likes more than the others. Hao feels warmth blooming inside his chest. What a wonderful thing it is to be enjoying food together.
As they eat, talking about everything and nothing, Hanbin puts food in both of their bowls, and Hao pours in the soup.
Not bad for a Thursday.
._. ._. ._.
Seemingly with no effort, Hao and Hanbin keeps meeting nearly everyday. Sometimes they hang out together outside of campus (Hanbin calls them dates, which makes Hao feel a bit giddy) or just see each other off to classes.
They also go on walks together. They go on a lot of walks. Night walks, evening walks, morning walks, just whenever they're both available. Usually Hanbin would send him a cute text asking if he wants to go on a walk together, and Hao almost always does want to. During their walks, Hanbin holds Hao's hand, or his waist, and the points of their bodies where they touch has a different kind of feeling to it.
Today, Hanbin is driving them to get dinner at a place Hanbin found that he thinks Hao might like. Just this morning Hanbin texted him 'hyung do u wanna go here with me!!! >< they make good gopchang!' and Hao sends him a playful 'r u gnna pick ur hyung up 😍' as a joke. But Hanbin is here now, driving a car Hao didn't know he owned.
"This car isn't mine, hyung," Hanbin says with a chuckle when Hao asked him just that. "I rented it today! Just for you."
Hao feels warmth blooming in the space underneath his chest and above his bellybutton. Hanbin treating one of Hao's throwaway joke comments seriously (He rented a car! He rented a car just to drive Hao to dinner!) is doing things to him. Hanbin's hand found his, slightly squeezing his hand as Hanbin smiles at him. Hao squeezes Hanbin's hand, "Start driving, Hanbinnie… I'm hungry…"
Hao doesn't have a thing for cars (he's not Taerae), and he does not have a thing for people who can drive well, but Hanbin looks amazing driving. His hand that was clutching onto Hao's have moved on to his thigh, just touching, and he's driving one-handed. It shouldn't look so hot, except that it is. Hao looks at the hand on his thigh, and places his hand on top of Hanbin's.
Hanbin hums, and Hao sees the crinkle of his smile. "Why'd you rent a car, Hanbinnie? You could've picked me up in anything! We could have walked like usual!" Hao loves walking with Hanbin. Hanbin does this thing where he makes sure to walk on the part of the sidewalk that's closer to the cars. Hao thinks it's really cute, because every time he does it Hanbin hurriedly but gently pushes him to the side, holding his waist or his hand. He's like a puppy, eager to please.
"I just wanted to, hyung!"
"Hmm… Okay…" Hao says, and drops the topic. They had a nice date, good food, and Hanbin drove him back home, too, his hand on Hao's thigh the whole ride back. Hao feels warm all over his body.
._. ._. ._.
Hao is in the practice room, preparing for his recital. Hanbin had texted him as usual, asking about his plans for the day and what he's been doing.
hao
practicing for my violin recital all day!
wbu hanbinnie <3
hanbin
can i come over after! ㅎㅎ
i wanted to bring something for u (｡ > ω < ｡) ♡ .ᐟ
i only have some classes today but thats it!
"Hyung, here! I got this for you," Hanbin says, offering a snack Hao offhandedly said he liked once. Hao didn't think he'd actually come by. "This is the one you liked, right? I wasn't sure because there was a lot in the store that looks similar…"
The worry is palpable in his voice, and Hao ruffles his hair and pinches his cheeks. "Hmmm... this is the right brand but the wrong flavor…"
Hanbin looks devastated, like a puppy who did something wrong and is waiting to be scolded.
"I'm just kidding! This is the correct one, Hambinnie… you're perfect. How did you even remember?"
Hanbin perks up. Hao could practically see his tail wagging. "I remember everything you tell me, hyung!"
He's adorable. Hao pats his head, Hanbin's hair soft to the touch. "Are you gonna watch your hyung practice?"
"Yes, if you'll let me!"
Hao picks up his violin, and he continues his practice. Hanbin is there sitting down looking at him, a silent, calming presence.
._. ._. ._.
A week before his recital, Hao is practicing again, finishing the final touches.
hanbin
hyungggg~
may i come to your violin recital ㅎㅎ
i heard from taerae that its soon!
Donggook has only ever come to Hao's recital once (while complaining about it the whole time) and every other time Hao invited him he keeps saying that he's busy and that he has something else to do that day, so Hao stops asking. He never imagined Hanbin would ask to be invited. Hao feels a flash of warmth in his chest.
hao
of course u can come hambinnie <3
but r u sure u want to!
hanbin
of course hyung!!! ><
uve been preparing for it for so long!!
i really wanna see!!!
Hanbin brought him flowers to his recital (his nose looks a bit red as he does, and when hao asks why, Hanbin said he has a little bit of some kind of pollen allergy). Hao puts them in a vase on his dinner table. Donggook doesn't come to his recital even though Hao invited him too, but he did ask about the flowers when he came to Hao's apartment. When Hao said it was from Hanbin, Donggook grumbles, but doesn't ask more.
._. ._. ._.
If there's one thing Hao knows about Donggook, it's that he hates putting in work he feels he doesn't need to do. He applies this to everything— his studies, his part time jobs, and even sex. Donggook hates preparing Hao. He likes it when Hao is all ready and open for him and he just needs to thrust in. Most of the time, he texts Hao and orders Hao to prepare himself before he goes to Hao's apartment or Hao goes to his. In the span of their one and a half year of dating, Hao can count on one hand the amount of times Donggook has fingered him: 2 times total.
So when Hanbin offers to finger him, eyes wet and pleading, saying "Hyung, will you let me finger you, please?" as he pulls away after sucking Hao's lips into his mouth, Hao hesitates. He doesn't think too much about it, just commenting, "Oh, it's been a while since anyone did it for me…. last time was the little bit of it you did… Are you sure you want to do that?"
There's a strange glint in Hanbin's eyes as he stares at Hao. His hands have wandered down, rubbing on Hao's stomach and snapping the rubber of his sweatpants to his hips. Hao whines, the light sting somehow feeling good. "I really, really, really want to, hyung. I'll take this off?"
Hao mumbles a breathy yes as his pants are taken off immediately from his body (but not before Hanbin snaps the rubber of Hao's pants on his hips again as Hao yelps). Hanbin also slides a pillow underneath Hao's back so… he can see Hao's hole better. It's a bit embarrassing, but it's Hanbin, so Hao swallows down his embarrassment as Hanbin starts spreading Hao's legs. Hanbin now keeps a bottle of lube in his nightstand, and he takes no time pouring the lube into his fingers and onto Hao.
Hanbin's hand starts pumping Hao's shaft until Hao is panting so hard his head hurts, and then he circles Hao's hole with his thumb and he keeps on rubbing it as Hao's hole puckers against him.
Hao feels Hanbin's breath on his face, and then Hanbin starts kissing him on his forehead, his eyelids and his cheeks and on the side of his mouth, slightly missing his lips. Hao whines, jutting out his lips in a way he's noticed Hanbin likes, and Hanbin giggles. As their mouths slot together, Hanbin starts inserting his finger into Hao's hole, and when Hao gasps from the intrusion, Hanbin starts putting in his tongue in Hao's mouth.
Kissing Hanbin is such a delight. He kisses like he's thirsty for it, like Hao is the last drop in the bottle of one of those traditional Korean Health drinks Hanbin likes so much. As Hao's head fills up with the sounds of their spit and their lips, Hanbin slides in another finger, opening him up wide in a scissoring motion.
"Are you okay, hyung?"
Hao whines. He misses Hanbin's mouth already. "Yes, Hanbin… you can keep going… don't keep hyung waiting…"
Hanbin grunts and does something with his fingers that makes Hao see stars. He's using as much lube as he possibly can in True Hanbin Style, and every squelch of his fingers against Hao makes the slide feel even smoother. When Hanbin crooks his fingers to find Hao's sweet spot, Hao nearly shouts as Hanbin prods on his prostate in the first try. Then, relentlessly, Hanbin keeps on nailing that spot over and over again. Hao feels his head turning into mush as he feels a jolt of electricity every time Hanbin moves his fingers.
"Hyung, I'll put in another finger?"
"Mmmmh… yes…" Hao moans, moving to raise his hand to close his mouth so he can muffle the sounds he's making. Hanbin has a different plan. With his free hand, he slides his fingers through Hao's and kisses on his knuckles. The feeling calms him down, and the noises he makes ring through the bedroom as Hanbin inserts another finger.
Hao feels full, Hanbin's thick fingers filling him to the brim. It makes him wonder how it would feel to have Hanbin in him. "Hanbinnie… move…"
Hanbin kisses him as he bends his fingers to prod at Hao's prostate, and he swallows Hao's moans into his mouth as they kiss. "Does this feel good, hyung?"
Hao has never felt this good from fingering before. He whimpers as a response. The obscene wet sounds of Hanbin's fingers sliding in and out of him makes the pressure inside of him build up as he nearly comes. "Yes— Hanbinnie— touch me—"
Hanbin immediately pumps Hao's dick as he fucks Hao with his fingers more relentlessly, his pace going faster as Hao comes with a scream. Hanbin swallows down his moans with his mouth again, seemingly addicted to Hao's mouth. His fingers still move inside Hao as Hao twitches from the sensation. Hao's throat is hoarse from all the noises he's been making.
"Good night, Hao-hyung." Is the last thing Hao hears before he succumbs to the land of dreams.
._. ._. ._.
[Are Zhang Hao and Sung Hanbin dating?]
So I was going to the park today to walk my dog and I saw Zhang Hao and Sung Hanbin there too walking hand in hand….. They're smiling a whole lot, too! They seemed to really enjoy each other's company. Are they together? I know Zhang Hao is in an open relationship, but these past few months he's never indulged in any other relationships that I've heard of aside from his main one so I was wondering if he's with Sung Hanbin too now?
>why r we all so nosy LMFAO
>idk but i heard somewhere that hanbin has a crush on hao but like hes not special. personally i have a crush on them both
>i mean even if they were i dont think its any of our business
>if this is real… WOW! power campus couple!
>who else has a crush on sung hanbin. that man is unreal
[Woo Donggook, Bad in Bed?]
So apparently Woo Donggook is finding it harder to find people who wants to have sex with him. Not to be crude but he's not just bad at sex, but he's also just…. not nice. If he hits on you at a club or something I suggest you run away. His dick is small and he only cares about his pleasure. He also brags about how he got with Zhang Hao all the time. RUN. AWAY.
>how is this the guy that bagged zhang hao
>zhanghao is under spells i tell u
>its not even that his dick is small. its that his dick is small but he doesnt own it like he genuinely thinks he has a huge dick. its bizarre…
._. ._. ._.
Hao keeps meeting up with Hanbin. Donggook knows. Hao thinks of asking for permission, but nothing they're doing breaks anything Donggook said they could do with other people. They're just going on dates, and they've also had sex a few times. It's exactly what Donggook suggests they did with other people when they first opened their relationship. Hao thinks he spends a bit more time with Hanbin than he does with Donggook nowadays, but he doesn't really keep track. There's a certain comfort he feels from Hanbin that he doesn't from Donggook, but he doesn't know how to explain the feeling.
Hao goes on dates with Donggook, too, and they still have sex. For some reason, Donggook has been inviting him out more these days. At first he was happy, but when Donggook keeps on badmouthing Hanbin and being nosy about his relationship with Hanbin, Hao has started to feel annoyed at him. Thing is, it doesn't feel like he's really jealous about Hanbin. It feels more like a child crying after someone took their toy. In this scenario, Hao is the toy, of course, and at times it really does feel like that's how Donggook sees him. A toy for him to play with.
._. ._. ._.
Hao thinks he might go insane.
He has only realized this fact about himself, but he thinks he might be someone who loves partners with huge…. endowments, if you will. Hao can't stop thinking about Hanbin's incredibly gorgeous, incredibly huge dick. A few times lately, just thinking about Hanbin (and in extension, about Hanbin's dick) gets him so hot he has to finger himself to calm himself down. Even then, just the thought of getting fucked by sweet, precious Hanbin gets him warm again and he has to take a long, cold shower to feel even slightly like his usual self.
Hao has always thought he's someone with a low sex drive, so this new wave of horniness confuses him to no end. Before he started dating Donggook, he's always been able to go months without any kinds of sexual activity. But now, it's been weeks since he's woken up with a morning wood every single day, and he's masturbated more times these few weeks than he has probably done his whole life.
Post-nut clarity brings in the guilt (Why am I jerking off to Hanbin when I'm still dating Donggook!) but he still can't seem to stop himself.
It's not even that he's extremely pent up, because he does a lot of things with Hanbin. They've done so many things possibly every kinds of sex, other than anal, and its probably because Hanbin thinks that Hao is still scared of his dick. Which Hao is, but he's also very much intrigued by it.
"Hyung, I'm gonna— hahh— rub myself over here…. Can you bring your thighs closer together?" Hanbin pants, his chest sticking to Hao's back as he rubs his dick in between Hao's thighs. Hao is on his hands and knees, dripping both from lube and precum. The slide of Hanbin's dick nudging on his balls through his thigh is driving him crazy. Like this, Hao can feel Hanbin's dick against his, and he's exhilarated still by how huge it is.
Hanbin's hands are all over Hao, pinching on his nipples, holding onto his hips, he's all over Hao, touching everywhere but his dick.
"Hanbin-ah…. touch me, please…"
"I am touching you, hyung," Hanbin replies as he rubs all over Hao's tummy. Hao didn't even know his stomach was sensitive, but the way Hanbin is touching him makes him whine. Hanbin's hands are so close to where he wants them the most, but Hanbin is purposefully avoiding it. Hao moans again as Hanbin slams onto him, Hanbin's hot breath brushing his cheeks and Hanbin's thighs connecting to Hao's.
As Hanbin starts to pick up the pace, his dick accidentally catches onto Hao's rim. Hao lets out a loud whine, the light pressure of Hanbin's dick on his hole, even through the condom, makes him feel half insane.
"Hanbin… put it in, please…"
Hanbin pulls away, and then he slaps his dick against Hao's hole, one of his hands grabbing Hao's hips. "You're so pretty everywhere, hyung… how are you so pretty even here?"
"Hanbin-ah… don't tease…." The praise gets to Hao, his head feeling all soft and mushy. Hanbin keeps on rubbing himself on Hao, muttering more sweet praises as he dips the tip of his dick into Hao a few times, not going in further. Hao tries pushing his hips back to get Hanbin's dick inside, but Hanbin's grip on his hips are immovable. Earlier, Hanbin has fingered for so long and so thoroughly, and now Hao feels empty with nothing inside him, his hole wide and gaping and dripping.
Hao cries and then chokes on his tears as Hanbin slams in his dick, balls deep, in one go. Hao feels so full and so so good, eyes rolling back as Hanbin keeps thrusting into him. The squelch of the lube and the slaps of their skin on each other echoes through the room. Hao swears he could feel Hanbin in his throat. It's more than anything Hao have imagined. Hanbin is bigger, fuller, gentler than in his imagination. If he can have Hanbin like this, Hao doesn't want to jerk off by himself ever again.
"Hahhhh. Hanbin-ah… so big… so full..."
"Hao-hyung… you feel so good clenching around me…. so tight for me….. want to- hahh- fuck you forever if I could…"
Hanbin keeps on whispering sweet praises as he keeps rolling his hips to meet Hao's thighs, somehow getting even deeper inside Hao with every thrust, reaching places Hao didn't even know existed inside of him. Every other thrust, he nails right on Hao's prostate, leaving Hao out of breath.
"Will you let me, hyung?"
Hao is so fucked out he could only let out a confused noise as he clutches onto the bedsheets, his head falling down to his pillow. He loses his balance, now only on his knees with his ass up in the air and back all arched towards Hanbin.
"Will you let me fuck you forever?" Yesyesyesyesyesyesyesyesyesyesyes.
"Yes— forever— ngghh— you're in so deep, Hambinnie…" Hao's belly feels so full, and his nipples feels so good as he rubs them over the bedsheets from the force of Hanbin's thrusts. Hanbin doesn't stop moving, jostling Hao and making a mess of him on the bed. Hao is drooling all over the pillow, his body soaked with sweat and his thighs soaked from the mix of the precum and the extreme amount of lube Hanbin has used.
Hanbin rubs on his belly, and Hao immediately whines, like a button is being pushed. "Fuck, hyung, you're so perfect for me… I can feel myself here…"
Hao screams as Hanbin presses on the bulge of his dick through Hao's stomach. "So perfect, hyung." Hanbin is moaning too, the sound making Hao's untouched dick jump from how aroused he is.
"I love you, Hao-hyung."
Hao cums with a shout, immediately. Everything feels too much. He feels Hanbin everywhere. Hanbin lets out a groan as Hao clenches tightly around him, spilling inside Hao (inside the condom), and Hao nearly cums again from the warmth and the force of Hanbin's orgasm. Hanbin kisses the back of his neck, and it calms Hao down enough for him to catch his breath.
The weight of Hanbin's confession feels calming, like he's saying it just so Hao knows and not for an answer. But it gets Hao thinking. As Hanbin cleans them both up and they're both cuddling in bed, Hao thinks. And thinks again.
“Hanbin,” Hao says. “Are you attracted to me? Like…. sexually? You don't have to answer." He feels like a narcissist, asking a question like this to a person like Hanbin, but he really does have to know. He looks away, unable to look Hanbin in the eyes.
Hanbin doesn't answer. Hao doesn't really expect him to anyway. Hanbin is so kind to everyone, he's probably thinking of how to tell Hao he's not into him in a way that doesn't hurt his feelings.
"Hao." No hyung. No honorifics. Hao has asked Hanbin multiple times to drop the honorific, and he has sometimes, but most of the time he sticks to it like its a part of Hao's name. "We just had sex. We have had sex. Multiple times."
Hao tucks himself further inside the blanket. Hanbin is a furnace sticking to him. "I mean, that doesn't answer anything. you could still have sex with me even if you're not sexually attracted to me and it would be fine because attraction isn't something you can control and you don't have to be attracted to me—"
Hanbin puts his hands on either side of Hao's face, pulling him to look right into Hanbin's eyes. This way, Hao could see his naked, lightly sculpted chest. It's very distracting.
"Hyung, listen to me." Hao has never felt this relieved to hear the word hyung from anyone before. His heart calms down. "I'm going to be extremely honest to you, and you have to believe me, because I've never lied to you before."
Hao tries to nod, but Hanbin's hands doesn't let his face move. His chest is still naked and still in Hao's peripheral area of sight. Hao feels like he's making eye contact with Hanbin's nipples. "Okay."
"I am extremely sexually attracted to you. I think you are quite possibly the most attractive person in the world, and I'm not only extremely sexually attracted to you, I'm also very, very romantically interested in you. I know you're in an… open relationship right now, and you're still with your boyfriend, and I'm fine with that. I really just want to make you happy, hyung."
"Hyung, I'm so attracted to you it makes me look stupid, trust me," Hanbin says, finally letting Hao's face go to run his hand through his hair. Hao can really see the tattoo sprawled on the inside of his arm this way, and it's so sexy Hao has to swallow down his drool.
Hanbin's words calm him down. He's so relaxed he just went right back to sleep, cuddling Hanbin. Hao has been told he snores (Donggook says it's why he never stays over to sleep after they had sex), but Hanbin has never complaint. He'll ask Hanbin about it later, maybe in the morning, he thinks, and he goes right to sleep.
._. ._. ._.
The thing is, with Hanbin, it's never just about the sex.
They Do have sex. A lot, even. (Even though he does feel guilty, it feels too good for him to not indulge himself in it. Hanbin is amazing with his hands and his tongue and his dick). But most of the time they just hang out (go on dates), on walks, going out to eat, hanging out with each other's friends so much that they feel like one big famly.
Right now, they're on another one of their walks, just walking around the park to look at other people's dogs. Hanbin sniffles, scrunching up his nose. Hao worries, wonders if he's sick. Then he sniffles again, softer this time, and it doesn't sound wet, like there's no snot in that sniffle. Hao finds that he thinks Hanbin’s nose scrunch is the cutest thing he's ever seen.
And you know what they say, (they being Ricky) it's over when you start finding them cute. Hao is falling for Hanbin, and there's nothing he can do about it.
._. ._. ._.
"Hyung… who are you talking to?"
Hao is sitting on Hanbin's lap, leaning against Hanbin's chest with Hanbin's arm around him. He can feel Hanbin's pout in his voice as Hanbin holds onto him tighter. Hanbin kisses him all over his neck while he nuzzles at him, and Hao giggles a little at the feeling.
"Hmm… should I tell you?"
Hao can feel Hanbin's pout against his neck now. "Hmph, fine. don't tell me, then…"
Hao continues teasing him, and Hanbin pulls him in even closer, putting his whole weight on Hao's shoulder as he leans on him when he laughs.
._. ._. ._.
Hanbin is beginning to feel like Hao is his. He looks at him and think, Mine. He holds Hao’s waist and think, Mine. He kisses his cheeks and swallows his giggles in kisses and think Mine. In his head, Hao is all his. But rationally, Hanbin knows he's not the only person to be with Hao. Hao is still with his boyfriend. But Hanbin is happy to have him like this in his arms, pliant and radiant and happy. Hanbin even thinks about Hao with other people. People who aren't his boyfriend and who aren't Hanbin, and he feels like smashing his head to the concrete of Matthew's impenetrable dorm room wall.
._. ._. ._.
Every time he's with Hanbin, Hao feels a certain lightness he doesn't know exactly how to describe. It feels like the warmth of his two puppies back home in China, like the tea his mother used to brew for him, like the warmth of his friends as he hugs them when they meet. It feels a little bit like love.
He doesn't feel this way with Donggook. He thinks of whether he has just fallen out of love, but he thinks he might not have known what love was before he met Hanbin. Unconsciously and also consciously, his head can't help but compare Hanbin and Donggook whenever he's with either of them, and the comparison continues even when he's not with them. Donggook has never made him feel even a fraction of what Hanbin makes him feel. Dates with Donggook feels like an obligation, not something they do to spend time together. He looks forward to dates with Hanbin, excited to hear him talk about his day and also just to spend time with each other.
There's also the matter of sex. Sex with Donggook feels like a chore. Like a means to an end. With Donggook, it's like he's using Hao to get off, instead of them finding pleasure together. With Hanbin, though, it's something more. Hanbin cares for Hao, and it shows during sex too. He cares for Hao's pleasure, always putting Hao before himself.
Hao thinks and thinks and thinks, and thinks again.
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The thing is, it was never only about Hanbin. All his friends hate Donggook, and now Hao is distanced enough from him that he realizes why. When Donggook opened up their relationship, he was doing it out of boredom, but also possibly because he never was in love with Hao at all. He wanted to keep Hao like a pretty trophy, a pretty accessory to complement him and to fulfill his sexual needs. As Hanbin and Hao starts getting closer, Donggook gets angrier. He even tried to jokingly close the relationship (Hao found out from Matthew, Hanbin's friend, that Donggook was apparently not as desirable in the market as he had led Hao to think, and that a lot of people he tried to pursue actually had a crush on Hao instead).
So, when Hao comes home to his apartment a bit later than the time they've decided to meet, and Donggook sarcastically asks if he's late because he was with his new boytoy, Hao snaps.
"What is your problem with Hanbin, Donggook?" Hao crosses his arms. They're both tense right now, and Hao had been minimizing the times he talks about Hanbin to Donggook, but he can't stand Donggook badmouthing Hanbin in front of him.
"Nothing, just that he's clearly just using you. You think he really likes you?" Donggook scoffs. "You wish, Hao. A guy like that, he's just with you because he's a cuck. He's just with you because he gets off on you also being with me."
Hao thinks that even if that were the case, he would be alright with it. But Hao knows Donggook is completely wrong. "Hanbin's not like that."
"He'll throw you away soon, just you see," Donggook says. He's smiling now, the traces of his anger from before nearly non existent. "So I think before that you have to throw him away first, babe. How about we close our relationship again? I think we've both gotten enough excitement for a lifetime." He's said this before, but tried to pass it off as a joke. Repeating it like this means he's actually serious.
If this was before he met Hanbin, Hao would fall over his knees agreeing to Donggook closing their relationship again and keeping them exclusive. Now, though, he really doesn't want to. Hao stays silent, trying to figure out how to word what he wants.
"I mean, I think it wouldn't be that easy to just close the relationship… I'll need to think about it some more, and then I—"
"Why would this be a hard decision?" Donggook interrupts him, the volume of his voice getting louder. "You didn't even want to open our relationship in the first place! We can just go back to how we were, baby. Just us. How about it?"
Hao thinks of the guilt. Of how much better he feels with Hanbin on dates and in bed than with Donggook. How everything now reminds him of Hanbin. Hao thinks of his relationship with Donggook, how they've been dating for almost 2 years, now. Hao thinks about how he wants to spend the rest of his life with Hanbin. Hao thinks about how he doesn't ever want to see Donggook again.
Hao inhales, exhales, and says, "No. I don't think I want that. I think we should break up, Donggook."
Donggook jeers at him. "Fine. Just don't come running back to me once he throws you away." He picks up all his stuff, and slams the door so hard the whole room trembles.
Hao feels tears running down his face even though he doesn't mean to. Even after ending his relationship with Donggook, all he could think about was Hanbin. Hao decides right then that he's not worth Hanbin's love. Donggook's words get to him. Maybe if he's not in another relationship anymore, Hanbin really wouldn't want him any longer. He thinks about Hanbin, thinks about avoiding Hanbin so Hanbin can find someone better. Someone who isn't Hao. Then he cries himself to sleep.
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Life without Donggook is… as usual. Hao is scared by how freeing it is for him to not be dating Donggook anymore. There's a lightness in his chest he hasn't felt in a while. Life without Hanbin, though, is pure torture. Hao avoids Hanbin like the plague. He doesn't respond to his texts, though he can't help himself from opening them, so he ends up leaving Hanbin on read. When Hanbin approaches him anywhere, he sprints. He's not a fast runner, but Hanbin doesn't try catching him. Hao thinks Hanbin is trying to give him space. Hao hopes he keeps doing it, so Hao can finally move on. He misses Hanbin terribly, but if he gets any closer with Hanbin he would never want to let him go.
When he tells his friends he broke up with Donggook, and that he's the one who initiated it, his friends cheer.
"You're finally free from Fuckass Donggook, Hao-hyung!" Taerae says. He's smiling his happy smile, the one that shows off his teeth. "Now you can be happy forever with Hanbin-hyung!"
"You finally see the light," Ricky adds. "Hanbin-hyung is so much better than fuckass Donggook. In a way I'm glad he decided to be stupid and open your relationship because now you've met someone better!"
Hao doesn't know how to break the news to them. "I'm avoiding Hanbin… I haven't talked to him from after I broke up with Donggook."
Taerae and Ricky gasps. They look at each other in disbelief, and then they turn to look at Hao.
"Why the fuck would you do that!"
"Poor Hanbin-hyung…"
As they shake him and ask him why he's doing it, Hao zones out and thinks about Hanbin's smile.
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hanbin
hyung how r u (˶ˆᗜˆ˵) ive missed u!
im hanging out w gyuvinnie and yujinnie today! they said they miss u too ><
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hanbin
hyung good morning!! i hope u slept well ⸜( ˶>ᴗ<˶)⸝♡
do u wanna go get food with me today? i just found a new soondae place! it looks pretty good
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u must be busy hyung
remember to take breaks! im cheering u on!
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hanbin
hao hyung r u sick? i havent seen u around…
can i come over? i can bring soup for u (˶ᵔᗜᵔ˶)ﾉﾞ
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hanbin
hyung why did u run away when i said hi to u at the library?
did i do something wrong?
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hanbin
hyung ricky told me he doesnt know why ure avoiding me
is it something i did?
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Hanbin doesn't know what to do. Hao has been avoiding him for weeks now, and he leaves Hanbin's texts on read. Hanbin has tried giving him space, but if Hao is upset about something Hanbin did, he wants to fix it.
hanbin
mashu-ya
i think i fucked up
i think hao hyung is mad at me
hes avoiding meeee ｡°(°.◜ᯅ◝°)°｡
he leaves me on read and whenever i try talking to him in person he runs away
i hope i die
matthew
damn thats rough hyung
did u ever do anything to him
that he seemed to be upset about?
hanbin
sometimes i get jealous and ask him who hes texting
he didnt look upset but
oh my god
was that too much
was i too clingy
did i come on too strong
i told him i love him too
he didnt say anything but he didnt look annoyed
oh god maybe he was annoyed but i didnt get it
omg he must think im so annoying
he hates meeeee
matthew
u do come on too strong smtimes hyung
but tbh hao hyung seems like the kind who wld be into that
so i think u should talk to him face to face
hanbin
im tryingggg
matthew
try harder wtffff
hanbin
ok ill catch him where he cant run away
ill catch him i really will
matthew
u go hanbin hyung!!!
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After a few days of his Hanbin Avoidance Period, Hao misses him. Hao misses his laugh, the way he holds Hao's waist, the gentle way he talks. Hao wants to answer his texts, wants to hold his hand. He wants to kiss him. He wants to go on walks with him.
As Hao eats in the campus cafeteria, wallowing in his misery, someone approaches him. Their shadow looks familiar, but Hao doesn't look up, busy missing Hanbin and busy eating food.
"Hao-hyung." Now Hao could even hear Hanbin's voice. He's starting to get delusional.
Then there's a hand holding his wrist, gentle enough that he could get away if he really wanted, but strong enough that it holds him in place. The touch is familiar, and when Hao looks up, he's greeted by Hanbin's beautiful face.
His eyes are red and tear-stricken, but he looks the same as always. Before Hao could run away, Hanbin holds on to his wrist harder, just enough to make him stay.
"Hao-hyung, please just talk to me…. Did I do something wrong? If you really, really want me to go away I can do it. But please tell me why…"
Hao doesn't know how to answer him. He looks down at his food so he doesn't have to make eye contact with Hanbin. "It's not you, it's me," Hao says. He's aware it sounds like a cliché, like a line from a bad TV show, but he doesn't know what else to say. "Let go of me, Hanbin."
Hanbin doesn't let go. "Was I too much, hyung? Is it so bad that I like you so much?"
"No, I told you, it's not you."
"Then, why?" Hanbin's voice cracks. "Do you hate me now?"
He hears a sniffle. Is Hanbin crying? Hao looks up so fast his neck cracks, and he sees Hanbin holding back his tears as he's clutching on to Hao's hand. It takes all of his willpower to stop himself from wiping Hanbin's tears away. "I don't, Hanbin. I told you it's not you. Don't cry…"
"I just miss you so much, hyung…." Hanbin sniffles. The way he's scrunching up his nose is too cute. He's all red, too, like a peach fruit. "Can you tell me what's wrong? If it's not me then, what-"
"I broke up with Donggook."
Hanbin blinks away his tears. His eyelashes are so long, they catch his tears and keep them there, so it takes Hanbin longer to respond. His eyelashes are so pretty. "You broke up?"
"Yeah."
"Do you want to break up with me, too?" They go on dates and have sex and spend time together, but they never specified what they were. Huh.
Hao doesn't want to let him go, doesn't want to break up, but he has to. He also can't lie to Hanbin. "You deserve someone better, Hanbinnie."
"You're the best I could possibly ever want, Hao-hyung," Hanbin says. He's so serious, but his eyes are wet and his skin is all red and blotchy, so he ends up just looking adorable. He pulls Hao into a tight hug, his lips kissing Hao's neck. "I wasn't kidding when I said I love you, so please…"
Hanbin's touch calms him down. He's still sobbing, his tears wetting the sleeve of Hao's shirt. Hao can't bear to see him this way.
Oh well, fuck it. Maybe Hao can have him. Hanbin is perfect for him, maybe he will be allowed to keep him, just this once. "Are you sure you're okay with me, Hanbin?"
Hanbin seems to forget that he's hugging Hao, so when he nods as hard and as fast as he possibly can, their foreheads knock on each other's. They giggle together, still clutching to one another. "We're boyfriends, then?" Hanbin asks.
Hao smiles at him and buries his head on the crook of Hanbin's neck, hugging him tighter. "Yeah."
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[HAOBIN: OFFICIALLY TOGETHER?]
I was at the cafeteria today minding my own business eating discount food when suddenly I saw The Sung Hanbin running towards The Zhang Hao (who was also eating in the cafeteria by the way) and then he starts holding Hao's wrist. I don't know what happened exactly but they talked and Hanbin cried and they hugged and they talked again and they laughed and they hugged again. I couldn't hear what they were talking about but it looked like good news. Hooray to the happy couple!
>haobin sounds so cute
>theyre so cute wtf congrats to them both if true
>TAKE THAT DONGGOOK
>what happened to donggook anyway
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Hao swears he wasn't planning on jumping Hanbin after they made it official, but he can't help himself. Hanbin is wearing a simple with t-shirt, the outlines of his chest lightly bulging through the fabric, and Hao wants to suck him off so badly he almost pulled Hanbin's pants down in front of everyone and possibly change the trajectory of their lives forever.
"Hyung, now that we're really, really together….. Is it okay if we take it slow? I feel like I was a bit too eager to have you in any way I could, so I wanted to get to know you even better."
Hao thinks Hanbin has been perfect at that, asking so many questions and being genuinely interested in Hao and everything that he's saying. But Hao needed Hanbin in him like, 5 seconds ago. He gets it, though. It hasn't been long since he broke up with Fuckass Donggook (Calling him Fuckass Donggook is right, Taerae and Ricky really is always right), and things between him and Hanbin has moved too fast.
Today is a Thursday, and possibly the best Thursday of Hao's life.
"I've liked you since that time we did that project together, you know."
Hao gasps. This is news to him. "You what?"
"Yeah," Hanbin smiles, and grabs Hao's hand. "I'll tell you all about it, hyung."
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Zhang Hao thinks Thursdays should exist. He was superstitious in a weird, never seen before way, but he's let it go. So many good things have happened to him on a Thursday. Meeting Hanbin at that party, breaking up with his no-good asshole ex, getting officially together with Hanbin. Thursdays are his new favorite days, and it's Hanbin's as well.
(Hanbin says he never really thinks about which days of the week are his favorites before, but he really thinks about it now because Hao asked. Hao loves him more than words can describe.)