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    Shane tries to remember, peering into the darkness surrounding the car with a furrowed brow. It hurts to move, and he feels something warm and slick sliding down his cheek.

    More blood, his mind supplies rather unhelpfully.

    He was driving after dark, but he shouldn’t have been. He wasn’t supposed to be. They had all night together, so why is he here?

    I already chose you, Hollander.

    Shane inhales sharply as his mind slowly fills in the gaps in his memory. They fought. Ilya told him to leave. Shane did.

    And then he crashed.

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    20 Aug 2026

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    Ilya frowns. "Hollander, when I fuck people I am in the habit of getting them off. Surely you know this by now."

    "I— fuck, I'm not explaining this right." Hollander scrubs a hand down his face. "I do want to come, just not…" He gestures vaguely between them. "I want to kind of… train my body?"

    "Ah," Ilya says, a sly smile growing on his face. He backs Hollander up to the edge of the bed, his hands in his pockets."You want to take longer than thirty seconds, is that it?"

    He shoots Ilya a dirty look. "Fuck you, it's not thirty seconds."

    "This is true, sometimes it is a whole minute."

    Hollander gives him a shove. "You know what, maybe I don't want to fuck after all—"

    "No, no, is okay, I am only teasing," Ilya says soothingly. He presses their hips flush together, biting back a groan to find Hollander is just as hard as he is. "Is very hot, that you cannot control yourself around me."

    A shadow of uncertainty passes over Hollander's face. "I want to. Control myself." His tongue darts out to wet his lower lip. "So if I get close, I need you to stop."

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    19 Aug 2026

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    Yuna can’t help it. There’s just something about Ilya Rozanov that rubs her the wrong way.

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    17 Aug 2026

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    “I’m sorry,” Shane chokes, closing his eyes. Rozanov draws his hand, pulling Shane’s with it, to his face and wipes his cheeks.

    “There is nothing to be sorry for, любовь моя, it is okay,” Rozanov murmurs, tugging at Shane’s hair again. Shane exhales, letting him clean his cheeks. “You got overwhelmed, yes? It happens.”

    “I can’t be fucking normal,” Shane says quietly, whining, head falling back, pressing into Rozanov’s hand.

    “No, if you were fucking normal, you would not be my Shane.”

    // shane is a liar, and he's tired of it all. his life falls apart, and he finds that he doesn't actually mind.

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    15 Aug 2026

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    God only knows why he thinks it's appropriate to send what can only be considered borderline nudes to Shane, who is straight and in a committed relationship. Shane, again, tries to talk to Jessica about it, but she assures him that it's no big deal, plus, since they're gonna fuck this week, Shane might as well get comfortable looking at him.

    A small part of him takes it as permission. A larger part takes offense. Because why do Ilya's pictures, literally any of them, incite more reaction in Shane's body than any nudes he's gotten from a girl?

    Or: Shane's girlfriend wants to watch him get fucked by a man to spice up their relationship. Enter Ilya Rozanov.

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    10 Aug 2026