PT5D
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Looking back on it, it was idiotic of him to believe that he would get back from all of that even slightly mentally unscathed. He’d expected, even believed for a while that he had lost his mind fully. After all, it did make quite a lot of sense, especially from an outsider’s perspective. Even with the insanity of his childhood, of growing up a superhero in the house of a stone-hearted old man and a robotic mother, nothing could quite have prepared him for the earth-shattering circumstances of finding himself alone in the apocalypse for thirty years.
Five's experiences with PTSD after coming back. Set after the apocalypse has been averted without de-aging.
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- Part 1 of PT5D
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Oh, he had done it, all right. How embarrassing. Here he was, the oldest of his unstable little family, pissed drunk. Again. And not even the good drunk, too, like when he would dance with Delores with the warmth of her favourite salvaged Bordeaux replacing the need for the body warmth of a breathing person; no, this was the bad drunk, the type that made all that nastiness and hate and pain that he normally funneled towards the people who made his and his family’s lives hell point inwards, as if all of Diego's knives were lodging deep in his soul. This was the drunk that hurt and demanded to hurt more.
Five has a drinking problem. Not the best coping mechanism he could have acquired. Set post-canon sans the de-aging.
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- Part 2 of PT5D
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At the start, he was able to hide it. The first many times he woke up in a blind panic, he managed to teleport himself into the basement that Vanya had destroyed, where his screams echoed off of jagged walls before dying, unheard by his sleeping siblings. Even if they had been awake, they would have had to strain to hear his cries, muffled as they were by his teeth sinking into the flesh of his arm. He would stay down there until he felt he could breathe, and finally leave to sit on the roof, staring out at the sun rising on an undemolished city, drawing in shaky breaths as he sipped coffee to calm his frayed nerves. Even despite the fact that he had gone over a month without proper rest, he could survive. God knew he had lived on much less during the beginning of his time in hell on earth. No, it was only when he began to wake up with the shrieks already ripping from his throat that his situation became an issue.
PTSD can leave some nasty nightmares. It's hard to admit when you need help.
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- Part 3 of PT5D
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After the apocalypse is averted, Five still struggles with his mind and his memories. He's lucky his family is here for him in their own dysfunctional way.
Or, how Five's family members offer comfort the best they can.
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- Part 4 of PT5D