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Early in Ted’s tenure as coach, Sam and Jamie end up as roommates during an away game. That night Sam discovers Jamie is suicidal after Jamie asks him to sit with him, feeling like he might kill himself if he’s left alone. Jamie thinks Sam will leave him be afterwards, but Sam can’t just let Jamie walk away knowing all this, it wouldn’t be right.
Sam’s attempt to look out for Jamie, even if Jamie thinks it’s not necessary, pushes him to become more confident and assertive, stepping up as a leader. Meanwhile, Jamie is pushed to be more open by Sam refusing to let him go on as if any of this is okay or normal. As their friendship develops, Jamie grapples with his childhood trauma, while Sam works through how he feels about becoming friends with someone who has bullied him in the past, as well as figuring out how to feel about the fact that Ted and Roy are imperfect people too, especially when it comes to how they approach Jamie.
AKA the Sam and Jamie season 1 friendship au with suicidal!Jamie
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25 Aug 2026
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When they finally get together, Jamie keeps waiting for the other shoe to drop, for Roy to lose his temper with him.
Jamie's father and some angry exes have laid the groundwork for disaster, but Roy is nothing like the other angry men Jamie has known before.- Language:
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12 Aug 2026
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Jamie's been fighting himself every since he was little. It's been worth it up till now, he's always felt the need to stick it out and push forward. So it's no surprise to him when he can't find the strength to keep going.
a.k.a I hurt Jamie Tartt but with depression and self-harm to really round it out. 'tis the season.
"Perhaps that’s why it was so clear when it was his time to go. He’d always been an Icarus, flying too low or too high, letting the darkness nip at his heels and threaten to send him plummeting out of the sky. But he’d always straighten his course out. Always fall back into the regular, stable tension that kept him alive.
He wasn’t going anywhere this time. He tries to pull himself out of it, he really does. He drags metal across his legs to try and bleed the apathy out of him but it just won’t leave. He knows when he’s been beat. He’s fucking exhausted."
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12 Aug 2026
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Jamie's trying to be good, is the thing. A good man would go visit his dad in hospital, no matter how much he'd rather not, right? If it were Jamie himself who were ill or hurt, Dad probably wouldn't come all the way to London for him... but Jamie is better than him. This proves it.
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jamie’s dad is ill.
they haven’t seen each other in a year.
things are complicated.
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12 Aug 2026
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They're steadily climbing the table of the Prem, Jamie's playing the best football of his life, things would be GREAT, except Roy won't stop putting his hands on him and his dad's gonna start drinking again any minute now. So if Jamie's a little tense, it's not his fault.
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12 Aug 2026