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Shoto was experiencing a particularly hard time with himself, strange, being in the dorms he was away from his family issues and being away from his dad left him with a shit ton of time for himself, more than he knew what to make of.
The class was given some time off after the mid-term exams, great more free time...
Shoto begun spending more time on social media, he created some accounts under a fake name thinking it wouldn't be smart to put his name out there already, his father raised him better, he could have ruined his image and damage his future career as the number one hero of Japan.
But the thing that quickly Shoto understood is that using a fake name gives you some power that no quirk can give you. He felt free, no one could judge him for what he said or did on social media, he soon found himself filling up all that free time that burdened him till then.
His name on all platforms was "icycold", his favorite one was definitely this new app that everyone was spending all day on, TikTok, well the girls in his class, Mina more than all of them, at least, Midoriya and Iida weren't much of a social media presence, Midoryia was always out practicing and Iida was either studying or patrolling on behalf of his family, Shoto wasn't interested in spending time with his old man so he really became an addict of social media having much to learn and having to make up for all the time he lost during his childhood.
He was spending a lot of time scrolling on his phone in his dorm room, he was alone at the dorm a lot since usually his classmates went home to meet with their families, well not the case here, at least no one bothered him out of his new comfort zone, he was learning new things about himself, and also that he was on the gay side of TikTok, good to know, apparently it was the funniest side of the app, and the straight side of it was composed of only dancing videos and cringy boys showing off.
After a couple of weeks of him being on the app he discovered he was most likely genderfluid, the term came across on his foryou page so much that he started looking things up and he decided that it really defined him, the new him, the side of himself that he was finally discovering, he was also pretty positive that he was gay but he was pretty scared at the idea of it, he felt this guilt inside of him, he tried to brush it off many times since but his father's lessons on how to become the number one hero and create an empire with a good wife after that came to him so much so that one day during lessons he was so deep in his own thoughts that he had to run to the bathroom to throw up.
Midoriya was sent to check on him by Aizawa right away, at this point Shoto was actively crying on the bathroom floor inside the stall he was in, "Todoroki, are you ok? Do you have a stomach ache? You want me to tell Aizawa? Or should I take you to Recovery Girl?"
Shoto couldn't stop crying, he was disgusted, he didn't know if he was repelled by the idea of having to have sex with a girl or if he was by himself, it was a lot to take on, it wasn't supposed to happen all at the same time, he wanted to have his free time, he wanted to be back in his dorm room, with his social media and be completely free to be whoever he wanted to be, being outside made him really anxious, it was like everyone around him knew, that he was different and he felt so scared, he was afraid, Shoto Todoroki, afraid, he could practically feel his father's hits on him for being weak, a disappointment.
"Shoto? You want me to call Mr. Aizawa for you? Are you ok? Please talk to me..."
"It's okay Midoriya, just give me a minute, I must have eaten something bad, it's just a stomach ache don't worry, please go back to class, I'll be right behind you"
"Are you sure, I heard you crying, if it's that painful shouldn't you go see Recovery Girl?"
The truth was a visit to the infirmary meant a notification to the parents of the visitor, it was the last thing Shoto wanted right now, it felt good not having anything to do with his old man, and he intended to keep it that way.
"No no, don't worry, I'm okay, I'll be right back to class, just give me a minute, could you tell Mr. Aizawa for me?"
"Sure...."
He wasn't satisfied with that answer, it was obvious but, it'll do for now, in fact as he heard the door close after Midorya he started to think what a shock it would be for his newfound friend to find out that he was gay.
he chuckled to himself for that and stood up to wash his face.
He went back to class, he felt all of his classmates' eyes on him but no one said a word, thank god.
That night while he was scrolling on TikTok in the comfort of his room, his safe place, he found out quite a few interesting things, he found out there was a whole fandom that shipped his father with Hawks, he lost his breath from laughing a couple of times scrolling on the fan made videos of the two, some with cheesy songs over their pictures together, some with fans who made up fake conversations that they think are definitely happening, or as they say, canon between the two, they talk about Hawks laying an egg, that was a new one, did he? Like is that even possible, isn't he technically....nevermind... it was all too funny to him, in some sort of way he was relieved that there were this sort of rumors of his father going around, plus it was waaay too funny.
That night he also discovered that the whole app was going nuts over this new account, a boy who only posted videos of himself without ever filming his face, his username was "spicy_TOP" he was really something else, he had videos of him dancing in front of a mirror almost naked, videos of him showing off, but he was different from other boys, he never once spoke in his videos, he always had a song in the background, he posted daily and as far as the comments go, he already had a good amount of followers who were trying to figure out who he was, people were speculating he was a pro hero because of his body, in fact, Shoto had to admit, he was very well equipped, he looked to be fairly short but thick and built in the right places, Shoto had to be lying if he said he didn't let an impression on him, he followed him and then went to sleep, it was already 1 am and it was a school night so.