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Nerves quaked Shinya's fingertips as he reached for the blindfold on the dresser. It was another hint, surely. Just one more thing on the trail of possessions Kaoru had been leaving out in the most unlikely of places. For months, he'd been finding these little things. A flogger, a pair of leather cuffs with D-rings in between to hold them together. Something that vaguely looked like one of those Native American hair holders that he damn well knew was far too large to hold hair and thus could only hold one thing. Rubber cock rings and a strange metal dual-cylinder thing that he'd had to go looking up to find out what it was (it had turned out to be a ball weight). These were the things Kaoru had been leaving for him to find. At first, it had seemed accidental... coincidental... but in no way purposeful. Until it had become a weekly affair. The same spot on the dresser that many times. And on the guest room dresser where he'd been staying for a while now, not on Kaoru's dresser in the guitarist's own room. Nope, no such thing.
Swallowing thickly, he put the blindfold back and then pushed the door shut with his foot, going to sit on the edge of the bed, his hands folded neatly in his lap. Miyu came up and flopped down on his feet, rolling over and lying there, looking pleased for a dog. Shinya released a strained sort of sigh. What was he going to do about this? He'd been through every scenario imaginable and he hated the idea of being dominated. He didn't want to be bound or gagged or tossed on the bed and fucked. Nothing about the whole situation felt right to him in the least. In fact, it was giving him anxiety every time he received such a hint now. It had to stop, but he just wasn't sure how to bring it up.
He lightly rolled his dog off of his feet and stood, grasping the blindfold in his hand and then reached behind his dresser mirror to grasp the ball weight. He'd kept that one too long to figure out what it was to be able to just set it out without raising suspicion he'd used it or something before putting it back. But now, determination drove him and he knew what he had to do. This was making him uncomfortable and he was sure Kaoru never meant for that to happen. They'd been together for going on two years now and Kaoru had been nothing but amazing and caring. Utterly careful about their relationship and how Shinya felt. There was zero way he meant to put him in this position, it was just a misunderstanding or something. That had to be it.
Shinya clutched the blindfold in one hand, the weight hidden in the other as he left the room, making his way down the hallway and into the kitchen where Kaoru was seated at the table, a mug of tea in one hand and what looked like official paperwork in the other. His glasses were settled on the bridge of his nose and he looked up, giving Shinya a small smile before it froze on his face, a worried look crossing over it as he took in how Shinya looked.
Before he could open his mouth, Shinya panicked and tossed the blindfold on the stack of papers on the table. The weight thumped down on top of them and he stood back, tucking his arms around his middle in a way that was as much protective as it was defensive or angry. He frowned at Kaoru. "I'm just going to put this out there because it's starting to get to me." Okay, so starting was the wrong word... had been, was already up under his skin, that was much more accurate, but he didn't say it. "I don't want to be dominated. All of this stuff... the idea of having it used on me does nothing but make me scared. I... I'm sorry." He took in a shaky breath as he watched Kaoru lower his papers to the table.
The guitarist looked between what had just been placed on the table and his boyfriend, who stood there basically trembling where he was rooted to the laminate tiles of the kitchen floor. Shame filtered through him as he removed his glasses, placing them on the stack of papers. The tea mug was pushed to the side, out of the way, as Kaoru stared hard at the offending objects in front of him. After a few moments, he huffed out a breath and shook his head. "I didn't want to dominate you," he returned mildly, a shrug of his shoulders accompanying the words. "That's never what I was trying to imply, though now that I think about it, I guess that wasn't real obvious, was it?"
Shinya shifted slightly, a frown tugging the lines of his lips downward. "What else could it mean? I looked it up... that's a ball weight, right? Like, you put the thing on your nut sack and it pulls it down."
Kaoru glanced down at the metal tube and then back up to Shinya. "Yes, that's what it is and what it does." He sat back, letting his arms drop across his abdomen. "But I never intended for it to be used on you."
Shinya gave him a confused sort of look, clearly not catching on as quickly as Kaoru would have liked. The guitarist shifted in his chair and reached to pinch the bridge of his nose for a few seconds. Once he'd wiped the corners of his eyes, he offered, "I wanted it used on me... by you. All of this stuff I've been leaving, I was trying to tell you what I wanted... done to me... without having to ask for it."
Shock and then surprise played across the drummer's face as he realized what exactly that meant. "Wait... you wanted me to... on you... but," his arms dropped from around his waist. "But we don't... you... I'm confused," he finally delivered bluntly. "I mean... I didn't think you wanted to actually have a- oh!" His mouth fell open slightly and then snapped shut as he swallowed hard, realization dawning on him. A few more seconds and then, finally, "You've wanted me to take control all this time... that's why we never got any further than I guided us in bed."
Kaoru gave Shinya a quick - if slightly sarcastic - upturn of his lips. "Exactly." He shifted, looking uncomfortable. "I've been trying to hint to you that I want you to... be a bit more... forward, for a while now. I've been ready to take that next step since last year, but I just didn't know how to tell you that I don't... uh," how was it that Die had laughingly put it again? "Pitch."
Shinya huffed out a laugh at the term, grabbing a chair and pulling it around to sit in front of Kaoru, reaching for one of his hands, lightly holding his fingertips. "How about next time something comes up, you don't drop things on my dresser and just... tell me. Bluntness is best in these cases, I think."
The guitarist gave a non-committal sort of sound and then shrugged.
"So you want these things used on you and you want me to give it to you then?" Relief slipped through Shinya as he finally spoke the words. All of those hints hadn't been directed toward his own body, but rather toward Kaoru's own. The other had wanted to be bound up, lashed, and fucked stupid while he had various torture devices attached to him. That was somehow incredibly okay with Shinya, whereas having it done to him had been terrifying.
"Yes. Or... at least... take me. I've been wanting it so bad," Kaoru admitted, his fingers lightly squeezing Shinya's own. "It's getting difficult to stop myself from just going for it when we're together."
Shinya made a little sound and then looked up at Kaoru, a smirk on his lips. "How would you have gone for it? Tell me what you've debated in your most desperate of moments."
Kaoru focused on a point to the left of Shinya's feet as he spoke. "While you were blowing me, I've debated everything from pushing you down and climbing on your dick to begging you to give it to me. I've tried to excite you and make you want me like that so often and it didn't work... that I was honestly certain we just both wanted the wrong end of it and I was grasping at straws."
Things started to align in Shinya's head, the way Kaoru acted in the bedroom. The times he would passively lie there by his side and wait on him to make the first move even after having suggested they have sex. The way he'd seemed nearly desperate to suck Shinya's cock the first time they'd been together and how glorious it had been. Even the way Kaoru tended to want to stand in front of Shinya and then be held around the middle, his butt pushing back against Shinya's crotch. It hadn't been innocent pushing, obviously, but more of a hint as to what he wanted from the drummer.
"I'm sorry I didn't realize," Shinya murmured, his thumb stroking over the back of Kaoru's hand. "I should have." His gaze drifted down to the other's hand and then just beyond it, to Kaoru's crotch. Arousal slammed through him as he realized Kaoru was hard, his cock straining against his pajama pants in a nearly comical sort of way.
For a while, they said nothing, simply sitting there, Shinya caressing Kaoru's hand and Kaoru just silently waiting. And then Shinya cleared his throat. "This needs to be talked out then. I'm more than willing to have at you. I was honestly trying to compromise by being willing to receive, it's not the way I prefer. I made an assumption and I never should have. For that, I apologize." He squeezed Kaoru's hand lightly again. "But now I know."
Kaoru's gaze flickered up to Shinya's face for a few seconds, a small smile finding its way across his lips. "You're really okay with this? You're not angry?"
"Not angry. I wish you'd come to me about it rather than leaving surprises all over my dresser. I ask that next time you want something, just ask for it. I know it's hard, trust me... but there will be no miscommunication that way, no way to interpret it that makes either of us uncomfortable. And then, likely, you get what you wanted. Same goes for me, I don't hold you to standards I don't hold myself to."
Kaoru nodded. "Can do." He swallowed and then reached for his tea, downing a few gulps of the lukewarm drink before putting it back on the table and studying Shinya. "Here's a lot of blunt to make up for what I didn't say before, then. I want to be fucked. I've been craving you like that for long enough I actually went to buy a dildo... at a shop, not online." He gave Shinya an embarrassed sort of look. "I bought one that was as close to you as I could find and every single night I fuck myself with it, long after I'm sure you're asleep." He took a deep breath and let go of Shinya's hand, settling back, his erection on full display now that he was leaning back. "I want to be dominated in every way imaginable. From small things like sensory deprivation with just a blindfold or earplugs all the way to being whipped while tied to the shower bar, my balls weighted down and my cock in a cage. I want to be denied orgasm until I'm sobbing to be let have it and I want to have your cock brutally shoved down my throat until I'm gagging on it. String me up like those videos or just force me to do sexual favors for you. Humiliate me or deny me that. Force me to cum until I'm aching or deny me completely. I just want you in control in every single way and I want to feel your cock in me at least the first few times." His hips arched and he looked down at his straining arousal, breathing out, "I could cum... it'd take so little right now, even just talking about it."
Shinya stood up, his gaze never wavering from Kaoru's cock. "Your bedroom. Now." With that, he took off down the hallway, going to the far end and entering Kaoru's bedroom instead of his own. Once the guitarist has followed, he gestured. "Leave the pants on, shirt off. Where do you keep all of these things you want used on you?"
Kaoru removed his shirt, tossing it into the laundry hamper and then knelt, opening the bottom drawer of his dresser and moving what looked like a pile of sheets, but was only two fitted sheets covering a plethora of items. "Mostly here. The dildo and lube and condoms, if needed, are in the dresser next to the bed."
Shinya studied the drawer and then knelt to look in it, rooting around until he found the cuffs. There was a matching collar attached and a length of chain to attach that had what were obviously nipple clamps on it. He was a bit surprised at his own desire to do this, but he just went with it. Gesturing at the bed, he commented, "Aren't I supposed to ask for a safe word or something?"
"Yes." Kaoru moved to the bed, crawling up on it and then flopping down on his stomach, arms behind him. "And if it's said, then all activity stops... both parties may use it, but generally the one being bound chooses so they will remember for sure."
"Then choose one." Shinya placed the items on the bed and pulled his tank top off, shoving his cotton night pants off and then reaching into the nightstand to get lube and the dildo, as well as a condom. Coming back behind him, he crawled up on the bed and waited there.
"Book," Kaoru finally responded. "Not too hilarious as to kill the mood if we just need a moment, but enough of a distance from anything we should be using to stop us in our tracks."
"Good choice," Shinya replied quietly, reaching to fasten Kaoru's wrist into the first cuff. He arranged the other's arms and then asked, "Is this okay?" At the other's nod, he fastened on the other and let the chains slide to the sides. Unfastening one side from the choker, he put that on Kaoru as well and then reattached it. "Requests?"
"Let me cum today... I've needed you so much, I don't think I could stop myself no matter how hard I tried."
Shinya reached for Kaoru then, helping him up onto his knees and then encircling him in his arms as he moved the chain around to his front, caressing one nipple into a tight bud before clamping it, Kaoru hissing. The second was attached much the same way, but was accompanied by Shinya's other hand caressing Kaoru's cock through his pants. "You've been so hard for me since we started talking about this. Even when you were ashamed to admit it, you were aching for it. Don't think I didn't notice."
An excited shiver rippled through Kaoru, his head falling back on Shinya's shoulder. "I'm nearly there already, Shin," he murmured. "I bet I could do it right now if you ordered it."
Shinya chuckled, squeezing the tip and then pulling down the front of his pants, letting his cock free to the air, fingertips caressing his balls instead. "Later, show me how the weights go on."
Kaoru's dick jumped, his breath hitching. "Yes."
"I don't want you to ever call me Sir or Master or any of that. Just Shin... the way you always have when we're in bed. It's our thing and I'd like to keep it that way."
Kaoru nodded and Shinya kissed his shoulder before sliding his hands around to push down the rear of his pants, moving to press against him, his cock sliding along the cleft of Kaoru's ass. Pleasure rippled through him and he realized just how much he'd desperately needed this. He took two handfuls of Kaoru's ass and squeezed hard enough to make the guitarist moan, his cheeks clenching and then his hips pushing back.
"I'm going to fuck you so hard." He pulled back enough to get the lube and study the dildo. It was roughly the same size as he was in both length and girth and a small smile tugged on his lips. Kaoru had wanted him so badly he'd gotten a plastic version to shove into himself every night. He'd just wanted to fuck, but not in the way Shinya had thought. It was a relief that they could do this, that everything was actually working out. And he honestly couldn't wait to have his dick buried in the other's body, to feel his heat and the tightness of his asshole clenching around his cock.
"How much prep do you do when you take this dildo?" Shinya breathed out.
"Just lube it and use it," Kaoru replied, his head falling down a bit, as though he were a bit ashamed.
A grin spread over Shinya's face. "You weren't lying about nightly, were you?"
"No."
Shinya caressed his ass and then slapped it hard, leaving behind a quickly reddening spot. Kaoru's hips jerked and he moaned as he tried to push backwards without falling over, clearly in need of more. Shinya delivered a few more sharp smacks as he drizzled lube over his own dick, watching it run down the shaft.
Shifting forward, he took hold of his dick, two fingers lightly pushing it down from where it had nearly been touching his belly to the angle he needed to enter Kaoru. "Steady yourself with your legs. Try to keep upright." He cupped the other's rear in one hand, pulling one cheek to the side slightly to reveal the tight bud he was aiming for and then rubbed his dick over it for a few moments. "You implied the condom was an option, is that true?"
"Yes. Oh god, please... please, Shin. I want it without if you're willing."
A small chuckle departed Shinya's lips as how quickly the desperation ramped in his lover. "Oh, you'll have it alright. I'll fuck you until you scream." His cock had barely even touched Kaoru's asshole again when the guitarist's breath hitched, a shudder running through him. A second later, he was moaning, his hips jerking as his cock twitched, spurting cum all over the bedspread.
Kaoru let out something close to a sob as the thick rivulets pulsed out across the fabric. "Couldn't," he choked out, "hold... it. S-Shin!"
Shinya took the opportunity to position himself again and then thrust in all at once as Kaoru's body relaxed. A near-scream issued from Kaoru, the other trembling in his arms as Shinya wrapped him up in them, his hips bucking against his rear, excitement taking hold in those seconds. He remembered his place in this whole thing and simply began to fuck him, taking what he'd wanted for far too long as he bucked against him. "Ah yeah, your ass, Kaoru... so tight around me even after cumming like that. You're so excited, still, aren't you?"
"Y-yes, Shin," Kaoru choked out.
"That's right... you're getting what you wanted now, aren't you? And I'm getting what I needed. My cock has been dying for this ass, to feel you clenched around me like this." His thrusts grew quicker. "Ah, Kaoru... god you're such a good fuck." He kept humping him, hips rutting against his ass as he held Kaoru crushed back against his chest. It felt so good, the other warm and snug around his cock. "Ah yeah... oh fuck."
Kaoru's cock was still rock solid, his balls tight up against his body, as though it understood he'd need to cum again and would be actually doing so. His nipples ached and his head swam with how quickly he was getting what he wanted. "Shin," he breathed out again, closing his eyes and completely surrendering himself to his lover's will.
Shinya just kept bouncing him on his cock, unwilling to stop once he'd started, the feeling of it too good to pass up. Though, slowly, he was straining more, the angle changing as his dick got even harder, edging him toward his own orgasm. He spread his legs a bit more and then really started to ram home into Kaoru's asshole, his dick slipping out a few inches and then shoving back in all the way to the very hilt each time. Kaoru started crying out and Shinya became more and more excited each time Kaoru vocalized. Shoving him forward a bit, he grabbed the chain between his wrists and held on as he fucked him hard and fast, nearly pulling all the way out and slamming back in, over and over.
And then Kaoru was clenching around his cock again, his asshole tightening as his body prepared for the next orgasm. "Do it," he hissed out, "fucking cum again. You know you like taking my cock so much you can't help but cum even though I'm not even touching your dick."
That was all it took, Kaoru's back going rigid and then his ass was spasming around Shinya's cock, signaling that he was shooting his load again.
Shinya rode him hard, one leg coming up to support him as he shoved his dick into the guitarist's asshole repeatedly. And then it was happening, his hips moving through sheer force alone as he started to lose it. He groaned out, "I'm filling you," as he shoved his dick in as far as he could and let himself empty there. Once he was done, he pulled out and shoved Kaoru forward, spreading his cheeks and watching as his hole clenched and unclenched. After a few more seconds, he grabbed the dildo and squirted some extra lube on it before ramming it into Kaoru's asshole, fucking him savagely with it as the other began to writhe and whine.
He watched as cum trailed down the back of Kaoru's sac, dripping down onto the bed to mix with both deposits Kaoru had already made. The other's dick was still hard and he finally reached around to start pumping it, jerking him off near furiously as he fucked his hole with the toy. "You know you can do it again. I've watched you multiple before with even just my hand when you're truly horny. I know you are now, your cock is still hard and your balls are tight. Your hips are pushing back toward me... so needy." He let go of his cock to roughly tug his balls, Kaoru finally nearly screaming, his hips jerking and his hands curling into fists behind his back. "More! Please!"
"Please what?"
"Please, Shin!"
Shinya yanked again and then captured them in his hand, squeezing as hard as he dared without doing something bad to them, mostly abusing the sac and not his actual nuts. He yanked every few seconds and then pulled them back toward his rear, watching his dick as he shifted the angle of the toy. Once he received the first twitch of his cock, he pummeled the toy against that spot, Kaoru's dick jerking and straining, the tip ruddy, precum leaking from the tip in a thin, unbroken strand all the way down to the bed. He fucked him harder with it and Kaoru's breath caught, actual cum spilling out each time he struck the guitarist's prostate with the dildo, just running down the strand hanging from his dick.
With a final yank, Shinya let go of his balls and reached for his dick again, jerking him off quickly until Kaoru sucked in a breath and then let out a thin, strained sound, his dick spasming in Shinya's hand as he started to spurt, the remaining cum shooting from him, soaking the rest of the bedspread.
Shinya pulled the toy out and pushed his cock back in within a matter of seconds, pushing Kaoru down against the bed, flat into his mess. He straddled his ass, legs on either side of his hips as he rutted hard and quick against him. "Never seen... someone... cum... so fucking much!" He fucked harder against him and then strained and groaned, his second orgasm rippling through him as he deposited it deep in Kaoru's ass. "Kaoru," he hissed out, his ass clenched tight and his hips shoved all the way forward as he just remained there, filling the other.
Finally, blessedly, his orgasm subsided and he pulled out, some of his cum sliding back out with him. He eased himself back and unfastened the cuffs first, massaging Kaoru's wrists with trembling fingers. "I'm shaking I came so hard." He breathed out a laugh as he leaned over and reached for the nipple clamps, sliding his hand under Kaoru and easing them off.
Kaoru reached one hand back and held Shinya there. "Stay like that, please... just for a few minutes. Just need... that," he muttered out into the pillow.
"Whatever you need from me, just ask," Shinya returned, unfastening the choker and tossing the whole thing over the side of the bed. He curled his body protectively over Kaoru's own, arms sliding around under him and remaining there.
"Just... stay," came the soft reply.
"As long as you need me to, I will." Shinya rested his head against the curve of Kaoru's shoulder blade, a satisfied smile on his lips. "This was perfect, you know."
"Yeah... it was." Kaoru's hand reached to lightly push over Shinya's hip, just barely grazing it due to the position. "Next time, let me cling to you while you do it where I can watch your face..." It was a quiet sort of request, one spoken without hesitance, but more with the authoritative air that he usually held and Shinya knew he was piecing himself back into place even as they spoke.
"Definitely." Shinya breathed out, "I may have a thing or two up my sleeve to request we try at some point. You're not the only one who's been holding back in this department."
Kaoru tsked and then chuckled. "You'd think two grown men would communicate better."
"And you'd be wrong apparently." Shinya smirked and then tacked on, "But now we will. Also... just ditch the condoms. I couldn't give a damn about using one. We've been together for a long time and I like filling you up."
"Pervert." Kaoru lightly tapped his hip. "Okay... let me up."
Shinya rolled off of him, already feeling himself slipping back into his usual demure self with the action, now that he had helped Kaoru through putting himself back together. He closed his eyes and threw an arm over them, cheeks heating up just a tad. He'd never have thought he would have been dominating Kaoru and he'd certainly enjoyed it more than he'd have thought. A little smile remained on his lips as his body relaxed.
This... was the life.
The End