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    🌹"No questions. No feelings. Just because we want to."🌹

    Shane Hollander is a PhD student who knows how to stay invisible.
    Ilya Rozanov is Montreal’s most arrogant hockey star—brilliant, reckless, and incapable of following rules he didn't make himself.

    It should be easy to walk away.

    Instead, it becomes something quiet and hidden—late nights, closed doors, and a version of Ilya no one else gets to see. Shane carries his secrets inked beneath the roses winding across his skin, a constant reminder that some things survive only as long as they remain sub rosa.

    Ilya doesn’t do feelings.
    Shane was never meant for something like this.

    But he stays. And he falls anyway, caught between stolen moments and borrowed time.

    And when it finally falls apart, Ilya might realize too late what it means when there’s nothing left to hold onto—and that this time, love might not be enough to bring Shane back.

    (fake dating • secrecy • loving someone who was never going to choose you • happy ending, I promise 💔➡️❤️ • 🔥🔥🔥)

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    10 Aug 2026

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    Shane Hollander comes out and unleashes Shane Hollander Hysteria across the NHL.
    All-stars circle like it's free agency and he’s the only contract available.
    DMs combust. Rival captains get bold.
    Connections start forming faster than anyone can keep up.
    The Metros couldn’t care less because Shane keeps dominating on the ice while getting fucked in multiple time zones.
    It becomes the worst-kept secret in professional hockey: everyone wants their turn.
    Or:
    Shane Hollander comes out and discovers freedom can look like a lot of things.
    Sometimes it looks like sex across time zones.
    Sometimes it looks like queer community forming around him across the league.
    Sometimes it looks like becoming the most confident version of himself he has ever been.
    Shane Hollander is having a great time.
    This fic is loud, messy, and sometimes a little ridiculous until it isn’t.

    Shane-centric.
    Multiple partners/poly dynamics.
    Character studies of many different men.
    Finding queer joy and community.
    Autism, mental illness, and different attachment styles.
    Or as I like to say..
    A slow emotional horror story inside a romcom porno.


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    07 Aug 2026

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    Ilya feels his phone buzz a few times on his way to the elevator, probably everyone confirming they are on the move. He waits until the doors close to check who their group will be tonight.

    Lane: I’m out guys my ankle is killing me

    Chuck: pussy

    Tanner: cmon Lane don’t be a baby

    Lars: we are coming down as soon as Nosey stops texting his mommy

    Nosey: uh guys wtf
    Nosey: did you see this?
    Nosey: http://www.twitter.com/cnnbrk/status/2693739470000000036

    Marly: holy shit
    Marly: did someone try to kill Hollander

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    The season after Sochi and the Las Vegas night, Ilya comes back from the summer ready to reignite his hookups with Shane Hollander. But the Metros captain seems to have bigger problems, mainly, that someone might be trying to kill him.

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    07 Aug 2026

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    A year after retiring at thirty-nine, Shane Hollander throws himself into house flipping and accidentally becomes comforting reality television.

    Ilya Rozanov makes fun of it.

    Shane retaliates by mentioning, on camera, that his husband is a raging Drag Race Fanboy.

    The internet notices.

    Things progress from there.

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    05 Aug 2026

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    “I want to fuck you before my dick stops working.”

    “You know that’s a possible side effect, right? We don’t know that’s gonna happen.”

    “Mm. If I expect it I will not be disappointed.”

    “If it does, we’ll figure something out. And—“

    “A broken dick is better than a broken brain.”

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    or; ilya takes medication and he can't come like he usually does so they try something new. also emotions and tenderness and love.

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    04 Aug 2026