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I never really was good at writing. Whenever I tried to write a letter to someone, it usually came out wrong. The only time that I ever sent letters was when Egg was in the end, or if I needed something from someone far away, even then, Egg would be the one writing the actual letter.
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“Wemmbu” I flinched before realising that it was my best friend, Eggchan.
“Huh? What is it?” I turned towards him. He sat next to me on a kitchen stool, eating breakfast.
“You wouldn’t mind if I went back to Aether for a bit, would you?” Egg asked, he looked like he was slightly pleading, though it was hard to tell since he had bandages on his face.
“No dude! It’s fine! You haven’t gone to Aether in a while so you must miss it” I replied, comforting him and letting him know that I was fine on my own.
“Are you sure?” He asked, double checking that I truly was fine.
“Yes Egg.” I confirmed it with him again.
Egg let out a small sigh in acceptance.
“I’ll be going in two days so you need to have everything you need by then”
“Egg I swear I’ll be fine on my own. Merchant city isn’t that far and I’ll be okay with taking care of myself.”
“You promise?” He put out his pinky.
“I promise.” I connected my pinky with his.
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It wasn’t long ago since Egg left. It had only been twelve days but I had already started to get bored.
Usually, Egg gave me a list of errands to run every two days, but he must have been busy in the end, which meant that I had absolutely nothing to do.
So, that’s how I ended up going back to writing. Okay, I know I said that I wasn’t the best at writing, but that didn’t mean that I hated it. In fact, it used to be one of my favourite hobbies.
I let out a sigh and stood up from my seat, heading towards the library in our shared base.
Egg had begged me to put a library in the base, explaining that it “wouldn’t take up much space and we wouldn’t have to have books everywhere anymore” but that was such a lie.
There were stacks of books everywhere. In the living room, kitchen, backyard, balcony, one time, there were books on the roof…
I picked up a pen and sat down on the desk we had in the library corner. I hummed as I wrote a short letter to Eggchan.
Eggchan
26 Sunshine Coast
Butterfly skies, Aether
Dear Eggchan,
Hey Egg, I don’t know if you’ll see this letter since you might be busy, but I’ll still send it anyway. I just wanted to tell you that I’m bored. There isn’t anything to do, no errands to run, no books to read. I hope you’re having a good in the Aether though, definitely more fun than what I’m doing. I’ve honestly just been lazing around the house, or taking walks everywhere. The most recent thing I did was visit Capitol City.
August 30 - te desidero
Also, how do you feel about cats? When I went to Capitol City, I saw a pet store and these two cats hypnotised me into coming in. They had soft white fur and blue eyes, plus they were apparently siblings. If we did get them (not saying we will, but), can we name them Crucible and Gambit? (✿◠‿◠) Don’t worry I won’t get them without your permission but if you don’t reply in the next two days, I might.. If I do, I promise to take care of them and keep them healthy. They almost followed me home too lol the pet store owner was so confused they got like two people to get them back in.
Please give me ideas on what to do while you’re gone. Even Flame hasn’t begged me to fight him, I think he’s helping a guy named Lomedy on his farm or something. Parrot is busy with his things since he just became king again, so I can’t go to him. And Spoke? He’s in the End somewhere. Apparently on a trip with Mapicc, visiting his hometown. When you come back from Aether, can we go on a trip together? Anywhere is fine, as long as it’s peaceful and I don’t have to fight anyone while we’re there. By the way, I miss you.
Truthfully, Wemmbu
I laughed at how cringe the letter was before putting it in the envelope and putting the sticker on.
I let out a giggle as I walked to my room. I put the letter on my bedside table before going to the bathroom to take a shower and brush my teeth.
Then there I was. Laying in bed, thinking about nothing. It was midnight and I needed my energy to get to Capitol City. So I forced myself to go to sleep.
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Morning came sooner than expected. I groaned as I stood up from my bed, heading towards the bathroom.
I tidied myself up, brushed my hair, brushed my teeth, and did my usual routine.
Before I headed towards the kitchen to eat breakfast, I picked up the letter and put it in my inventory.
I only ate two bites of my toast before realising what time it was, rushing out the door.
I grabbed my elytra, and put my boots on, letting out a small sigh as my journey towards Capitol City began.
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I went to the post office and sent the letter, hoping that Egg would reply soon since, well, it was boring without him.
I went around the city, but found everything boring until I saw a store that perked my interest.
“Society of Poetry”
“Huh” I walked inside the small cozy store. Though it was little, it had thousands of stories to tell.
I couldn’t help myself and bought a box full… surely Egg wouldn’t mind right?
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I flew back home and put the box of books in storage so that Egg wouldn’t find them. Not yet at least.
I sat back at the desk in the corner again. My head layed on top of the notebook. For once, my mind actually had thoughts in it. Only they weren’t very good.
Are you good enough?
Do you care for him?
Are you willing to let him go?
Do you have pure intentions?
Are you strong enough?
are
you
a
lost
cause
?
I sighed. My heart started to beat faster than it should’ve. I impulsively opened the drawer to the desk. There layed a small danger.
I lifted my sleeves, seeing all of the times this had happened before. All of the times I promised myself that it would only be a one time thing, until it happened time, and time again.
The tears fell before I knew it, and so did the blood. It wasn’t long before I was curled up into a ball on the floor.
I crawled towards my bedroom, tears still flowing down my face, dagger still held in my hand. I managed to get onto the corner of my bed before fully breaking down.
The dagger in my hand fell loose, causing a slight noise when it dropped down. My arms were still bleeding through the poet shirt over top.
I covered my face with my hands, my hair covered my whole body and some pieces stuck to my face because of the tears.
Egg was only gone for 13 days. I should’ve been fine. I had survived a month without him before, so why am I acting up now?
I coughed, only to see blood on my hands. How sick am I? Egg would know. He always knew
I looked at the calendar. It was going to be annual night festival soon. Today was August 31st The festival was September 21st. I hoped that Egg would be back by then.
Egg. Was he all that I ever thought about? No. No he wasn’t. It was just because— he was gone and he was usually always by my side. Usually. I just thought about him a lot recently because he was gone.
I cleaned myself up in the bathroom, though the tears still wouldn’t stop. I put the dagger away and curled back into a ball. As I fell asleep, all I could think about was Egg’s absence. I silently hoped that he would be back soon. If not, a letter would be nice.
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I groaned as the light shone through my blinds and onto my face. My face looked like shit.
I pulled myself together and headed to Capitol City. I remembered telling Eggchan that I wouldn’t go to Parrot but he wouldn’t mind right?
I stopped by the post office, not expecting Egg to answer to quickly but he did. I opened the letter and read it on the way to Parrot’s castle.
Wemmbu
Dear Wemmbu,
Hey Wem, sorry I haven’t been able to write to you. You were right, I have been busy in Aether. Turns out I picked the worst time to come back, it’s festival season. Every single day, my family and I go to a festival and we don’t come back rill midnight. I honestly can’t count how many times we awkwardly stood waiting for the photographer at the festival to take the photo. Also don’t worry, I got you a souvenir. It’s this pen I saw in a store that reminded me of you.
September 2 - Semper Fidelis
Sorry I haven’t given you errands or anything. I thought that you might’ve had things to do while I was gone. If you need things to do, could you please go to Lomedy and tell him about my trip? I kinda forgot to tell him and I don’t know whether or not he’s mad because we’re actually supposed have a sleepover in two days but I won’t be back by then. Also— yes, you can get the two cats. As long as they’re well behaved and don’t cause any trouble, then yes. The only thing I deny are the names. We are not naming the cats after your mace. Not in a million years.
By the way. I heard that the annual night festival is soon, do you wanna go together? I’ll be back by then. I come back on the nineteeth so two days before the night festival. And yes, we can go on a trip together once I’m back. I really want to visit the End like Spoke and Mapicc. I’ve only ever been there when I got stuck and even then, I didn’t travel much. Minute made sure that I was always safe so I was always in the office, writing stuff. Speaking of— I’m shocked you actually wrote to me. You never really write to people and when you do, it’s usually me who writes it for you. Keep writing dude, you might actually be better than me. Lastly, I miss you too.
Sincerely, Eggchan
I stopped at the fountain after reading Egg’s request. Guess I wouldn’t be going to Parrot. I let out a sigh and started to head out to Lomedy’s farm.
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When I got there, I wasn’t expecting to be mauled by a dog. I fell on the ground as the dog licked my face.
Thankfully I caught the dog before it could bite my cheek and cover me with saliva.
I sat up straight and started to pet the dog. It was a big fluffy Alaskan husky with a red collar.
I was mid-pet when I saw a figure approaching me. It was no other than the immortal demon. Flamefrags.
“Gee dude looks like Ashen did a number..” He let out a laugh, putting his hand out in the open for me. I took his hand and stood up, dusting myself off while handing the dog back to Flame.
“What are you even doing here bro?” He asked, having that smug look on his face beneath the blindfold. “I was trying to find Lomedy… do you know where he is?”
Flame put the growly dog down, petting it before it came towards me again. “He’s inside.” He used his thumb to point at the farmstead.
He looked down at the dog with a condescending smile. “Bro why does it look like Ashen likes you over me??” I laughed and started to head towards wherever Lomedy was. “I’m just better bro.”
I turned and saw him following, the dog was walking towards me and seemed way more enthusiastic about the fact that I was here rather than the fact that Flame was here.
I turned backwards, engaging in a short conversation with Flame before spotting Lomedy in the distance planting carrot in the soil.
“Yo Lomedy?” He turned his head towards me slowly, possibly out of confusion, possible out of fear. “Yes……?” Okay this guy is definitely scared of me.
“Look I’m not here to fight you or anyone right now, Egg just wanted me to let you know something” I let out a sigh because of how obvious his emotions were. “How do I know you’re not lying?” He asked.
“Uhm, I’ve got no gear and I’ve been bored for the past fornight. There’s no point in me fighting anyone right now and I’m just here because of Egg’s request.” I said that with such a lack of interest that he seemed to have finally believed me.
“Well, what does Egg need anyway?” He finally put down his trowel and fixed his posture to face me properly. “He won’t be able to come to your sleepover.”
He sighed “Of course he isn’t. What is he doing anyway? I haven’t seen him in a while. He hasn’t sent a letter either.” Come to think of it, when were Lomedy and Eggchan friends? Not like it was any of my business.
“He’s in the Aether right now. Went to go for a vacation but got busy the festivals.” I laughed at the thought of Egg wearing festival accessories and standing there awkwardly for the photographer.
“Well, that’s all that he really wanted me to do so… bye?” I started to walk away when I felt someone grab my wrist. I turned around in confusion. It was Flame. “What do you think you’re doing?” I glared at him
He still had that smug look on his face, beneath the blindfold, his eyes looked condescending. Not like I’ve ever seen them before, but I just assumed that a smug face would mean also having a condescending.
I rolled my eyes, knowing exactly what he’s about to say. “I just wanted to know if you wanted to spar sometime bro” of course. Is sparring all this guy knew about?
“Nah dude I’m uh busy.” I shook my hand away. His grip left a slight mark but I wasn’t going to admit that. I hid my hands behind my back and turned towards him again. He laughed at me.
“Bro you just told Lomedy that you’ve been bored out of your mind. Why won’t you spar with me?” He crossed his arms and gave me an arrogant look through his blindfold.
Looking up, I hated how tall he has to be. I myself am tall as an ender dragon, but this guy is a tiger-nether demon hybrid.
“Just cause dude, I don’t have any gear or anything.” That was such a lie. My pvp kit was always in my ender chest. I just didn’t want to fight.
I wanted to be peaceful for once. Though— that might not work since we all know what happened when I tried that last time.
“Can we at least schedule one? I know for a fact that you are not always busy.” He stuttered a little for some reason but I ignored it. “Sure dude. I’ll send you a letter or something.” I laugh a little before looking back at him.
“Bye dude. I’ll see you next time.”
“Bye. Don’t forget the spar!” He yelled as I turned around.
I started walking away again. This time, I left successfully. As I left I heard him giggle, was I walking funny? Probably not. It was Flamefrags, the immortal demon. Sure he was strong and powerful but he was undoubtedly stupid.
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By the time I got back home, it was already midnight. I layed on my bed, not even bothered to take my boots off. I stayed there for a minute before going to the bathroom and finally getting ready for bed.
Then I ended up in the library again. I swear Egg had an effect on me. I was never usually in the library but every time I glanced towards it and saw no one there, It felt wrong.
I subconsciously picked up the pen again.
Dear diary,
I don’t know what’s happening with me. I can usually take care of myself when I’m alone. My panic attacks are getting worse without Egg being here. I miss him. He always knew what to do when this happens. My body’s getting worse as well. I haven’t been in the End for a while so I haven’t gotten healed. My scars are still here. There’s more than there used to be. I don’t know why. I can’t stop myself. Every time it happens I always subconsciously picked up the up the dagger again. I miss Egg but I’m glad he wasn’t there to see me do that.
I shocked he still hasn’t found the dagger yet. He’s always in the library. Always reading books. Always writing books. A day or so ago I did something impulsively. For him. I saw a store based around poetry and I couldn’t help but get some for him. I got him a whole box full. I hope he likes them. It’s the last thing I could ever give. No. It’s not. I’m still alive. I can still talk to him. I still have my friends. I still have a day left. A day of freedom. In the mean time, I need to keep writing. It’s the only thing that’s keeping me sane. Even the lavender elixir doesn’t work anymore.
I also saw Flame today. I thought by now, my feelings would change. Sadly, they still haven’t. Not yet..? No. They’ll never be gone. Not in this lifetime. Not in any lifetime. He still had that smug and arrogant attitude. How did I fall in love with such a man? Sure he was handsome, strong, and caring when it came to it. But under all of that, he was no more than dick. Nonetheless, I still ended up liking him. No— loving him. But fate is far too cruel for me. Far too cruel for the both of us. If I die or lose control of myself, so will he. Though we’re different people from different worlds, we ended up as partners.
Gosh I hated that guy’s guts. I just had to fall in love with him. Not only are we both technically royalty in our realms, but we are also universally known. Not to mention, we were from different realms. The gods would hate us. My mother and father would hate me. Shortly after being crowned the next ender dragon, they showered me with love. Told me the laws and oaths I had to follow in the name of our realm. The oath that they made sure I remembered was fatum amoris. The fate of love. It was the one oath that everyone was to remember. Royalty or not. If it was not followed—
Fatum amoris : The fate of love
In this world exist many different people. Pure-bloods, mixed-bloods, and humans. In creation of these beings, was a rule. No person was to ever fall in love with those from other realms. The ten realm gods agreed to this law, promising that no being from their land would ever break this sacred oath. The sacred oath was first written by the sovereign. It was written because of heartbreak that was experienced by those who were pure and genuine. They listened to their stories, found it unfair and cruel; and made the oath.
At first, the universe seemed to love the oath. Then over time, the light dimmed. No one wanted to follow the law. So therefore the oath changed. If one were to ever fall in love with another from another realm, they would be punished. Forced to stay in love with the other for the rest of their existence. But the love would not be given back. They could never be cured for this, but there would be medication. Elixirs. Specialised for each person. It could help people get their emotions to disappear, slowly. Though there would be limitations.
The elixir only worked for the start of their emotions. If the feelings were not caught quickly, it could never be cured. If the being was not cured, that would be the end. The universe would show three choices.
One: take your own life. Never to be seen, heard, or felt anymore.
Two: accept your fate. Lose your emotions and never feel anything ever again.
Three: you escape.
No known being has ever chosen the last option. And if they have, we would never know. It was chosen to be an unsaid option, only given to those who have always known their fate.
I have already made my choice if I were to ever come across these options. Honestly, I know that I’ll have to make a choice. Flame would never return my feelings. Not in this universe. Not in any universe. If I were not come across these options, which I know is a possibility, I would still know my fate. Today marks September 2nd. The day of my fate is September 4th. Unless, he shares the same emotions. If not, this marks two days before my fate. Two days that I will spend writing my letters to family, friends, enemies, and strangers.
As I wrote the final words down, my eyes started to get heavy. By the time I finished the last word, I was already less than a second away from falling asleep.
The light from the lamp shone in my face as my eyes grew heavier and heavier.
One second I was still writing, the next I was out cold.