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    But that was the thing about thinking in absolutes. Life is not absolute. Thoughts shift and change over months. One second can be so different from the next.

    She had left him but he understood why.

    He could not give himself the same understanding. Not as he sat on the floor of the bathroom, the cool tile feeling nice against the warmth of his bare legs.

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    Or: Ilya Rozanov is tired. He understands what his mama felt like now, more then ever.

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    11 Aug 2026

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    "In here," Shane wanted to scream. "I can't breathe. Help me," he wanted to say; "I need you."

    He opened his mouth, but no sound came out. He was imprisoned by his silence and the feeling of his body trembling against the tile floor.

    “Moya lyubov?” the Russian called again.

    Shane could hear his footsteps against the floor; he was going to the bedroom – he was going the wrong way.

    "Please," he wanted to scream. "I’m here, and I’m dying."

    He tried to speak again, but the words caught in his throat.

    He wanted so badly to call for Ilya. Shutting his eyes, he pushed all the air from his lungs, trying to dislodge whatever it was that inhibited his speech.

    The footsteps were still retreating, traveling further away from Shane. A tear slid down his cheek, and finally, a timid whimper pushed past his lips – it was barely audible.

    Ilya’s shoes stopped moving.

    Or: Shane has a meltdown and Ilya finds him

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    30 Jul 2026

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    Shane sighed, but nodded. “I’m just so tired of this. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life dealing with it.”

    Shane thought he was angry, but the sentiment just came out sounding sad.Ilya took a deep breath, running his wedding band along Shane’s cheek.

    “I know, Sweetheart. But you also have me for the rest of your life. Dealing with it with you.

    Tears pricked the corner of Shane’s eyes. Ilya pressed a kiss over his heart, where his head still lay.

    Or, glimpses of Shane navigating sensory overload throughout his life, and the ways those around him impact it.

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    04 Jul 2026

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    “I just want to feel your forehead, okay?” Ilya spoke softly, like Shane was a fawn easily spooked.

    He shook his head frantically, then brought his hands up to fist his hair when the motion exacerbated the throbbing. “N-no,” he breathed, “not sick. no point.” His sense of control was really fraying now, and Ilya could sense it.

    “Moya lyubov, you act like skittish cat. Is no big deal then. If you are not sick, then there is nothing to hide, yes?”

    Maybe it was the way he spoke to him so tenderly, or the throbbing in his head and the aching in his bones, but the next time Ilya reached for him, he didn't pull away.

    When the strong, calloused hand found his forehead and Ilya inhaled sharply, Shane held his breath for what he knew came next.

    “Jesus, you are burning!” his boyfriend cried, prompting Shane to once again shrink away.

    “Nuh-uh,” he grumbled. “Don't get sick, remember?”

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    01 Jul 2026

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    Before Shane and Ilya are out Montreal plays Ottawa and Shane has a bad panic attack before the game. Hayden's solution is to take Shane to Ilya in Ottawa's locker room for Ilya to help Shane calm down.

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    26 Jun 2026