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    Ilya Rozanov is not okay, and his walls are finally caving in.

    When a concerned teammate breaks the locker room code to text Shane about his captain's sudden collapse, Shane has to face the fact that he's two hours away in Montreal and helpless.

    In a panic, he asks his parents to check on Ilya's Ottawa apartment. But David and Yuna don't just find a messy room, they end up snooping through a drawer and discovering a hidden stack of handwritten letters.

    Reading the words Ilya could never say out loud, the Hollanders are forced to confront the horrific reality of his childhood and the crushing weight of the trauma he’s been carrying completely alone.

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    28 Aug 2026

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    This is really fucking intense.

    Ilya Rozanov is out, married, and so vocally in love with his husband. Russia disagrees. He is kidnapped and taken back to Russia for some good old-fashioned 'convincing'. He doesn't break. They very nearly break /him/.

    This story begins at the rescue, and will have flashbacks to Ilya's torture throughout.

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    28 Aug 2026

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    Instead of Shane, it is Ilya who suffers a concussion during the Boston-Montreal game in April 2017. Dazed and agitated, Ilya briefly starts speaking and responding only in Russian and the medics can’t calm him down. Luckily, Shane started studying Russian after Ilya spoke to him in Russian on the phone from Moscow. For no particular reason. Certainly not because he’s fallen in love with Ilya Rozanov.

    In Montreal with lingering concussion symptoms, Ilya is advised not to fly home for a few days, and the hospital won’t release him without assurances that he has someone to stay with him until his symptoms improve. Luckily, Shane conveniently has a condo in Montreal no one knows about and a few days before he has to travel again.

    But Ilya’s symptoms don’t resolve after a few days. Which is okay; Shane can handle it. He can take care of Ilya, study Russian, lead his team into the playoffs, and keep Ilya’s continued presence in Montreal a secret. He can do everything, no problem. He is Shane Hollander after all.

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    A whump fanfiction that is secretly a fix-it.

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    25 Aug 2026

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    ROZANOV DOWN: Ottawa Captain Carried Off Ice on Stretcher After Third Period Hit. Rozanov unconscious on impact. Fencing response observed. Cervical collar applied. Transferred to hospital by ambulance. Shane Hollander received game misconduct following altercation and did not return to the ice.

     

    A grade-3 concussion leaves Ilya Rozanov trapped in a "slow" brain, struggling to reclaim the elite hockey instincts that once defined his identity. Within the sanctuary of their darkened apartment, Shane Hollander anchors their life, managing every medical detail while privately bracing against his own silent terror. It is a portrait of the grueling, quiet patience required to wait out a neurological fog, hoping the person on the other side eventually finds their way back.

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    22 Aug 2026

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    Shane Hollander was perfect; the perfect son, the perfect boyfriend, the perfect friend. He had spent years refining perfection, making sure he was the picture of it. It was second nature after all these years; a suit that didn’t quite fit, but that he’d gotten used to.
    Enter Ilya Rozanov.

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    21 Aug 2026