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The Spine did not forgive carelessness, and Sariel had long since stopped expecting it to. She had lived beneath its shoulders for fifteen years now — long enough that the mountains had stopped feeling like a place she was hiding in and started feeling, in the unguarded hours, like the only place that had ever fully belonged to her. In that time she had learned the range the way a farmer learns a difficult field: which slopes flooded first in the spring thaw, which ridgelines carried sound wrong, which hollows held the old, cold air long after the rest of the mountain had warmed toward summer. Fifteen years of moving quiet through all of it, and she had never once let the mountain catch her the way it caught careless men. Tonight the wind moved wrong, funneling down off the higher ridges in short, irritable gusts that scattered scent before a hunter could use it, and she had spent the better part of an hour lying motionless in the crook of a broken pine, watching a boy she was sworn to protect make every mistake the mountain punished.
Eragon was better than he had been a year ago. He had taught himself to hunt out of plain necessity rather than any love of the craft — a farm with one working man and a harvest that never quite stretched far enough demanded meat on the table however a boy could manage it, and he had managed it, over years of trial and failure that Sariel had watched from a careful distance, with no one's guidance but his own persistence and whatever his uncle Garrow had been willing to spare the time to show him. He moved through the brush now with a hunter's patience but still, after all those years, a farmboy's feet, and twice already tonight she had watched a doe startle at some sound he hadn't noticed he'd made — the scrape of a bowstring against leather, the shift of weight onto a root that hadn't fully settled. He was sixteen, or near enough, and he did not know that anyone watched him at all, and this was, Sariel had long ago decided, the entire and exhausting shape of her work: to be present for a boy's life without ever once appearing in it.
She had not chosen this, not at the start. She had agreed to it, which was not the same thing, though after fifteen years the distinction had worn thin enough that she rarely bothered drawing it anymore even for her own benefit. Brom had asked it of her when Eragon was barely more than a toddling thing underfoot in Garrow's yard, and she had said yes for reasons that had made sense to her once and had since settled into something closer to habit than conviction — a debt to Brom she had never fully named even to herself, and beneath that debt, older and less examined, some quieter need of her own to matter to somebody's survival, even a survival that would never know her name.
She earned her keep, those fifteen years, the way any solitary body in the Spine had to. She traded when trading was needed — furs and herbs and the occasional worked stone down in Therinsford or Carvahall itself, always careful, always a face people half-remembered and never quite placed, a quiet woman who came through for salt and rope and left again before anyone thought to ask where she slept at night. She had learned to pitch her voice human, to walk with a human's ordinary economy of motion rather than the loose, unhurried grace her mother's blood gave her when she let it show. Fifteen years of small, deliberate diminishments, so that a boy who had grown up not thirty miles from where she slept most nights would never once look at her and wonder.
Below her, in the shallow bowl of the valley, Eragon crouched at the treeline and drew his bow toward a doe grazing in the open, and Sariel allowed herself, for just a moment, the small indulgence of watching him rather than the mountain around him. His draw was clean enough, for a boy who had built it himself out of nothing but repetition and stubbornness. She felt the old, complicated warmth she always felt watching Eragon succeed at something — pride with no right to call itself pride, since she had earned no part of it and could claim no part of it either, not without unmaking fifteen years of careful invisibility in a single conversation.
The arrow flew true. The doe did not fall.
Sariel's whole body went still in the way that meant something had gone wrong before her mind had finished naming what. The arrow had struck true and clean and the doe had simply — vanished, not fled, not startled and bolted for the treeline the way a wounded animal ought, but come apart into a soundless silver flash that left no blood, no body, nothing at all where an animal had stood a heartbeat before, and in the space it left behind the sky itself seemed to catch and tear.
She had seen magic before. She had wielded it herself since before Eragon's grandfather had been born. What tore open above the valley in that instant was not the magic she knew — it did not flare and settle the way a working ought, controlled by some hand somewhere holding its shape. It simply broke, the way ice breaks on a lake in the first hard thaw, sudden and total and entirely beyond anyone's intention, and for one disoriented moment Sariel thought, absurdly, of her mother's stories of the world's first morning, when the sky had not yet learned to hold itself apart from the earth.
A dragon egg, she thought, and the thought arrived whole and certain, the way true things sometimes did, well ahead of any evidence her eyes could offer to support it.
It fell in a long silver arc and landed somewhere in the deep brush below Eragon's position, and Sariel watched the boy freeze at the sound of it — not fear, not yet, but the particular stillness of a hunter who knows something enormous has just happened very near him and has not yet decided whether it means to notice him in turn.
She could have reached the egg first. The thought moved through her with a swiftness that shamed her a little, even alone, even unheard — she was faster than Eragon by any measure that mattered, more silent, better armed, and the ridge she crouched on gave her the shorter path by a wide margin. She could be standing over that egg before the boy had finished working up the courage to approach the place where a doe had un-become itself in a sheet of light. She had guarded dragon lore her whole adult life without ever once being permitted to touch it, had grown up on her mother's half-told stories of the Riders the way other children grew up on nursery rhymes, and some small, unhealed part of her — the part that was still, after sixty-eight years, a girl whose mother had left her the stories and nothing else — wanted very badly to go and see.
She did not move.
Brom's rule had never been complicated, whatever else could be said of the man. The magic chooses. Not the swiftest hand nor the most deserving nor the one who has waited longest to be chosen — the magic itself, in whatever manner it judged such things, and no amount of wanting on Sariel's part had ever been permitted to weigh on that scale. She had asked him once, years ago, in a rare unguarded hour over a shared fire, whether he believed that truly or simply found it a convenient thing to believe, given how conveniently it excused a Rider's death from ever needing further explanation. He had looked at her for a long moment, the firelight doing nothing kind to the grief still sitting behind his eyes even then, and said, It is the only rule I have never once seen the world break for anyone, Mor'amila. Not for kings. Not for grief. I have stopped expecting it to break for me.
She thought of that now, lying motionless in the broken pine while a farmboy she was sworn to protect crept toward the single most valuable object in Alagaësia and had not the faintest idea what he carried in his own two hands. She thought of it, and she let the wanting pass through her the way she had learned to let most things pass through her in fifteen years of watching a life she was not permitted to join, and she stayed exactly where she was.
Eragon knelt in the brush. Sariel watched him find the egg — watched his shoulders go rigid with the particular shock of a boy realizing the world has just handed him something it had no business handing anyone — and watched him, after a long, disbelieving moment, gather it carefully into the crook of one arm and rise.
He looked around himself then. Not up toward her ridge — he had no reason yet to know to look there, and fifteen years of practice had taught her exactly how still a body could hold itself and still be called alive — but around, at the ordinary dark, at a mountain that had, in the space of a few minutes, stopped being ordinary at all and had not troubled itself to warn him first. He turned the egg over once in his hands, marveling at it the way any farm-raised boy might marvel at a piece of good, strange, unclaimed stone, and then, slowly, began to make his way back down toward the valley floor and the long walk home, carrying the whole unraveling future of Alagaësia tucked against his ribs like something he'd found by accident and meant to ask his uncle about over supper.
Sariel stayed in the broken pine long after he had gone, the wind still moving wrong around her, and turned the whole of it over in her mind with the flat, careful attention she gave to anything that might get someone killed. A dragon egg, fallen into a farmboy's hands in the one valley in Alagaësia where Brom had chosen, for reasons he had never fully explained even to her, to keep his own quiet watch. She did not believe in coincidence readily. She had lived too long and buried too many people who had believed in it right up until the moment it killed them.
There were, she made herself consider, other ways this could unfold than the one already turning over in her chest like dread. The egg might yet reject him — eggs had been known to lie dormant against a Rider's touch for years, sometimes for a whole lifetime, waiting for a soul the dragon within had not yet found reason to trust. It was entirely possible that Eragon would carry that stone home, set it on some shelf, and grow old wondering at the strange, heavy rock he'd once found in the Spine, never knowing what he'd nearly been. She turned that possibility over and found she did not believe it either, not really — some old instinct, the same one that had kept her alive fifteen years alone in a mountain range that killed careless men and women both, told her plainly that the world did not send silver fire tearing open the sky over nothing.
She would have to tell Brom tonight. There was no version of this that could wait for morning, and no version of it, either, that she trusted herself to carry alone without his older, steadier judgment set against her own.
She rose from the pine at last, brushing bark and old snow from her sleeves with the same unhurried care she brought to everything, and looked once more at the empty place in the brush where a boy had picked up a future he had not asked for and could not yet begin to understand the weight of. Fifteen years she had watched him grow from a solemn, big-eyed toddler trailing after Garrow's plow to this — a boy on the cusp of manhood, capable now of feeding a household on his own two hands, utterly unaware that the woman who'd quietly haunted the edges of his whole life had just watched the shape of that life change forever.
"Well," she said quietly, to no one, to the mountain, to the old, unkillable ache of wanting something she had sworn long ago never to want again. "That settles that, then."
She turned north, toward Carvahall, and began to run — not the hurried, graceless run of a woman in a hurry, but the long, ground-eating lope her mother's blood had given her and human company had taught her, over fifteen careful years, never to use where anyone might see. The mountain fell away beneath her in the dark, familiar as her own two hands, and she let it carry her, thinking the whole way of how she would find the words to tell an old storyteller that the boy he'd spent a lifetime guarding from a distance had just picked up a dragon's egg as though it were nothing stranger than a river stone, and gone home to wait for his uncle to notice he was late for supper.
The village lights came into view a little before midnight — modest, scattered things, tallow candles and hearth-glow behind shuttered windows, the whole of Carvahall settling into the particular hush of a farming town that rose with the sun and had no patience for staying up past it. Sariel slowed as she came down off the last true slope of the Spine, letting the loping ease drain back out of her stride until she moved like any tired traveler come in late from the hills, and made her way through the dark, quiet lanes toward the modest house at the village's edge where Brom had, for reasons of his own choosing, spent so many years playing the harmless old storyteller for a town that had no notion what it actually kept in its midst.
A single candle still burned behind his shutters. It always did, these last few years — Brom slept poorly and pretended otherwise, and Sariel had long since stopped commenting on it, since she slept little better herself and saw no particular grace in pointing out a fellow insomniac's habits. She rapped twice at the door, low, in the old pattern they'd settled between them years before that meant only her hand could be knocking and no one else's, and waited, listening to the scrape of a chair and the slow, deliberate tread of a man whose knees had long since stopped forgiving him for the life he'd led before Carvahall.
The door opened a crack, then wider, and Brom's weathered face resolved out of the candlelit dark within, one eyebrow already lifting at the sight of her — not alarm, not yet, but the particular sharpening of attention she had seen in him only a handful of times before, the look of a man who had learned, across a very long life, to take a late-night knock seriously before he'd even heard the news that justified it.
"Mor'amila," he said, low, using the name he kept only for the hours when no one else in Carvahall could possibly be listening. "You don't come to my door at this hour for nothing."
"No," Sariel agreed, and let him see, for once, exactly how little her usual composure was holding. "I don't."
He stood back from the door without another word, an old, wordless understanding passing between them that this was not a conversation for the doorstep, and Sariel stepped past him into the narrow, familiar warmth of his house, already gathering the words she would need to tell him that the boy he'd watched over half his life had just changed both their futures without ever knowing he'd done it.