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    It's not just his separation from Ilya weighing on him. Shane feels off. Off in a way that he can't put his finger on it or express what feels wrong.

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    30 Jul 2026

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    "My wife thinks Hollander is pregnant."

    It comes off as lighthearted, and Ilya makes his decision before nodding hesitantly.

    "Da. I think so too," he whispers, petting Lolly's gold fur.

    Coach Wiebe blinks, also hesitant to go on before uttering out—"Oh. Really."

    "Problem is I do not how to tell him this."

    Or: Shane gets knocked up before they play on Ottawa together and refuses to deal with it. Ilya thinks he's doing the same thing.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    “Luch-Shane,” Ilya says, catching himself only at the last moment before he breaks their no pet names in the workplace rule. “Why don’t you get some air, yes? We can-”

    Shane’s anxiety takes a quick backseat to annoyance once more, at being handled like a child instead of a grown man, like he hasn’t been doing this just as long as Ilya, like he needs someone to tell him when to take a break.

    Like he deserved to have everything taken away from him because he couldn’t handle it to start with.

    “I’m fine,” he says, voice icy.

    The step he takes away is too big, farther than he meant to get from Ilya’s side, and the air between them feels both charged and icy.

    He isn’t quite bold enough to try and fix it.

    (shane is married and on the same team as his husband) (and all it cost him was his whole career and the life he spent years building beforehand) (but it's fine, really) (it's all so very, very fucking fine)

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    03 May 2026

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    Just as him and Ilya have finally got their shit together, Shane's world is turned upside down.

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    “What if it’s bad?”

    “Then it is bad.” Ilya says. “And then we deal with it.”

    “We?” Shane pulls back just enough to look at him.

    “Yes.” Ilya says, without hesitation. “This is very much we situation.”

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    22 Apr 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    21 Apr 2026