thatheller101
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- Original Work (5)
- Supernatural (TV 2005) (2)
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you believe in me like a god (i'll betray you like a man) by thatheller101
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
18 Apr 2024
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Dean takes a step back. Then another. And another. Voices exclaim all around him, people trying to touch him, get him to stop. He can’t. He keeps moving. Away. Away from the stares and concern and pity. Away from the images appearing in his mind. Of a happy family with 2.5 kids and a dog, living in a house with a picket fence and neighbourhood barbeques.
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part 2 of however many following deans road to accepting cas' death :)
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- Part 2 of dean's mental health: sonic speed
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but i sat and stared (right where you left me) by thatheller101
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
06 Jan 2023
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It doesn't help. If anything it makes it worse. He can feel his blood boiling and his skin crawling, needing to release the now endowed energy, unable to drink it off. He takes the bottle and whips it at the wall, finally feeling some sort of relief. It’s only now that he starts his path of destruction that Dean finds he can't stop.
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~3000 words of Dean breaking down and moving out.
The first in a series post Cas' death that focuses on grief and self acceptance.
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- Part 1 of dean's mental health: sonic speed
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tags explain everything - plus im lazy
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written for my non-existent S.O
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how to project your issues and concerns on others 101 by thatheller101
Fandoms: Original Work
15 Aug 2022
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exactly as the tags say
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 233
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a 5 part series following dean post castiels death and him dealing w his childhood and other shit that happened in the show. each part will loosely follow a stage of grief (denial, anger, depression, bargaining and acceptance).
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What was that thing the nice nurse lady said when she came in? About Ilya smothering him with a pillow?
Oh.
That's right.
Everyone thinks they hate each other. That they're rivals. People don't know they actually like each other.
It's a secret.
Except he just told this nice nurse lady that he's in love with Ilya Rozanov. Uh-oh.
or; Shane is a little high on pain meds and says some things he shouldn't.
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25 Dec 2025
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wanna get stuck in your head by peculiarblue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Dec 2025
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He only realizes he’s doing it when it’s too late to stop.
He’s standing in the drink aisle of the grocery store, checking the expiration dates on the cans of Coke, mentally cross-checking them with Boston’s away game schedule, and the reality hits him like someone shook one of those cans and popped it open. A snap. A fizz. A mess.
Shane is making space for Ilya.
(or, lessons in budget-friendly shopping, home decor, and resisting the urge to neatly combine all your situationship’s shit into a drawer in your bedroom because you might be falling in love with him: a seven-ish step guide by shane hollander, who is so, so fucked)
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- English
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- 31,048
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Bookmarked by thatheller101
25 Dec 2025
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Ilya's reaction to Shane fighting Scott Hunter after the game in 1x03, and the following text conversation. Let's just say Ilya is turned on by the angry kitten on the ice.
Ilya's POV.
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25 Dec 2025
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Fallen from Grace by clockwrkpendrxgon
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
22 Dec 2025
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It all happens so quickly. One moment Shane is chasing one of the Voyageurs with Ilya speeding up ahead so they are basically trapping the other player, and the next he is watching Ilya hurtling into the ground in a nasty fall.
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Or Ilya gets hurt on the ice, and Shane loses it.Bookmarked by thatheller101
25 Dec 2025
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make me sweat, make me hotter by bisexualbuckley
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Dec 2025
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Getting a text from Ilya after games was far from out of the ordinary.
Even still, Shane had never gotten a post-game text from Ilya quite like the one he got today:
'Do not shower. Not even deodorant. Go straight home. I am waiting for you.'
Shane isn’t sure what to say. But. This is his fiancé’s order. And his fiancé is basically never wrong about anything (not that Shane would ever let him know), especially when it comes to sex. The fact that Ilya is demanding he come home right away makes Shane smile to himself. Ilya is so sexy when he’s possessive and impatient. They haven’t seen each other in three whole weeks.
So, despite the fact that Shane pushed himself incredibly hard tonight, sweating up a storm as he won his team the game in OT, Shane doesn’t shower.
OR; ilya has a thing for the way shane's sweat smells. lucky for him, shane is kinda in love with this freak.
Bookmarked by thatheller101
25 Dec 2025