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    Merlin tells Gwaine about his magic in a moment of vulnerability, and Gwaine starts paying more attention to Merlin’s mental state.

    The castle residents express protectiveness and disapproval over the pair’s growing closeness.

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    “Why not?” Arthur began, shrugging lightly, dismissively “You need blood to live which I have. Why not let you take nourishment from me?”

    “You make this absurd suggestion sound so easy.” Merlin replied testily “I could kill you.”

    “You could kill me long before this.” Arthur snorted mirthfully, “You spoke of that fact very often actually.”

    “Do not jest about this━not about this” Merlin snapped, his voice sounded afraid even to his own ears. He blinked away the tears threatening to fall, his lower lip quivered “I could lose control━lose myself. I will not endanger your life to satisfy my hunger.”

    After spending weeks unbearably hungry, Merlin confessed that Gaius’s blood-like potions aren’t curbing his newfound appetite. So, Arthur offered an interesting solution to his problem. The warlock isn’t into the idea at first, but he may grow to relish his lover’s trust.

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    When castle gossip reveals an old noble tradition, it threatens to break not only Merlin's faith in Arthur, but the Round Table's as well

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    10/?
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    Merlin and Arthur go shopping for outfits for the school dance. It’s easy for Arthur. For Merlin, it’s price tags he can’t afford and the fear that everyone will see how much he doesn’t belong next to Arthur—and that Arthur could do so much better than him.

    Arthur is determined to prove that’s not true.

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    2/2
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    25
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    27
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    Merlin and Percy talk. Drew has something to say.

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    347
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    1/1
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    6
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    115
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    4
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    808
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    Merlin hates having someone voice his thoughts. It pushes him to break promises, pushes him to the brink of his strength, pushes him to his wit's end. It pushes him... out of a window.

    Him and Arthur have a wholesome breakfast.

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    The rock accelerated out of Merlin’s hand, shattering the window as it flew into the world. He placed his bare foot and hands on the sharp-edged ledge.

    Cold wind blew on his face, ignoring everything else. Just as his body was just about to fall, a wrist grabbed his ankle.

    “Let go!” Merlin screamed out. His voice was warbly and raw.

    “Are you insane?! No!” Gwaine shouted.

    “Of course I am! Let me go!”

    -
    Arthur hugged him tighter and Merlin raised his own hand to detach Arthur from his body.

    Arthur looked so torn. Heartfelt. Merlin looked broken. Empty.

    -

    “Leave me alone!” he attempts to persuade. “Oh? How would I punish you for eating my cake then?!” Arthur says, cackling as he grabs Merlin by the legs, pulling him down to land on the bed. “Mine!” Merlin says, going to eat the last bite from his fingers.

    Arthur rushes forward and takes the last 8th of the cake with his lips. “What a delight. The last bite of my cake."

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    His eyes traced his hand. It felt like someone had taken a match stick to a wound, cauterizing the edges of his skin. Instead of a marred outline of what Merlin assumed would be a wound, was a large patch of skin, dug out by his own nails. Blood painted the covers, his nail beds and his arm.

    He must’ve rolled over some time in the night, giving the two men front-row seats to the massacre that was carved from his arm. He huffed and looked up at Percival, ears cleaning of that grating ringing. “Sorry.” he muttered, not really wanting to look at either of them anymore.

    ----<3

    Merlin watched the fire dance and Arthur watched the gold glow of the fiery magic whirling and burning in Merlin’s eyes. “Magic really is ethereal.” Arthur softly whispers, indulged in the pool of expanding liquid gold - the greatest of treasures - in Merlin’s eyes. Merlin’s hand stayed in the air, keeping the fire still. His eyes slid over to Arthur’s gaze. A pool of happiness fluttered in his stomach.

    ------<3

    Depressed Merlin continues his trials in living and talks with Arthur about his past endeavors. Arthur finds the beauty in Merli- magic.

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    “Did you take everything from the physician’s chambers?” Merlin asked quietly. The serving girl nodded, “As instructed. I sorted through the mess. Most of it, I managed.”

    Merlin hums, slightly impressed. He thinks of where he last kept his- “Was there anything on the bed or floor?”

    Alicia pauses for a moment, “…Just dust, I think.”

    Merlin shoots her an inconspicuous look, “Nothing at all?”

    She shakes her head, “Not that I can think of.” She says with sweaty palms.

    “Was it- Was it anything important?” She whispers. Merlin gives off a small smile. “To me, it was.”

    Alicia could take a guess that it was the dagger, sheathed in blood that she almost threw up upon finding. She’d remain silent about her findings, wanting to notify Arthur first. “Would you like me to look for it?”

    Merlin pauses a few moments. He’d like to think that he shouldn’t tell her.

    --------<3

    Depressed Merlin is being forced to live after Arthur doesn't order his execution Post-Magic reveal. Maybe Arthur doesn't hate him. Why doesn't he hate him? Why isn't he dead? He should be dead. Why is he still here? Being cared for? He doesn't deserve this. Maybe it's punishment - psychological torment somehow.

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    Merlin's hurt while polishing a sword. Arthur discovers something else as well.
    Chapter 4 is pure porn with slight angst at the end. Nothing bad tho and it gets resolved.

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    4/4
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    357
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    25
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    10,968
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    Merlin goes into heat while Arthur's away on a hunting trip. Will Arthur come back or will Merlin have to suffer on his own.
    Please don't hate me this is my first fic ever.

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    1/1
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    Post Camlann, Arthur lives, and is wracked with guilt and grief. Merlin is still thinks Arthur is angry about the magic and the lies. Misunderstandings and heartache ensue.
    (Inspired by Amy and Rory's fight after the breakup)
    xx

    Arthur shook his head again, interrupting before Gwaine could break the flow of his speech, a little afraid that if he didn’t get it all out, he would never have the guts to. “I’m going to free him. After we find the fomorrah and kill it, I’m going to let him leave. Maybe he’ll go back to Ealdor, maybe somewhere else.”

    Gwaine’s eyes were wide, “Surely, you’re not serious.”

    Arthur squeezed his eyes shut. “You’ve always been his.” Gwaine looked a little like child who had been caught doing something he shouldn’t, but he said nothing while Arthur continued. “Your loyalty has always been to him. Can I ask you this one last thing? Go with him, wherever he goes, I can’t bear the thought of him being hurt.”

    “He will be safe here,” Gwaine said, softly.

    “But will he be happy?”

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    Merlin’s gaze shifts over to the window, Arthur’s presence clearly an afterthought now.” Your people are out there because they know. They know what I am and what I pretended to be, they know that it isn’t natural.”

    Arthur flinches as though he’s been slapped. He frowns, hands at his sides, standing there like a child.
    He thinks of Uther in all his glory. Heavy armor, icy stare.
    Uther who never would have agreed to this, Uther who would be ashamed of the man he’s become.

    Arthur needs this to be mutual. He needs Merlin to fight for this just as much as him because if he doesn’t, he’s not sure how long he can withstand it.

    (Or, Arthur thought he’d made the right decision. For Merlin, for Camelot. But not everyone is pleased.
    There a consequences to be dealt with.)

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    3/3
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    137
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    8
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    Arthur texts the number this cute guy gave him at the bar. Merlin replies and yes he is super cute but he wasn't there at the bar that night.
    Someone has a lot to explain.

    The one where Arthur's pride is wounded. Merlin is as sassy as ever. Lance is a bi disaster and Gwen is still in denial.

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    Chapters:
    30/30
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    49
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    In hindsight, Arthur probably should have known something was wrong when Merlin didn’t argue about Arthur assigning him to muck out the stables.

    He supposed that was the first sign.

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    Merlin still can’t really believe Arthur wants to marry him, or that he loves him.

    Probably, is Arthur's fault anyway

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    1/1
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    I wish I could glue my eyes shut and disappear, my body feels numb, and the thoughts are taking over my head.

    or

    Merlin is a broken soul, hiding in the dark,
    But will Arthur ever find out what's going on with him?

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    5/?
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    “What’s Merlin up to, Gaius?”

    Gaius isn’t listening. His eyes are wide and horrified but suddenly focused on something behind him, something outside of the window.

    Before the knights can turn around to catch it, the door flies open yet again. The force behind it so strong that it nearly falls off it’s hinges.

    Familiar eyes meet his own.

    Merlin’s eyes.

    Merlin is back, coming right through the door.

    But he isn’t walking. He’s falling through the door and landing on the hard floor before Gwaine can even register what’s happening.

    “Merlin?” Sir Leon rushes to his side, his voice quiet.

    Merlin is right in front of him. Blood soaked and filthy. Covered scrapes and bruises. Crying out for no one in particular.

    And it’s the most battered Gwaine has seen him.

    (Or, Merlin disappears without explanation, leaving Gwaine worried to death.

    Luckily, the sorcerer returns.

    Beaten and battered.)

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    Chapters:
    6/6
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    39
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    666
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    70
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    10,869
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    Peace finds it's way back to Merlin's pack, Arthur tries to adjust to his new life.

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    31,937
    Chapters:
    2/2
    Comments:
    1
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    12
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    3
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    944
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    Getting together after years of mutual pining went more smoothly than either Arthur or Merlin could have anticipated. Now they have to navigate their family, friends, and careers, while settling in to what it means to be together.

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    38,524
    Chapters:
    7/7
    Comments:
    53
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    181
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    18
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    5,880
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    “I get it. You know all the worst parts of me. The things I’ve done. Obviously, you know how much of a monster I can be–”

    “No!” Arthur shouts, cutting him off. “Merlin, you are the best of us. I mean that. Anyone would be lucky to have the honour of courting you.”

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    1/1
    Comments:
    13
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    873
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    82
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    7,120

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