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He never notice when his obsession began.
At first it was a simple crush, endeared by the small teasing and the lazy smiles sent his way. He had thought little of it and continued on his duties, thinking it was merely a temporary affection and he would soon move on from the feeling.
Yet the feeling continued to grow as days pass by. He started to treasure the few moments he share with him and even sometimes when they are separated, his heart would ache from longing for the presence of the other. He would always let out a small hidden smile when Wei Ying joke about something or make a dramatic tantrum. He feel warm and happy being on his side.
It confused him so much.
It was the first time he felt this kind of longing even when his mother was still alive, he never did. It was a new feeling, something that he never felt before.He wanted to ask his brother for guidance but soon shot down the idea when the possibility of getting tease is high. So he buried the emotion inside him and ignored it, hoping that maybe someday it would leave.
Months pass by in a jiff.
The buried emotion grew even more until its unrecognisable,. It twist and twist endlessly, becoming something more horrifying. When he first tasted it, it had tasted sweet yet bitter on his mouth, making him want to vomit but at the same time relishingly shove it down to his throat.
Dread crawled inside him as he began to dream of things he shouldn't.
Sometimes he would dream of him in his side as they snuggle while the sky on top of them began to dim. Sometimes, he like to think on what it feels to wake up to see the bright affectionate grin sent on his way, to wake up with warm hands embracing him. It fills him with love the same way it fills him with dread.
The new feeling has blossomed even more. Jealousy, possessiveness, and other inappropriate emotions came up one by one the more time he spends with his Wei Ying. His heart had long abandoned his clan, his uncle, his brother, and the rules he had followed ever since his birth. Now it only whispers the same name over and over again.
(Wei Ying, Wei Ying, Wei Ying...)
It reminds him of his father and what he became. His father who caged his mother out of love (obsession). His father who clipped his mother's wings in order to keep her for himself. Wangji doesn't want to become like his father. He doesn't want to bring grief to his beautiful Wei Ying's perfect face.
But he was powerless against the desire to his claim Wei Ying. To have him by his side always without a fight. To have him on his warm embrace.
He would wonder how beautiful his Wei Ying would look on a red bride dress. How he would look when he and Lan Wangji kneeled on front of his elders. How he would look when he would ravish him, to hear him scream his name, Lan Wanji's name, may it be from pleasure or from pain.
He can't feel nothing anymore. He couldn't see nothing but his Wei Ying. He couldn't hear nothing but his Wei Ying. He only saw his Wei Ying, his beautiful Wei Ying, his pure hearted Wei Ying. All the other thoughts left his mind and now the only thing that occupies it are his Wei Ying.
He watched everyday. When his Wei Ying wakes up, when his Wei Ying bath, When his Wei Ying sleeps. He was always there watching with lust and obsession. Mouth watering at the sight that was feed to him. It makes him want to ravish him now but he was a patience man. He can wait as long as he can have him.
Another month pass by.
Wangji was patient when he created his plan. Although It pains him to leave his beloved's side, it was necessary. They will sleep side by side anyways. There's plenty of time after his plan came into fruition.
He just have to wait.
He didn't have to wait long when his plan came into fruition.
He had many things that he had to sacrifice. Many people who had cared for him when his young to eliminate. It hurt him but it was necessary. Wangji has to cut them down before they could even try to keep him and beloved apart.
How beloved was horrified. It was a reaction Wanji expected so he wasn't that surprised. He merely brush of the profanities sent his way, not even bothering to show guilt or remorse.
The indifference only angered his Wei Ying more which resulted on Wangji on knocking him out cold. He carried the smaller boy on his arms carefully as he walk out of Cloud Recesses while leaving bloody footprints.
No one hindered their way as no one was there.
His beloved had screamed himself awake when they arrive at his new home. Eyes bloodshot and full of hate when he glared at Wangji. He screamed and screamed, voice breaking.
"Why?!"
Wei Wuxian's screamed. His face were a mix of pain, anger, and grief. His usual bravado gone as he collapsed down the floor. He was a sobbing mess ( "a beautiful mess" Wangji's mind supplied).
Wangji's impassive facade fell from his face.
He smiled coldly
"It's all for you.."
He replied.
...
When Wei Wuxian, his Wei Ying fell on his embrace, his chest were steady. His skin was cold and pale but Wangji wasn't bothered about it the slightest. He merely embraced the freezing body and closed his eyes. A smile gracing his lips.
Finally.
He has his whole world on his embrace.
........
Wangji held his Wei Ying by his side for years before he decide to became one with him. It took him days as he wanted to savor his Wei Ying's taste, to savor the taste of his beloved, the taste of love.
And then they became one.
Blood splattered beneath his knees as he raised his sword high and took his last breath.
Wangji were content.