Melonmallow



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    The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating. 

    The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice. 

    “I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”

    Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.

    “Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"

    Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little. 

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    Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.

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    Hockey superstar Shane Hollander disappeared at the peak of his career without any warning or goodbye. For three years, Ilya Rozanov was left drowning in the bitter silence of their secret past.

    But after a meeting with Yuna Hollander, the reality Ilya thought he knew completely shatters.

    Now, guided by an address from a desperate mother, Ilya Rozanov is left with what remains.

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    Shane is admitted against his will after his world becomes too loud to survive.

    Ilya has already learned that survival and living are not the same thing.

    Forced to share a room in an adolescent psychiatric ward, two boys with very different kinds of damage learn that understanding can arrive in unexpected places - and that healing is rarely gentle.

    Or : Shane gets assigned the angry Russian boy with a history of fighting with roommates, Ilya gets stuck with the anxious Canadian who stares too much, and somehow an involuntary psychiatric admission becomes the place where they find friendship, understanding, and eventually love.

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    Ilya Rozanov wakes up from a medically induced coma, sixteen months into a mission to save the dying sun, and he can't remember a single one of his crewmates.

    He's immediately drawn to one of them, though. Too bad Hollander won't give him the time of day.

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