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    In the days leading up to the first time Shane Hollander faces his old Montreal team with the Ottawa Centaurs, he kinda goes through it. Maybe a lot of bullshit built up over the years. Maybe now that he's finally in a place to deal with it, he starts to.

    Featuring my beloved Centaurs taking care of their own, a couple of very early mornings, a minor meltdown at practice, a slightly bigger meltdown at a barbecue, and one Shane Hollander finally coming home.

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  2. Public Bookmark 92

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    What kind of role model can't handle a little bit of pressure?

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    Shane has a bad day, leading to a meltdown. Ilya helps pick up the pieces.

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  3. Public Bookmark 74

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    Shane felt a hot tear drip from Ilya’s face onto his own and shuddered under the weight of it. Of causing it. Of being loved enough to make someone hurt with your hurt. To be worthy of it.

    Or, Shane has an autistic meltdown after they fight. Ilya helps.

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  4. Public Bookmark 19

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    Shane Hollander’s vision had worsened significantly, and rapidly, in the months since turning thirty. This event, although initially distressing (Could it be CTE? Brain cancer? Was he having a stroke?), eventually unfurled itself into something like relief.

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    It's easier to unmask when the world is a little blurry.

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  5. Public Bookmark 42

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    “I tuck my boyfriend in, yes?” Ilya says softly, throwing the blanket over Shane's legs. “Relax under your clouds.”

    Shane cracks the smallest smile at the softness Ilya is showing him, and it only encourages Ilya to keep going, to keep this up until Shane finally lets go and regresses.

    Or, Shane regresses in the car while Ilya drives them to the cottage

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