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  1. Rec *

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    Shane was twelve when hockey scouts started showing up to his games. He was barely fifteen when a check went horribly wrong, fucked his knee to hell and gave him a grade III concussion. During rehab he found swimming, and he was seventeen when he went to the Olympics as a relay-only swimmer who only swam the prelims.

    He’s 24 and working for his mom’s sports PR company when he meets Ilya Fucking Rozanov.

    May contain: Shane Hollander navigating what it means to be mostly normal when your whole childhood was about preparing you for greatness. Shane Hollander attempting to flirt. Possibly less than 100% accurate descriptions of what a sports PR agent does.

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    02 Aug 2026

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    Thank you, Shane Hollander Swims

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    Yes. I noticed. A pause, then: Also you looked very good out there. Almost made me forget you are my patient.

    Former patient, Shane corrected before he could even think twice about it, then cursed his own brain. He gnawed the inside of his cheek raw. 

    Mmm. Former. Another pause. Shane's mind supplied him a very unhelpful memory of Ilya's humming, felt it resonate deep inside of him, with a need he didn't want to name but could. Are you home?

    In which Dr. Rozanov gets intimate with Shane's eyes... and elsewhere.

    As of June 30, 2026, additional meta resources have been added to this work.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    Important and educational

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    The hookup that inspired Ilya to ask Shane to stay.

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    Ilya idly watches the bee buzz along the windowpane. He can’t tell what kind of bee it is. He’s not allergic, probably. He should ask if—

    “Are you allergic to bees?” Shane asks. He swings his legs off the bed and uses Ilya’s chest to push up and onto his feet. “Cup. I need a cup or something.”

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    26 May 2026

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    A bee, and a butterfly effect. Lovely.

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    Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.

    No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.

    When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?


    “I thought we could go through the schedules and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”

    “A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.

    “It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.

    “And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”

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    16 Apr 2026

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    Shane experiences a time loop. Ilya experiences that same time loop. Ilya then, months later, goes through his own loop.

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    04 Apr 2026

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    Tuesday Hockey Leaving Wrong
    Time loops baby!
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