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Sequel to 'A Prison of One's Own Making'. Season 5 AU. The brothers are reunited and have to manage the significant ways captivity has changed Sam. Dean wants revenge and there's still a looming Apocalypse to deal with. Maybe Sam's new abilities can give them the upper hand, but at what cost?
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- Part 3 of In this darkness, I might just disappear
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Companion piece to 'A Prison of One's Own Making'. Set during Dean's portion of Chapter 17. Contains the more graphic details of what happened to Sam while in captivity. Dark. See inside for warnings.
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- Part 2 of In this darkness, I might just disappear
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Missing scene for 11.22 "We Happy Few". Dean finds out the hard way that Sam isn't as calm and collected as he pretends to be, especially when it comes to Lucifer. Angst and brotherly love abound. One-shot.
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Season 9 and 11 spoilers. Set during Season 11 Episode 10 “The Devil in the Details.” Some dialogue taken from the show.
One-shot inspired by a tumblr post by casfucker: “gadreel and crowley were inside sam. on a scale of 1 to 10, how pissed do you think lucifer is right now?” jeni-thunder replied “666?” and luciferissatan replied “very”. It was a plot bunny I couldn’t resist.
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AU for 5.3 Free to Be You and Me and 5.4 The End. Turns out Tim and Reggie meant it when they told Sam they'd be back. They had a demon-killing weapon at their fingertips and weren't going to miss the opportunity to use it! Dean thinks Sam is still sulking when he doesn't return his calls. Will Dean figure out something is wrong before Sam is pushed beyond his breaking point?
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Sam’s breathing started to even out as he came to a slow realization. He was never going to get better. He was always going to be the damsel in distress, the one always fucking everything up despite his best efforts to do otherwise. From the moment his mother died there was something wrong with him. And there always would be. It ran through his blood. And now Dean had people around him that could help him move on, help him move forward. Help him finally leave Sam behind.
_________Or: Sam has a mental breakdown after getting kidnapped and tortured by the Men of Letters and comes to a rather drastic decision
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17 Aug 2026
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“De—eaa,” Sam forces out, his tongue burning at the unfamiliar word, a horrible fear setting deep within him like ice—Lucifer doesn’t like it when he speaks English. Lucifer doesn’t like it when he calls for Dean. He’s going to be mad he’s going to hurt him hurt him hurt him—
Sam just doesn’t want to hurt anymore.
A clamouring sound to his right shocks him out of his spiralling, and he recoils against a hard wall, opening his eyes—he didn’t realise he closed them, the Cage was always so dark, so thick and suffocating and cold—to see a face he’s dreamed of. One he thought he’d never see again.
“Dean,” he finally manages to whisper, tears of relief and just a bit of fear pricking at his too-clear eyes.
Dean says something back, the words garbled to Sam’s ears as if they’re coming from underwater, and then he’s coming closer, hands twitching by his sides and steps uncharacteristically hesitant.
The wall that Death erected to protect Sam’s mind is unsuccessful, leaving the hunter to navigate centuries’ worth of memories and suffering. And after nearly two centuries of speaking Enochian, Sam isn’t sure he can remember how to speak English.
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08 Aug 2026
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There are three certainties in his life:
1. His name is Sam
2. His life mission is to eliminate the supernatural threats of the world
3. He is a loyal member of the British Men of Letters
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An alternate version of season 12 in which Sam is not rescued by Dean and instead is brainwashed into working with his tormentors.Bookmarked by LustielsJournal
28 Jul 2026
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All Dean's thinking about is the fact that he's alive. When Amara says she's gonna give him what he wants most, he doesn't think much about it.
Until he finds his father, walking along the gravel road.Also, lots of sam whump because you know me :)
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28 Jul 2026
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Sam’s curled up tight in the backseat of a beat-up Dodge Charger, pale-faced and scratched to all hell and looking so fragile it wouldn’t be a surprise if so much as a gust of wind sent him crumbling into dust. But he’s also asleep, and that alone quashes any doubts Dean might have had about bringing him home.
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30 Jun 2026