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    His stomach takes a sharp, screeching left. His heart stalls and then shifts into gear, zero to 180, every tired tract of him seizing and squealing to go, run, leave.

    “Hey, I found him,” Tony says, finishing a conversation Ilya wasn’t in, easy like all conversations without Ilya are. Easy like the world isn’t ending. Like Ilya isn’t standing there, wishing every time he tried to self-destruct or kill himself had worked.

    Greasy black hair. Sallow freckled skin. A turned head and horror-widened eyes taking in the big bad monster who finally arrived onscreen.

    “Shane, Ilya; Ilya, Shane,” Tony says, totally oblivious. “You both like hockey, right? So that’s something in common. I’ve got to take lunch, but I’ll check in on you both before my shift is over.”

    Nobody knows if Ilya Rozanov tried to kill himself before the draft. Nobody sane goes first overall. And nobody knows if Shane Hollander is going to survive another mediocre season with the Boston Raiders.

    Isn’t it funny how a single nick in the ice can change the entire game?

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    god damn this is shattering -- i want to say shane's characterization, especially, but then i remember ilya in this fic and i think ilya's characterization, especially, so.

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    “I am Russian, not Canadian.”

    Shane raises up onto his elbow and looks, hard, at this man he loves. “You could be. Canadian, that is. If you wanted to.”

    Ilya’s gaze back is searching. Shane doesn’t know what he’s looking for, but then Ilya says, “Loyalty is important in hockey.”

    Stuck between a mother country that doesn’t want him and an adopted country in which he feels foreign, international hockey remains complicated for Ilya. An open, festering wound.

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    Shane never had any vices until he met Ilya Rozanov.

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    16 Aug 2026

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    He still didn't know if this was normal - asking your friends about how good they were at sucking dick. Maybe this was how friendship worked for other people, if you weren't both hockey players, if one of you wasn't married, if your friendship didn't depend so much on knowing as little about each other as possible. If you knew the other person liked sucking dick.

    Maybe he just likes it when Rose looks at him like that, awestruck, like he's scored a hattrick. He doesn't know anyone else who would be this impressed by his knowledge of having sex with men, which is unfair, seeing how long he's worked to build it.

    Maybe that's why he ends up where he does, one arm extended to stick two fingers in Rose's mouth, her pink lipgloss sticky, smearing around his fingers, three of her fingers pressed as far as they can go into his, both of them drooling and stifling little snorts of laughter.

    Rose asks a lot of questions.

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    “You must be excited, after such a long engagement. It will be like fairytale,” Ilya says. “So much champagne. So many ballgowns. If you can, please spare me a horse from your wedding presents. A fast one.”

    Shane huffs out a laugh, because Ilya is ridiculous. I’ll miss this, he thinks. He clears his throat. “Must be nice, that you can marry whoever you want.”

    There’s a long silence. Then Ilya says, “That’s not necessarily true.”

    In which Shane is a prince, and engaged to Princess Rose. And Sir Ilya Rozanov is his personal knight. Royalty AU.

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