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• verdant fields by redmantra

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  28 Apr 2026

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  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • major character death haha
  • vent - Freeform
  • Not a fanfic
  • its really only for me to read i just had to post it to like
  • release it
  • you can read it too if you want to its okay
  • i understand ao3 isnt really the adequate website for these kinds of things
  • but i didnt want to split up my text into parts for a tumblr post
  • i wouldve added this in the summary but i ran out of space
  • im like screaming out into the void
  • if anyone ever reads this we siblings/family/comrades no deviant stuff internet please
  • i used to be really good at barking before she died lol
  • my nonhuman friends taught me how to feel
  • all I learnt from human animals was the entire spectrum of greyrocking.. to hide oneself. to not be honest with oneself
  • senseless insecurities. anthropocentrism.. eurocentrism.. a lot of hate
  • dishonesty and 0 respect for mother earth and our siblings of other species
  • just useless stuff
  • that should explain my anger. )) (it's a smiley without the colon)
  • beware cohesion n coherence mistakes I was suicidal and half asleep
  • too afraid to read all of it again

  Summary

  I have to say this. to hug this and let these experiences and feelings and lives take space outside of my soul, heart, body, mind. they can't exist only inside my head, not anymore. now you are not fleeting words anymore. it's crammed inside my being, we're holding too much. we all need to breathe. have my soul and this page too. we're taking up space! I've wanted to share my feelings on the internet like everyone does for a long while. years of wanting this attention but never being brave enough to ask for it. though I'm not asking for any now. being seen would be nice, but most people are anthropocentric and I dont want that kind of attention. it's more of a ''do or do not pay attention, I'm letting this out of my system and it feels good. however it's received is it's own thing, independent from all of this." type of situation. now that I don't want to share, it's when I finally bring myself to do it. read if you want to, I don't mind. i don't know of any other website that supports long texts like these. not a fanfic. farewell sowie. farewell cremita. farewell lola. we'll find eachother again one day. we'll be together again, all 5 of us. i love you all.

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  English

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