ratisnotcrying
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- Merlin (TV) (5)
- Torchwood (3)
- The Penumbra Podcast (2)
- Sherlock (BBC TV 2010) (2)
- Endeavour (TV) (2)
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Merlin feels like he is underwater.
There’s a heavy pressure over his eyes and in his ears, blocking out everything except the sluggish beat of his heart. His limbs feel weightless, like he’s floating, limp and lifeless and drifting away…
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Merlin could feel it as soon as he woke, it might even be what woke him.
It felt like he'd been gutted. It felt like someone had taken a rusty spoon, scraped out everything that made him him, and left an imitation of his body floating on the tiny cot in his room.
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Lighting a candle with her mind was… it was bad, she knew that; it was scary, it was surreal, and most of all it was very, very bad. Not only because magic was outlawed and Uther would see her dead, ward or not, but because she didn’t have a single person to speak to about it.
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With Jack gone, Gwen hadn't expected Ianto to cause her the most trouble. And yet, here he was or, rather, he wasn't there, and that was the problem.
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Nobody at torchwood three knew Ianto. Not really. When he first joined, fresh out of the battle of Canary Wharf, the screams still ringing in his ears, the dust still in his hair, nobody had tried to get to know him. It was better that way. He didn’t want to talk about it, he couldn’t remember who he was before it, and he had Lisa in the basement.
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or: ianto just wants everything to be fine. he wants everything under control.
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It starts with a visit. A mug of Assam. A decrypted file. A chair that's always pulled out — just slightly.
Bond is injured. Q is curious. Neither of them means to linger.But something builds between the missions and machine calibrations: a shared silence, a biscuit ritual, a presence that feels less like an intrusion and more like home.
This is a story of small gestures — tea offered, doors left unlocked, words left unsaid until they matter most.
Over time, the distance narrows. Not through declarations, but through trust. Through showing up — again and again — until even the quiet feels like something earned.Others begin to notice. A raised eyebrow from Moneypenny. A knowing look from Tanner. R catching the pattern. Even Alec — back in London — makes time to see for himself.
A slow-burn Bond/Q series of off-duty moments, unfolding in labs, rooftops, corridors… and, eventually, the living room.
With room for quiet observation, companion pieces, and the occasional inspired addition.- Words:
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07 Oct 2026
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Well. More snooping, less brooding, he told himself as he opened a new drawer. And even fewer thoughts of quartermasters.
(In which Bond is not afraid of anything at all, Q becomes collateral damage to the the light psychological warfare Bond and M have been waging on one another in retirement, and M shows a far more tender side of herself.)
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03 Oct 2026
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‘James... You may wish to glance up the street to your right.’
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01 Oct 2026
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Love's Labour's Cost by pommedepersephone for Anyawen
Fandoms: James Bond (Craig Movies), James Bond - Ian Fleming
10 Apr 2025
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Perhaps the Aston Martin was rebuilt with Bond in mind, as a labour of love, but that doesn’t mean Bond is entitled to it.
Or, Bond comes back for the car, and Q tells him no.
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28 Sep 2026
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breathe in like you mean it by skylights
Fandoms: Skyfall (2012) - Fandom, James Bond (Movies), James Bond (Craig Movies)
15 Nov 2012
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Q sobs and swears and thrashes against the ground until he can move no more, cheek pressed against the warm floor. Breathe, breathe. There are tears running down his cheeks and Q needs to tell himself to just breathe. O2 molecules, alveoli, deoxygenated blood, the biology of being alive. Fourth form basics of respiration. Q pulls up notes from the dregs of his memory and recites them backwards in his head.
(Or, what happens in New Orleans)
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- Part 1 of the hand beneath your head
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21 Sep 2026