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Kaoru has a secret to tell Toshiya. Toshiya is surprisingly receptive to it, but he’s also absolutely conflicted.
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- Part 2 of Haiiro no Ginka
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“I can take the dare,” Die said — and immediately made it everyone’s problem.
A party game turns into a public make-out session.
Kyo leaves. Kaoru follows.
The music keeps blasting in the background of poor life choices.Twenty years after ending a situationship they never learned how to talk about, Die and Toshiya blow up their hard-won normalcy and tumble headfirst into a middle-aged reckoning with desire, regret, and everything they buried.
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Sinopse: Kyo aos poucos está se adaptando a presença da pequena garotinha em sua vida, e planeja com Kaoru mostrar a pequena como é um dia de neve.
Dia 2 - Primeiro dia de neve
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- Part 2 of The Rainbow Road
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The toxic relationship that Kyo and Kaoru have comes to a tragic end.
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- Part 1 of Haiiro no Ginka
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What is believing? by raynesevenx
Fandoms: Dir en grey, Sukekiyo (Band), Petit Brabancon (Band)
13 Dec 2025
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They live apart. They rarely share a bed. Only occasionally, one comes over to the other’s - though kisses are scarce and physical touch limits itself to idle closeness, proximity more so than deliberate gestures. The arrangement works, safe, steady, content.
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Self-inflicted, the pain feels different. Not quite a drug, yet not healthy, either, it balances between madness and sanity, offering just enough comfort to lean into.Glimpses of Kyo and Toshiya's unconventional relationship forming, as they see it, as they know it, as they live it.
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Feloidea; eine Gesellschaft innerhalb einer Gesellschaft, die weder Gewalt, noch juristischen Mord scheut.
Eine Erkrankung die als Metapher für all das steht, was Kyo seit vielen Jahren plagt. Er lebt zwischen den Extremen, denn er ist selbst ein Extrem. PTBS und Dissoziationen vollziehen in seinem Leben einen gefährlichen Tanz, welcher ihn einfach nicht loslässt. Eine anhaltende Zerreißprobe für ihn und die Band.
Dass er sich, während der Amerikatour 2011, mit dem Feloidea-Virus ansteckt, krönt das Chaos was er 'Leben' nennt und zieht brutale Konsequenzen nach sich.Es geht um die Frage, was von der eigenen Menschlichkeit übrig bleibt, wenn jedes Stück des fragmentierten Ichs, von einer gnadenlosen Krankheit korrumpiert wird. Eine Krankheit, welche ein Eigenleben zu entwickeln scheint und selbständig entscheidet, wen sie akzeptiert und gegen wen sie Gewalt anwendet.
Wenn man gefangen ist, zwischen dem eigenen stagnierenden Wahnsinn und dem Irrsinn, in den sich die Realität verwandelt.
Eine ausführliche Psychoanalyse und Gesellschaftskritik, getarnt als Horrorthriller, in dem sich der eigentliche Albtraum im zwischenmenschlichen Chaos des Hauptcharakters abspielt. -
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die and kyo struggle with bad habits. Die keeps hiding bottles and kyo hides razors. they try to help each other despite falling face first into their addictions once again.
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Sometimes life hits in ways you don’t see coming.
Kyo has built a reputation for living honestly and recklessly, yet he’s carried a secret for years: He’s gay.
In his younger days, he pushed away the only man he loved out of fear. Now, years later, he finds himself a father. But when the unexpected leaves him raising his child alone, Kyo turns to fragments of Haruka’s life through her journal entries. In doing so, he begins to see both her and himself more clearly.
Along the way, Toshiya, his bandmate and first love, becomes an unexpected anchor, despite how things ended between them in the past.
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Kaoru has been secretly in love with Toshiya for ages. And although he has tried to forget about it, his feelings are boiling up again, causing confusion everywhere.
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Kyo's gaze lingers on the sonogram briefly before he hands it over.
Toshiya takes the photo, the first tangible proof of this new world order. Numbly, he absorbs the nebulous shape. It seems completely alien and deeply personal all at once: a part of him, cocooned in the mystery of Kyo's body. An impossible conception.
His brain is fizzling at the edges. He's got to be the unluckiest gay man on the planet.
Or, Toshiya's life takes a wild turn when, against every law of nature, he ends up knocking up his male bandmate. Juggling that with a new relationship with someone else, 'complicated' doesn't begin to cover it. Rock, meet a really weird hard place.
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“What do you even get when you mix purple and yellow?”
“You get brown.”
“So the color of shit, then?” He laughed. “Guess we are shitty together.”
“No, Kyo. I don’t think so at all. And you don’t just get the color of feces - you also get chocolate, and coffee. Tree trunks, owls, grizzly bears and eggs. Soil and sand and acorns. For me it’s a warm color. A color of nature and stability. Of life…things being born.” Kaoru licked his lips. “It’s also the color of your eyes. I’ve always thought you had such beautiful, brown eyes. I get lost in them all the time- even on the day I first met you.”
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Kaoru and Kyo became an unexpected pair of friends when they were in school. But when Kyo’s bullying became too much, he left without a word; leaving Kaoru hurt and confused.
Four years later, in December of 1995, they meet again. The connection they shared is still the same, almost like no time had passed at all. But they both have so much left unsaid, and although Kaoru wants nothing more than to be with Kyo, he’s dating someone else.
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It's 1998 and the members of Dir en grey have just finished recording Akuro no oka with Yoshiki at his Los Angeles studio. Before going back to Japan, they visit Yoshiki's mansion for a truly unforgettable Thanksgiving.
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Turning aimlessly by dircuntgay
Fandoms: Dir en grey, Sukekiyo (Band), Compilation of Final Fantasy VII, GOT7
27 Nov 2025
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A visitor came up to him to make a deal for some coke. “I saw you had some coke, is that right?” The mysterious man had a lady who brought him his drink.
“I see you got a beautiful Japanese doll on your shoulder.” “Is she available?” Kyo smirked at her.
“Yes but she’s a real deal alright!” The tough old man said. He had a slim body, dark medium length hair and a cyborg arm that could easily hurt Kyo. He was small but actually tough. “My name is Jackson Wang. I heard you had some fine quality drugs and hopefully, parts for my arm.” “Is that so?” Jackson smashed his cyborg arm on the rounded table feeling like the floors shook.
“I do have things you are looking for but I can exchange for that pretty woman instead of money.”
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Years after Die left Toba to chase fame, Shinya drifts through the ocean haunted by the mortal he cannot forget—until the mysterious Oracle of the Deep offers a chance to reclaim love, at a price that could cost him everything.
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Kyo is a mentally ill father living in stability for the first time in his life. Slowly, however, he starts to notice something eating away at him: an itch he cannot quite scratch under his wife’s ever-judgmental gaze. One day, the truth spills from the cracks, and his hard-earned stability is violently ripped away from him – as well as Mayu, his precious daughter.
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addendum (plural addenda or addendums)
1. Something to be added; especially text added as an appendix or supplement to a document.
2. A postscript.
Or: The story of Kouyou, eighteen, finding his calling in life.
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- Part 2 of In Absentia
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Kaoru and Kyo celebrate their birthdays together as every year. Partly, because it’s convenient, partly, because Kyo doesn’t understand why he should celebrate being alive. He doesn’t understand why this is something happy, and he doesn’t understand why Kaoru is happy that he’s there, getting older. Together, at least, at least that, they managed over the years.
And so, they take little excursion to the beginnings of their relationship, where their feelings first settled their roots. -
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November 1995
Die is an aspiring guitarist working at Ishibashi Music Center when he meets Kaoru, an ambitious newcomer chasing his dream in the visual kei scene. What starts as a casual connection quickly grows into a powerful bond that blurs the line between friendship and hopelessly romantic.
When the two join a band with three others, the pressures of ambition, identity, and desire begin to test their relationship. In a scene where image is everything, Die must decide what truly matters.
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"No, really. When was your last date? Did you ever have one?"
Unexpected conversations in the recording studio lead Kaoru to try online dating on Toshiya's advice in order to bring a new woman into his life. Of course, his bandmates are happy to help, because they're curious anyway, and maybe their good old bandleader needs help... What could possibly go wrong?
This fanfiction is based on the TV show Catfish.
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Everything about this was different for Kaoru.
A crush was so unlike him.