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  1. Public Bookmark 13

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    She taps her head back against the wall. She thinks of Felix, again. His hair is getting long, the fringe falling constant in his face. He should have let her take a dagger to it before he left. Ingrid grips her reins, though her horse is in no danger of wandering off. Her fingers flex in the thick hide of her gloves. She does not allow her mind to linger on doomed solutions for his absence. Jobs run long. Promises get broken. It is a bitter world she survives within, but it is one consistent in its cruelty.

    He has three days before she leaves. He has three days before she will be forced to move along. It is their promise to one another. When the sun rises, time will begin ticking. For now she simply waits.

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    08 Sep 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 45

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    The cathedral bell marked midnight. The war was over and yet the ghosts gathered around his bed, craving something he didn’t know how to give them anymore.

    Keep running, he told himself before he fell asleep. Don’t look back. Run until the exhaustion takes you and the chase finally reaches its inevitable conclusion. Be patient. Be patient and it will be over soon enough.

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    In the time before the war, Dimitri and Felix go catch a deer.

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    07 Aug 2026

  3. Public Bookmark *

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    Felix takes a lance to the stomach. Dimitri waits with him for help to arrive.

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    01 Aug 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 82

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    Dimitri doesn’t come back from Duscur. A double who has replaced him does instead. Nobody seems to notice this except Felix. Or perhaps it is that nobody else but Felix wishes to notice it. When he points to the double and whispers into his father’s ear, “But that’s not Dimitri” – all his father does is close his eyes and sigh.

    Felix knows it isn’t Dimitri because Dimitri’s eyes are a brighter blue than that. And Dimitri’s hair is a more golden shade of blond. But of course the most damning fact is that looking at this double does not make Felix want to smile; if anything, looking at him does not make Felix feel anything at all.

    The absence of emotion abruptly morphs into fear and foreboding. A terrible mistake has been made, Felix thinks to himself. Dimitri is still waiting in Duscur to be saved.

    “It’s not him,” Felix says, more urgently this time. He tugs at his father’s sleeve which he knows his father dislikes – but it’s urgent.

    His father replies, “Felix. Allow a miracle to be a miracle. Please.”

    So Felix bites his tongue. But he does not change his mind.

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    07 Jul 2026

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    banging screaming clawing at the walls of my enclosure

  5. Public Bookmark 44

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    “This isn’t a joke to me,” Felix says. Both versions he has of Sylvain — the Sylvain in dreams, the one here now, moving to lie properly on his bed — are the same kind of unlucky. Punished in the same, remorseless way. “Your life isn’t a joke.”

    “You’re always so worried I’m going to die,” Sylvain says fondly. “It’s sweet.”

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    Felix and Sylvain share a long night.

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    06 Jul 2026